Xu Meijin bit her lip and looked at me, as soon as she let go of her hand, the photos in the paper bag were scattered all over the ground, her lips trembled slightly, and she squatted down and cleaned up in a panic. Suddenly, he paused, raised his eyes, and looked at me and smiled sadly: "Jiaolong, I didn't think about harming your ......"

As she spoke, she took a deep nose, swept her eyes, and looked at the books and magazines stacked on the coffee table, and almost rushed over to pick up one and put it in front of my eyes: "Look, this is what I've been reading recently, Europe, or Asia, you choose." I have money, I have a lot of money, we can live happily anywhere, you say you want to go, I will go with you, didn't you always want to ride the Ferris wheel when you were a child, you see I made a mark, there are many Ferris wheels in the United States. Las Vegas, and Texas also have ......"

"Jiaolong, look, you see there are pictures here, I can sit with you. I did a lot of strategies. We didn't have any money before, and we had to be some kind of little model, but now we don't, we have a lot of money, you see, whatever you like, I can accompany you to do it. ”

I looked at her anxious and somewhat incoherent face, and reached out to push away the book she had spread out in front of my eyes: "Tell me, how to do it." You won't pester me. ”

Xu Meijin cried, she shook her head, tears flowed down her cheeks and directly to her chin: "No, I'm not what you think, I just want you to be happy, we have been together for twenty years, how can you think so badly, everything I do is for us, it's all for me and you, I've been planning for our future." ”

My heart gradually became pantothenic, and I looked at her kneeling in front of me, and her voice was slightly hoarse: "Do you know, you are very selfish, you are already sick, do you know, do you have to go to see a psychiatrist." ”

As I spoke, I slowly got up, picked up the book and flipped through two pages in my hand: "America? Xu Meijin, you and I have been growing up since childhood, I have always regarded you as my best, best friend, sister, I know that you take care of my grandparents, so I can't tolerate you to suffer a little grievance, I knew that you would become like this today, I shouldn't have saved you if you were going to marry Chen Wei and hang yourself!! ”

'Smack'!! With a bang, the book was slammed down by me in front of Xu Meijin's eyes, and she was so frightened that she screamed and looked at me with teary eyes: "What you said! Why are you saving me! What's wrong with me! Now that I'm alive, I have the right to pursue happiness! What's wrong with me just wanting to be with someone I like!! ”

"Shut up!! Don't tell me what you like or dislike! If I had a little thought about you, would I have ended up with you where I am today? I do not like you! Did you hear me!! ”

Xu Meijin couldn't cry herself, she slowly reached out to the floor and looked at me: "Jiaolong, you weren't like this before, you weren't like this, whoever bullied me when I was a child, you would help me, aren't you the most disdainful of me being wronged......"

I don't know why, my heart also began to hurt, "Who is bullying whom, I can shout at you, I can scold you, but what about you, all your self-righteous treats to me are making soft knives on me, Xu Meijin, I'm really tired, I can't stand the entanglement with you, just tell me, how can you leave ......"

As I spoke, I crouched down in front of her and lifted her chin to let her look at me, "Say, you tell me a way for me and you to be free, I'm really going to be driven crazy by you, I beg you, you tell me, how about it, you can disappear from my life, okay." ”

Xu Meijin's face was covered with tears, her eyes were red and swollen from crying, and she opened her mouth, "I want a child......"

"What."

She sniffed and looked at me: "Give me a child, I'll go." ”

As soon as my hand was loosened, the whole person sat down in the back in a hurry: "What are you kidding!" ”

Xu Meijin took a deep breath, wiped her tears vigorously, then slowly got up on the floor, took a tissue and wiped the tears on her face little by little, looking at me, her voice was still a little uncontrollable trembling: "I tried to forget you, but I know I can't do it, I won't do stupid things like Zhang Yida in my life, in fact, when I was with him, I knew that I didn't love him, and I couldn't love him, but he has money, I know I can't do anything without money, So I got a lot of money out of his hands, and I can afford to raise a child, and if you're not with me, then I have to have yours. ”

"You pervert, you."

I looked at her in disbelief, where is she still the gentle and gentle Xu Meijin who blushes when she jokes too much? No, she's changed a long time ago, how could I still use my old mind to explore her thoughts?

Xu Meijin had tears in her eyes, looked at me sadly and self-deprecatingly smiled: "I'm a pervert, I don't know why I'm like this, it's also your fault, why do you want me to know that half of you are men, why do you look so much like a man, if you are a pure girl who is similar to me, I wouldn't dream that my husband is like you, I was a child fantasizing, I want to find a boyfriend like you, but suddenly one day I understand, I don't want to find a boyfriend, I just wanted to find you! I knew my mind when I was in junior high school, but I don't understand, it's just you! ”

As she spoke, she let out a long breath: "But I know what this society is like, what our village is like, I don't want to be laughed at by others, saying that I am gay, so I want to die, I will be a hundred when I die, I will not marry that Chen Wei, I will not be entangled in my feelings for you, but you saved me, if you save me, you will be a new life, why do I have to hide it, I hate that Zhuo Jing to death, if it weren't for him, I wouldn't need to break the word in my life, and you only have me by your side!" Whether you are a man or a woman in this life, I will accompany you!! ”

"Hehehehe."

I actually laughed, and I didn't know why I laughed, but I suddenly realized sadly that her heart was twisted, and I thought that whatever I said was useless.

"What are you laughing at?"

I didn't answer, and looked up at her: "Is there a second choice, except to have a baby with you?" ”

"Yes." Xu Meijin stood with her back straight, her eyes full of tears, and she spit out three words: "Kill me." ”

“……”

I sat there and didn't move, watching Xu Meijin's tears fall in front of me like this, and the air was full of dead silence before the explosion, "Jiaolong, is it so difficult, I know you can do it, it's not fake that you have feelings for me......"

She was talking to me as if she were talking to herself, until I got up and stood across from her with a blank face, and opened her lips slightly: "I have feelings for you, don't I?" ”

Xu Meijin no longer wiped her tears, and looked at me with her neck straight: "You can't fool me, you used to be afraid of sleeping in a bed with me and covering a quilt, I used to think that you were shy, or a little introverted in your bones, but now I know, you are afraid that you will have a physiological reaction to be seen by me, so you refuse to sleep with me." ”

I looked at her with straight eyes, nodded, reached out and pulled her over and kissed her directly on the lips, she was caught off guard, her teeth broke my lower lip, and a fishy and salty taste came out, Xu Meijin pushed me away in a little panic: "Jiaolong, you are bleeding ......"

"Why, isn't that what you think."

I wiped the blood on my lips viciously, and watched Xu Meijin's hands grab my neck, a kind of breath belonging to a woman's body invaded overwhelmingly, I don't know where I got so much strength, like crazy, pressed her on the sofa like crazy, and kept tearing her clothes with both hands, Xu Meijin's hands were also touching my body, entangled desperately, until her hands went all the way down my belt, my movements were stunned, and I looked at her who was a little confused under me: "Do you have a reaction......

Xu Meijin's flushed face was poured down as if a bucket of ice water was pouring down, the movements in her hands paused, and the coat had been completely torn off by me, this scene was unusually close to that day in her villa, and her breathing was still uncontrollable and panted slightly: "Jiaolong, you ......"

I propped my arms and didn't move, looking at her expressionlessly: "I'll ask you again, do you have a reaction." ”

Xu Meijin didn't speak, but pulled out her hand and gently lifted her upper body to wrap her neck around me again, she kissed me unremittingly, even if I clenched my teeth, she looked like she was doing her best, until I couldn't bear it anymore, and pushed her shoulders away: "You're enough!" ”

Her head slammed into the sponge cushion of the sofa, and her eyes were full of moisture: "Why?" ”

I reached out and ripped off her sweater, gritting my teeth and looking at her, "Because I don't feel for you, I can't do anything with you...... You can die. ”

With that, I got up and straightened my clothes and headed for the door.

"Jiaolong!!" She struggled to get up and caught up with me and grabbed my arm: "I don't believe it! You did it on purpose, right? You did it on purpose! Belch!! ”

Backhanded, I grabbed her neck with red eyes, "Don't mess with me again, roll away, do you hear?" ”

Xu Meijin's neck was pinched by me against the wall next to her, looking at me, she still shook her head: "Unless you kill me, I won't let go......"

The gurgling of teeth in my mouth was unusually clear, I looked at her face, for the first time, I had the urge to tear it apart, and my fingers slowly increased the force and said, "Do you think I don't dare." “

"Uh...... I don't believe it...... I don't believe ......"

She struggled to spit out slurred words from the slit in her throat, but she didn't struggle, and looked at me with wide eyes, "Jiaolong......"

I looked at her slowly suffocating her face, but the strength in her hand became heavier and heavier, and it even seemed that a voice said in my heart, kill her, otherwise you still can't escape such entanglement, and you can be freed by killing her!

She couldn't stand it anymore, her mouth opened slightly, and her hands weakly hammered my wrists, "Jiao, Jiaolong......"

Behind the scenes, tears from her eyes fell onto the back of my hand, and there was a burst of heat

A childish child's voice suddenly sounded in his ears, "Jiaolong, just don't go, I'm just a friend of yours, you should come back early this time in the big city, I'll wait for you at home." ”

"Big girl, I'll bring you delicious food from the city when I come back."

"I don't want anything delicious, just come back early."

"Jiaolong, we will still be in the same class in junior high school."

"Definitely, neither of us can study well, hehe."

"It's okay in one class, but in other classes, I'm afraid that others will bully me and no one will help me."

"Who dares to bully you! If you're really not in the same class, you look for me, and I'll beat him! ”

"Okay, hehe."

My mind was all about her at that time, and my chest twitched uncontrollably, "Ah!!! ”

Letting go of my hand, tears poured out uncontrollably, Xu Meijin slid softly along the wall and sat on the ground, I hammered the wall with a heavy fist, looking at her who couldn't help coughing on the ground: "Why! Why are you pushing me so hard! Where is the big girl, ah, you give me back my big girl!!!! ”

Xu Meijin coughed while stroking her neck and crying, "Ahem! Jiaolong, Jiaolong......"

"Roll !!!!!"

I shouted heavily, as if I had exhausted all my strength, and directly broke the sound, pushed away her outstretched hand, turned around, and strode downstairs!

Behind me was the voice of Xu Meijin crying, but I couldn't wait for the elevator, just ran until I ran out of the corridor, the cold wind like a knife cut my face, I wanted to drive, but I didn't bring the car keys, kicked the door hard, and the car's alarm began to sound, I collapsed and squatted on the ground, my ears were full of howling cold wind, and the tears in my eyes were swept away by the cold wind and there was a dry and cracked pain, "Ah!!! ”

I got up with the car, raised my feet and ran outside the community, this kind of suppressed but unvented emotion almost drove me crazy! machine