I was in a trance and couldn't remember how I got back to my residence, and I was waiting for me to push the door, but I saw Zhang Tingyu standing in the courtyard waiting for me.

He wasn't too far from me, but only a few steps away.

He whispered, "Does my heart hurt?" ”

I nodded heavily, suppressing the sadness in my heart to keep the tears from flowing out.

He sighed deeply, then added, "And that's just the beginning. He took my hand and helped me sit down on the porch on the side, "He will have many children in the future, and you will be so sad and sad every time?" ”

"I can't take it." I almost roared, he just looked at me lightly, I tried to calm myself, "I have been trying to deceive myself, let myself forget that he has married Jingru as a side Fujin, he has me in his heart, I told myself over and over again, he will definitely marry me back to be his concubine Fujin, he will definitely ......" I babbled many times, he will definitely marry me, I know, I am hypnotizing myself, I don't want to admit it, the fear in my heart.

"If you do his concubine, you want to be like this?" He forced me to turn my head to look at him, not giving me any chance to escape. "Do you know that marrying a wife is to marry a virtuous woman, if you keep being like this, you will only end up with the reputation of a jealous woman, and when the time comes, not only will you not be able to protect it, but I am afraid that your Ama Eniang will also be pointed at by outsiders all day long, poking her backbone......"

When he saw that I didn't speak anymore, he just looked at him blankly, and said softly, "If you decide that you don't want to marry him, you must learn to let yourself not care about these things, and learn to forbear." If you can't tolerate these songs, the years you want to marry him should be broken as soon as possible. ”

"Brother Tingyu, if I break this thought, will you marry me?" I looked at the man in front of me in a daze, he knew that I understood me, he always appeared when I was most confused, and sometimes I couldn't understand what he meant to me?!

For a moment, I saw his clear eyes darken, he seemed a little sad and a little disappointed, and after a while he slowly said, "Let's talk about it until you really forget about him......"

I looked at his lonely back, and suddenly thought of Yinzhen, did he also fail me like this, I always let him down again and again, and rejected him...... At the end of the day, I'm still a selfish person.

The next morning, the news of the bell came from the Tai Hospital, and although I was happy for her in my heart, there was a sour pain.

It turns out that the stupidest person is me. Yinzhen said that he liked me, but he turned his head and did the same thing as Yinxiang. Is there really no single-mindedness in this world?

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"Red beans are born in the south, and a few branches are sent in spring. May you pick more, this thing is the most lovely. "In a flash, it turned out that in the spring of the forty-second year of Kangxi, I went to the south of the Yanyu River with the royal drive of the southern tour.

It's ridiculous to say, most of the time, Yinxiang and I haven't even said a word, even if he occasionally comes to see Kangxi, he will retire after talking about things, and never stay longer. And I always deliberately avoided him and tried to avoid seeing each other in private. From time to time, Yinzhen came to chat with me when he was free, most of them were around the bell, and occasionally he wanted to talk about my topic, but I gaged and fooled him. In the past six months, my biggest growth is playing chess and playing the piano, but the pipa has not been touched for a long time.

"Sister Ying'er, I'm so excited today, and it's infinitely sad to pile up the Qinhuai River alone......" I turned around and saw Zhang Tingyu standing silently behind me.

I smiled faintly, "I suddenly thought of Wang Wei, and I read it casually." ”

"There are so many poems by Wang Majie, why does my sister have a soft spot for this one?" He always teased me like that.

"You know, this is the first Tang poem I learned." I chuckled, but at the bottom of my heart it was a different feeling.

"The emperor is going to Qixia Temple tomorrow, saying that he is going in civilian clothes." When he saw that my mood suddenly became melancholy, he quickly changed the subject.

"Hmm." I looked out the window and let out a low hum.

"Tomorrow, the fourth elder brother and the thirteenth elder brother will also be in the accompanying team." He seemed to be able to accentuate his tone, so that I could hear the words of the thirteenth elder brother very clearly.

"Got it." I said faintly, but my eyes involuntarily drifted to the peach blossom tree outside the window.

"Go meet him." Zhang Tingyu seemed to have seen Yinxiang under the peach blossom tree a long time ago, and after a long time, he sighed deeply and said, "Why do you two torture each other so much? ”

I don't know how long the time has passed, I just stared blankly at the peach blossoms falling outside the window, until his body was also full of petals, I suddenly came back to my senses, and this is Zhang Tingyu is long gone.

I staggered forward step by step, I knew that he was there, close to me, but I couldn't rush like when I was a child, and I don't know when something insurmountable between us began.

"Slave ......"

I half-crouched down and greeted him respectfully, but before I could finish the first word, the next second I fell into the familiar and unfamiliar embrace.

He had a faint scent of hibiscus flowers on his clothes, a smell I used to so accustomed to, but now it's a little rusty.

Has Jingru ever been held by him like this?

When I thought of this, tears welled up in my eyes.

I choked up and said, "Thirteenth Master...... You and I have different identities...... Please let me go......"

"Ying'er, since when have you stopped calling me Yinxiang?" I wanted to ask him to let go of me, but he didn't seem to mean it, and instead closed his hand closer, "You don't have to say it, you know I don't care what other people say or think, I only care about what you're thinking and saying?!" ”

"She gave birth to you and raised children, don't you care about her at all?" Actually, what I want to know is, is my place in your heart still there? But I can't say that.

He said coldly, "Give her the child, she should be content." Isn't all she wants is to marry me? ”

I looked at him unexpectedly, this he was not like the Yinxiang I said I knew, that person was gentle and elegant, warm like the morning sun in early winter, which made people not feel a trace of cold. If Jingru tried her best to marry Yinxiang, it was all because of her infatuation with him, why did he be so indifferent to her.

He lowered his head, gently stroked my cheek, wiped the crystal hanging from the corner of his eye for me, and then said gently, "Ying'er will also give birth to children for me in the future, won't she?" ”

"I heard Brother Tingyu say that Jingru likes you since she was a child, and she has always been in love with you, why are you so indifferent to her? It's not like you, you've always been the kindest one. I took his big warm hand and said lightly.

"You're really ......" Xingxing was amused by my nosy, he actually laughed, "Jingru is not as simple as you think, now that I think about it, I have to be glad that she missed the draft at that time, otherwise you will be bullied when you enter the palace and become a female official." ”

I burst into tears and laughed, looking at him deeply, "Am I that stupid?" ”

"You're just a little fool, one second you're not angry, and the next second you're throwing yourself into your arms." As soon as he said this, I suddenly realized that I took the initiative to wrap my arms around his waist and put the whole person on it.

But I just wanted to bounce away, but he was firmly held by his whole body and couldn't move.

"Forget it, I'm also a fool, otherwise how could I be willing to let you be alone for most of the year, but I didn't care, I could only let Zhang Tingyu buzz around you like a fly." He's even learned to be sarcastic.

"Who do you say are flies?" I feigned anger and said.

"Okay, okay, I'm a fly."

It turned out that I still let go of his hand, and I really didn't want to part for a moment.

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ps: At this point in the story, I'm a little baffled

If you can draw a picture, it must be simpler

In fact, at first, I preferred to write Fourteen cute, but in the end, I found that I preferred Zhang Tingyu, and inexplicably he became a warm man

It's so emotional, I actually wrote 100,000 words

I also knelt for myself.