Chapter 9: Relief
The sky is blue, and the birds chirp happily in the still thin morning light, making the spring morning a little more fresh and warm.
Jing Xuan finished freshening up and walked out of his tent, last night the emperor temporarily ordered him to go back to Beijing to deal with urgent matters, he wanted to leave early, and got up earlier than usual.
After the fire was about to be extinguished, he saw her......
She leaned on the high felt cushion, but the person was tightly curled into a ball, giving people a feeling of weakness and helplessness for no reason, her head was tilted against the felt cushion, and a line of tears hung on the pretty and thin cheeks, which made people feel soft, and he even clenched his fists to deliberately contain his inexplicable pity and guilt.
He looked at her and felt strange.
When she smiled at him, when she looked at him calmly, when she was very sensible and worldly when she rewarded the imperial doctor, when she cherished the dirty food, he was not too surprised, but at this moment...... He suddenly realized that no matter how annoying she was, she was only a little girl of sixteen or seventeen. He never thought that she would be vulnerable, he deliberately said so many things that hurt her, and did so many things that hurt her, she ignored the past without skin and face, entangled, and entangled so much that he was ruthless.
It's always her bullying and hurting others, how can she be vulnerable?
He remembered the wound on her arm, the mournful cry she had screamed in the middle of the night. frowned, and then unfolded indifferently, what does all this have to do with him?! Did he ask her to trample the old lady to death? Did he ask her to swagger everywhere and provoke the wrath of the heavens?
Yes, in order to get rid of the ancestor's marriage, he fell into the ground, and what he owed her had already been paid off!
"Come on, prepare the horses!" He indifferently commanded, and a clever guard had already brought horses for him.
Meili was not sleeping soundly, and was awakened by the sound of talking, her confused eyes gradually gathered, and she saw Jing Xuan who was taking the reins not far away.
Yonghyuk behind the felt mat also woke up dimly, wiped his face and jumped up, "Brother Jingxuan, you want to go back to Beijing?" ”
"Hmm." Jing Xuan turned over and got on his horse, chic and neat, "You are so good to take care of your ancestors, there is Ziyu on the emperor's side, I don't understand, I don't know if I am not familiar with him." He looked at his horse and stroked his mane.
"Yes." Yonghyuk nodded.
Meili slowly stood up, and she ...... What to do? There will be more times when I see him in the future, and she has been avoiding and dodging to make each other even more embarrassed, right?
"You ......," she said for the first time speaking to him by that title, and she paused herself, "be careful on the road." She blessed him with all her courtesy.
Jing Xuan clenched the reins and said "um" indifferently.
Isn't that what he wants, as alienated as a stranger? Very good. He clamped the horse's belly, and the horse neighed, and ran away with its hooves open.
Even if it was only for a short moment, his heart was still stinging.
In the past, Meili would not have spoken to him like this, and she would not have been so polite. She was pushed into a dark cage like a cunning beast, and when she was released, she became a gentle and docile rabbit. What kind of pain forced out of this reborn change?
He raised his whip to speed up, but the wind in his ears still couldn't take away her screams at night: Help—help me—
The emperor led the men to round up the prey as usual, but the women were not excited for the first day, and they all played on the slopes of the forest. Meili also wanted to take the opportunity to avoid the crowd, so she didn't say much.
The one who was sent to serve was a young palace maid, and Meili asked her to stay on the edge of the collapse, and once she screamed in her dreams, she would immediately wake her up.
By the time she woke up, it was past lunchtime, and the men were tired from a morning of riding and shooting, and the women were tired from playing, and they all went back to their tents for a nap. The little palace maid was sleepy and staggering after guarding her for so long, and Meili apologized for letting her go to the next place to rest.
She skillfully combed herself in a simple bun, and there was no one to serve her in the Hall of Tranquility, and she had long been accustomed to taking care of the chores of life by herself.
There was no one in the camp except for the patrolling guards. Although the sun is already a little hot, it is very warm, and when it shines on the body, the whole person is soft and comfortable. Meili walked towards the river, enjoying the freedom that no one cared about, and couldn't help but smile.
She sat by the river, watching the flowing water, and couldn't help but grab some small pebbles and throw them into the water one by one, stirring up a small splash, and she couldn't help laughing softly. Two years of lonely and dull life made her learn to entertain herself like this, otherwise...... It's going to go crazy.
When she had finished throwing a handful of stones and was about to pick them up again, she caught a glimpse of a pair of beautiful boots, and she was startled, and looked straight up to see their owner. The sun was shining on the man's handsome figure, and she squinted to see his face.
She was stunned, how could it be him? Didn't he go back to Beijing?
She quickly stood up, there was no one around, she wanted to say goodbye again but it was really embarrassing, and she froze in place for a while.
He looked at her in silence, she was obviously taller, but she looked even smaller than before because of her overly slender figure and pointed face. The long eyelashes are no longer arrogant and rude to stare at people, they are always half-hanging, densely covering the big clear and calm eyes. Those eyes were already very beautiful, and the brilliance inside was obviously dimmer than before, but somehow there was an indescribable charm, like humble and stubborn.
"Here's this." When he handed the paper bag in his hand to her, he was annoyed and irritated. He pitied her for suffering a lot in the past two years, she always asked him to buy her all kinds of snacks before, he took the trouble to ignore them, now that he thinks about it, it is also a bit excessive, just compensate her, only this once!
"What is it?" She didn't reach for it.
"Zongzi candy!" He snorted coldly and said very unpleasantly.
Her hand hidden in her sleeve trembled lightly and lightly, and a memory that was long ago for her was touched...... She knew that he was waiting outside the south study for the emperor to meet his subordinates, and quietly sneaked into the side room, he was sitting at the kang table reading a children's book, she jumped over and lay on his back, hugged his neck tightly, and coquettishly coquetted to him.
He scolded her and asked her to let go, saying that she was seen by the eunuch and palace maid and was unorthodox.
Instead, she triumphantly asked him to buy her zongzi candy before she let go. She remembered her leaning in his ear and telling him loudly, "I love zongzi candy the most!" She hoped that such a loud volume would reach him, that he would remember what she loved to eat, and that when she saw it on the street, she would subconsciously think that it was her favorite food.
She smiled bitterly.
When she first entered the Anning Palace, Sister Ziqing came to see her secretly and brought her a large bag of zongzi candy. She was overjoyed and asked if Jing Xuan had asked her to bring it, because she had only told him. Sister Ziqing was hesitant, she thought it was a tacit acquiescence.
She put away the candy carefully, and was reluctant to eat it, she only ate one when she missed him so much.
Later, she heard several palace maids and eunuchs chirping in the aisle outside the courtyard and laughing at her for her wishful thinking, Tian was shameless, only to know that the ancestor wanted to take advantage of her to break through this catastrophe to stuff her to him, saying that as long as she became a family and became a wife and mother, she would naturally be calm and mature, and would no longer cause trouble. In order to get rid of her, Jing Xuan actually asked the emperor to severely punish her, and she had a three-year captive career.
She couldn't believe it...... He was tired of her to such an extent!
No wonder, she looked forward to it day and night, and she couldn't expect him to come to see her.
When Sister Ziqing came to see her again, she actually knew the answer, and she still didn't give up asking if the candy was given to her by Jing Xuan.
Sister Ziqing cried, asking her to stop being infatuated and to stop torturing herself.
At night, she still couldn't believe it, didn't want to believe the truth. Take out a piece of candy and put it in your mouth, it's so bitter! That sugar is even more bitter than Coptis chinensis! From the mouth to the heart.
She doesn't believe in evil and eats another one the next day...... It's still so bitter!
When she buried all the sugar under the corner, she finally believed in reality. From then on, she never ate sugar again, because she didn't want to taste that bitterness again!
"Thank you." She looked at the bag of candy in his hand that had been bought two years late, "I don't like zongzi candy anymore." ”
Jing Xuan frowned in annoyance, and without hesitation, he threw the paper bag into the river, redundant! He's so redundant!
"Brother Jingxuan." As he turned to leave, she suddenly stopped him. He was stunned for a moment, did she call him Brother Jingxuan? It seemed that no matter what she called him, familiar and distant, he felt awkward.
He turned back to her coldly, and if she thought that this bag of candy was his change of heart, he would tell the truth resolutely: he had never had a good impression of her! Past, present, future!
She looked at him and smiled, and it was that kind of smile again! That smile that makes his heart throb inexplicably!
"Brother Jingxuan, are you ...... Don't feel guilty. She said, as if to comfort him. Everything that happened to me was self-inflicted. On the contrary, I am grateful for the two years of cold palace life, so that I can live more calmly, and I feel that I have some explanation to the old woman. ”
He was silent.
"Brother Jingxuan, I haven't had a chance to thank you, the family property left by my parents ......"
He turned his head and left, not wanting to hear what she said, he didn't want to hear a word!
Looking at his departing back, she suddenly felt a bitter sadness, she always looked at his back.
This was the last time she called him "Brother Jingxuan".
Everything that should be said should be said, and both she and him should be relieved...... From then on, she and him were strangers, without so much of a past, and there would be no future.
When she sees him again, she will call him Lord or you.