He kept muttering during the time he dragged him back, not knowing what to say. In the end, I actually started to hum the tune, it was still the song that Ling Ge helped me write before, and I probably understood that I was also my mother in the fourth year of my departure.

Throw him on the bed, cover him with the quilt, and just as he was about to leave, he was grabbed by the hand, and I turned my head. But he saw that he had woken up.

"Stay with me." The tone of the departing seal was inexplicably a little soft. Then he turned over, faced me, and with a bang, turned into a white fox.

It's the first time this guy has taken the initiative to become a fox, of course I can't turn over this opportunity to pet a fox, so I quickly hugged him, "Why did you drink so much wine today." ”

"I was happy to meet my old friends, and I drank a few times more." Lifeng replied. The tail swept over my wrist.

"Are you back to the fox clan?" I touched his fur, soft, warm, he was still a young fox, so it was very comfortable to touch.

"Well," he replied, "I thought it was all over, and I had already let it go." ”

"But that thing has really happened, and even if it is in the past, it may not be able to let go." I comforted him, "Speaking of which, we are really alike, even if I see my mother and know that she is fine now, I still can't let go of my heart." ”

There was no movement from Lifeng, just curled up in my arms, I touched his fur, and continued: "You should think about those who died at your hands. ”

"I've seen it," Lifeng replied, "I used to be accompanied by Wuyin, but all these years, I'm alone." ”

"Next time, I'll go with you." I whispered. "You say, will they forgive you?"

"Probably, no," Lifeng smiled bitterly, "after all, they put the most vicious curse on me before they died." ”

I let out a long sigh of relief, "It's okay, it's their business to forgive or not, what you have to do is to try to get them to forgive you." ”

Lifeng suddenly laughed, "I took back my previous words, you are really similar to your mother in a certain way, she once said such things to me, her expression, tone, and even the words she said." ”

"Really?" My tone was soft, "Lifeng, do you like my mother very much?" ”

"Well," Lifeng replied, "but, maybe it's just like." He opened his heterochromatic pupils and looked at me, then closed his eyes again, "Tomorrow you're going to worship your parents, aren't you?" ”

"Well," I replied, "in the morning." "As for the afternoon, there are other things.

Lifeng suddenly got up, swayed and jumped on the bed, and suddenly changed back to human form, his face was still a little drunk, his eyes were drunk, and he reached out and touched my head, "I'll go with you." ”

"Hmm." I responded, "There may be a lot of people who worship my parents tomorrow, my grandfather took me to the Qingming Festival in the past, every time I go, I can see a lot of flowers and offerings left there, but I don't see anyone, I have always thought this is a very magical thing, but now I probably understand, it is all nightless people." ”

Lifeng didn't speak, just lay down, pillowed his head on my lap, took a breath, and the smell of wine came, I couldn't help laughing, didn't move him, forget it, so be it.

I got up early the next morning, bought the sacrificial melons, fruits and flowers, packed up the incense and candles, closed the shop, and walked to the cemetery with two people.

I arrived at the cemetery this time early, but I also saw the chrysanthemum and incense candles sent by someone, I don't know if it was because of the wind or because of something else, it was a little messy, I reached out to clean it, and looked at the empty tombstone, this is a joint burial tomb, the tombstone has no photos and portraits since a long time ago, I asked my grandfather why there is no photo of my parents, and my grandfather only said that he did not leave it. I didn't ask any more questions.

Perhaps, right now, I still don't understand.

I packed up the flowers, melons and fruits that I offered, and put the flowers I picked for my parents in the middle, not ordinary white chrysanthemums, but begonias.

"Lifeng said that my mother's favorite is begonia flowers, so I bought begonia flowers," I said, "I don't know what flowers my father likes, so I just make do with it, anyway, it's all for my mother." I continued to put things out, "I know almost everything, including Lin Xi's matter, huh...... Actually, it's not that I don't want to call Aunt Lin Xi anymore, it's just that since I know that she is actually one with me, I call my aunt again, and I feel like I'm calling my aunt, so Mom and Dad don't care, well, where did Dad go, why didn't you come back to see us? Mom misses Dad very much, Mom also said that she wants to stay in the underworld and wait for Dad, Dad, I have seen my grandparents, they are all very good to me, and I have also inherited the responsibilities of the Yang Realm Yama, but the water in the Dao Gate is too deep, Dad doesn't like it, I don't like it either, I probably won't go back, they all said that I am not suitable, but my grandfather and my mother are both Onmyoji, and the Onmyoji can't disappear in the Daomen, so I'm also very entangled, what to do. ”

I'm not going to finish talking about it, maybe I used to listen to my grandfather say that I haven't seen my parents since I was a child, so I'm a little rusty, and there's nothing to say, even if there is, it's to report on the nearby learning situation and the situation at school. But now it's different, at least we have a common topic.

Lifeng and Ling Ge stood behind me, listening to me, I inserted all the incense candles, "Mom is a ghost in the underworld, although it doesn't govern our area, but I can still see it when I'm free, hmm, but I accidentally told my father's identity last time, and my mother seems to be very angry, so if you show up, Dad, it's better to be careful, it's best to buy something that Mom likes to coax, otherwise it will be very dangerous." The paper money also burned, "There is no news from my grandfather now, to be honest, I am still a little worried about him, my grandfather has never known how to take good care of himself, and I don't know how it is now, but my grandfather seems to be unlucky, I accidentally told my grandfather some of my mother, well, it was really accidental, I didn't mean to." As he spoke, he couldn't help but stick out his tongue.

"By the way, I won the second place in this music performance competition, although this performance competition itself is not what I want to participate in, and the repertoire is only for my mother to play, but I am still very happy to win the award, but I will not be proud, I will continue to work hard." I continued, "And oh, I have a boyfriend, his name is Jiang Wan, his name is Yin Yangming, he is a very good person, but there are some things that I didn't come to see you today, next time I will definitely bring him to meet you, and show my parents what my future husband looks like." ”

"Also, you may not believe it, but there are really many, many amazing things happening around me, and I have never paid attention to them before......"

I didn't finish talking about it, Ling Ge and Lifeng were always behind me, listening to me talking, without saying a word, there were occasional bursts of ghost crying wolf howls in front of the other tombstones around me, and there were also three bows with a serious and solemn face, only our side was harmonious. It's like chatting with your family.

My topic ended after an aunt next to me cried and fainted, seeing this aunt crying so sadly, I also took a curious look, only to find out that it was her son who died, and the white-haired person sent the black-haired person, can you not be sad.

After talking all morning, I also had a dry mouth, went home to eat something, had a good rest, and then ran out again. This time I didn't take Ling Ge and Lifeng with me, I ran out secretly, went out and ran to the flower shop to buy a bouquet of flowers, and made another phone call, half an hour later, I ran to a cemetery on the other side of the city, and slowly turned in.

Sun Xiaoxiao was wearing a black dress, and there was a mature woman who looked similar to her beside her, and not far behind her, there were a few of her followers standing, and they did not step forward.

"You're here," as soon as they met, Sun Xiaoxiao smiled miserably at me, and then led the way into the cemetery, turned left and right, and found a tombstone, the photos on it made me familiar with the heartache, what was in this tomb was just a piece of clothing, the body and soul were gone, and I could only make a clothed tomb.

I placed the flower in front of the tombstone, bowed three times to the tombstone, and opened my mouth slightly, "Fool, you don't need to die, that task should be done by you." We just met in the water, how can it be worth it for you to make me owe a life. ”

Sun Xiaoxiao and his grandmother next to him began to cry again, both of them were wearing glasses, obviously crying and red-eyed.

My grandmother walked up to me and patted me on the shoulder, "Child, thank you, if it weren't for you, perhaps, I wouldn't be able to find him in my life, no matter what the ending is, it's his choice, he won't regret it, and I won't either." Thank you for coming to see him. ”

I shook my head and didn't say anything, just looked at the person on the tombstone, and I thought of the man again, the man who would give back all his trust unconditionally if he gave a little trust, even risking his life.

I'm afraid, it's also the person I owe the most in my life.

After that day, I hypnotized myself many times, it was just a dream, but when I woke up, it was so real, and it also made me really understand that it was not a dream, the dream was awake, and I would slowly forget everything that happened in the dream, but this so-called dream made me remember it deeply, like an indelible memory carved on the soul.