Chapter 18: We All Live in the Gutter 1

The next morning, Gu Yu woke up from Ye Nianze's arm, looked at himself, looked at him again, suddenly opened his mouth, and bit him the shoulder.

Ye Nianze woke up from his dream, with a tingling pain in his shoulder, and when he opened his eyes, he saw a small head attached to his neck socket, and two rows of small white teeth were still tightly inserted in his flesh.

His scalp was numb with pain, he grabbed the back of her neck, lifted her up like a rabbit, looked at her hateful gaze, and asked funny, "What are you doing?" ”

She accused: "You promised to send me home, and you lied to me again. ”

"I didn't lie to you, isn't this your home?"

She pointed to herself like a newborn baby: "You're still bullying me." ”

Ye Gongzi yawned, put her aside, and patted her bare back: "I didn't bully you, you are ugly like that, who is interested in bullying you." ”

Gu Yu was sad, hugged the quilt, turned to the side, and stopped talking.

Ye Nianze saw that she didn't move, so he leaned over and hugged her: "What's wrong?" I'm kidding. ”

Gu Yu buried his head in the pillowcase, and his voice was muffled: "Don't talk to me, I haven't figured it out yet, should I take care of you." ”

Ye Gongzi was a little helpless: "Gu Yu, I've been thinking of a way to deal with your sister's affairs." Didn't we say yes? When your sister quits drugs, I'll give her a sum of money to get out of here and start a new life. You can't always use this to suppress me, it's very unkind. ”

The little girl lay there and didn't talk, he felt more and more bottomless, and rubbed her little shoulder: "People who quit drugs are like that, she is too addicted to drugs, if she doesn't do that, there is no way to cure her." Gu Yu, do you understand what I said? ”

She still ignored him, lay quietly on the bed, looked at the sunlight on the carpet, and after a while, said leisurely: "Actually, I understand that you can't be blamed entirely on Lixia's matter." Even in the same environment, not everyone will follow the same path. I'm just a little confused, she became like that, how much of the responsibility is on you, how much is the responsibility on herself, I think it's five or five, what do you think? ”

How dare he say no? Hurry up: "I think so." ”

She glanced back at him: "But I think that four or six is more appropriate, or three or seven?" ”

He kissed her on the shoulder: "You can say as much as you want, you can be happy." ”

Gu Yu snorted, "It will sound good." ”

He laughed: "Do you want me to say something nasty?" I'm fully responsible for your sister's business, but if you make me feel guilty or indebted to her emotionally, I'm sorry, I really can't do it. For this kind of woman who can even sell her own sister, I didn't slap her to death, I have used the greatest restraint in my life. ”

He thought that Gu Yu would be unhappy, who knows, the little girl was very reasonable, shook her little head, and said seriously: "I understand this, she is my sister, I understand her and tolerate her, this is my own business, I can't ask you to be the same as me." ”

Ye Gongzi was secretly happy, this girl finally turned a corner.

Who knows, the little girl changed her words and said: "Actually, Lixia's incident is just an introduction, and the moment I saw her, I seemed to suddenly open my mind." In the past few days, I've been thinking, what kind of person are you? What exactly do I like about you? Is my affection for you love or delusion? ”

He was stunned, leaned over, and held her little chin: "What do you mean?" ”

Gu Yu knocked on his head: "It means, I don't know if I really like you." ”

He took a deep breath and put his hand on her neck: "Then you think it through now?" He thought to himself that if she dared to say that it was a hallucination or a misunderstanding, he would strangle her.

"Think clearly, I have come into contact with too few men, and there are only three of the best: brother, Han Shuyi, and you. It's impossible for me to be with my brother, and it's impossible to be with Han Shuyi, he's the same as my brother. So, that's all you left. ”

He was stunned: "I am your choice in desperation?" ”

She looked at him: "You can't say that, I sometimes can't express myself clearly about emotional issues, don't care about these details." What I want to say is that even though you are sometimes bad and like to bully me and make me angry, I still like you. It's not because you gave me a piece of cake seven years ago, or because you're good-looking, but what I say is something that only you can understand; What I do, only you can understand; I said to help you with the trade, and you gave me your lifeblood without any doubt. With you, I'm most like myself. ”

He was a little moved to hear this, and leaned over to kiss her. She picked up his head and looked at him seriously: "Ye Nianze, I don't ask for much, you don't break the law again, just keep the bottom line." In the past few days of the stock market crash, I have not slept well every day, and I will wake up in the middle of the night. My power is given by God, and if God can give it to me, I can take it back. I'm afraid that next time, I won't be able to save you......"

He took her hand and put it to his lips and kissed it gently: "This, I can guarantee, there will be absolutely no next time." ”

She looked at him suspiciously: "You can only do what you say, you know, you have never been trustworthy." ”

He laughed: "Exception for you." He rubbed her hair, "After this stock market crash, I am also afraid, I feel for the first time that the power of a person is so small." In the past, I thought I was very smart, and I played those fools around, but I didn't expect to be smart but mistaken by cleverness, and I wanted you to be rescued by a little girl to escape this catastrophe. Where do I have the face for you to save me again. ”

Gu Yu looked at him and said softly: "It's me who is willing to help you, my brother killed my sister-in-law, although I think he must not have a heart, but when I think of this, I feel very guilty about you, I ......"

He covered her mouth: "We won't mention this matter, we won't mention it anymore, okay?" ”

Gu Yu nodded, he let go of his hand and kissed her on the forehead: "Good, you sleep again, I'll go to the company in a while, the stock market crash has just passed, and a lot of follow-up work needs to be dealt with." ”

The little girl rubbed her eyes, and when he said it, she felt sleepy again, wrapped the quilt again, and waved her hand to him: "Then you go, don't disturb me." ”

He leaned over and kissed her on the neck a few times, kneading her body for a long time before letting go.

Ye Nianze finished handling business in the morning, and called home at noon, the little girl was still asleep, he instructed the aunt at home to cook her some food, heat it on the stove, and give it to her when she woke up. He said a few more words before putting down the phone.

After taking care of these things, he was about to go to dinner, when Qin Chuan pushed the door in, opened his mouth and said to him: "I just notified you over there that the boss of the Li family has come to Hong Kong recently." ”

Ye Nianze's face changed, leaned on the back of the chair, was silent for a while, and asked expressionlessly, "What time is it?" ”

"I didn't say anything over there, I just said that I would let us know."

He sneered: "You really think of yourself as an emperor, thinking this is their cottage?" ”

Qin Chuan said cautiously: "They are all outlaws, and we are the only ones who suffer if we have a hard time with them." ”

Ye Nianze thought for a while and instructed Qin Chuan: "Tell CN Securities to prepare the money." In addition, look for a few peers, do things neatly, behave in a disciplined manner, and have a tight tone, let them choose. ”

Qin Chuan wrote them down one by one, and asked again: "Do you want to say hello to the Han family?" If they are willing to come forward, we can get out of it a little easier. ”

Ye Nianze sighed: "Han Tang has already hooked up with the Ling family, although the Ling family is not as strong as the Wen family, it is also strong, and the Han family is not short of money now." We want to use money to buy Han Tang's favor, but people may not agree. ”

Qin Chuan was careful and reminded: "The relationship between Han Tang and the Ling family has always been bad, and now it is expedient to cooperate, I think there is room for negotiation in this matter, the key is...... We need to be sincere. ”

Ye Nianze nodded, and smiled again: "Because of that woman's business, I offended Han Tang, and now that feng shui is turning, I ask him to help me say something." I really knew why I had to do it at the beginning, you are right, I am too eager to do things for quick success, and now I deserve to suffer by myself. ”

Qin Chuan said: "It's good that you know, people will inevitably make mistakes, and it's still too late to correct them." ”

Ye Nianze sighed: "As long as you can get out of the Li family smoothly, you will be beaten or scolded, you will ask for money and people, follow them." ”

Qin Chuan nodded yes. Ye Nianze looked out the window, and then ordered: "I have something to do in the afternoon, come over later, you can help me keep an eye on the company's affairs first." ”

The weather on Hong Kong Island can change as it goes, with bright sunshine in the morning and heavy rain in the afternoon.

Ye Nianze waited for the rain to stop for a while, got out of the car, held an umbrella in one hand and a bottle of red wine in the other, and went up the mountain along the stone road. Today is not Qingming, I didn't meet a few people on the road, and the cemetery was cold and lonely, and it was silent. He walked to Gu Qingming's tombstone, put down the bottle of red wine, looked at the person on the tablet, and lost his words for a while.

It's been six years, and this is the second time he's stood in front of this man, and he doesn't know if he should repent or feel guilty, but no matter what he does, those buried in the ground won't know. was once the pride of the sky, and he died unjustly for six years. And he knew everything, but he never defended him for half a sentence, at first he couldn't, and then he felt that the damned people were already dead, and the so-called truth no longer meant anything.

But is it really pointless?

Ye Nianze moved his lips and heard his own voice: "I'm sorry, I should have told her the truth six years ago, but every time I wanted to speak, I couldn't say anything." I'm afraid that if I tell her, she won't pay attention to me anymore. I really love her, just like you loved Qiaoqiao back then. ”

Suddenly, the rain fell heavily, and in an instant the torrential rain poured. Ye Nianze looked at Gu Qingming's tombstone and wanted to say something more, but found that all languages were so weak. He didn't know what he was waiting for, maybe he just wanted to stand here, if Gu Qingming had a spirit in the sky, he could hear the voice in his heart.

For six years, he has been repenting and has been saying countless sorry words to him in his heart. He remembered that they had also had a good time drinking and talking about the future, and they were also in high spirits and imagined the future together. But six years ago, when that happened, he didn't choose to believe him, he believed in his father.

"Ye Zhenghao died, he died in a fire. I watched him die in front of me, for so many years, it has been rumored outside, saying that I killed my father, do you believe it? ”

He slowly leaned down, tilted his head slightly, and looked into the man's eyes, just like he had been back thenβ€”chess opponents, their eyes meeting each other, some provocative, some curious, and more sympathetic to each other.

He laughed and said to the man on the tombstone, "It was an accident, he knocked over the alcohol stove when I was arguing." I thought about saving him, but the moment the fire burned up, I hesitated. I suddenly felt that maybe it would be better for him to die, so that all grievances are settled, and you and Qiaoqiao will not die in vain. It's just a moment of hesitation, and everything is irreparable. ”

The person on the tombstone did not answer him, and it was impossible to answer him, Ye Nianze suddenly lost all his strength. The rain gathered on the ground, and he had no choice but to lean against the stone wall next to him and look at the sky in the distance.

"I suffered for six years, six whole years, and you can't imagine how I lived those days. I felt like the whole world was gray and time was meaningless. I don't dare to face everything in the past, I want to forget Qiaoqiao, forget Ye Zhenghao, and forget you. It wasn't until I met Gu Yu that I realized that I could only hide for a while, and what I had done would have to be faced sooner or later. For your business, I feel guilty and repentant, I feel indebted, but ...... I don't want to be haunted by your tragedies anymore. It's not that I want to evade responsibility, but I finally understand that only by making myself happy can I have the ability to make Gu Yu happy, and Gu Yu's happiness is the best way for me to make up for your Gu family. ”

Ye Nianze opened the bottle of red wine and poured it all on the ground around the tombstone: "Gu Yu, you don't have to worry, I will take care of you in Lixia." This is the only thing I can compensate you for other than my father's life, and if it is not enough, I will pay back the rest in the next life. ”

He put down the bottle, gave the man one last look, and then turned to leave.

The past, one after another, grievances and hatreds, say goodbye.

When going down the mountain, Ye Nianze happened to meet Han Shuyi who was going up the mountain, and both of them were a little surprised.

After approaching, Han Shu didn't say a word, and punched over. Ye Nianze stood still and didn't fight back, took the punch stiffly, and fell to the ground, bleeding from the corner of his mouth.

Both of their umbrellas fell to the ground, and the rain poured down, drenching them all over.

Han Shuyi looked at the people on the ground and said coldly, "This is what you owe him." ”

The man on the ground spat out a mouthful of blood, looked up at him, and after a while, smiled: "Thank you." He knew the meaning of this punch, and the person who swung it to vent his anger had decided to keep his mouth shut.

Han Shuyi ignored him, picked up the umbrella that fell on the ground, and looked proud: "I'm not for you, I'm for Gu Yu." ”

Ye Nianze stood up and patted the muddy water on his clothes: "Then I'll thank you for her." ”

Han Shuyi looked at him coldly: "Do you feel very proud?" I know everything, but I can't do anything to you. ”

Ye Nianze smiled sideways: "You are wrong, when I was most proud, I didn't fall in love with her." After falling in love with her, every day is worrying, and she is careful with her. ”

Han Shuyi was still angry: "Gu Qingming's death, you have a responsibility that you can't shirk." ”

Ye Nianze lowered his head and smiled: "Do you think that without me, Gu Qingming would not have died?" ”

Han Shu was stunned, and Ye Nianze continued: "I'm just a gun in Ye Zhenghao's hand, without me, he would change to another gun." ”

Seeing that Han Shuyi didn't talk, he hesitated a little, but still said: "I don't have any position to accuse you, really, what I have resented the most in the past six years is myself." However, occasionally I think that if you could go to the detention center to see Gu Qingming, he would tell you about Qiaoqiao and my father. If...... We would have known what happened to Qiaoqiao at that time, and the ending was ...... Wouldn't it be different? ”

Han Shu was speechless, Ye Nianze said what he thought in his heart, because of his thoughts, he could not be saved when he saw death, which indirectly caused irreparable consequences. He blamed Ye Nianze for being preconceived before the trial, why not himself?

When Ye Nianze went home, the rain had stopped.

Gu Yu ate the food cooked by his aunt, was sitting on the sofa watching TV, had just taken a shower, his black hair was casually draped over his shoulders, his legs were crossed together, and he was holding a small pot of mango pudding in his hand.

Seeing Ye Nianze enter the door, she looked him up and down, there was mud on his pants, the corners of his mouth were cracked, and there was a bruise, and she asked strangely, "Where have you been?" How did it come to this? ”

"Go see your brother, meet Han Shuyi, and be punched by him."

Gu Yu put down the pudding, and her aunt handed her a towel, she took it and helped him wipe the wounds on his face: "You go to see your brother, what did he do when he beat you?" ”

"Probably because I told him that I locked you up in a little dark room."

Gu Yu threw the towel in his face: "You deserve it!" Let you talk nonsense. ”

He put down the towel and suddenly hugged her horizontally: "Don't talk nonsense, I'll lock you up now." ”

There is no small black house, Ye Gongzi's bathtub is very large, and he pestered Gu Yu to take a mandarin duck bath with him.

Gu Yu was lying on the edge of the bathtub, looking at his right hand, thin and white, soft as boneless, but unfortunately the position of the little finger was bare, only a layer of skin wrapped in bones.

He looked guilty and distressed, leaned over, held her hand in his palm, kissed it gently, and had 10,000 words of sorry in his heart, which rolled thousands of times in his heart, liver, spleen and lungs, but he couldn't say a word.

Gu Yu let him hold him, grinding his ears and temples affectionately, suddenly turned his face and asked him: "What did you say to my brother when you went to the cemetery today?" ”

He patted her on the forehead: "Tell him, you're getting dumber." ”

Gu Yu pouted: "My brother doesn't believe it." ”

He hugged her and smiled, and said, "I told him that I would take care of you for the rest of your life." ”

She looked at him seriously: "You don't hate him anymore?" ”

"I don't hate, it's all gone."

Gu Yu put his arms around his neck and whispered, "Although you are not good in other aspects, this is quite open. When I was fourteen, I didn't understand why my brother was teaching me that, he just told me that my talent shouldn't be wasted. Now I understand that it was originally for you and Han Shuyi. He's gone, but I'm still here, I can help you get through this, and my brother will feel comforted when he knows, right? ”

He hugged her, and his heart was mixed: "Yes, your brother will be proud of you." ”

Gu Yu raised his chin and said proudly: "Of course, I have always been the pride of my brother." ”

He looked at her and smiled, Gu Yu leaned over and took the initiative to get into his arms. He looked at the little man in his arms, who was as white as jade, and suddenly said, "Gu Yu, when I finish everything here, I'll take you to a new place, just the two of us, start over, okay?" ”

"New place? Isn't it good here? Gu Yu looked around: "I think it's good, it's just that your taste is a little worse, if you redecorate, it should be very comfortable." ”

"No, let's move to another city and get out of here."

Gu Yu looked at him in confusion: "If I leave here, I won't be able to see Han Shuyi, Brother Qin, Brother Ming, Sister Hong, and Xiao Ming." ”

He pinched her chin: "Isn't it okay to have me with you?" ”

Gu Yu didn't quite understand: "It's not bad, it's just why should we go?" This is our home, our friends and relatives are here, and I will be scared to leave here. ”

Looking at her confused little eyes, Ye Nianze suddenly remembered that Lao Wu said that people with Asperger's have a dependence on the old environment, and a new environment will make her feel afraid. However, he really couldn't stay in this place anymore. Without her, it doesn't matter if he lives or dies, with her, there is new hope in life, but there are two sides to everything, a person with hope in his heart will be afraid, and the people and things here begin to overwhelm him.

"Ye Nianze, I'm sleepy." Gu Yu yawned and buried his head in his neck socket.

Looking at the person in his arms, he sighed softly, whether he left or stayed, he had to get rid of the Li family before he could talk about it. If that problem is not solved, everything is nonsense.

A week later, Qin Chuan received news that the boss of the Li family had set off with a group of followers, but the specific time and itinerary of the arrival were not notified, and he only explained to them - this time he came to meet a few old friends, and he didn't need to be taken care of by the Ye family, and they would be notified separately if necessary. The subtext is: we come, if we look for you, we will notify you; If I don't look for you, I don't have to meet.

After Ye Nianze heard about it, his face was not very good-looking, and he couldn't figure out what kind of medicine was sold in Li Yongxiao's gourd. He has said more than once that he has important things to interview with him, and he has also mentioned the matter of CN Securities. However, the other party's reaction was mediocre, and he only said that he had been a partner for many years, and he absolutely trusted Ye Shao as a person, and he was not in a hurry about sharing accounts.

Ye Nianze scolded in his heart: You're not in a hurry, I'm in a hurry!

However, after trying to communicate a few times, the other party has such an attitude, even if he has a lot of anger, he can only endure it. Fortunately, Gu Yu has been very honest these days, and she no longer mentions her sister's affairs, no longer mentions going back to her own home, and has no other thoughts that give Ye Nianze a headache.

She nests in the Ye family's mid-mountain villa every day, eats and sleeps, sleeps and eats, and raises herself like a piglet, very comfortable. For this situation, Ye Nianze couldn't ask for it, he was not afraid that she would have no ideas, he was afraid that she would have too many ideas, she was willing to stop, he was simply thankful.

But even if Gu Yu didn't ask, Ye Nianze also changed Gu Lixia and sent someone to take care of her 24 hours a day, doing her best to make her comfortable and decent during the drug rehabilitation period. Of course, there is a reward for paying, Gu Yu doesn't have to work hard, let go of his worries, his body is getting better day by day, and he slowly returns to his favorite body shape.

When night fell, Ye Nianze kneaded her full chest, nephrite Wen Xiang hugged her full arms, looking at her obediently and skillfully leaning in her arms, the satisfaction was indescribable.

It's just that occasionally, Gu Yu will look at something alone in a daze, and ask her if she has something on her mind, but she denies it.

Han Shuyi was busy with work, and Gu Yu called him. The two of them greeted each other a few words, and Ai Ai during the valley rain period looked like she wanted to say it but didn't dare to say it.

Han Shuyi felt strange and asked her, "What's wrong?" ”

Gu Yu was entangled for a moment before he cautiously asked, "Han Shuyi, do you think I am suitable for Ye Nianze?" ”

He was stunned: "Why did you suddenly ask this question?" ”

"I just want to know what you think."

He laughed, and his voice was bitter: "This man was chosen by yourself, whether it is suitable or not, don't you know it yourself?" ”

"Before the stock market crash, I thought very little, and I only did things according to whether I liked it or not. After the stock market crash, I felt as if I had suddenly grown up, and I began to care about the opinions of the people around me. Han Shuyi, the person I trust the most is you, and your opinion is very important to me. Anyone will lie to me, and you will not. ”

He threw the pen on the table: "If I tell you that it's not appropriate and I don't like you together, will you listen?" ”

"Why?"

"There's no reason, I just don't like it, will you listen?"

"I ......" Gu Yu looked embarrassed: "Did he offend you?" If so, I apologize to you on his behalf. ”

"He didn't offend me, I just don't want to see you together, will you listen to me?"

Gu Yu didn't speak, and Han Shu smiled: "You won't, won't you?" Gu Yu, growing up is to learn to face all choices by yourself and bear the consequences. There will be many choices in your future life, and you can't ask me every time. ”

Gu Yu was a little sad: "Are you angry? I didn't even say a word to you when I left your house. Sorry I was too confused and I ......"

"You don't have to apologize to me, you don't owe me. You helped me earn 800 million and helped our Han family get through the difficulties, and you didn't owe anyone anything, so you don't have to apologize. ”

"But...... I don't think you're happy. ”

"I'm not happy, will you give up the man you want? If I say to you, I want you to come back to me, will you come back? He paused for a moment and slowed his voice: "If I said to you that I like you too, would you choose again?" ”

Gu Yu was stunned: "You ...... I...... Are you kidding? ”

Han Shu's eyes were hot: "So, you see, even if I am the person you trust the most, I will have selfish intentions, and my suggestions are not to worry about." No matter how hard you try, you can't satisfy everyone, and by the time you understand that, you'll really grow up. ”

Gu Yu seemed to understand: "I seem to understand, but I don't seem to understand anything, why do you always speak so profoundly, isn't it good to be direct?" ”

"Adults are like this, you have to do everything."

"Why?"

"Because I don't want to embarrass others and embarrass myself; Because I already know the answer in my heart, I don't want to ask again; Because I didn't ask, I had hope in my heart and asked...... It will only make yourself sadter. He suddenly felt that the sun was dazzling, this phone call, such a dialogue, caught people off guard.

Gu Yu was silent, and after a while, she said, "Han Shuyi, if you really like me, I will be honored, really honored." ”

"Really?"

"Thank you for taking care of me for so long."

"No, you're cute."

"I ......"

"Gu Yu, is there anything else? I've got a call coming in from here. ”

"Oh, it's okay, you're busy, goodbye."

"Okay, goodbye."

As soon as Han Shu put down the phone, he suddenly felt that his eyes were a little blurry. He took off his glasses and wiped them with a handkerchief before he felt better. Picking up the pen, I looked at the document in front of me, half an hour passed, but I couldn't see a word. The pain that was deliberately delayed, as if it had only been overwhelmed at this time, made him have nowhere to hide. He took off his glasses again, only to feel a pain in his throat and a sour nose, as if he had a bad cold, and lay on the table for a long time.

When he was about to get off work, Han Shuyi received a phone call, and Han Tang asked him to go back to the Han family's old house, saying that he had something to discuss.

He returned to Han's house and saw Han Tang in the study on the second floor, the other party motioned for him to sit down, and asked, "Have you heard about the Li family and the Ye family?" ”

"What's the matter?"

Han Tang put down the teacup and said succinctly: "In the past few years, Ye Nianze used his company to help the Li family do some shady transactions, and now he wants to get out, but the other party doesn't seem to agree." ”

Han Shuyi frowned: "We all know Ye Nianze's foundation, in just a few years, he can achieve the company's current scale, and it will not be completely by luck." There are few people who do their job without having fish on their hands, but I didn't expect him to be involved with the Li family. Although money can make ghosts grind, but even the Li family's business dares to take over, and his courage is too great. ”

Han Tang laughed: "It's just that he is bold, he is playing with fire, and now he wants to withdraw, but the other party is not so easy to deal with." ”

Han Shuyi seemed to hear something: "What do you mean?" ”

"The Qin Chuan beside Ye Nianze said to me today that he hoped to ask me to come forward and let the Li family stop entanglement. His words are equivalent to Ye Nianze, I didn't give them a positive response, I want to ask your opinion. ”

Han Shuyi lowered his head and thought for a while: "They promised to make additional investment, but they have to adjust the sharing ratio. ”

"I've changed my tune today, and I can divide it, as long as I can get out smoothly, it doesn't matter how much money they spend." Han Tang smiled: "This is to take a fancy to our lack of money, and exchange the money for our favor." ”

Han Shuyi said: "It's profitable, you can help it, and the Li family doesn't have to be them." ”

Han Tang looked at him a little strangely: "I didn't expect you to agree so happily." ”