I am alone, gently clasping my hands, in the dim hours of the starry night, praying that you will always shine brightly.

On that day, I was alone at night, watching you cry silently, and I thought you really didn't cry anymore.

Cai Jie watched the moonlight pour down from the dense black clouds, as if God had given the holy light to baptize people, but Cai Jie did not repent, and this time she gave all the moonlight.

On days when there is no sunshine, Cai Jie will stay at home alone and watch Korean dramas crying and crying; On a sunny day, Cai Jie was still in a daze in a small dark room covered by heavy curtains.

Finally one day, Zhou Wen suddenly opened the curtains, and the dazzling sunlight broke through, making Cai Jie change from the initial fear to a long-lost comfort.

But this comfort turned into discomfort later. It was in that simple town that this discomfort suddenly turned into a sad feeling of despair.

The day I remember is clear and profound.

"Cai Jie, I'm sorry, I'm actually in love with another girl, I'm afraid I've let you down, I'm sorry."

Cai Jie remembered that Zhou Wen was like a squirming child when he said this, and his face was as red as a burning cloud.

"But ,,,"

Cai Jie didn't know why, her mood seemed to sink into the deepest ice ocean, suffocating and sad.

Later, Youyou's car came, and Cai Jie left with a dull gaze. When she left, Zhou Wen didn't come to see her off, maybe that impression of that day and that minute and second became the last memory of each other's love.

Zhou Wen was actually contradictory at the beginning, because he couldn't be sorry for Xiaofu, but he still couldn't let go of the most beautiful lover who bloomed on a rainy night for a long time.

However, a simple phone call from Xiaofu made Zhou Wen understand who he loved and who was the best for him. So Zhou Wen ignored the guilt in his heart, confessed to Cai Jie, told Cai Jie all the past, and made a final decision between them.

Zhou Wen said goodbye to Xiaoxi and embarked on the journey home. It's just the joy of going home before, but now I feel a little lost. Perhaps, it is a lot of expectations and fantasies that eventually come to naught, and that feeling of hollowing out eventually forces people to lose and worry.

The two rode in opposite directions, not only the clouds that accompanied each other, but also the memories of being very much in love.

You and I, every time we take a step away, we die every time, until we die again and again, then we can completely forget about you.

You and I, every time we separate, every time we are strangers, until we finally give birth again and again, then we can say goodbye to you completely.

That kiss at the beginning, a scarlet scar, ended up giving us the most painful tear mole and fingerprints of our lives.

But no matter what, Zhou Wen still went home.

My dear mother still touched Zhou Wen from top to bottom as always, to see where she lost weight and where she got fat, where there were scars and where there were lip prints. Although Zhou Wen had a mouthful, his face was full of helplessness, his ears were red, and his hair stood upside down, he hugged his mother's head and kissed it, shook his head and went home into the house.

On the second day after returning home, Zhou Wen would go to Junzi's grave and talk to his eternal brother about everything.

Annoying, sad, happy.

Nerve-wracking, distressing, annoying.

Someone once said that the most helpless thing in the world is that many things that we never forget are forgotten by us in the process of remembering.

Oh, it's really helpless.

The smell of rice spreads from all sides of the town, mixed with the smell of eels and loaches, swirling over the town with the steam of freshly released buns. There is also the forever noisy aunt in the vegetable market, and the old-fashioned old man in the commissary at the school gate, as if it was not the town that wrapped Zhou Wen at that moment, but Zhou Wen surrounded the town.

You can't write a magnificent opera, but you can interpret your own magnificent feelings from a magnificent opera. If one day you are old, you can still remember the rainy night when you were young, and you met that girl unexpectedly, even if God only gave a fate, but this is enough.

It's just, right now, I just want to be alone, quietly.

Zhou Wen walked on the field road in his hometown, the grass under his feet was barren, and the weeds that grew like crazy occupied the fields, lying on the red earth, and the original town still changed a lot.

I remember that Zhou Wen would pull a handful of dry weeds in the wilderness with a few junior friends, and then pick a handful of soybeans in other people's fields, and then burn soybeans in the wild to eat.

I still remember that Zhou Wen and his friends would find the old carpenter next door to make a wooden sword during the summer vacation, and then imitate the heroes on TV to fight and kill, and finally it didn't end until a group of younger brothers surrendered under Zhou Wen's coercion and temptation.

Even, there is a day and night in the summer night when fireflies fly in the fields and rivers to catch enough fish, yellow eels, crabs, lobsters or something, at that time, Zhou Wen felt that the day was very busy, although at that time LOL (League of Legends, the full name is League of Lengends) did not become popular, there were no smart machines at that time, and there were no various entertainment activities of modern youth, but Zhou Wen felt that life at that time was really life.

The divorce between man and nature probably began with the first industrial revolution. More and more convenient life also means more and more rare relationships with nature.

If you walk for half an hour now, you will scold your father and mother for an hour, and Zhou Wen remembers that when he was a child, he and Shunzi ran to the mountains behind the town and ran around blindly all day, and finally cried so much that his mother, who didn't even know Zhou Wen, took the police to find Zhou Wen and Shunzi.

Maybe nothing has changed, or maybe everything has changed, Zhou Wen felt the horror of impermanence for the first time.

Unconsciously, I came to the shallow pool that appeared countless times in my dream, and in the shallow pool, there were three or four withered Yujiu flowers, I don't know if it was the summer heat or the indifference of the world that made Yujiuhua withered like the color of soil.

The wind is storming the hibiscus water, and the dense rain is soaking the lily wall.

Finally no more, your face, your love, clean, goodbye, goodbye.

Zhou Wen looked up at the blue sky, watching the pale blue sadness pour down from the long summer daylight, and finally drowned out all of Zhou Wen's breathing and heartbeat.

Cai Jie went out for a picnic with Youyou in the villa of Youyou's house all day long, and hid in the quilt with Youyou and the two at night, holding tissues and snacks, watching one Korean drama after another that never ended.

"Oba Oba! Hey!! Youyou watched the hero of the story handsomely kiss the heroine, and excitedly hugged Cai Jie's head and kissed and kissed, kissed and kissed.

And Cai Jie could only helplessly take a napkin and cover Youyou's face full of snack crumbs.

"Ahh Don't die, don't die! Youyou cried after watching the male protagonist being stabbed by the bad guy for the female protagonist on TV. And Cai Jie could only helplessly hand you tissues, and then hugged Youyou straight to comfort. "Youyou, the male protagonist will be resurrected later."

"Ahh It's spicy! It's spicy! The woman that the man loved for many years turned out to be his lost sister! Youyou was startled, and Cai Jie was almost choked with fright.

Cai Jie could only sigh for no reason, and she promised Youyou to accompany her, but she came to accompany Youyou. But Cai Jie would still listen to Youyou's cute snoring in the middle of the night, thinking about the person who would never come back.

Everything has changed, maybe nothing has changed, only the hearts that we can never calm down and the plot arranged by God have changed.

If one day God no longer arranges fate for people, Cai Jie wants to rewrite a script for herself, in the story she is just an ordinary girl, and then she meets a boyfriend who can go to the soup for her, and finally the two of them fall in love with each other and grow old together.

However, no one waits for that day, because their destiny always moves forward according to the predetermined trajectory, even if there are sometimes deviations, but the overall direction remains the same.

After Zhou Wen went home, he was ready to spend 3 days to start his summer vacation homework, which was worth doing seriously, and copying the answers directly if it was not worth doing, which was the principle of Zhou Wen's homework. As a result, Zhou Wen did it seriously for 6 days and copied it for 3 days, far exceeding the pre-plan.

"! The English teacher is so annoying, she arranges so many reading comprehensions, fuck me! And that damn chemistry, it's heartache... After Zhou Wen finished writing the final work "100 Chemistry Questions", he looked up to the sky and shouted, "Oh my God! Oh, my God! Oh, my God! I thought that Zhou Wen was going to express his feelings sadly, but I didn't expect that in the end, Zhou Wen came to say, "Finally finished, hiccup~~~" As if he was full, Zhou Wen hiccuped before he had a heart.

"My dear and beloved Xiaofu, haha, I'm done with my homework!"

"Damn, Zhou Wen'er, did you copy the answer?"

"What's the matter, I put my conscience and honesty in front of the Emperor of Heaven and Grandpa I won't copy the answers, although there is still a little bit of plagiarism...

"Then you still said you didn't copy it? Fuck your sister! ”

"Hey, Xiaofu, the conscience of heaven and earth, you said that some of them ask why you use an iron trough to contain dilute nitric acid but use an iron trough to contain concentrated nitric acid, of course you have to use your back? His sister actually asked me why? How do I know, but after reading the answer, I said, it turned out to be passivation, so I still want to ask, why does passivation occur? ”

"Cut, just your chemical skills, and ask why the passivation effect, I think why don't you ask why you don't use sodium in water and use kerosene?"

"Why?"

“，，，，，，”

"Xiaofu, why?"

“No why.”

“Why no why?”

“No why no why.”

"Forget it, I have nothing to do with chemistry, so I don't need to know why chemistry is so cheap. Shh ”

"You, Zhou Wen'er, come over to me, I'm angry with you, see if I don't kill you!"

"You hit, fight, haha!"

“......”

"By the way, Xiaofu, I'll come to Chongqing in a few days to do something, wait for me! By the way, I'll bring you the osmanthus cake made by my mother. ”

"Where did the osmanthus come from at this time?"

"Four seasons of Katsura."

"Huh?"

"Lie to you, it's what I treasured last year!"

"Okay, okay."

......

Every time Zhou Wen called, his mother always stared wide-eyed, watching her son say such playful and intimate words with a male classmate, and always felt that his nose and mouth were sour, and finally Zhou Wen's mother always asked Zhou Wen with a sad look, "Son, you have a brother, don't you like your mother anymore?" ”

Zhou Wen couldn't cry or laugh on the spot, so he could only nod cautiously.

"What! You bastard boy, see if I don't kill you and me today! Zhou Wen's mother was running around chasing Zhou Wen in the living room on the spot, and she was very happy.

A few days later, Zhou Wen set off for the city, the purpose was to help the brother who had been in the car accident before hand over some things to his girlfriend, and then, of course, he and Xiao Fu Qingqing were in love with me.

"Zhou Wen'er, remember to help my mother bring a bottle of carphthalein medicine from the hospital."

"Shenma! Why don't you discuss this matter with my father, although I often say that I want a little brother, but why are you so fast? I'm not ready to be an older brother, so I'll have to talk about it calmly. Wait a minute! Is my mother going to have a fetal pill? I'm going to !! Is the fine for a second child that serious? If you can't be bitter about the child, my mother has to give birth to my little brother!! ”

Zhou Wen'er's mother saw her son smearing her face on the bus, and she almost wanted to dig a pit with a hoe and bury herself, so she left on the spot without saying a word.

Before Zhou Wen could react, he was about to explain to his mother when he found that his mother had already walked away, and was about to Bilibili when he suddenly found that the car full of people was looking at him like ghosts, so he didn't say anything anymore and sat down quietly and gentlemanly.

When he arrived in the city, he found that Xiaofu was waiting for him at the gate of the station early, so Zhou Wen squeezed past the old lady and the old man, picked up the child and the little girl, and rushed out of the car first.

"Lady! Long time no see! Zhou Wen turned his back to Xiaofu and said with vicissitudes.

"Husband, don't pretend to be forced!" Xiaofu laughed out loud after speaking.

"Hey, Ouyang Xiaofu, give me some face, okay? In public, you! Zhou Wen opened his mouth and stammered, but before he could speak, Xiaofu bit his lip.

"I miss you so much." Xiaofu said in Zhou Wen's ear.

"I miss you too." Zhou Wen hugged Xiaofu tightly, as if hugging a piece of heaven.

Xiaofu took Zhou Wen to her house, and when Zhou Wen walked to a building, he was about to praise the thief's beautiful villa.

"Zhou Wen, welcome to my house." Xiaofu pretended to be the voice of a waiter in the mall, and said to Zhou Wen with a smile.

"I,,, I ,,, where in this building are you in this building?" Zhou Wen was a little shocked at the fact that Xiaofu actually lived in this villa, but thought that Xiaofu was the daughter of a housekeeping aunt.

"Well, this villa is mine." Xiaofu looked at Zhou Wen with innocent eyes and a smirk.

"I, I',,, help me a little." Zhou Wen suddenly felt that the coronary artery next to his heart was blocked, and he couldn't breathe for a while.

"What's wrong Zhou Wen, I didn't tell you because my dad told me to keep a low profile." Xiaofu was preparing to comfort Zhou Wen, thinking that her family background scared Zhou Wen.

"Xiaofu, tell me the truth, who is your father? It can't be Ouyang Xiu, right? ”

"!" Xiaofu glanced at Zhou Wen and kicked Zhou Wen's buttocks, "Let me in!" I'll cook for you! ”

"Oh, okay." Zhou Wen touched his buttocks and followed Xiaofu in.

After eating, Xiaofu was ready to accompany Zhou Wen to go outside, but Zhou Wen remembered about that brother and didn't want to mention Caijie, so he left alone without telling Xiaofu.

"Zhou Wen'er, remember to come to my house when the matter is done!" Xiaofu waved to Zhou Wen outside the bus.

"Okay!" Zhou Wen was reluctant to Xiaofu, just including such a short moment, he couldn't be separated, and he stuck his head out of the window and didn't stick it in.

"Huh! That kid over there, could you please retract your head? Uncle Driver, who was in front of him, said in a weird way.

"! Got it! Why is Auntie so verbose! Zhou Wentou didn't retract, and he still had affection for Xiaofu.

"Hey, why does this kid still call me Auntie, but I'm so naturally beautiful, I should be called Auntie, haha" The driver's uncle muttered to himself, and he didn't care about Zhou Wen who was about to stretch out.

Until Zhou Wen got out of the car, he didn't notice that the driver was a man.

I found the address on the brother's ID card, and then knocked on the door, and it was an aunt with a beautiful face.

"May I ask if you are Zhu Zaiwu's wife?" Zhou Wen asked politely.

"Yes." The aunt replied.

Zhou Wen talked with the aunt for a long time, and when the aunt heard that Zhou Wen's brother Zhu had a car accident, she couldn't help crying, but Zhou Wen still endured to finish telling what happened.

When Zhou Wen left, he gave Brother Zhu's things to the aunt and told the aunt to call him if he was in trouble.

Watching the heartbroken aunt hide her face and cry, the dusk is covered with dust, and she enters the eternal night of love. Zhou Wen sometimes can't tell this certain number, but Zhou Wen looks at the couple who are separated from heaven and man, and he feels a pity. So he told himself that he would never lose.

All the stories are blindfolded, just hoping that a blind man will solve this blood-curdled sadness.

I don't worry about the end of the world, because I know that there is a beloved girl in Qinghai who sings love songs for me and gives me a paradise that I will never get tired of.