At the same time, in an extremely secret place in the dragon capital, the lights are shining.

The cold air lingers in early spring, and the fragrance of tea in the house is also lingering.

A young man dressed in white sat by the window, looking up slightly at the moonlight outside the window. Next to his jade white hand is a small table of yellow pear, on which are placed two porcelain cups, the soup inside is fragrant and light green, and the faint fragrance of pear blossoms is emanated. The corners of his lips were slightly upturned, and he smiled faintly: "The flowers are similar every year, but the people are different every year." Ten years have passed, and you are still you, and I am still me? ”

His lips were hooked, and his smile was even worse, but a little cold light flashed in the depths of his eyes, like the cold at the end of the spring equinox: "You left this large group of people to take care of me, are you too confident in yourself, or too confident in me?" The country is easy to change, but the nature is difficult to change, how can you be so sure that I will not change? ”

He picked up the teacup and took a sip gently and elegantly, put it down again, and chatted in a leisurely tone: "You said that there are still ten years, but it is really just for you to become ruthless and ignorant for the past twenty years, is it really good?" Have you ever felt worried, scared, angry, jealous, wavering, helpless, sweet, reluctant, confused, sinking, or nostalgic for someone...... All your emotions, all your moods will change for her joys and sorrows? Have you ever tried it? If you haven't tried it, how can you say that all feelings are moths of unwavering will, and all human emotions and desires are obstacles to indestructible power. The person who stands tallest in the crowd must devote all his energies to useful knowledge, and he must first destroy all his weaknesses, and feelings are precisely the greatest weakness of man, which can make people fail and collapse in an instant? …… I really want to know, have you ever tried a relationship, or have you ever experienced it, and you have been hurt by it so much that you can break out of your cocoon into a butterfly, or cocoon yourself and force yourself to become such a heartless person? ”

There was silence in the room, and no one answered his words.

Only his clear voice echoed softly in the room, and a trace of confusion and mockery flashed in his eyes, "I am lucky to have met you?" Or is it unfortunate? If it weren't for you, I would have been buried in the belly of a wolf and tiger twenty years ago, and I would have continued to reincarnate on the Nai He Bridge. If I have you, I have been involuntary in the past 20 years, learning from hundreds of schools, non-stop, strategizing, conspiracing, and ruthless, but I don't know why? If you hadn't thought I was qualified and intelligent, but I could be shaped by you, would you have abandoned me into the abyss? ”

He smiled and refilled a cup of tea for himself, smelled the faint fragrance of pear blossoms wafting in the air, the smile in his eyes became gentle, and his voice softened: "In this case, I tell you that I now have a person in my heart, and I can't give it up, I can't give up, maybe I will break my promise to you for her?" Do you stare and jump in anger? Will she curse me and her with the most vicious and profound words in the world? …… Even so, I want to be with her for a hundred years and be with her until I am old...... Alas...... You probably shouldn't have found me. ”

There was still no one in the room to reply, no one to star, jump, or even curse, only the deathly silence after the young words fell.

The other cup of tea on the small table was never drunk by anyone.

The young man had been sipping tea lightly, he closed his eyes and sniffed: "This is my newly made pear blossom snowflakes, do you still like it?" Ever since I 'died' that year, when I saw the huge pear blossom tree next to that grave, I could no longer erase the shadow of the pear blossom in my heart. She, so bleak, beautiful, white and flawless, stood alone beside my tomb, day and night together, inseparable, and the annual sound of the piano and wine seemed to be in those pear blossoms, and it lasted for a long time......"

In the room, the sound of the piano sounded, and the tune was melodious and poignant...... It was like the annual grave sacrifice, his slender and slender fingers caressed the strings, and the white silk sounded like a groan, like a choking, like a sad sound, so that the people in the whole courtyard couldn't help but cry and run away.

At the end of the song, the young man smiled slightly, choked the most beautiful smile, and whispered to the empty Huanghuali Taishi chair next to him: "Master, are you okay in the Netherworld?" Have you already drunk Meng Po soup and waited for reincarnation, or have you bribed the king of Hades, waiting for me to complete your unsuccessful work in the yang world? ”

In the courtyard of the Feng family, Bai Zhengyan went and returned.

Coming back all the way, he pondered the guesses that Feng Jingning had obtained from telling her about what had happened after he entered the palace last time and the sachet he had found.

The corners of Bai Zhengyan's lips curled a smile, and his heart was warm, it seemed that no one had ever cared about her identity like Feng Jingning, and the look in his eyes that wanted to protect her was so sincere, and even the words of nostalgia and abandonment were frank. This person is so glorious that people don't need to calculate and guess, and people want to get close to each other with peace of mind.

She climbed into the shadow of the bamboo forest inside the wall, carrying a package on her shoulder, her steps were light and cheerful, and her mind seemed to slowly retrace the fragments of the time since she met him on the snowy mountain. On the snowy mountain, he smiled so casually and kindly; In the Yuanshan Restaurant, his song "Soaring in the Sea of Clouds" won his heart; In the courtyard, he chatted and accompanied each other again and again; On the lake of the moon, he smiled frankly. There is also the carefulness of sending books and rubbing your wrists; the thoughtfulness of borrowing a hat in front of the temple; Heart-to-heart conversation in the bamboo forest; the tacit understanding of inviting Qiu Mingrui and Yang Han to eat bamboo shoots with her; the melancholy of seeing her off in the West Chamber; insist on carrying her down the mountain with tenderness; Holding her hand and shopping with the sincerity of her words; the warmth of eating sweet soup with her for the New Year; Make her wish and make her promise not to give up......

This young man gave her a lot of good feelings and expectations, and it seemed that she could be unrestrained by his side, laughing and laughing freely, without worrying about what she said or did wrong, she could get his forgiveness and consideration, and she was as free as the wind.

Seeing a gentleman, don't you like it?

Recalling that Fang was in his room just now, she asked, "Jing Ning, maybe I'm a very selfish person. Maybe it's not worth the slightest bit of your sincerity for me? Moreover, I did not have the confidence to love someone with all my heart and give equally for them. ”

"Don't you believe that there are feelings in this world that don't ask for the same in return?" Feng Jingning asked with a gentle smile.

"I believe, but this is not only unfair to the one who gives without expecting anything in return, but only accepts; Or the person who gives less can't let go, and may feel guilty permanently. Is this unfairness really good? She raised her eyebrows, there was a pinprick pain in her heart, and she secretly hesitated, if the two countries were opposed in the future, because of her own insistence, would Gu Xi's fate be repeated?

"It is natural for two people who truly love each other to pay for each other, and there is no need to care who pays more, only willing and unwilling. The deeper the guilt felt by the person who accepted more, then it was not that he didn't care about the other party, but that he had to do it for other reasons, and he would definitely repay the other party in another way in the future. If she can't pay it back, then this kind of guilt that cannot be discharged is the deepest punishment for herself. Feng Jingning held her cold hand and said slowly, her eyes kept staring at the struggle and thinking in her eyes, and her gentle tone was reassuring.

Her eyes gradually cleared from the confusion.

"The reason why you say you're selfish is because you feel guilty for not being able to give the same amount to the other person, right?" He then took a deep breath and asked in a low voice without giving up, "What is your fear in your heart?" Is it Ulguo? Or is it the person you have in your heart? ”

She was startled, and noticed that his gaze was as bright as a mirror, as if it could reflect the secrets and gloom buried deep in her heart.

She suddenly broke free of his hand and asked faintly, "What if I say, all of them?" Do you still have to persevere? ”

"Why not?" Feng Jingning nodded with a smile, smiled kindly, and said firmly: "The Buddha said, five hundred times of looking back in the past life can be exchanged for passing by in this life, and a thousand times of looking back can be exchanged for each other's stops, then, my past life, the previous life, the previous life must be an unrepentant look back on you thousands of times, I don't know how many times I have accumulated, in order to get to know you in this life, how can I easily live up to the perseverance of these lives. How easy to give up this fate of thousands of miles to stay with you and grow old hand in hand? ”

Her frozen heart, if she said that she was unmoved at that moment, she could not even deceive herself.

Bai Zhengyan lowered his eyes and walked on the familiar path, his breathing was slightly short, his cheeks were slightly red, and what he remembered was not only what Feng Jingning had said, but also the faintly familiar smell of medicine on his body in his room.

The smell of the medicine is exactly the same as the aroma of the medicine that Mr. Wulan gave her to detoxify, but when was Feng Jingning poisoned?

Thinking of this, her heart involuntarily pounded, and her face turned crimson.

I'm afraid that it was because he kissed her in the carriage that night.

Everyone in the courtyard seemed to be asleep, she was the only one awake and sleepless, the joy in her heart was unspeakable, and her mind was full of joy and warmth.

She likes Feng Jingning in her heart after all, she said to herself.

It seems that Zheng Yan doesn't dislike me, Feng Jingning said the same.

Does she like him? She asked herself one more time in her mind.

As Jing Ning said, how long will it take, ten, twenty, fifty, seventy, a hundred years, and then the time will be in turn? As you say, the world is impermanent, people have blessings and misfortunes, and maybe by the time you know it, everything has been missed.

As she said, maybe tomorrow, in the next moment, I will know.

As he asked, when will the sign be known?

As she said, maybe when I know and you don't forget, we'll be together!

Bai Zhengyan touched the wine cellar in the courtyard, took two jars of wine, and quietly returned to the room in the West Chamber, leaning on the window to look at the moon, and drinking quietly.

Maybe this is tomorrow, and the next moment.

What if she was willful for herself?

Even though Gu Xi is a permanent scar on her heart, she must also have the courage to step over this scar and start a new life for herself.

Feng Jingning, as she said in the carriage, if he was really willing to be nice to her, better, better, she would try to let go of all her defenses and burdens!

Gu Xi——

Just let her forget about him.

Bai Zhengyan stretched out his hand to the window, picked a green and slender leaf, put it between his lips, and blew it softly and lowly. The sound of the leaf flute is low and sad, like an annual sacrifice. Gu Shezhi, I don't think of you anymore, don't miss you anymore, don't be sad for you anymore, don't suffer for you anymore, don't be painful for you anymore, don't get sick for your nightmares anymore-

I'm going to abandon you!

The giving of the giving.

Gu Shezhi, I'm going to know you forever......

A tear unexpectedly escaped from her eyes as clear as a mirror lake like a pearl, crossed her cheeks as white as pear blossoms, and dripped on the plain white and flawless placket, faintly and disappeared.

Gu Xi, are you still standing at the head of the bridge, quietly listening to me?