The lotus flowers in Chengde Palace bloom exceptionally well, Meili accompanies the Empress Dowager to sit on the painting boat and enjoy it carefully, and the cool breeze blowing from the lake carries the fragrance of lotus leaves. A little eunuch hurried to the shore and whispered something to the chief eunuch. The ship was not far from the shore, Xiaozhuang saw it, and asked Yu'an behind him: "But what's the matter?" ”

When Yu'an saw this, he sent the eunuch who was already on the boat to row back to the shore and present a letter when he returned.

"A letter from King Qing to Gege." Yu An said and laughed lowly, Jing Xuan is also considered to have grown up with her, and now she also knows that she has written a letter to her daughter-in-law to report her safety, thinking of his cold, unconcerned appearance, she can't help laughing.

Meili took the letter in her hand and didn't open it immediately. He had been there for three months, and this was the fourth letter, and it was all very simple, "Be well, don't read it."

Xiaozhuang took a sip of tea, frowned, looked at Meili's expression in her eyes, smiled, she spoke slowly, and seemed to talk casually, "Meili, in fact, Jingxuan is very attentive to you, and he specially entrusted you to me when he left." ”

"Hmm." Meili lowered her head and answered.

"He's far away in Mongolia, can you give him a letter home?" This is knowingly asked, and I haven't replied.

Sure enough, as soon as she asked, Meili stopped talking.

"Child," Xiaozhuang put down the teacup, there were few people on the painting boat, and they were all subordinates who were close to herself, she simply picked out and said straightforwardly, "Maybe you still blame him for refusing you ruthlessly, blame him for forcing him to force you later, blame him for letting you only succumb to the position of side Fujin...... No matter how much you blame him, he is also your husband, and he will be a husband and wife with you for life. In this life, the last thing a woman can do with one person is her husband. ”

Miri's eyelashes trembled, and now everyone thought she was blaming him and resenting him...... Maybe she blamed him, he caused Yonghyuk to be forced to go to the battlefield, and she felt guilty and ashamed when she lived in the palace and saw Ying Rufujin a lot.

She also wanted to...... Protect yourself.

"Meili, maybe you are afraid that Jing Xuan will no longer be kind to you in the future." Xiaozhuang looked at her, but the words she said made her secretly startled, as if the ancestor had seen through her heart. "It's all in the future, and a person who can't grasp the present can't talk about anything. Child, you don't have to think so much, as long as you do your duty, the rest...... You can only listen to God. Xiaozhuang sighed, this is not her emotion for fate.

Meili clenched the letter in her hand......

The boat was entangled in lotus leaves close to each other, and when it shook it, Meili was nauseated, and she didn't care that the old ancestor was by her side, so she threw herself to the side of the boat and vomited.

The palace maid and eunuch waited for her to rinse her mouth and sit down, the old ancestor and Aunt Yu'an were all happy, and they had no intention of rewarding the lotus, so they immediately ordered to dock and quickly pass the imperial doctor.

Leaning on the couch and listening to the imperial doctor's repeated congratulations, Meili was not surprised, since he left...... Her monthly letter didn't come again, the child was three months old, and she didn't even dare to think about it and couldn't face it. She likes children and wants to give birth, but this child ...... It came too early.

The ancestor personally came to congratulate her, and kept saying that when the husband and wife had children, they would naturally be harmonious. When you become a parent, your child's temper will be gone, and she will no longer be awkward.

Holding her hand, the old ancestor actually cried, as if she had finally survived to the end of her life.

But she was still preoccupied.

Sitting at the desk in front of the window, looking at the moon in the sky that was not blocked by a trace of clouds, the brush in her hand seemed to weigh a thousand pounds. Proud as he is...... She wrote to her one after another even though she didn't reply, and she understood the weight of those words. At night, when she couldn't sleep, those few letters with only a few numbers were pressed under her pillow, and her heart hurt.

Just as he couldn't write her a long letter home, all she could give him was four words: everything is fine. She didn't even have the courage to write "don't read", he ...... Miss her?

The child's matter, she clenched the pen, let go, and clenched it again, she was afraid that after telling him, he would brutally let her beat it.

She wants this child!

How could she strangle her loved ones!

But...... She put down her pen, folded up the four-word letter, put it in the envelope, and said nothing. Maybe he couldn't hide it from him at all, he probably knew everything about what was going on around her, and since he didn't say anything, she didn't want to personally prove his contempt and cruelty to her.

The old ancestor attached great importance to this child and specially sent four experienced grandmothers to take care of her. Supplements and delicacies are given every day.

When the child was six months old, Meili's belly was already very round and big, and Aunt Yu'an joked with her ancestor that she looked like twins.

The weather is getting colder, because of the war, the emperor does not plan to return to Luan, and the ancestor is also very satisfied with this arrangement, Meili can give birth to the child in Chengde.

Afraid that she would be cold, the side hall where she lived burned the kang early, and she was too hot, so Jiang Liu opened a window. Yuemei's older maids muttered something in the courtyard, and when they saw the window opened, they were silent, and entered the room with strange faces to serve.

Meili didn't ask, in fact, she had already discovered that sometimes she went to ask her ancestors to say goodbye, and when she saw her and Aunt Yu'an talking in a whisper, she didn't talk about it when she came.

At first, she was a little frightened and thought that something might have happened to Jing Xuan, but his brief family letter had not been broken, and it was his handwriting, so she was relieved.

When Su Ying also came to see her with a big belly, she realized what everyone was hiding from her.

Su Ying...... There was joy, too.

It can be seen that Su Ying is very happy with the arrival of the child, and her originally delicate face has added a little sweetness, and a smile is always on her lips. She also talked more than before, and talked to her about pregnancy. Meili listened with a light smile, and during the conversation, she learned that Su Ying's child was also five months old.

Even if you are born early...... It's also a concubine.

This sentence, which she thought she had forgotten, suddenly came to her mind with great clarity. She looked at Su Ying's bright smiling face with some envy...... She couldn't have the same joy as she did.

She suddenly wished that the baby in her womb was a girl.

Concubine...... This identity is more helpless than Side Fujin.

Su Ying was carefully picked up by her mother...... Meili stood in front of the door and watched the back of the mother and daughter as they walked away with laughter and laughter.

She gently stroked her round belly...... She didn't have to think about it so much, the joy that the child brought her was more than she expected, at least she looked at the scene in front of her, and the loneliness was not so strong and unbearable.