It was gloomy that morning, and I looked at my mother with my sacrificial things: "Are you really going?" ”

Mom nodded affirmatively: "Well, I'll go." ”

I didn't say anything more, the tires pressed the wet road and drove directly to the countryside, in fact, I didn't deliberately persuade my mother to go to the grave of my grandmother, after so many things. I know too well the powerlessness of language, if a person's inner thoughts are determined, then you just say that it is useless to break the sky, and it may be the opposite effect.

But my mother naturally helped me sort out the sacrifices that needed to go to the grave, and then changed into a new and solemn dress early in the morning, and when I went out, she was already waiting for me in the yard with an umbrella, and when I came out, she said softly: "Qiaoqiao, I want to go with you to see your grandma." ”

I think I have been looking forward to this sentence since my grandmother died, and it is also my grandmother's heart disease all the time, although she did not get her girl's forgiveness when she was alive, but when she died, I think my grandmother was also worried about this, but I didn't expect that my mother would unconsciously change her mentality. She would ask to see my grandmother. to estimate the death of Taiwan.

We didn't say much all the way, going to the grave to worship relatives is a serious and solemn thing in itself, but the car drove into the village entrance is my mother still can't help crying, and whispered softly: "I came out of here with my luggage on my back, and I got in the car when your grandma chased your grandfather out, they were crying, but I was full of resentment, and secretly swore that I would never return to this home......"

I didn't respond, I think it was the successive departures of relatives that made my mother better understand the meaning of yin and yang, the living did not cherish it well, died, and when I really regretted it, I would be doubly sad, and even hate myself, I used to have a grudge against my mother because of this. Because as I became an adult, I gradually analyzed this matter, and I didn't think that my grandmother owed my mother, and I could even say that the person who hurt my aunt's departure the most should not be my mother, but my grandmother, because her daughter is gone, she will be more worried and anxious than anyone else.

It's a pity that grandma's mother, who should understand the most, didn't understand her, that kind of gratuitous hatred and sense of distance made grandma can't sleep for many days and nights, I think, at the beginning, grandma's kindness to me was also grafted into the debt to my mother, which reminded me of what Zhuo Jing once said to my family. It is also suitable for my grandmother, she lost a girl, she should be the most protected person, but as a result, she inexplicably became the 'murderer' who needs to bear the consequences, and the initiator of all this is my mother.

It's a pity that my mother repented too late, because it was impossible for my grandmother to look at her eldest daughter face to face and put aside her prejudices to come to see her.

I admit that all this has a lot to do with my father's departure, I have been with her for the past two months, watching her recover little by little, and then she began to go to the store to be busy, and in the evening we had dinner together, and she also began to urge me to go back, because I was worried about knowing that my grandfather's affairs still made me worried. I took her to the city to see my hospitalized grandfather twice, she wanted to stay and take care of her, but my grandfather was not adaptable.

Mom's edges and corners are not a lot, she said that she also knows that grandpa is more accustomed to following me, let me hurry back to take care of it, whether it is surgery or recuperation, she listened to my opinion, but I thought, since I have been at home for more than two months, then wait for the Qingming Festival to go to the grave of grandma and then go back, because this is my compulsory schedule every year, my mother did not say much after listening to my words, but I got up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom and saw that the light in her room was always on and knew that she was also thinking about grandma's affairs, until the day of Qingming Festival, She chose to go with me to the grave. is also indirectly telling me that she wants to let go of everything she once had, and she knows that she is wrong.

I don't want to say whether she is a selfish person, because Dad Xiaobao and the people she should rely on are there, she will definitely not be able to do and cannot self-examine, it is all disappearing in an instant, as if life is blank, so most of her quiet time is thinking, thinking, but also to give herself a reason and motivation to live, in fact, she can tell me on the night she hanged herself Actually, she doesn't really like me, but just wants to escape, I know, In fact, everyone clearly knows that the demon in their hearts is the dark side, but they don't want to admit it, because it will be easy to escape, and in the face, sometimes they need to admit their mistakes, and adults are the most unwilling to admit their mistakes.

The car drove to the foot of the mountain, because of the light rain, the road was not ordinary muddy, I held the sacrificial offering in one hand, and the other hand also held my mother, she struggled to hold an umbrella for me, and whispered in her mouth: "Be careful, don't let the paper money get damp, I just came to see your grandma, don't let her be bad to collect ......"

As soon as the words fell, a gust of wind suddenly rolled up, and the umbrella in my mother's hand was blown off the lid, she was startled, and hurriedly wanted to take back the umbrella cover

"Jojo, this ......"

I gently pulled the corners of my mouth and looked at my mother, who was still full of surprise: "Grandma knows that you came to see her, she is happy and feels sorry for you, so I want you to go to see her on a better road." ”

Mom sniffed, put away the umbrella and kept nodding: "Well, then let's hurry up, hurry up, don't let your grandma wait in a hurry!" ”

I smiled and nodded, took my mother's hand and strode towards the mountain, everything went well, except for the sudden sunny sky and the sun sprinkled overhead, there was no trace of abnormality, my mother cried while giving incense to my grandmother, and kept saying: "Mom, I'm late, I'm late." ”

The incense burns very well, when I knelt down, I looked at the green grass tips exposed by my grandmother's grave, and I was silently muttering in my heart, grandma, although this year is my birth year, a lot of bad things have happened, but my mother can voluntarily take the initiative to come to see you, this is a happy thing, no matter what hardships I will encounter, I will grit my teeth and persevere

When I was ready to go down the mountain, it was even calmer, I didn't ask my grandma for anything, and I didn't ask more about my natal year's fortune, I think my grandma was very open below, I was a layman, even if my grandma saw and knew that grandma couldn't break it, since I couldn't avoid it, then I really could choose to go with the flow here, I was robbed, I crossed, the disaster came, I turned in, and asked questions, which would only make grandma worry about my mentality.

It's just that when I turned to leave, my back seemed to be suddenly torn hard, and it felt like someone had peeled off the flesh from your back and grabbed my heart viciously, I couldn't straighten my waist at the time, and I fell to the ground when I stumbled, and my mother pulled me with her hand, and my face changed suddenly by my sudden reaction: "Qiaoqiao, are you okay, ah, what's wrong?" ”

I knelt there for a long time, the pain was all of a sudden, but I almost couldn't bear it, I looked back at my grandmother's grave, the paper ash gently fluttered along the breeze, and a branch that seemed to be a dry knot 'creaked' broke off, I frowned slightly, my grandmother still didn't worry about me after all, she was doing her best to understand me......

The branch is like me, breaking it is a big difficulty, I slowly got up, stepped forward to pick up the branch and carefully measured it, my mother followed me with a puzzled face: "Qiaoqiao, what's wrong with you, what did it hurt just now, ah?" ”

"Upper body ......"

I responded lightly in my mouth, and suddenly thought in my mind, the upper is the bottom, the bottom is the top, which means that the legs are the first half of the year, the upper body is the second half of the year, the pain in the back and the broken branches If grandma wants to tell me that the second half of the year will encounter an accident......

With a deep breath, I knelt on my grandmother's grave and kowtowed three times: "Grandma, Jiaolong understands, Jiaolong will be careful......"

The sunny day actually hit a muffled dry thunder, I raised my eyes and looked, grandma, if the sky wants to cross me, where do I come from, I have always remembered your words, I am a dragon, only to face difficulties, not afraid of hardships, to cross the river. machine