Darkness was the darkness she feared the most.

She was so uncomfortable that she even felt like she was still struggling in the water that was about to swallow her, every breath was so hard. She cried out to open her eyes, to grab whatever she could survive...... She seemed to be in the fire again, scorching hot, every inch of her skin hurting, tears evaporating as soon as they came out of her eyes.

She called for help, but no one came...... She gave up and collapsed into the fire, helplessly turning into a wisp of smoke.

She choked, her forehead suddenly cold, the real touch pulling her back from her chaotic dreams, she couldn't open her eyes, and tried to whisper a drink of water. Someone really brought the water to her lips, and she drank it in surprise and greed, fearing that it would be a dream.

"Miri ......"

This voice is so familiar to her, is it Yonghyuk? Wrong...... Yonghyuk would not have such a sad tone.

"Meili......" her hand was held in a pair of cold hands, "Meili, I only need you enough." He said, frowning powerlessly, but she could hear the helplessness in his tone, as if ...... It was him admonishing himself.

She was a little anxious, wanting to open her eyes to see if it was really Yonghyuk?

There was some noise around, as if she had missed some clips in a daze, and many people were whispering, like arguing and arguing, and her head hurt.

A woman suddenly said in a loud voice, "She can't!" She's going to ruin you! ”

Meili couldn't tell whose voice it was, but the sad and indignant tone was imprinted in her heart at once.

The very bitter medicine was poured into her mouth, she knew that the medicine was not easy to come by, she didn't dare to frown, swallowed it hard, and finally choked. In a hurry, she opened her eyes.

When she saw Yonghyuk, her breathing suddenly became short, and she was going to tell him not to worry, she was fine, she wasn't dead! The next moment, she was stunned, was it Yonghyuk who was sitting silently on the edge of her bed? He didn't even notice her wake up. How could Yonghyuk have such a blank expression, and how could his eyes be so cold?

"Gege?" Hongling, who was helping her to drink the medicine, called her in surprise, and Yonghyuk shuddered and turned his face to look at her eyes...... Meili put her heart at ease, it's him! His eyes, his smile, were still so warm that she let out a long breath.

"Are you feeling better?" He sat down and held her in place of Hongling, allowing her to lean comfortably in his arms.

"Am I sick?" Meili asked, the struggle in the water and fire was just an illusion in her illness. She rolled her eyes, "Here......" She's in a room, the sun is lazy, it should be afternoon.

"This is the Chengde Palace." Yonghyuk smiled, took the handkerchief handed by Hongling, and wiped the dense beads of sweat from her forehead for her.

Already in Chengde? She was a little surprised, how long had she been sick? Her expression froze suddenly, and she ...... How did you get back? Jing Xuan brought her back? A strong sense of uneasiness surged in my heart.

"I ......"

She had a lot of questions to ask, only to be interrupted by Yonghyuk's gentle but resolute words.

"It's good to be back! Other ......" He frowned quickly, and the expression in his smiling eyes that was unfamiliar to her just now appeared - determined to go his own way. “…… Unimportant! Take care of your body first. Hungry? I'm going to get someone to bring me something to eat. ”

He walked out of the door and whispered something to the palace maid outside the house, and she only heard clearly...... Don't let her see ......."

Something is wrong with Yonghyuk! Her heart became heavy, heavy, and her breathing was hard again. She looked at Hongling who was standing beside the bed, and she actually avoided her gaze in a worried way.

"What happened?" She asked solemnly, because her body was weak, and her voice was very floating.

"It's nothing. Gege, drink some more water. Hongling smiled reluctantly and turned to get water.

"How did I get back?" Meili looked straight at her, vaguely thinking about the crux of everything.

Hongling held the cup with an embarrassed expression, and she stood stiffly at the table, not answering.

"Hongling......" she looked at her with almost pleading eyes.

Hongling shook her head in annoyance, Gege would know sooner or later, and it would be good to tell her earlier, so that she had an idea in her heart. "It was Prince Qing who brought you back." She took a deep breath and simply told her all the situation.

Because there was an urgent matter to deal with the prince, everyone found out that he was gone, and finally alarmed the queen mother. The stakes are very high, the Empress Dowager is afraid that the prince will report to the emperor for handling if he has a mistake, and she also has someone to strictly investigate who the prince saw before he disappeared. In this way, a eunuch named Xiao Binzi was found, and Xiao Binzi was frightened and recruited Jing Xian Gege and Yin Di Gege. Yin Di Gege cried and shouted like crazy to save people, and everyone knew the ins and outs. Young Master Yonghe led a large number of guards to salvage and search for a whole night, and finally despaired, and the Empress Dowager was also so anxious that she made a heartache.

Unexpectedly, after dawn, the prince of Qing came back with Gege, Hongling said this, and glanced at the pale Meili uneasily, and finally couldn't tell her the scene at that time, Gege didn't wear anything, and was wrapped in a semi-wet robe by the prince and carried into the tent in front of everyone.

On the way to Chengde, the prince stayed in the carriage and never left, and Young Master Yonghe could only see Gege after he arrived at the palace. Everyone was talking, and all the vicious rumors were spoken. Su Ying Gege also cried and fell ill, Ying Rufu Jin came to find Young Master Yonghe a few times, and finally quarreled in this room...... How did she talk to Gege?

"It should be like a blessing...... Been here? Hongling stopped talking, and Meili didn't ask, she was silent for a long time before she suddenly asked.

"You heard everything?!" Hongling was a little surprised.

Miri gritted her teeth, and the voice was Yonghyuk's mother.

She can't...... She's going to ruin you!

Meili ...... I'll just need you.

She finally knew why Yonghyuk had that look in his eyes, and finally knew the pain when he said that.

The door was carefully pushed open by the palace maid, and Jing Xuan walked in with a faint smile, and seemed to be in a good mood. He was dressed in a well-textured dark blue robe, which made him look even more noble and graceful, and his handsome and wicked face had a smug and flying look.

Should she scold him? Should she resent him?

She just watched him sit on the stool in front of the couch in a chic manner, and Hongling wanted to serve him tea, but he waved his hand lightly and refused, as if he was the owner of this room.

Her indifferent gaze made him sink his face, "You all go out!" When he commanded his subordinates, he was already angry.

When the two of them were left in the room, she still didn't say anything and stared at him.

"Blame me?" He sneered, his good mood was ruined, and his violent and cruel look occupied his eyes again.

"Why?" She looked at him, and she always wanted to ask him why!

"You're sick yourself, and I can still throw you on the mountain?" He glared back at her without a hint of guilt.

She still looked at him like that, and it didn't seem like an excuse, if he wanted to, he had ten thousand ways to deal with it properly.

"Why?" She didn't even change her tone lightly, and asked stubbornly.

There was a hint of tyranny in his eyes, and she had such an expression that was worse than death when she lost that man?! "Why?" He snorted, "As long as I still have the slightest reluctance for you, I won't let you go with other men!" ”

She let out a sigh of reluctance? She could finally sneer and close her eyes, yes, that reason was enough for him. Abandon her, or pick her back, as long as he pleases, he has always lived so freely.

"I don't force you, I want you to choose." He sneered, shook the hem of the floor, and slammed the door.

The tears that had not been shed in front of him finally welled up from his closed eyes, why did he force her personally! Yonghyuk covered it up again, and the regret revealed in the depths of her eyes had torn her heart to shreds! Marrying her, his future ...... It will be ruined, and ridicule and contempt will follow him for the rest of his life!

If he scolded her loudly, blamed her, or even abandoned her, she wouldn't be as sad as she is now! She gave him very little, pitifully little, and now she ...... She can't afford to give it to him! It's just a humble family background, just a ridiculous past, and she can still convince herself that she can repay him by being filial to his parents, managing the housework for him, giving birth to children for him, and being wholeheartedly good to him. Now, the price he wants to marry her, she will die hard, and she will become the biggest failure in his life and career......

If it weren't for her, his future would be a smooth one, he had such parents, he had such good looks and temperament, he could marry the best girl...... She always knew it, so she was so forgiving and should be as sorry as Fu Jin's complaints.

Let's go to Gangnam ...... She couldn't help sobbing, she felt too unhappy when he said it, and she secretly laughed at her own gains and losses became heart diseases, and finally, this really became the most beautiful and unattainable dream in her life.

Yonghyuk watched his subordinates bring the porridge into the room, he still gently helped her sit up, his smile was still the same as before, he carefully blew cold porridge for her and fed her spoonful by spoonful, and then as if nothing happened, the sorrow in his eyes...... She watched the fire clearly, because there was nothing in those clear and heroic eyes!

She also ate the porridge he handed him with a smile, and the corners of her smiling mouth always twitched disobediently, because she had to hold back her tears.

Seeing her eat the whole bowl of porridge, he breathed a sigh of relief. He lovingly straightened her long loose hair, helped her lie down, and covered the quilt. "Sleep. If you have something, call Hongling to call me. He looked deeply at her misty but smiling beautiful eyes, and his focused and affectionate eyes made her want to cry, but she couldn't hold back, and she just drooped a line of tears.

"Yonghyuk, nothing happened." She wanted to explain to him that even though she was destined to pass him by, she wanted him to understand that the woman he liked didn't do anything to be sorry for him.

"yes, I know." He smiled and wiped away her tears with his slender fingers.

She used almost all her patience not to shake his hand, not to beg him to leave everything behind, and to take her away. In her life...... There will never be another person who can love her so much and look at her with such eyes! She suddenly wanted to be selfish once, and she couldn't bear it.

She finally held back, his warm hands were so cold now, even if he decided to marry her, he would eventually feel guilty about his parents, who were proud of them, but because of his obsession with a notorious woman, his parents' expectations were completely disappointed. How could she not understand him? He is so kind, so filial.

She bit her lip and managed to make herself smile, "Yonghyuk, you have to be good too." ”

He also has to go his way...... He deserves to live happily!

He turned back and smiled at her when he reached the door, and all the tears welled up as he turned away, and she cried, but did not dare to make a sound, for fear that he would turn back when he heard it...... All she could repay him was to let him go, or to make herself disappear from his life.