June 2004.

Fifth Avenue in Manhattan, New York, is full of skyscrapers, spacious, clean streets with more cars than there are to count as many yellow taxis, and the equally wide sidewalks are full of pedestrians, elegant street signs, antique lamps hanging on the street walls, and the smell of bread baking wafts in the wind......

The blonde girl looked around as she walked, and kept sighing in her heart, what is a metropolis, I really saw it today.

It was her first time in New York, and at her behing, her mother took her on a short-term summer vacation, the first day of the week. It's one thing to see New York in images and pictures, it's another thing to walk in New York entirely.

Even the zebra crossings and traffic lights are so beautiful......

"Oh!!"

"Jane!?"

When she walked across the zebra crossing to walk onto the sidewalk, Jennifer kicked on the edge of the sidewalk and lifted the other foot, and her body suddenly threw herself forward. Hearing her daughter's screams, Karen turned her head to look, but she didn't have time to hold her, and almost instantly watched her daughter's whole person fall to the street with her face on the ground.

Passers-by exclaimed, and after lying down for two or three seconds, Jennifer jumped up like an electric shock and shouted, "It's okay, I'm okay!"

She shook her aching left ankle slightly, and her pretty face flashed with pain.

"Are you okay?" no one cared about her except her mother. Jennifer forced a smile and said, "I suddenly want to kiss New York, hehehe, it's okay." ”

In her hometown of Louisville, Kentucky, where the sidewalks and zebra crossings are flat and next to the weeds, she was born and raised there, and she never felt like she had to lift her feet when she walked on the sidewalk.

Look at the tall buildings that can reach the whole town, in New York, in the "outside world", everything is completely different.

The pain in her ankle made Jennifer's mind churn, some thoughts were in the past, some thoughts were born. She suddenly felt that the troubles in the country town, the troubles in the school, were nothing, all nonsense.

Because she doesn't belong there, Jennifer Sherad Lawrence doesn't belong in Louisville......

It's just going to kill her, living a routine life, high school, college, maybe not going to college and going to be a cowgirl, and what bull riding competition will she participate in in the future...... Stupidity. Look at these light-footed New Yorkers, elegant and beautiful New York girls, look at the lifestyles of these people, their experiences, their passions.

How can there be a country in the country? The country is nothing but the same.

"Mom. Jennifer's voice, which was already slightly hoarse, is now even more shaky: "New York has changed me, and I can feel it, it's changing me." ”

"It's still early. Karen smiled indifferently and said that she managed a children's summer camp in her hometown, and she was used to seeing urban children experience rural life and say how interesting and how it was changed.

As a mother, natural encouragement is the mainstay: "Different environments will change people, urban children will be changed by the countryside, and rural children will be changed by the city." Jane, we're no worse than New Yorkers. ”

"I don't hate my hometown, I just ......," Jennifer said as she walked, looking at the street. Those luxurious goods in the shop window? Not those. She vaguely understood, and said, "We don't have any possibilities there, but there are possibilities here, as if... Life can be extraordinary. ”

"You love New York, and then you come here to go to college. "Karen is encouraging again.

Jennifer was silent, and she really wanted to move to New York right now and start her own adventure. But I don't know what I should do, in what way, or what kind of life do I want to pursue?

She hopes to find the answer before she leaves New York.

But I didn't expect the answer to come so quickly, when I visited the Museum of Modern Art on 53rd Street between Fifth and Sixth Avenues, where Jennifer watched the Great Actress series and saw performances by Sarah Bernhardt (1844-1923) and Elenona Doese (1858-1924).

They are all recognized as great actresses of their time, different performing factions, and equally great.

That greatness touched Jennifer's heart and made it beat violently, not only with a new or long-buried passion, but also with a possibility.

In her hometown, although she did well in school and felt that her personality was boring, she was not a nerd, she participated in cheerleading, hockey, softball, and worked as a local model, but none of them interested her to continue.

And the performance that she hasn't tried yet is now making her heart beat in a mess.

That night, she and her mother went to the Winter Garden Theater on Broadway to see a musical "Mamma Mia", and while laughing, she looked at the people who were called "actors", as if there was nothing remarkable, it was a work done by people.

She is not the most beautiful in her hometown, but she has not been said to be ugly, she is very beautiful! Before her 14th birthday, she has grown very tall, and according to the appearance of her parents, her figure in the future will definitely not be bad. So she feels that she has the qualifications of an actor, and as for acting... Then you can start learning, and there is nothing that you can't learn.

On the second night of coming to Manhattan, Jennifer and her mother went to the movie theater because of the leaping heart. It's no different from her hometown, so much so that she has a sense of "movies are fair", and of course Louisville also has a movie theater, although it is small, and most of the movies shown in New York can be seen.

She likes movies, she should be considered a movie fan, at least a big fan of Meryl Streep and Jeff Bridges, "Murder of Green Toes" is one of her favorite movies, she laughs once she watches it, she likes "The Last Movie", she likes "Harold & Maud", she likes "Haw Par Bully", Robert Redford and Paul Newman are so handsome.

If you become a movie actor yourself, why haven't you thought about it before?

There are many movies shown at AMC Studios, such as "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban", Emma Watson is the same age as her, but she is already a big star and lives a colorful life, and another blockbuster "The Day After Tomorrow", the heroine Amy Rosen also starred in the movie version of "The Phantom of the Opera", and she suddenly thinks "What the hell have you been living all this time?"

There are several new films this week, "Star Saga 2", "Garfield", "Copy Wife", and a spoof comedy "The Wedding is Coming" that has been released.

She just heard about this movie and its behind-the-scenes story, God! This sensational miracle in the United States made her a little dumbfounded, 16 years old? director, producer, screenwriter, starring? She is talking about the 16-year-old film genius who realized the American dream, Ye Wei.

The theater was almost full, and as the film was screened, the audience burst into bursts of laughter, and the mother laughed too, and she herself laughed again and again, and when the How-deep-is-your-love came to an end, the laughter of the audience boiled.

Looking at the handsome and funny "wedding god" on the big screen, Jennifer suddenly felt chills all over her body, forgot to blink her eyes, and looked around! This is a 16-year-old boy who overcame many difficulties to create, he is becoming a supernova in the United States, living a different life from ordinary people.

What is everyone doing in school? What about her? A bunch of fools, how did she survive?

Ye Wei, she suddenly envied him so much, admired him, seemed to be inspired, and she had indeed become another person's fan.

But she also felt a sense of panic that she didn't live in Los Angeles or New York, and she didn't go to one of those prestigious private schools...... What happens to you when you're 16? a mediocre country blonde kitten?

No...... That's horrible!

became a movie actor, and one day cooperated with a genius like Ye Wei to make a movie, and then let the entire screening hall and thousands of audiences cheer for him. It's also about living a life that you want to live without being boring, and challenging those things that are difficult and impossible.

That's the answer.

If you're in your hometown, you can only think about it, if you're in New York and Los Angeles, anything is possible.

......

A week later, the short trip to New York came to an end, and Jennifer and her mother were going back to their hometown as planned.

She didn't want to leave and didn't want to leave like that, she wanted to stay in New York for the whole summer and try to find opportunities. Her family is a middle-class family, not rich but not poor, and it is no problem to find a cheaper apartment to live in New York for a month or two. And she had a cold, so it's not a good thing to fly around to get used to the temperature change.

"I'm going to get pneumonia, so I'm going to stay in New York for the summer. Jennifer made trouble with her mother again, and begged again: "Mom, promise me, promise me!"

However, no, it's not that my mother doesn't want to agree to her, something happens to the summer camp and she has to go back. In a complicated mood, she returned to her hometown in the countryside with her mother.

From the metropolis back to the remote town, the farm and summer camp are not far away, and the neighing of cows and horses can be faintly heard. I have to walk there every day when I go to school, and I didn't feel anything before, but now my mind is full of New York, Los Angeles, and acting in movies...... How are you going to live this day?

Even the originally elegant bedroom looks shabby, and everything is different.

Although the cold did not cause pneumonia, Jennifer felt very sick, and for several days she lay almost motionless on the bed in her bedroom, thinking a lot. She propped herself up in the middle of the night and went to the computer and searched the Internet for "how to become an actor", "acting", "New York talent agency", ......

After a week, Jennifer's cold was cured, and during this time, her good friends came to play with her, and she said to everyone: "I want to move to New York to live and develop, not now, but one day I will, this is my goal in life." ”

Every friend said, "Okay, support you." She could even hear their teasing voices behind her back, "Jane is in a daze again." ”

No matter what others say, her heart to be an actor is already firm and unwavering!

Before dinner that day, while the whole family was in the dining room, Jennifer solemnly stood on a dining chair, looked at the four family members at the table, father and mother, and the two uneasy brothers Ben and Brian, and announced seriously: "Everyone, I want to announce one of my decisions, I want to be a movie actor, I want to move to New York! ”

There was silence in the dining room, until the eldest brother Ben said in confusion, "Didn't you say you wanted to be a cowboy before?" The second brother Brian suddenly laughed......

"Your sister has always had a lot of ideas!" said Gary Lawrence, who hurriedly wanted justice, and didn't want to eat dinner before the conflict broke out.

"It's not a cowboy. Jennifer didn't want to meet her second brother in general, so she said loudly: "An actor is me! I watched some acting studies, and found it very interesting, and I was very interested." I have a plan!" she held up her hands to indicate that it was a big plan: "First of all, I learned some acting basics and was ready to interview with the agency, and then, my mother took me to New York to look for an agent, and I had the ability to sign an agent." After signing with the agent, it's time for the audition. ”

The more she talked, the more she looked forward to and excited: "There are so many movies, we participate in auditions diligently, and I will always win, right, maybe I will win a heroine in the first audition." She couldn't help but laugh, but the laughter gradually stopped because of the awkward atmosphere.

Looking at Jane, whose eyebrows were fluttering, Ben and Brian were not smiling, nor were they smiling, and they froze there.

Gary Lawrence said, "Okay. Karen didn't say anything.

"It's a plan that really works. Jennifer has done a lot of research and is confident when she talks about it, showing why she was voted "Most-Talkative" by the class at school, and she couldn't stop talking: "Even if you can't win the lead actress, the supporting actress is always okay, right? I'm pretty too, right?" She twisted her posture a few times and continued: "I'm not stupid, and I will improve if I fail, so it is only a matter of time before I get the role." As it is said on the Internet, everything is difficult at the beginning, and every role is a good opportunity, when I play the first role well, will the second role and the third role be far away? I will still meet those people in the industry, maybe one day...... VIY?"

She couldn't help laughing again: "It's the genius Ye Wei who has been very popular recently, "The Wedding is Coming." Then I will live the life of an actor. Movie star?" she thought for a moment before she said, "Maybe, but I really can't imagine what it's like to be surrounded by people for a meal, I may not like it, but I don't like it even more." ”

Because of the silence in the dining room, Jennifer stopped talking again and looked at the people who didn't speak, "Say something?

"Jane. Karen finally spoke, the whole family watched her stand up, her mother is the backbone of the family, Jennifer was suddenly nervous, and saw her mother smile and said, "If you want to be an actor, then try to be an actor! Your plan is very good, and your mother supports you!" Gary Lawrence laughed.

"Wow!!" Jennifer exclaimed excitedly, standing on the chair and dancing: "When I get the Oscar, I'll put the trophy in our dining room, hahaha!"

"Okay, support you. The second brother clapped his palms, "Are you finished?" ”

"Support you. Ben shook his head slightly, a little girl with New York disease.

What is New York disease? It's when you go to New York and you fall in love with it, and you feel like you're a character, but it's not bullshit. You want to stay there, go there, and no matter what, end up back in your hometown and ready to participate in your bull riding competition.

......

Santa Monica, Los Angeles, June 2005.

In the waiting area outside the audition, a group of more than 20 young girls sat on chairs waiting for the audition, and their assistants, family members and other entourages were also waiting. Some people are playing with their mobile phones, some people are reading magazines, closing their eyes and recuperating, touching up their makeup, and being in a daze...... There was no talking, it was very quiet.

"Hi... I'm Jennifer Lawrence. Not long after Jennifer sat down, the silence around her made her irritable today, so she whispered hello to the brown-haired girl next to her. The other party glanced at her, withdrew his gaze without saying anything, and continued to read the magazine.

She sighed in her heart, she had known this for a year, here, they were all wooden people, and so was herself.

It's been a year, except for signing an ordinary New York agency, the plan has stalled, and I went to New York, Los Angeles, and Toronto, auditions again and again, and failed again and again. If it weren't for the full support of my family, I wouldn't be able to hold on to it now.

Now she knows that she is nothing special, and that continuous failure does not necessarily lead to success in the end, and there are thousands of people like her, and there are more than 20 around her, competing for a small role in a TV movie.

Her idol Ye Wei is filming the dreamy "Little Sunshine Beauty", and she doesn't know if she is an actor or not, an actor without any acting experience......