Started to lose sleep, lay down at night, her mind was full of obscene nude photos, and the ugly girl laughed disgustingly and made her stomach twitch.

I was in a state of confusion at work, and I wrote a press release in a whimsical way.

Wen Liang talked to me and concluded: "You are sick, either rest at home for a few days or go to the hospital to see you." ”

Watching himself become thinner and weaker, he walked on the street like a walking corpse. Avoiding acquaintances and friends, I just want to be alone, my chest is clogged, and I go to Lost place several times until I get drunk.

After drinking too much, Li Shang sent me twice, but when he saw his aunt staring at him suspiciously, he was afraid that he would be recognized as the suspect who drove into the police station last time, so he said that he would not let me drink any more, saying that if I drank too much, he would let CC send me, and he would not be responsible for what happened on the road.

Li Shang's words caused Jun Jun to sneer, and I suddenly remembered that she was Meng Xing's cousin, and decided not to go clubbing anymore.

Once on a whim, I tried to call Zhao Junqing, and wanted to ask him to help find someone to ask about Li Jun's whereabouts or phone number. He said that Li Jun is a person in the "circle", and the so-called circle is nothing more than a social network of all kinds of hooligans, robbers, ruffians, and gamblers who are mixed in society.

Everyone has a legend that Zhao Junqing is an underworld, and he must have a way.

Zhao Junqing agreed, saying that Gao Chuan would inform me if there was news.

Two days later, Gao Chuan waited for me at the entrance of the stage and gave me a mobile phone number.

"Li Jun is now frequenting several nightclubs of the Ocean Group, and has dealings with social gangs, you had better be careful when you contact him, those gangs are not easy to mess with," he thought for a while and said, "I can help you find his residence." ”

I said, "No, it's too much trouble for you." ”

Gao Chuan patted me on the shoulder and said, "Friends, don't see each other like this, Li Da was stunned that the gang is too bad." ”

He saw that I was in a daze and didn't react, and said, "Look at your bad state, don't take some things too seriously, it's not a big deal, everything pays attention to the cycle of cause and effect, you can't stop it and can't avoid it." ”

After hesitating for a long time, he decided to call Li Jun, and the reason why he hesitated was because he didn't know how to face him.

Sometimes, you know that you are framed and a victim, tired, helpless, tangled, and decadent. The more time passes, the more dreaded you are to uncover the truth. I don't want to face it, I'm afraid of a heavier blow, and I'm even more afraid that the little hope that remains in my heart will be shattered.

There was a "hey" sound on the other side of the phone, although the voice was low, but as soon as I heard it, I knew it was Li Jun.

I said tentatively: "Is it Li Jun, I'm Xia Yu." ”

Li Jun didn't respond, only the sound of dull breathing. It was a stalemate, and before I could figure out what to say, the phone was already hung up.

Suddenly angry in my heart, I immediately dialed it, but it showed that the phone had been turned off. Dropping my phone on the ground, my heart was like a mess, and I felt an uncontrollable sense of anger and insult.

Meng Meng was doing her homework in the room, and when she heard the shouting, she ran over to see me, and she was so frightened by my actions that her eyes widened and she stood outside the door and didn't dare to approach.

This mood lasted only a few moments, and then I collapsed weakly on the bed, anger followed by endless weakness.

Gao Chuan is right, everything has a cause and effect cycle, if I had not pretended to be a special identity at the beginning, causing Li Jun to derelict his duties, be expelled from the police force, and fall into society, there would not have been anything that happened later.

There are some things that no one knows how they will end, and when it has a wrong beginning, the end is destined to be a tragedy.

Later, I no longer hated Li Jun, maybe because of numbness, maybe because of repentance.

I sent a text message to Li Jun, I sincerely apologized to him, hoping that he would forgive, and I said that if time could go back, I hoped to restore the damage done to him.

There was no news of the text message, and Li Jun did not respond. And I, I hope to have no more contact with him.

In fact, it's not entirely because of Meng Xing's misunderstanding that it will be painful, I like Meng Xing, but it's not to the extent of deep love. Meng Xing is indeed different from all the girls I have met before, she is not only beautiful, but also exudes a temperament that makes people both awe and warm.

My pain is more about being framed for no reason, carrying a stigma and not being clean.

Sometimes I think about it, and I feel that Meng Xing actually has nothing to do with me, we have not established a romantic relationship, she is sometimes close to me, sometimes strange, and sometimes with a certain mystery. Ran Jing said that Zhang Shuai was pursuing her, maybe I was playing the "male junior" in the middle.

Some injuries can be recovered after tears, and some injuries are a hundred times more uncomfortable than tears.

Lack of concentration, even the sense of taste has changed, and Lu Jiaqi eats in the restaurant, I often don't eat vegetables and only forget about white rice, which makes Lu Jiaqi very happy, and he saves a lot of money on dishes.

Lu Jiaqi has also changed a lot, and he is like two people before, like in love, in a crazy and weird state.

Before being arrested for prostitution, Lu Jiaqi not only had a crush on Liu Nannan, but also had a tender model girlfriend, the girl was beautiful and had a hot figure.

Lu Jiaqi spent most of his thoughts on her, renting a high-end apartment for her, buying vegetables, cooking, constantly giving gifts, coaxing her to be happy, and giving her a large amount of pocket money from time to time.

High-end cosmetics, brand-name fashion, dress up female models like a noblewoman. Aside from shopping and dressing up, she was apathetic to anything else. Even if he is suddenly interested in going out with Lu Jiaqi, he never watches the mountains and rivers, watches movies, or eats hot pot. Either choose a hot spring mountain resort or a few days abroad.

In fact, this girl brought Lu Jiaqi a lot of lust, except for going to bed and watching her delicacy and beauty, she couldn't give Lu Jiaqi anything beneficial.

This also understands why so many celebrities are unhappy after marrying rich people and end up breaking up. No matter how beautiful a woman is, she won't buy vegetables and cook, don't do laundry, won't iron your suits and shirts, won't make you a bowl of sweet soup when you're drunk, will only beautify and make, pretend to be stupid and cute, and often scratch her head and seduce heterogeneous people regardless of the occasion, such a woman has no other use except to bring men flesh.

Merely satisfying the lust for flesh is the most unreliable thing in human beings, and it is constantly and twilighting, and it is seriously lacking in loyalty.

Lu Jiaqi's model girlfriend once went to perform in other places and never came back, and it is said that someone saw her at a high-end private party in Shanghai, and men called her baby.

Perhaps stimulated, Lu Jiaqi's desire for women has been out of control since then, this hunger is close to madness, as long as it is a woman, no matter how beautiful or ugly, he shows a salivating gluttony, psychologists say that this is the result of a high secretion of male hormones, if not excreted, it will lead to sexual crimes, and may also degenerate into sexual perversion or eccentricity.

For a while, it was rumored that WeChat and Momo were "pickled girl artifacts", and after Lu Jiaqi heard about it, he immediately downloaded it, day and night, and searched anytime and anywhere.

People in this lonely era are narcissistic and empty, and various social platforms make emotions scatter like the Yellow River bursting its banks.

Through the software, Lu Jiaqi has met three girls.

The first girl was a wine trust, and Lu Jiaqi spent more than 2,000 yuan in vain.

The second girl is an animal love messenger, a bunch of strange-shaped animals at home, it is simply an animal farm, Lu Jiaqi was frightened by the little green snake and rushed out of the door.

Third, he finally met the girl he liked, a dignified-looking, innocent and gentle kindergarten teacher. But Lu Jiaqi is always difficult to get beauties into his arms, the kindergarten teacher is like leaving him, with an ambiguous attitude but keeping a physical distance, if you want to be intimate, she will half push, if you want to leave, she will half give it a moment.

It's like seeing a turkey with a good taste and smell, only smelling its aroma and not being able to eat it for a long time. This made Lu Jiaqi even more greedy, he described this kindergarten teacher as a delicious lobster, which made him salivate and couldn't stop.

During the relationship, Lu Jiaqi bought her an LV bag at the request of the kindergarten teacher, of course, it was a high imitation; Two bottles of brand-name perfumes are also highly imitation; A pair of shoes for each of the four seasons of spring, summer, autumn and winter.

In the end, the kindergarten teacher wanted a natural and beautiful, breathable thick cushion bra, in order to hope that the career line would be more towering, Lu Jiaqi took this as a sexual innuendo, he picked a dark late night to send underwear to the kindergarten teacher, hoping to be able to put it on for her personally.

He rushed to the kindergarten teacher's house, and before he could take off his clothes, the kindergarten teacher suddenly threw himself into his arms and sobbed, saying sadly that her father was seriously ill and she wanted to buy a new tablet.

Lu Jiaqi said, what does the tablet have to do with your father being seriously ill, the kindergarten teacher got out of his arms and flashed his eyes for a long time without explaining the relationship.

After investing a lot of energy and money, and failing to succeed in groping pigs several times, Lu Jiaqi finally lost patience with kindergarten teachers and even pickled girls. After spending so much money and not getting a single girl, Lu Jiaqi's mental state is on par with Van Gogh.

He said directly to the kindergarten teacher, "I want you!" ”

"What do you want from me?" The kindergarten teacher asked with a pout.

Lu Jiaqi hugged him without speaking.

The kindergarten teacher was stunned, stepped back and shouted: "Stinky rascal! Journalists are hooligans! Perverted! ”

After the two broke up, the kindergarten teacher actually posted on the Internet to attack Lu Jiaqi, a "rogue reporter", detailing Lu Jiaqi's reporter's identity and home address. Falsely accused Lu Jiaqi of sexually harassing her many times, and she suspected that she had AIDS after being sexually assaulted by Lu Jiaqi.

The kindergarten teacher uploaded a candid video on the Internet, the content of which was Lu Jiaqi riding on her and begging for affection, and also distributed a photo of Lu Jiaqi with his hand on her chest, saying that Lu Jiaqi attacked her chest regardless of the occasion, causing her breasts to sag. Of course, the kindergarten teacher photoshopped off his face, leaving only Lu Jiaqi's salivating face and open-fingered hands.

Lu Jiaqi explained that this photo was taken at the request of the kindergarten teacher, and he had never touched her breasts at all, nor did he know the depth of her breasts, which was a bit big.

almost caused a human flesh search on the Internet, Lu Jiaqi called the police at my suggestion, Ran Jing's case, and quickly arrested the kindergarten teacher, and after the investigation, I learned that the kindergarten teacher defrauded a lot of sex boys of money. At my request, Ran Jing announced the results of the investigation on Weibo on behalf of the police and returned Lu Jiaqi's innocence.

This incident is a warning to the men of the pervert clan, you must pay attention to protecting your privacy, and you must be vigilant against those women who like to take selfies when they have nothing to do.

"If this is an investment, I will lose a lot, lose a lot!" Lu Jiaqi said hatefully.

I admonished him many times: "Jiaqi, you really don't need to find a woman who doesn't feel it to sleep in order to vent your physical needs, that's stupid, you think, going to bed is a manual job!" Usually you pay more than she does. Moreover, it is good to say that if you have a sexually transmitted disease, AIDS has not been cured yet. No matter how beautiful a girl is, if she can play with you, she can play with others, who can guarantee that you will not win the bid! ”

Lu Jiaqi looked at me disdainfully and whispered, "Selfish! You don't have a backache when you stand and talk, can you hold it for several years in a row? ”

I said, "Of course my back doesn't hurt, when have you ever seen me mess around?" ”

He thought for a while and suddenly said, "Yes, I haven't seen you pick up girls." How did you solve it? ”

"Solve what?"

"I see, you can't do it, right? Undefeated in the East? He laughed.

"You are Li Lianying! Go aside! I said hatefully.

During training in Beijing, Lu Jiaqi was snubbed by Liu Nannan, and met Xiaomi by chance, and then the two slept like before.

Before a man makes a mistake, it's best to figure out if he can afford it. After enjoying it, it is the abyss, how many corrupt officials died at the hands of their mistresses.

After the night in Beijing, Xiaomi's offensive against Lu Jiaqi became stronger and stronger, calling every day, texting every day, saying good night before going to bed, saying I love you after sleeping, and vowing not to stop if I don't enter the grave of love.

Lu Jiaqi is increasingly showing an image of being half-dead, about to say goodbye to the red dust, and even his favorite anecdotes in the red light district no longer pay attention. I sympathize with him, and guess that he is cornered by Xiaomi's stalking.

Although I am a victim myself and my spirit is suffering a huge blow, I feel that Lu Jiaqi needs more care.

He was once on the top of a skyscraper taking a long view of the city, and I found him walking on the edge of the building, looking like he was about to fly down 3,000 feet, and at the same time asked me excitedly, "What is the meaning of human beings?" ”

If you meet a familiar friend who is decadent and then radiant and suddenly asks you about the meaning of human beings, you need to pay attention to whether he is mentally ill and suddenly becomes mentally refreshed, or if he is secretly practicing a strange book like "The Sunflower Book".

One day, Lu Jiaqi groped for his dark circles and fell into decadence again.

I asked him tentatively, "Do you love Xiaomi?" ”

Lu Jiaqi's eyes lit up, and his bloodshot pupils stared at me. Just when I thought he was going to say who I killed if I mentioned the word again, he said, "Love! ”

I was dumbfounded, but there was no lie on his face.

After a while, I said, "You don't have to hold on, I know." ”

"Who's holding on? I am true love! ”

I was angry: "Then why do you always look like you're about to enter the wood when you encounter a female ghost?" Don't fight for the sake of face, after all, I have been colleagues with Xiaomi, and maybe I can help you get rid of her clutches. It is estimated that you were hormones secreted at the time, hormones rose, and said a lot of ambiguous words such as 'baby' in bed, but I didn't expect Xiaomi to take it seriously, and after the passion, I regretted what I said, right? In fact, men are like this, they talk sweetly when they go to bed, and once it's over, light a cigarette, and start thinking about how to get rid of this woman who is easy to get but can only be a lover and can't be entangled. So, I totally understand you! ”

"!" Lu Jiaqi glared at me and said half-mockingly, "Don't you can't eat grapes and say that grapes are sour, if millet had followed you at the beginning, I would have been ruined by you, and we really love each other." Recently, I have not been in good shape because since the last time we separated, Xiaomi and I have been too busy at work, and it is difficult to see each other. It is said that Xiao Bie is better than a newlywed, and for us, it is too painful. ”

After Lu Jiaqi finished speaking, his eyes turned red, and a tear swirled in the corner of his eye.

"Hold her, feel safe, sleep soundly!" He said.

I was ashamed and surprised, and I was speechless for a while.

It is said that a one-night stand can only break up at dawn, and only after looking at Lu Jiaqi can I know that it is not impossible to sleep as usual.

In fact, hand-to-hand combat and being able to sleep together are two different things. Just because two people who don't know each other well can be intimate with each other doesn't mean that they can fall asleep in each other's arms.

The former represents physiological needs, physical stimuli. Falling asleep in a hug represents security, trust, and dependence on each other.

A person who can cuddle and sleep with you must be suitable for you and someone who brings you a sense of security. With a long life and a third of your life sleeping, it's hard to imagine having someone lying next to you that you can't sleep peacefully.

Lu Jiaqi and Xiaomi completed it at one time, met for the first time, and rolled the sheets crazily and slept like before.

On the eve of the Spring Festival this year, there was a sudden heavy snowfall, and the heavens and the earth were raised, covered with snow, as if Dou E was suffering a grievance.

Lu Jiaqi and I temporarily let go of our emotional confusion, and the wave of jumping off buildings in winter began to spread in the city.

The "jumping tide" was all the rage, and it was all the rage, and it was possible to use it to ask for wages and defend rights, and later there were also lying on the rails, self-immolation, and pretending to be crazy. But none of these worked, lying on the rails, lacking audiences, and dying lonely and lonely. If you pretend to be crazy, you must have a strong psychological quality, and sometimes you have to learn from Sun Bin to eat to be ambitious. The most terrible thing is self-immolation, if they are not burned to death, the hideous and terrifying self-immolator has to endure the cruel fact that the ghost relationship is not over with his family.

In the end, everyone returned to the method of jumping off the building, and felt that it still worked, the height of the building was the peak, and it was easy to control whether to jump or not.

There was an aunt who wanted to jump off the building because her pet cat died. After being persuaded by the rescuers, the aunt happily said to the TV camera, so many people are watching me below, it feels very cool! It's more exciting than "square dancing"! I almost vomited a mouthful of old blood.

That winter, a migrant worker who couldn't collect wages dragged his daughter to jump off the building, the nine-year-old girl was not breathing at that time, and the police and doctors had not yet arrived. ”

She whispered, "I'm not afraid, it's just that the book is dirty, and tomorrow the teacher will scold me." ”

My hand holding the camera was shaking all the time.

The little girl died just as the paramedics arrived. I heard her sigh, as if she was reluctant to leave this world, and then hung her head.

I witnessed the end of a weak life up close.

The little girl has appeared many times in my dreams. For a long time, when taking a bath, washing my hair, and washing my face, as long as my eyes were closed, I could vaguely hear her say weakly and helplessly, Uncle, help me pick up my schoolbag, it's going to get dirty!

Life and death are just a moment, but living people are always confused about trivial matters and never cherish life.