When the monsoon woke up again, it was nearly evening, and the room was silent, as if the morning noise had never happened.

Monsoon opened his eyes, staring at a certain point on the roof without blinking, and the pictures that happened in the morning flashed in his mind, is it indeed a dream, there is really a little palace maid who cut a peach branch with buds and sent it over, how can she ignore life like this?

Thinking of this, Monsoon was angry and tight, who gave her such boldness!

"Someone ...... come", Ji Feng shouted out to the eunuch to come in, "Where is the palace maid?"

Ji Feng thought that the reason why she said that she had a way to make it open longer was to escape punishment and lie casually, but deep down he hoped that what she said was true, as if he knew that he would not live to be twenty, but in the deepest part of his heart, he always wanted him to live longer, longer.

He felt that the buds on the peach branch, just like himself at the moment, were already lifeless, but he still wanted to fight for them, even if it was only a small hope.

In fact, this is the truest desire in my heart, I want to live, I want to try to live.

Thinking of this, Monsoon's heart was relaxed.

If you want to live, since this idea has never changed, why use the withering of a peach blossom to make excuses for yourself, obviously because you are not firm enough, but let the peach blossom cover your fear on the way to survival.

Just like those buds, they have long since run out of retreat, and only trying to move forward is their only chance, why are they still swaying from side to side.

"Palace maid?" Xiao Zhuozi shook his head, His Royal Highness was talking about the palace maid in the peach blossom stream in the morning?

"She has been watching it in a daze since she inserted the peach branch...... "Xiao Zhuozi opened his mouth to say and stopped, what he actually wanted to say was that this palace maid probably had a bad brain, and it was okay to stare at the peach branch for an afternoon, and she still said something to it with affection.

"Well, let her ...... Forget it, bring me the medicine. Ji Feng thought about it and ignored her, a little palace maid just made an unintentional mistake, let her concentrate on taking care of the peach branch these days, it was only three or five days, as for what could bloom longer, he actually didn't believe it.

This is the contradiction in Monsoon's heart, on the one hand, he longs to live longer, he tells himself that life is a miracle, and he pays attention to those things that are full of life all the time.

But on the other hand, he felt that living past the age of twenty was just a delusion of his own, and he had already been sentenced to death early, and it was the most famous old man on the continent who sentenced him to death.

There can be any miracles in life, all efforts are just useless dying struggles, to put it bluntly, just a placebo.

It was in such a conflict that a small peach blossom crushed his heartstrings, and then a budding peach branch aroused his desire to survive.

He was like a flat boat floating in the waves, swaying from side to side with the wind and waves, but he was accidentally lost in the stormy waves.

"Medicine?" Xiao Zhuozi thought that he had heard it wrong, and couldn't help but ask again, and then reacted, his face full of joy and surprise.

"Yes, yes, I'll bring it to you right away...... ......Hurry up," he said as he hurriedly ordered outside, "Quickly bring His Highness's medicine......"

Monsoon drank the medicine and continued to lie down, and lived in the peach blossom stream for three days, although the warm pavilion was readily available, but after all, it was not as comprehensive as this palace, and there was still a slight chill in the air in early spring, and then with the withering of the peach blossoms, he stood in the cold wind for an unknown amount of time, and after coming back, he did not eat or drink for two days, and this body obviously seemed to be emptied.

I really didn't want to work so hard to survive before, this body has been suffering from constant illness since birth, and it is said that the delicacies of the mountains and seas in the palace are the least rare.

But as far as Monsoon is concerned, he has no impression of these, he only remembers that the medicine he has drunk the most since he was a child is probably medicine, and as for eating, it is also strictly controlled, and most of the ingredients he can't touch.

From childhood to adulthood, I was basically bedridden in winter and summer every year, and I was only allowed to go out for a walk in spring and autumn.

He didn't know what the outside world was like until he was eight years old, and it was only after the age of eight that he was allowed to sit in the garden when the weather was fine.

Even if his father and queen mother gave him enough love, such a day was really too difficult.

I thought that life was getting better day by day, but at the age of eleven, because of a warm current that came early, my condition suddenly worsened.

That illness can almost be said to be a life of nine deaths, and even his breath stopped for a while, if it wasn't for the timely arrival of the old man Xuanji, even the next seven years would be gone.

So it was another four years of bedridden, and if it weren't for the deep love of his father and mother, he might not have survived.

One day three years ago, he had a dream that he was in a peach forest, the spring breeze blew, and the peach blossoms dyed the branches red, and that beautiful scenery was something he had never seen in his life.

After waking up from the dream, he decided to recreate this beautiful scene in this palace, so he suddenly seemed to have the motivation to live, he began to work hard to cooperate with the treatment, began to actively exercise, no matter how bitter the medicine was, he did not vomit it out, no matter how tired the exercise, he also persevered.

Finally, after two years, he was able to go out again, so he began to work on the construction of the peach blossom stream, and those pictures had already been turned in his mind countless times, and he asked the craftsmen to realize them one by one according to his drawings.

Now that this dream is about to come true, why has he lost the will to survive again?

Are you afraid, afraid that your dreams will eventually be shattered, that you won't see the peach blossoms in your dreams, that all this is just your own delusion, so the closer you get, the more you are afraid, the more you find an excuse to escape......

Oh, coward, it turns out that Monsoon you are a coward, how innocent that peach blossom is.

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It was another drowsy nightmare, there was a stretch of peach blossoms in the dream, the withering of the peach blossoms in the dream, the sad face of the father and the queen mother in the dream, the schadenfreude of the second brother Ji Yu in the dream, and the little palace maid appeared in the dream, an aggressive momentum......

Ji Feng stretched his legs and feet, today seemed to have some strength compared to yesterday, he took the medicine bowl in the palace maid's hand, drank it in one gulp, and then took another bowl, which was a small bowl of ginseng qi tonifying porridge.

In fact, Monsoon has grown up pampered under the care of the public since he was a child, and as long as he opens his mouth to eat and drink medicine, he will be fed by the palace maid, and he has been like this for the first eleven years.

But after recovering from that serious illness, although he could only recuperate on the couch, he suddenly grew up overnight, and he didn't let people feed him, he didn't let anyone help him with dressing, and he didn't even let people help him go to the ground.

"Have your father and mother been here today?" Ji Feng handed back the empty bowl and raised his eyes to look at Xiao Zhuozi who was waiting by the bed.

"The king and queen came to breakfast, and when they saw that their highness was still asleep, they went back first. Xiao Zhuozi replied respectfully.

"When the queen heard that His Royal Highness was willing to drink medicine, she was very happy, and said that she would come to see Her Highness later. ”

"Hmm. Ji Feng nodded, "Come with me to Ziwei Palace to meet my father and queen mother." Ji Feng thought that his troubles this time must have made his father and mother sad for several days.

Although this was not his intention, every time something happened to him, they were the most anxious and sad. As a son, he didn't share their worries and always let them worry about it, and he actually felt very guilty.

He actually wanted to be like the second brother of the king, so that they could worry less, but this body was not something he could decide.

Ziwei Palace is the bedroom of the father and the queen mother, before the age of eleven he lived there with his father and the queen mother, because of his poor health, the queen mother did not worry about letting him live alone in other palaces, so the second brother was full of dissatisfaction with him.

But after the age of eleven, since he clamored to move out, he rarely went to Ziwei Palace again, maybe because he felt guilty about his father and queen mother, or maybe he wanted to make up for something for the second royal brother, he always tried to avoid going there again.

He would rather lie alone in the Green Dragon Hall and look at the roof in a daze, rather than see the worried and sad faces of his father and queen mother and the angry and dissatisfied expressions of the second royal brother.

In fact, he really didn't do anything deliberately, and he never thought of using this body to compete for favor, but the damage of the fact was still caused.

The father and queen mother spent far more thought and attention on themselves than on the second brother, and he could understand why the second brother's eyes were always gloomy when he looked at him, so he tried to avoid more harm.

But he didn't push away, it was the second brother who was injured, and he pushed away, and the injured became the father and the queen mother, and to be honest, he didn't know what he should do to make things complete.

Although he knew that escaping would not solve the problem, he could only choose to escape so that he could not see it and not be upset.

But at this moment, he suddenly wanted to face it well, whether it was his father, queen mother, or second royal brother, they were all his closest relatives and flesh and blood, what was irreconcilable?

If you are destined to only have two years, why should you let this defect remain there, and if you can continue to live, do you have to live so awkwardly forever?

I tried it, but I have no regrets.