Chapter 156: Speechless, choking, like a cut
But standing next to An Lan, who woke up, I completely woke up, the so-called love between me and Jia Qing is just a firework that is easy to cold, after a moment of beauty, everything is calm and vanished, and what really firmly occupies the place of my soul in my heart is still An Lan, it is An Lan.
At this moment, I don't know how to explain to An Lan, how to confide my heart to An Lan.
An Lan couldn't bear to see me crying, he struggled to get out of bed to wipe my tears, but because his body had not fully recovered, he almost fell to the ground.
I was taken aback by this scene and hurriedly approached him to stop him from getting out of bed further.
"Anlan, don't move, listen to my sister's words, and recuperate in bed for a few more days, I believe you will be able to walk on the ground soon."
Seeing that I walked to his side, Anlan grabbed my hand firmly without hesitation, and he used his sleeve to wipe my tears for me with pity.
"Lingyun, don't cry, my dear, don't cry, it's all my fault, I swear that I will get better as soon as possible, accompany you all over the cape, accompany you to watch the sunrise and sunset, accompany you to see the moon and stars and the most beautiful scenery in the world.
Ling Yun, from now on, don't let me ask you to call me sister anymore, I am no longer the ignorant child in your eyes, I have woken up, and I have thought a lot about our past. ”
Anlan pulled me closer to him, trying to hug me in his arms, but how could I let him act so intimately.
I heartbroken and rejected him, "Anlan, don't, this is the hospital, it's not good to be seen." "All of a sudden, I don't know how to open my mouth to tell An Lan about this complicated matter, to say that his favorite girlfriend has empathized and married someone else.
I am afraid that he has just begun to recover from his illness, and when he hears the news, he will not be able to bear this terrible blow.
"Let's eat, Anlan, insist on drinking this bowl of porridge, I believe you will be able to walk on the ground soon."
You've been lying down for so long, eating liquid food all day, you should be hungry, and when you slowly recover, I will personally cook you your favorite meal. ”
"Yes, yes! I knew that you loved me the most, and then I would eat the braised carp you made. By the way, you also have to eat cumin mutton ....... ”
When it came to food, this foodie who woke up immediately calculated what kind of delicious food he wanted me to make for him.
An Lan's request is not excessive, I can only silently keep it in my heart to agree to him and meet his trivial requests.
He had lost so much, the most precious thing in his life, and now he was still in the dark, completely unaware.
Because I gradually recalled my past with him, his eyes were full of love and sweetness, and the way he looked at me, he revealed irrepressible happiness, which was so affectionate.
And I, looking at these changes in An Lan's expression, had to play a clumsy role, but my acting skills were not very good.
At this moment, I want to hide quietly alone, cry out loud, and then think about what I should do next.
Right now, all I can do and what I can do for Anlan is to feed him and do some trivial things for him.
My body is trying to escape his enthusiasm, but in my heart, countless unyielding voices are protesting: Lingyun, you still love An Lan, you still love An Lan, An Lan is so pitiful, fate is so much, you can't leave him alone, right now, he has just woken up, and he is the most loveless time, so you can't, you can't have the slightest indifference and ruthlessness towards him.
Thinking about this forced me to have the courage to abandon the worldly distractions in my heart.
I think that for the sake of An Lan and his recovery, I can only fight out, even if I sacrifice my personal reputation.
I can't be a heartless person, and now he needs me.
The waves in my heart surged, An Lan seemed to be able to feel it, when he saw that I was sad, his eyes were also full of sorrow, and when he saw the sadness on my face slowly dissipate, his eyes also became brighter.
My little emotions control everything about him.
At this moment, he sees me as his heaven, his earth, and his all.
He was so attached to me, so attached to everything about me.
Even when I went to the bathroom to wash the dishes and chopsticks, he had to tell me.
"Lingyun, I'm waiting for you." I hurriedly responded, "I'll be done right away." ”
As soon as I walked to the bed with wet hands, he immediately made an empathetic effort to lean sideways and pull out a paper to wipe my hands.
I couldn't resist his gentle gesture, so I let him carefully wipe it for me.
However, at this moment, Qiao Yu and Jia Qing returned to the ward one after another, maybe the time is almost up, and we should also make an appointment to go back to my hometown to do business.
At this time, as soon as they entered the ward, the two people seemed to see An Lan's kiss to me at first sight.
The sudden appearance of the two of them made my face red, and my heart was nervous, I tried to withdraw my hand, but An Lan did not lose it, he just held my hand tightly in his palm like a treasure, as if in the next second, I was about to leave his side and disappear without a trace.
Jia Qing looked at this scene, a little breathless, he covered his mouth and coughed vigorously twice, everyone could hear how fake his coughing sound was, he was clearly reminding me and asking me to pay attention to my behavior.
Seeing Jia Qing's unhappy appearance, I couldn't care about An Lan's emotions anymore, so I had to try to walk away from An Lan, but An Lan stuck to me like a child, unwilling to let go of my hand.
He looked up at me pitifully and pleaded with me, "Lingyun, are you leaving here?" I beg you, don't leave me alone in this hospital, go, let's go together, okay? I don't want to live in this lifeless hospital anymore. After saying that, the corners of his eyes were already moist.
I glanced at Jia Qing and Qiao Yu in embarrassment, not knowing how to answer An Lan.
Qiao Yu said confidently: "Okay, since An Lan doesn't want to stay in the hospital, then we will help him go through the discharge procedures today, anyway, his hospital will not treat him well, so simply let him follow us to the countryside to relax, maybe it will be more helpful for his recovery." ”
"Okay, great, Qiao Yu, I knew you were my best buddy, I'm free, free." An Lan cheered excitedly on the bed.
Now that Qiao Yu has expressed his position, Jia Qing and I naturally can't interfere too much, in the treatment of Anlan's disease, Qiao Yu is an expert after all, and of course what he said should be followed.
Therefore, next, Jia Qing went to the discharge procedures for Anlan, and the hospital was naturally reluctant to let people leave, but we voluntarily signed a risk responsibility letter, and the hospital agreed to let Anlan leave.
After going through the discharge procedures, Jia Qing and I were in charge of An Lan's luggage, while Qiao Yu held An Lan in his arms and carried him to the car.
As soon as he walked out of the door of the ward, An Lan opened his eyes greedily and looked around at the beautiful flowers and green trees blooming outside the hospital, I was worried that his eyes would be burned by the sun, so I quickly covered his eyes with a silk scarf and gently reminded him: "An Lan, your eyes can't adapt to the strong light yet, and it's not too late to look at the scenery when the light is weak."
"Okay, listen to you, I just don't watch it." An Lan replied obediently, I felt that he must have closed his eyes obediently at this moment, and he was in a good mood, and even the corners of his mouth were rippling with a sweet smile.
After being imprisoned for so many days, he was finally free, and I can imagine how excited and excited An Lan's heart was.
Driving back home, I simply packed my bags, then found a dark jar for the female ghost, and was ready to go.
We drove towards my hometown.
It's just that along the way, An Lan stopped talking, and he suddenly became listless like a frosted eggplant.
At this time, I suddenly realized that Qiao Yu had returned to my home with An Lan just now, and I was busy sorting things out, without taking into account An Lan's emotions.
The furnishings and some photos in the home have exposed my intimate relationship with Jia Qing.
In particular, the large wedding photos of me and Jia Qing in the new recent photo, in addition to the one hanging in the room where Jia Qing lives, there is also a painting in my living room.
An Lan went home suddenly, in a hurry, where could I care about this, so I didn't have time to take off all these paintings, and they were all exposed to An Lan's eyes.
Although An Lan had just woken up, according to his IQ, he fully understood what was going on.
Under Qiao Yu's driving, the car drove smoothly in the direction of home, Jia Qing accompanied Qiao Yu to sit in the passenger seat, and An Lan and I sat in the back seat.
At this moment, An Lan was extremely sad because of his mood, he sat silently, his face was dim and gloomy, as dull and terrible as a storm was coming.
I cautiously asked him tentatively. "Anlan, are you not feeling well? If it's uncomfortable, you can lie down and rest, I don't need much space, you can lie down as you like. ”
An Lan was silent, and then he held his head with both hands, and his fingers pulled the hair on his forehead helplessly, looking like he was in pain.
"Anlan, do you have a headache?" Seeing An Lan's appearance, I was naturally a little distressed.
"I don't want you to care, Ling Yun, you just let me never exist." Suddenly, An Lan, who had been silent, roared at me.
He let go of the trembling hands that covered his face, and I saw that the face, for some time, was already covered with tears.
I hurriedly reached out to help him wipe his tears, but he grabbed him tightly, he stared at the ring on my left ring finger stupidly, crying and forcing me to ask, "Are you married?" Ling Yun, it turns out that you and Jia Qing are already married, right? You don't want your Anlan anymore, do you? ”