Time just flowed quietly, I forgot to tell my grandmother about having a child before, and then I just didn't want to talk about it, because I really became very good friends with my child.

At first, I still rarely went up the mountain to play with him, in fact, I vaguely felt that he should not be an ordinary child, but I didn't dare to think deeply, I was afraid that he was a ghost.

Grandma said that people and ghosts have different paths, people belong to yang, the more yang energy is stronger, the better the body, the better the luck, and the ghost is extremely yin, must not be in deep contact, otherwise it will affect the yang energy, and the light will delay the luck, the minor illness will be riddled with illness, and the heavy will be a life.

But giving birth to a child is really cute, I have never seen him such a beautiful child, the little face is always red, smiling like a happy baby, people are instinctively like beautiful things, and the birth of a child has saved me twice.

The first time was in the river, Feng Xia wanted to drag the big girl to death, I went to find the big girl and was saved by him.

The second time was after I went to school, our school also organized an autumn outing and picnic in the city, on our mountain, that time I was arranged to collect firewood, but I didn't expect a person to go farther and farther, and when I turned around and saw a snake looking at me with its body raised, making an attack gesture, I was scared to pee.

Or Shengzi suddenly appeared and drank the snake away, which is strange to say, Shengzi just glared at the snake and shouted, get out! The snake slipped away, and in this way, I gradually got used to playing with him when I had nothing to do.

I was afraid that he was a ghost, and that old contact would make me sick or something, but no, I was growing fast all the time, and I was the tallest in my class, and the boys couldn't compare to me, and I didn't study very well, but I couldn't complain about having children.

At that time, I couldn't help but ask Shengzi directly, are you a ghost, why do you never change your clothes, and you don't take me to your house to play, we can only play in the mountains.

Isako looked at me and smiled and said, ghosts don't have shadows, but I do, ghosts' heels can't touch the ground, but I can, ghosts can't shine in the sun for a long time in broad daylight, I can too, sister, do you still think I'm a ghost.

I choked on what he said and opened my mouth, "What are you?" ”

"I'm a god who blesses you, sister, do you believe it?" His smiling eyes curled like crescents.

Of course I don't believe it, will the fairy be a little doll, but he doesn't seem to have grown up, my body changes every year, he has always been a little doll, and then I don't care what he is, what does it matter if he is a ghost or a god, I only know that his name is Shengzi, and he is my good friend.

The biggest change after going to school is that I have become sensible, some of my grandmother's words no longer work with me, I have begun to become aware of gender, and I am more and more like a boy.

I like to wrestle with boys, the best thing is that no boy in the class can fall over me, I became famous at a young age, at first there were people in the class who liked to bully Xu Meijin, saying that she had a mother and no mother to raise something, and then without exception let me be beaten, at that time wherever I went, there were a few little boys behind me, Xu Meijin liked to walk next to me with his head up, commanding the one to get me a school bag, that to buy me popsicles to eat, very angry.

Until my grandmother found out that one day I was actually standing up and peeing, and beat me up with a broomstick, shouting in her mouth, "Jiaolong, how can there be a girl like you, you are too wild!" ”

I was beaten by my grandmother and didn't give in, and I shouted "I want to be a boy, I don't want to be a girl!" ”

Grandma was tired, sat on the kang and threw the broom pimple to the side, looking at me, "Being a boy and a girl is not something you can choose, you are a girl in your life, you know." ”

I was beaten all over my body, but I still held my neck, "I have a choice, I know I'm not normal!" You made me a girl, I don't like to be a girl! ”

"You ......" Grandma was about to beat me again when she saw this, grandpa hurriedly stepped forward to protect me, looked at grandma and said, "What are you doing, you are breaking it, the child is still young, and he is not sensible!" ”

"I'm sensible, I'm a monster, so my mom never comes back to see me, I can be a boy or a girl! I want to be a boy, and boys can protect themselves! I shouted loudly, looking fearless.

Grandma suddenly fell silent, looked at me and sighed, "Okay, since you are sensible, then grandma will lead you to the provincial capital and lead you to the big hospital, let's listen to what the doctor has to say, and see if the doctor says that you are a monster." After saying that, he raised his feet and walked out directly.

I stood in place, looking stubborn, it was the first time I talked to my grandma so loudly, because grandma's status in my heart was unparalleled, but I didn't know what was wrong that day, and I didn't want to cry, so I stood in place, grandpa asked me to go to grandma to apologize and I didn't go, just standing.

In the end, my grandfather looked at me and sighed, and muttered, "It's so big that I can't help it." "I lifted my feet and went out.

As soon as I saw that everyone was gone, I cried on the kang and cried, crying and crying.

When I woke up in a daze, I found that my clothes had been taken off by my grandmother, and my body was covered with a quilt, the room was very dark, and the night was already deep, I wanted to turn over and continue to sleep, but I heard my grandmother and grandfather whispering this.

"Old woman, you really want to take Jiaolong to the provincial capital to have a look, can you go so far by yourself."

"Okay, I have to go and see it, I can't keep it like this, Jiaolong is growing up day by day, I'm afraid she will have low self-esteem in the future."

"Hey, then this disease is quite expensive, you bring the passbook."

"Hmm."

"When you come back, take Jiaolong to the county seat to see Huijuan, this child hasn't seen her parents for a long time, you said that this Huijuan is also ruthless, why don't you come back to see the child."

"Alas, Huijuan is also busy with work, isn't it to give us money, let's talk about the meeting, if people don't want to see us, I don't want to trouble Huijuan, just go, I have to wait until Jiaolong is on summer vacation, let's sleep first."

……

I opened my eyes in the dark night, and I didn't know why I was crying, and it didn't hurt me when my grandma hit me, but I really wanted to be a boy, because I was disgusted with girls and things like that, and I felt that being a girl was not strong enough.

But I was still a little nervous when I thought that my grandmother was going to take me to the provincial capital, I don't know what the big doctor in the provincial city would think of me, is I the only one in the world like this, will I be arrested for experiments like in the book I read, and also, do I really want to see my mother, do I still want to see my grandmother who has never seen me once and only knows that she doesn't like me? What to say when you see her.

I don't know how long it was, but I fell asleep again.