The whole person suddenly relaxed, like a tense nerve suddenly broken, losing his goal and direction.

After the wish funeral, I fell asleep at home behind closed doors, half-asleep, and I could always see the tall and handsome wish, with a proud face, full of passion between talking and laughing, full of unwillingness to mediocrity, yearning for success, all the way forward, until faded out of my sight.

In the hallucination of truth and dream, he even returned to the university campus.

In the year of graduation, Lin Wei, Xu Wish, and Zixuan and I sat on the school's wide playground, sometimes the sun was shining, sometimes the moonlight was like practice, looking at the classmates running in the wind, we shouted side by side: Graduation! Society, here we come!

Today, everything is just in front of us, but we are no longer the young boys of yesterday's sunshine, and there will be a beautiful future, but there will also be nightmares hanging over the road.

Closed in the bedroom for several days in a row, there is no concept of day and night.

Until Meng woke up and opened the curtain a gap, the sunlight rushed in instantly, and the day was like washing outside.

She sat on the edge of the bed, stroked my cheek and whispered, "You still have me, I will always be by your side." ”

Meng Xing leaned down and hugged me.

After the first tear flowed, I couldn't control it anymore, I hid it in her arms, and cried loudly, and later, my heart was really broken, and I couldn't shed tears anymore.

Meng Xing lost a lot of weight, I know, she didn't feel good in her heart, the matter of making a wish was full of wind and rain in the city, and most of the rumors pointed to the Ocean Group, and the horror protagonist was Zhang Shuai and the guards. Many of these rumors were fabricated and spread by Ma San and his subordinates.

But rumors are rumors after all, and the rumors hidden behind them have no effect on those who have lost their moral bottom line.

These rumors only increased the status of Zhang Shuai and the guards in society.

And Zhang Shuai and I worked the road last time, which also made Meng Xing worried, but at this time, even if she wanted to leave me for my safety, she was dispelled because of my injury and the mood of falling to the bottom.

When I walked out of the house again, I first ran to Hokkaido to fall in the snow, and sat in the lobby with Marriott, and there was still a cordon drawn by the police when the police handled the case at the door.

Marriott sighed, and I was distraught.

At that time, the sky was getting dark, and there was a lot of traffic outside the window, and people were buzzing.

Opposite the Harbin Story Bar is lit up, and after the snow in Hokkaido closes, it is full of customers, and from time to time there are rude shouts from security personnel.

When I looked up and saw a Maitreya Buddha in the bar, I smiled. I can't help but think sadly that in life, we can hear people talking about the Buddha all the time, and the Buddha tells everyone to give up and let go.

In the face of all this today, who can tell me how to let go of hatred and give up the two lives of Wish and Mei Yu.

The sudden death of the wish was like a nightmare, and I hoped to wake up, but this nightmare would not only not wake up, but would become darker and colder.

For a long time, I was immersed in this unacceptable sadness, thinking about it day and night, and I couldn't believe that the wish was really gone, and we would never see each other again.

Zixuan's mood was also low, and he blamed himself for not doing his best to help Wish Promise through the difficulties. After he and Chu Qing quarreled, Chu Qing moved out of his house in the new district, and the two showed no signs of reconciliation for many days.

Although Meng Xing was often by my side, she frequently went to Beijing to visit her sick grandmother.

Zixuan and I returned to the Lost place bar, often getting drunk. Those words about strength and courage pale at this time, and when people encounter a major blow in life, choosing decadence and sinking is actually the best way to vent their sorrow.

After drinking, Zixuan confided in me about his love and grievances with Chu Qing.

Only then did I understand that he was an almost fanatical idealistic perfectionist, and this kind of thinking could easily turn into a sensitive, suspicious, and obsessive-compulsive obsessive maniac in love.

Chu Qing had a first boyfriend before falling in love with Zixuan, and he had been talking for five years since high school, and the boy's family was strong. In the rape and murder case of Chu Qing's sister, the boy did not give Chu Qing any help, Chu Qing thought that he had the ability to help himself and his family get justice and uphold justice.

She eventually chose to break up. chose to be with Zixuan, she said that what she valued most was that Zixuan wore a pair of glasses and looked polite and honest.

Originally, Zixuan didn't know about her previous love experience, but he was an idealized perfectionist, sensitive and suspicious. Desperately wanting to know everything about Chu Qing in the past, and after countless questions, Chu Qing could only confess.

After knowing it, it was a burden for a character like him. Not only does he have the pressure of subconsciously comparing before and after, but he also feels ashamed and unwilling that his woman has been possessed by other men for a long time without concealment.

After Zixuan's domestic violence, it is said that Chu Qing changed her mind about love, and sometimes confided in her best friend that she missed her ex-boyfriend. When we encounter difficulties, we are not qualified to ask the capable people around us to help us, and others may not be able to help you.

Chu Qing's remarks reached Zixuan's ears, Zixuan became even more manic, feeling that his perfect image in Chu Qing's heart had plummeted, Chu Qing's nostalgia for her ex-boyfriend further verified this, and he thought more and more about Chu Qing's love history for a lifetime, and felt that if the two were together, they would not be able to escape the shadow of their ex-boyfriend for the rest of their lives.

I comforted him and said, "Now the cycle of love is like eating, love one in the morning, empathize with other love at noon, and forget the first two in the evening." Why should you speculate and doubt, the past is long gone. If a woman tells you that the person she once loved is more capable than you, richer than you, and better than you in bed, you will live in the shadows forever, and love will evolve into a psychological comparison. If you want to be together, why bother thinking about it? ”

Zixuan's face was gloomy, and he said drunkly: "Love is selfish, and no one wants to buy a shabby dress to wear it for a lifetime." What man doesn't want his wife to be as pure as an angel. They all say they don't care, you go to the street and tell a random man that his wife has slept with many men, is he happy? ”

I also wanted to respond to him, but when I heard "a lot of men", I suddenly remembered the intimate picture of Chu Qing and that strange man on the night I drank too much.

His palms were sweaty, and he quietly turned his head to look at Zixuan, who was lying on the bar counter and turning his wine glass in his hand, his brows furrowed, not knowing what he was thinking.

Before the domestic violence, Zixuan had already begun to become suspicious, and the pressure of doubt made him feel that Chu Qing was watery Yang Hua and would not endure loneliness, and sooner or later he would cheat.

He began to stare at Chu Qing's every move, and later found that Chu Qing became more and more fond of dressing up, socializing more, going home late, and frequently using perfume. often deliberately raised his voice when answering the phone at night and said hello Sister Han, hello Sister Tian.

Later, it was said that two colleagues from the station called.

Women are not like men's buddies, and it is unwise to let women lie to women - the higher the level, the more serious the situation is for women to be traitors to each other.

Zixuan pretended to be casual and asked the two colleagues in person, and they both denied that they talked to Chu Qing on the phone at night. When asked again for the second time, the two confessed to fighting. When I asked when I was calling, I couldn't tell me. Sometimes, Chu Qing said that she had dinner with a few good friends at night, Zixuan called her, but she never answered, and after a while, she took the initiative to dial over, the place was quiet and empty, it must be in a room.

What directly caused the conflict between the two to erupt was an intimacy.

When Chu Qing was intimate before, she was a lady and decent, this time she suddenly got into the quilt, which made Zixuan hearty and difficult to parry, after the incident, Zixuan had some aftertaste, and always felt that something was wrong.

When his suspicion magnified to the point that he couldn't bear it, he began to open Chu Qing's belongings, mobile phone records, and after finding nothing, he sneaked into Chu Qing's office and rummaged through the drawers, only to find another mobile phone.

The mobile phone is clean and clean, and the content is deleted, but when Zixuan used the relationship to check the call record of this mobile phone card, he was surprised, the frequency of calls and text messages was very high, all of them were called to a number, Zixuan tried to dial it a few times with other mobile phones, and the other party did not answer, but dialed it with this mobile phone number, and the other party immediately caught it, but the other party was very cautious, and he didn't speak here, and the other party didn't say anything, only a slight pant sound, and then hung up.

Zixuan was furious - this is simply more professional than an agent, and there is obviously adultery.

He immediately questioned Chu Qing, listed her suspicious appearances, and finally threw out his suspicions about this mobile phone.

"You're rummaging through my office!" Chu Qing didn't explain the problem with the mobile phone, but just repeated over and over again that Zixuan was a thief.

When the quarrel was at its most intense, Zixuan finally lost control of his emotions and started to beat Chu Qing.

After drinking, listening to Zixuan's chatter, he felt that the situation was serious, maybe he had been violent to Chu Qing more than once, and he had seen scars on Chu Qing's body several times.

"I have the ability to find out who the other party is, but if there is anything, I dare not face it. Do you think I should look it up? Zixuan's eyes were bloodshot, and he stared at me and said.

"Who's the other party?" I didn't turn a corner for a moment.

"It's the man in Chu Qing's phone!" Zixuan raised his voice and said.

"Don't check it, if Chu Qing really has a problem, I would have broken up with you a long time ago, trust each other, don't hurt each other."

Thinking of that night again, Chu Qing hugged the old man, and the two of them had been intimate for a long time.

I hesitated and continued: "When two people are together, the biggest taboo is mutual suspicion and distrust. ”

But even if I grit my teeth, I can't go on, I'm making a fool of myself.

Zixuan was stunned for a long time, and finally sighed and said to himself: "What else can you believe in this world?" ”

Although Zixuan couldn't eliminate his suspicion of Chu Qing, he regretted it after beating Chu Qing. shows that he still cares about Chu Qing, but Chu Qing can't forgive his violent behavior and refuses to reconcile.

As a best friend, I can't watch Zixuan endure all kinds of hardships and emotional misfortunes after he dies.

After struggling and being depressed for a long time, he decided to try to talk to Chu Qing.