Chapter 184: The Story of the Past

"Oh? I don't know which of your tendons is pumping, I have more free time, I can help you loosen. Gu Lingge didn't make much movement when he sat on his lap, only shook his hand lightly, shaking off some of the previous tiredness. There have been a lot of things in the palace in the past two days, and it will be the queen mother's birthday in another ten days, Gu Lingge forgot what to do last year, but this year it can't be simply fooled.

But no matter what, Gu Lingge still planned to go to the Queen Mother to say goodbye first and see what the Queen Mother meant. She has always believed that whoever has something to do should solve it, and if the Queen Mother didn't arrange it, she would think about what to do. Listening to Lixia say that this year coincides with the 50th birthday of the Queen Mother, judging from the reason that men wish to enter and women to celebrate the full, this year should indeed be a big event.

"I'll go ask the queen mother. Don't rush to prepare for these things yet. Li Xia just presented a list, and when she looked up, she was preparing for the birthday banquet, Gu Lingge was looking at it very carefully, and she didn't plan to avoid it, so Qing Ruifan could see it clearly. Qing Ruifan remembered that earlier last year, when Qing Haoxuan died.

At that time, Gu Lingge was thinking about how to use Qing Haoxuan's death to make Qing Ruifan's throne more stable, and when Qing Ruifan questioned her, the emptiness and indifference in her eyes Qing Ruifan saw it in her eyes. Qing Ruifan didn't know at all whether he had affected her in this year, but asking Gu Lingge to host a birthday banquet for someone she was not familiar with at all was afraid that would make her even more uncomfortable.

"If you really want to have children, then you shouldn't tell me." Gu Lingge had never considered this issue. A long time ago, when Gu Huai was still there, he once questioned Gu Lingge with a fierce face, aggressively, and aggressively asked her why she came to this world, why he lost not Gu Lingge instead of Pei Yao, whom he loved to the bone.

From that time on, she didn't think the child was a good thing. She's not a good person, and she can't coax children. She didn't feel that she was born into a sin, but she did not like to have another child. It's okay for her to have experienced such things herself.

"Ah Ling, you never seem to have told me about your childhood." Qing Ruifan hugged Lingge tightly. Even though he couldn't see her expression now, he could clearly feel the sadness that had just rushed out of her body. Quietly but also overwhelming, like a river with a sudden high tide, quietly passing the lights of thousands of homes, carrying the pain and scars moving forward.

No one notices the rise and fall of a river, they can only see the river rushing towards the sea.

"Me?" Gu Lingge didn't mind this topic, anyway, there was nothing to do now, it was still so early before the time for dinner, and it was not a matter for him and him to stay here all the time. "I was raised by my father." When the word father was spoken, Qing Ruifan could clearly hear the pause in her tone, as if she was very unfamiliar.

"When I was a kid my dad wouldn't let me call him daddy, the only time was when I was six years old. At that time, he took me to the bottom of the cliff of Fukye Mountain, and when he turned to leave, I called him father, and he did not look back at me, so he did not deny my name. Gu Lingge remembered the scene at that time, she and the Yun family, the Mu family, a total of six people, plus one Chu Zhaonan, didn't bring any dry food, except for weapons, clothes and flints.

"When I was eight years old, he celebrated my birthday as if he remembered something. At that time, I was trained by him to be wary, and I didn't even move my chopsticks on a table of delicious food. I just watched him eat. Gu Lingge jumped down from Qing Ruifan, and a pair of dark eyes looked directly into his eyes. Qing Ruifan didn't see discomfort inside, but was as indifferent as a bystander.

"He looked at me after eating, sat down next to me with chopsticks, looked at me with a wary face, and held the chopsticks and stuck them in my hand on the side of the table." Gu Lingge suddenly sneered when he came here, "At that time, I was the only one who liked to read. ”

"He holds a pen all the year round, and he has no strength in his hands, and I dodge it in time, otherwise my left hand would have been useless." Gu Lingge sneered after speaking. Gu Huai has tossed her for so many years, and that time impressed her the most. It was also the first time she knew that Gu Huai really hated her to the bone.

"Then I asked him why, and he slumped in his chair and asked me, 'Why didn't you die?' If Lord Yama accepts it, I would be willing to take your life to pay for your mother's life, why...... Why did you survive? Gu Lingge can still be regarded as a drama sometimes, she didn't deliberately imitate Gu Huai's tone of speech, but Qing Ruifan could really see how angry Gu Huai was at that time through her expression.

"Then I was thirteen years old, and when I woke up one day, I never saw him again, and no one told me where he had gone. I took over the helm of Liulizhuang until now, and no one has told me about him, nor has anyone sent anyone to look for him. After Gu Lingge finished speaking, he leaned lazily on the chair. The lotus branch pattern on the back made her feel very comfortable, and she took a shallow sip of the ginger soup sent by Lixia in her hand.

"I'm different from you, I don't have such a plain and happy, so-called family things, I can only rely on my own to fight for everything, my Liulizhuang and I have survived until now by fighting on my own." Gu Lingge still couldn't accept the spicy smell of ginger soup overflowing his nose when he drank it in his mouth, so he raised his head and drank it all very simply, and then asked Lixia to take a cup of tea to rinse his mouth.

Qing Ruifan didn't know what to say, he knew that Gu Lingge had a hard time before, but he still didn't expect it to be so difficult. Although there are many royal secrets, Qing Haoxuan is a good father, and the queen mother is also a good ruler, and their lives are not as much as the royal family in the history books.

"Okay, you go back first, I will watch the affairs of the Queen Mother's birthday, and I will tell you if there is really any problem." Gu Lingge said such a long thing to Qing Ruifan, and suddenly he didn't know how to face him, so he simply gave an order to evict the guest. Qing Ruifan was also simply, thinking that he was going to call the minister to discuss the matter, and he left in a hurry.

Gu Lingge glanced at Li Xia, who gave her a very warm smile back. Gu Lingge nodded and asked her to pass on the Nine Princesses. Except for the beginning when he went to see Gu Liangyue, Gu Lingge had never seen her until now, and now he just took the opportunity to discuss the birthday banquet and asked her to come over and have a look, without delay.

Although Gu Liangyue's body is still a little unstable, it is already much better than at the beginning, and Feng Yiluo often brings good medicine to visit Gu Liangyue, so in general, it is no problem to go out.

Gu Liangyue also wanted to be able to breathe when she left the house, who knew that Qing Ruiting was very worried about her, not only sent the best escort to send her, but also almost came herself, Gu Liangyue said that she persuaded him to go back, and when everyone sat down in Gu Lingge's palace, she had to ask people to go back and report to Qing Ruiting.

"My sister smiled, Rui Ting has such a temper, as if she was afraid that I wouldn't be able to go back if I came out." Gu Liangyue smiled shallowly at Gu Lingge, and at a glance, she knew that life was very nourishing. Gu Lingge and Li Xia looked at each other and smiled, and shook their heads gently.

"Look at what this said, only if you care about you will take care of you, and it should be you who is in the Buddha and doesn't know what you are talking about." Gu Lingge hadn't joked with anyone for a long time, and he occasionally felt stunned after finishing speaking. Lixia and Tang Pozi stuffed it into the Gu Ling singer, and then retreated to the side with Cui Qi very silently.

"My sister has been looking good lately, and I'm relieved to see that I'm fine." Gu Liangyue is sincere, the last time she saw Gu Lingge, her face was sallow, she didn't have any energy at all, she was still floating when she walked, how weak she looked, but this time she had the heart to joke, but it was already a big circle.

"I'm going back and forth like that, and there's no such thing as good or bad. You are, take care of yourself, you are not alone anymore, usually pay more attention, don't stuff everything into your mouth. Gu Lingge intentionally or unintentionally pointed to her recent diet and Qing Ruiting's way of taking care of her like feeding a pig.

Gu Liangyue pursed her lips and smiled, nodding her head to indicate that she knew. The two talked a few words before talking about the birthday of the Queen Mother.

"This," Gu Liangyue thought about it while holding the teacup, "I didn't care much about the prince before, everyone's gifts are just dedication, after all, the queen mother is used to eating fasting and worshipping Buddha, and she doesn't like those big battles and the like, so don't use it this year." ”

Gu Liangyue thought about what to send to the Queen Mother in the first year of marrying Qing Ruiting, but later listened to Qing Ruiting's statement, and felt that more or less her own heart was enough, so most of them voted for the Buddhist things she liked. I don't plan to change it this year.

"That's right, the emperor has always advocated frugality, and Buddhism also says simplicity, so let's do it first, and the total amount of the internal affairs supervisor will be determined." Gu Lingge thought about it, and still planned to do it normally. She couldn't afford to prepare too well for her enemies.

"Then let's do it first, I'll tell you when I need it." Gu Lingge is not a nagging person, she doesn't want to spend much time with Gu Liangyue when she gets the information she wants, after all, she doesn't like to grind, so it's better to sleep well

Gu Liangyue smiled happily when she left. She is not stupid, she can still see it, except that the crazy husband of her own family sent someone to follow her, Gu Lingge also asked Mu Er to follow her all the way.

To be able to get such protection and care, she felt worth it in her heart, and she made up her mind. You have to take your time to see a lot of things.