Chapter Ninety-Four: Self-Blame
Chen Nian didn't want to talk to him about Qingfeng Village, so he deliberately pointed to his face with a bitter face and said to him: "Dao Chief, look at it, my face has been tanned to this color, how do you tell me to go out,"
Her originally pretty white face is now slightly black, although it is not as dark as Chaoyangzi, but it is also much darker than most women, and with a pair of round black and white apricot eyes and a mouthful of white teeth, it is quite funny. Chaoyangzi originally intended to take revenge, but now that he saw such an effect, he was naturally in a good mood, holding those few beards in his hand, and said proudly: "What's wrong with a black face, a black face is better than a black heart." Only those shallow people will judge people by their appearance, and they can only see the black face, but they can't see the blackness of people's hearts. Such people don't deserve your attention, so you don't have to pay attention to them, just let them go,"
"The Tao has a point." Chen Nian had a suddenly realized expression on his face, paused, and asked seriously: "Is this considered the experience of the Taoist Master?"
Chaoyangzi nodded slowly, and when Chen Nian had gone to use his skills to force the poison, he only found out that there was something wrong with the words, glared at Chen Nian angrily, and retaliated and told her to bask in the sun for half an hour longer.
Feng Junyang heard this from Shunping, and he couldn't laugh or cry for a while. Chaoyangzi would rather end up in a mean name than rectify Chen Nian, but Chen Nian would rather suffer more than apologize to Chaoyangzi, this old and young are all ordinary stubborn tempers.
Shunping secretly glanced at Feng Junyang's face, and asked tentatively: "Qiao Lao and Chaoyangzi, when can you do it?"
Earlier, Feng Junyang had confessed, and ordered him to try to get rid of Qiao Lao and Chaoyangzi, although Shunping didn't know the reason, but he had been secretly planning this matter, and now he saw that the two were healing Feng Junyang and Chen Nian respectively, especially Feng Junyang here, Qiao Lao spared no effort to help him repair the meridians every day, Feng Junyang respected him more than before, and Shunping was a little unsure of his thoughts.
Since his injuries are good, he doesn't need to worry about what news they leak, Qiao Lao can naturally not kill him, but Chaoyangzi can't let it go. Feng Jun lowered his eyes and said lightly: "Wait a minute." ”
Shunping got his words, and he probably had a number in his heart, knowing that this person still had to be removed, but not now, but only after Miss Xie made sure that there was nothing to do.
Because Feng Junyang and Chen Nian don't live together at the moment, they have to heal their injuries every day, Feng Junyang has a lot of affairs to deal with here, and the two can get together at dinner in a day, most of them are Feng Junyang's courtyard to Chen Nian, and then go back to his residence after eating with her.
At dinner on this day, Feng Junyang saw that Chen Nian was still absent-minded, so he put down the dishes and chopsticks in his hand and said to her: "If you don't want to eat, don't force yourself, just ask them to cook it when you're hungry." ”
Chen Nian could talk nonsense with Chaoyangzi, but she didn't want to hide her thoughts in front of Feng Junyang, she lowered her head when she heard this, and said softly: "Ace, I feel uncomfortable. ”
Feng Junyang thought for a while and asked, "Or is it because of the matter of Qingfeng Village,"
Chen Nian nodded, "The more I think about it, the more I feel that I am as ruthless and unrighteous as Ye Xiaoqi said, I watched the village overturn and ignored it, I ......"
"Chen Nian," Feng Junyang whispered to stop her words, and the words he said were rational and almost indifferent, "Qingfeng Village has nothing to do with you, Xue Zhi is not what you want to kill, and it is not up to you to intervene in the Qingji dispute, even if you stay in the village and can't resist the Jizhou army, you can't save the destruction of Qingfeng Village." You are Xie Chennian, you are not Zhang Kuisu, you can't even match a Wen Fengming. ”
"I can at least tell the people in the village to die less, as long as I don't just care about protecting myself at that time, as long as I have the courage to expose Zhang Kuisu's conspiracy and tell everyone what I know, the people in the village may not die so much," Chen Nian's eyes were slightly red, and he looked at him stubbornly.
Feng Junyang looked at her silently for a moment with the corners of his lips, and suddenly asked, "Chen Nian, do you complain that I stopped you at that time?"
Chen Nian was slightly stunned, and hurriedly shook his head and said, "No, Azer, I didn't mean that." ”
Feng Jun pursed the corners of his lips and looked at her silently. His reaction made Chen Nian feel even more aggrieved, obviously he didn't want to cry, but the tears were rolling in his eyes, she didn't want to cry in front of him, so she had to stand up and walk aside, turn her back and stop looking at him.
Looking at her like this, Feng Junyang's heart suddenly softened, he sighed helplessly, walked behind her and hugged her from behind, and said softly: "Chen Nian, we are people who want to accompany each other for a lifetime, and we will have to face many things together in the future, not only swords and swords, but also many conspiracies." You can be kind, but you must not be weak, let alone lose your mind. I don't want to come back and face your doubts and accusations after intriguing with people outside. ”
"I didn't," Chen Nian turned around and threw himself into his arms, and said in a dumb voice: "I just feel uncomfortable, so many people have died in the village, they are all known to me, and I feel uncomfortable." ”
She knew long ago that since Qingfeng Village was breached by Xue Shengying's army, it was inevitable that there would be casualties. But on the one hand, due to Feng Junyang's deliberate concealment, and on the other hand, she herself was unwilling to accept the reality, so she always had some luck in her heart, hoping that even if the cottage was gone, everyone would be able to escape into the mountains and survive......
This illusion has now been shattered, only a few hundred people have survived in the village of thousands of people, even people with strong martial arts like Liu Zhongyi have died, and Ye Xiaoqi and Xiaoliu are even more missing. She is the only one, the betrayer of Qingfeng Village, who has been alive and well in Qingzhou City.
That's right, she is the betrayer of Qingfeng Village, it was she who abandoned Qingfeng Village in danger, abandoned her partners in the village, and abandoned Ye Xiaoqi and Xiaoliu who grew up together since childhood. Since hearing the news of the village from Qiu San that day, this thought has taken root in Chen Nian's heart, and it has grown silently, tormenting her so much that she can't think about tea and dinner, and she can't sleep well.
How could Feng Junyang not understand her thoughts, he sighed slightly, she is still a little girl, even if she is strong and brave, she is still just a little girl who grew up in the mountains. She is too soft-hearted, she values others too much, she can't ignore human life like him, and she is even inferior to Yunsheng, who was born in the gate valve clan since she was a child, she has long been accustomed to being orderly up and down, and she will never blame herself for the innocent death of the maid around her.
But it was such a year that would attract his heart.
Feng Junyang gently stroked her hair and said in a low voice: "If you really can't rest assured of the people in the village, when the poison on your body is gone, I will accompany you back to find them." ”
Chen Nian didn't say anything on his chest, only nodded heavily.
As the summer deepens, the weather becomes more and more unstoppable, and the daily time of the year is becoming more and more difficult. In fact, since the tenth day, Chen Nian has no poisonous blood to vomit, but Chaoyangzi just refuses to relax his requirements, and has to stare at her for an hour under the sun before he stops.
Chen Nian was extremely angry, and there was nothing she could do, she had the heart not to listen to Chaoyangzi's words, but as long as she delayed half a moment of hard work and forced poison, there would be a few acupuncture points on her body that were faintly painful. She didn't dare to gamble with Chaoyangzi with her own life, so she could only honestly and obediently bask in the sun, and then look at the villain of Chaoyangzi under the shade of the tree, and longed to cover this person with a cloth bag one day and beat him fiercely.
On this day, Feng Junyang had a banquet in front of him, so he didn't come over to accompany Chen Nian to dinner, she ate something alone, and the maid was going to come forward and apply ointment to her face, Chen Nian couldn't help but wave his hand irritably, and said angrily: "Don't wipe it, don't wipe it, anyway, wipe it in vain, it's a big deal to be as black as the old way,"
She didn't want to, but she just hit the maid's hand and knocked over the medicine jar that the maid was holding in her hand. The medicine jar fell to the ground and shattered, Chen Nian was stunned for a moment, and before she came back to her senses, the maid had already knelt down in front of her and kowtowed, and repeatedly accused: "The slave and maid should die, and the girl is angry." ”
Chen Nian grew up with Mu Zhanyue, learned to take care of his own affairs early, and never called a slave, even when he came to Qingzhou with Feng Junyang, she rarely asked a maid to serve her. This is because he wants to heal his injuries and live alone, so he has to accept the two maids sent by Feng Junyang, but only when they come to be his companion, they are very easy-going to the two of them, and they have never really called them around, let alone scolded them.
She didn't expect that she would accidentally knock off the medicine jar in the maid's hand, and she didn't expect the maid to react like this, as if she would reprimand her. After being stunned, Chen Nian unconsciously lowered his eyebrows and said, "You get up." ”
But the maid refused to get up, but fell on her knees and begged for mercy. Another maid rushed in from outside when she heard the movement, and she was stunned when she entered the door.
Chen Nian's voice also became cold, and he repeated, "I told you to get up." ”
The maid who was stunned at the door reacted, and hurriedly stepped forward to put the maid kneeling on the ground, and reprimanded: "Don't get up quickly, the girl doesn't have anything to do with you, what are you doing?"
The maid stood up timidly, but stood aside and carefully looked at Chen Nian's face. Chen Nian was already irritable in his heart, and he felt even more depressed when he encountered this incident, so he simply left the house to the two maids to clean, and turned around and strode out of the courtyard. She habitually walked to Feng Junyang's residence, and only when she was halfway did she remember that Feng Junyang was feasting, her steps couldn't help but slow down, hesitated for a while, and then walked to a willow tree on the side of the road, leaning on the tree and sitting down.
Although the night is not as hot as the day, it is not quiet, and the flowers and plants in the near distance are intertwined with the chirping of summer insects, and the faint laughter and laughter are heard in the wind in the distance. The boredom in Chen Nian's heart did not subside, but it was full of loneliness and loneliness, and it became more and more uncomfortable. After sitting like this for a while, there was a sudden sound of pedestrians' footsteps on the path, Chen Nian didn't want to be seen sitting here, and subconsciously shrank down under the shade of the tree, but the footsteps stopped nearby, and he heard a male voice asking in a low voice: "Who is there?"