Chapter 18: The Selfishness of Love

Shen Tianqing shook his head and walked out slowly, and sighed for a long time: "Alas, alas, I am alone...... Lonely man that ......"

Raising her head to look at the bright moon, a pair of beautiful eyes appeared in her mind, phoenix eyes like Hua Lingyu, only softer, more warm, so full of trust to look at him, with flying happiness in her soft voice, she smiled and said: "Brother Scarlet, take me to the temple fair tomorrow to play!" ”

Shen Tianqing closed his eyes and whispered: "Ya'er, your Yu'er has grown up and has her own happiness, isn't it very gratifying for you to look at such an excellent him in the sky?" ”

And behind him, the two people who were supposed to show their affection in the study walked out at some point.

Hua Lingyu's heart was sealed, and he didn't hear anything, but he sensed the sparse and sad aura emanating from his master's body. He looked at Luo Shuiyi, who was listening intently.

Luo Shuiyi leaned into his ear and whispered.

Then, Hua Lingyu's phoenix eyes suddenly deepened.

It wasn't until Shen Tianqing slowly walked away that Hua Lingyu found Xingyue and said in a deep voice: "Send a message to Streamer, I want him to find out about Master's past!" ”

Although Xingyue was puzzled, she still took the order and left.

Luo Shuiyi clenched Hua Lingyu's hand, and asked hesitantly, "Demon, your mother is ...... She ......"

Hua Lingyu pulled her into her arms and reminded, "That's your mother too." ”

Luo Shuiyi said sullenly: "I haven't married you yet!" ”

Hua Lingyu smiled: "Well, I know that the beauty is in a hurry, when I leave here, I will take you back to get married!" ”

Luo Shuiyi pushed him away, and said angrily: "Who is in a hurry!" I don't want to marry you! ”

Having said that, the beautiful little face has quietly turned crimson.

Hua Lingyu looked at her dotingly, and pretended to be pitiful and said: "Okay, okay, I'm in a hurry, I'm almost thirty years old, beauty, can you bear to let me continue to wait?" ”

Luo Shuiyi glared at him, then couldn't hold back a laugh, took the initiative to throw herself into his arms, and said softly: "Tell me about my mother." ”

"Okay." Hua Lingyu took Luo Shuiyi's hand and said leisurely as she slowly walked towards her room: "The queen mother died when I was very young. But I'll never forget how gentle and kind she was. Rui and I are twins, but I am the eldest son, so I have not been valued since I was a child, but the queen mother has been excellent to me, never giving up on me because of my destined fate, but doubling down on me because of this. I have all of them, even more than him. The queen mother, who is so gentle and indisputable, once worked with other concubines in order to protect me from being bullied. ”

"It's just," Hua Lingyu raised her head and said a little sadly, "There is always a sadness between her eyebrows, except when she looks at me and Ah Rui, she has never really smiled at anyone, even if it is to the emperor, it is only faint." It seems that apart from me and Ah Rui in this world, there is no one or thing in this world that is worthy of her emotion anymore. ”

"Until the day she died," Hua Lingyu looked at Luo Shuiyi, there were some tears in his phoenix eyes, and he said in a deep voice, "When she died, there was a smile on the corner of her lips, as if she was relieved." I never understood what she was after, but now it seems that if it is related to the master, I ......"

Luo Shuiyi clenched his hand and said firmly: "No!" The master is not that kind of person, here...... There must be something hidden, let's find out and fulfill her wish, okay? ”

Hua Lingyu took a deep breath, looked at the smiling Luo Shuiyi deeply, and nodded.

"Miss......"

Luo Shuiyi turned around and saw Hua Qianqian with a hesitant face.

"Qianqian, you...... What happened to you? Luo Shuiyi let go of the hand holding Hua Lingyu and walked in front of Hua Qianqian.

Hua Qianqian looked at Luo Shuiyi fixedly, and was silent for a while before she said softly: "Floating ......"

Luo Shuiyi looked at her and said in a deep voice: "You're soft-hearted, aren't you?" ”

"I ......" Hua Qianqian bit her lip, she didn't know how to explain her contradiction to Luo Shuiyi, watching Ji Lixuan feel her despair over and over again, she felt very happy, but at the same time, she was reluctant and distressed. She found that she was ultimately unable to be ruthless to him.

Luo Shuiyi sighed, rubbed Hua Qianqian's hair and said, "Silly girl." You still love him! ”

Hua Qianqian paused, and then said softly: "I don't want to be hurt again, so I can only hurt him." Miss, you say, am I being selfish? ”

Luo Shuiyi smiled: "How come? Compared to Hua Lingyu, you are already selfless......"

"Beauty......" Hua Lingyu said in an astringent voice.

Luo Shuiyi waved her hand and motioned him not to speak, she continued: "And I didn't go selflessly, I tried all kinds of methods to torture myself and torture him indirectly, I know that I am in pain, and he will be more painful than me." ”

Hua Lingyu came over and hugged her into his arms, tightly, but no longer spoke, what she meant, he understood.

But Hua Qianqian hasn't understood it yet. So Luo Shuiyi continued: "People are selfish, but it is precisely because of this selfishness that he understands your pain, understands your thoughts, and allows you to vent the grievances you have accumulated over the years." Although those in the past were very painful, now that they have punished him, why not give him a chance to make amends? You have to believe that after these punishments, he will not make the same mistake again. If he disappoints you again, it's not too late for you to give up on him. ”

Hua Qianqian hesitated: "Give him another chance?" ”

Luo Shuiyi nestled in Hua Lingyu's arms and nodded: "It's not more than three." Even if it is a lawsuit, there is also a first and second instance, and even a review and supervision procedure for a retrial! Since he has already known his mistake and you still love him, why can't you give him another chance? Qianqian, 500 times of looking back in the past life in exchange for a passing in this life, fate, to cherish. ”

Hua Qianqian was stunned and recalled Luo Shuiyi's words, although she didn't understand what litigation and censorship were, but she still understood the general meaning.

After a long time, she raised a firm smile and said, "I understand, miss, I know what to do." ”

Luo Shuiyi said appreciatively: "It is worthy of being the gentle and calm master of my family, you can rest assured and bold to pursue your own happiness, we are all your family, your backing!" ”

She put a bottle of antidote in Hua Qianqian's hand, watched her leave confidently, yawned, and rubbed Hua Lingyu and said, "Demon, I'm so sleepy......"

Hua Lingyu smiled dotingly, picked her up, and took her to sleep.

Ji Lixuan has been really miserable in the past few days.

In the past, he occasionally dreamed of the painful images of that time, but most of the time, it was the joy of the past. But now, as soon as he closed his eyes, the past swept him away like a tidal wave, and he was immersed in boundless pain, like a drowning man, unable to grasp any straw that could save his life, and the desperate pain almost swallowed him.

Tonight, he dreamed again of Lolo's bruises. Such a piercing bloodstain, such a desperate expression. Ji Lixuan couldn't wait to die immediately, it was better than such mental destruction.

Just when he was immersed in a sad dream and couldn't extricate himself, a pair of gentle hands pulled him up from the boundless sea of suffering.

Ji Lixuan opened his eyes wet with tears, and Hua Qianqian's stoic eyebrows came into view.

"Qian'er......" Ji Lixuan said hoarsely.

Hua Qianqian helped him up, handed over a pill and said, "The antidote to the floating life." Eat it and you won't have nightmares again. ”

Ji Lixuan looked at her in a daze, for a long time, grabbed her hand excitedly, and said incoherently: "Qian'er, you...... You're punishing me, aren't you? You're not disappointed in me, are you? You...... Have you forgiven me? ”

Hua Qianqian looked at the man who used to be like a fairy, but now he was as stubborn and full of expectation as a child begging for candy, and her heart was like overturning a five-flavor bottle, mixed with sweet and sour, and finally a smile on her lips.

She whispered, "You eat it, let's have a good talk." ”

“…… Good! Good! Ji Lixuan was busy eating the antidote, pulling Hua Qianqian and not letting go.

Seeing this, Hua Qianqian had to sit on the edge of the bed with him, looked closely at the handsome man in front of her, and asked, "Now, do you know what I want?" ”

Ji Lixuan nodded, he tentatively stretched out his hand, and after not being resisted, he carefully hugged Hua Qianqian into his arms, and said with an oath: "Qian'er, from now on, no matter what hardships I encounter, I will never let go of your hand again." Even if you want to break your bones and scatter ashes, I will be with you. I don't want to betray you for any ridiculous reason again. The two of us will be born together in the future, and we will die in the same cave, and even death will no longer be able to separate us. If I go before you, I'll take you with me! ”

Hua Qianqian listened, her almond-like eyes were covered with a layer of mist, and she chuckled: "You are older than me, you must die before me, so I don't want to accompany you!" ”

When Ji Lixuan heard this, he tightened his hand holding her, suppressed the ecstasy in his heart, and said with a straight face: "If you don't want to, you have to be willing!" Who made you my wife? Isn't it the responsibility of being the * to always be with your husband? ”

Hua Qianqian pouted: "When will I be your wife?" You are married to someone called Hua Luo, not Hua Qianqian. What's more, in the end...... I didn't get married......"

Ji Lixuan immediately jumped up and said, "I'll let them prepare for the wedding immediately!" Let's go to the church tomorrow and get married now! ”

Hua Qianqian hurriedly grabbed the excited Ji Lixuan, and said with a smile: "You better avenge me first and then marry me, otherwise, I won't marry!" ”

Ji Lixuan's body shook, looked back at her, and said in a deep voice: "I will!" "The silent eyes are full of cruelty.

Hua Qianqian stood up, rubbed his face, and whispered: "I have never been a good person, I have hurt me, one day, I will return it with interest." I'm not going to intercede for them, I just want you to protect yourself and not get hurt again. ”

Ji Lixuan clenched her hand and said with a smile: "For you, I will protect myself well." ”