Chapter 181: Grief
The sudden great pain in the body, I don't know if it comes from the wound or from the heartache? The pain made her almost cramp and tremble, it was obviously a scorching summer night, but she felt completely cold, as if she was immersed in the ice cave river.
Take care of it!
This shout, but there was no sound, only in her heart.
Gu Shezhi.
Is it you or someone else who is going to kill me?
The silver light was drawn, but she was unwilling and suspicious.
The skin on his neck was already feeling the chill of the blade, a scar cracked, and blood slowly leaked out. "Yun Yanzheng" suddenly let out a low cry, eagerly avoided the back, and a silver light flashed, hitting her face. Yun Yanzheng suddenly felt that his body was light, as if he had been grabbed by someone and his arm was raised high, and his body disappeared into the night sky like lightning.
The man who saved her ran away; He reached out and touched the acupuncture point behind her back to stop the bloodflow. She was in a daze, unable to support it any longer, and her mind suddenly fell into darkness and fainted.
When I woke up again, I was already full of mountains and greenery, and the sunlight penetrated through the leaves and hit my face with some dazzling eyes. Yun Yanzheng closed his eyes, turned his head sideways, and opened them again, the air was full of grass and trees, and the pain in his body became more and more obvious, and he couldn't help but bite his back molars.
There seemed to be a "bang" sound around him, and Yun Yan followed the prestige, but saw Fang Juan sitting under the tree, leaning on the trunk, chewing a green fruit. His eyes glanced at her, and he said coldly, "You're finally awake?" ”
"You saved me?" Yun Yanzheng knew that she was talking nonsense, but apart from this sentence, she really didn't know what to say at this moment?
"I'm never going to let you die." Fang Juan sneered.
That's right, she's dead, what about the Gu worms on his body?
Yun Yanzheng is not only angry, but also seems to smile bitterly.
It's really ironic, if it weren't for this Gu worm, maybe she would have died last night. And this Gu worm was the lovesick Gu that Gu Yi planted for her at the beginning. If he hadn't planted this Gu worm on Fang Juan's body, would Gu Xi have noticed her? If so, will Gu Xi still kill her? Or will it save her?
Yun Yanzheng couldn't help but be stunned, but Fang Juan asked, "That Gu Xi, is that the friend you said could solve Gu?" But why did he kill you? Are you his friend, or are you a pawn in his hands? ”
Is she his friend, or is she a pawn in his hands?
She really couldn't answer this sentence. She used to think that they knew and loved each other, no matter how many secrets he had, what secrets he had, no matter how persistent she was, and what kind of admiration she had, they could tolerate each other and would not really hurt each other.
In the past, she once gave herself such a strong self-confidence.
The former Gu Xi also gave her great confidence.
But now it seems that all this seems like his own self-righteousness, wishful thinking, and all of it seems to be a disguised means of Gu Xi?
The pain in my heart came up again, even overshadowing the physical pain. Fang Juan still said unhurriedly: "It seems that you once loved him deeply, so you have such a painful look today." It's a pity that the loved ones are not human, and they are infatuated with the wrong payment, and they have been in the sea and difficult to recover. I won't ask you anything else, just how are you going to get rid of the Gu worms on me in the future? There was a chilling coldness in his tone, and a sneer that pierced his heart.
"Who the hell are you?" Yun Yanzheng also stared at him, and said coldly: "Is it Yan Rongzhen's person?" Or is it someone who cares about it? ”
"Me? I'm my own person. Fang Juan sneered: "Could it be that after being a puppet for all these years, do you still want to send yourself to other people's hands as a pawn?" ”
"Well, I'm really glad for you." Yun Yan said lightly: "You can be truly free." ”
Her lowered eyes and whispered in her voice were full of sadness, she wanted to die for the kingdom of Ul, but the emperor thought she was trying too hard, and tried every means to strip her of her military power and cut her power. She wanted to do whatever she wanted for herself, but in fact she fell into the trap of others and almost died.
Gu Yi has a sentence that is very right, if the enemy catches the weakness, it is not far from death.
whether she is not hard enough, not cautious enough, not step-by-step enough; Do you want to be free too much, you want to be free, you want to get it too much, you will lose more, you lose it faster?
She cares too much about it, so when she is disappointed, she feels more and more pain, unbearable?
She is still too weak to be unintentional, ruthless and unintentional, so that she will feel pain again and again when she is hurt by others.
"Fang Juan, did you ever feel warmth before you became indifferent?" She whispered suddenly, her voice full of fragile softness.
Fang Juan stopped chewing in his mouth, looked at her again, a smile of unknown meaning tugged at the corner of his lips, and said coldly: "When I was a baby, someone may have hugged me, but it was definitely not my mother. When I became sensible, I knew the fierceness of the struggle for power and profit in this world, and if I was kind to others, I would be cruel to myself. Later, when I entered the Imperial Palace of Yuguo, I went from a cage surrounded by wolves to another ghostly cage. In the previous cage, I also had the opportunity to be one of the wolves, either to be bitten by others or to bite others. In the latter cage, I was left to be ridiculed and toyed with. ”
Yun Yanzheng listened quietly and stopped talking.
Fang Juan took a bite of the bitter fruit and continued: "There was once a little female official, and she always secretly brought me food and clothes. I also did my own work, asked someone to take it out of the palace to sell, and when I got the silver, I saved all the money for me, so that I could take care of the ghosts in the palace who had no money and no grinding. At first, I didn't believe that there was such a person in the world, and that she was so kind to others for no reason, and I always thought that she was cooperating with those ghosts and didn't know what tricks to play tricks on me. Later, I tried many times, and found that there was no problem with the food, the clothes, and began to use it carefully, and every time she brought it, I invited her to eat it, and quietly let others eat it, and only after there was nothing unusual, I ate the rest of it. ”
The corners of Yun Yanzheng's lips showed a wry smile, when she lived in the Imperial Palace of the Ul Kingdom, why wasn't she also so cautious, step by step?
Fang Juan's voice did not fluctuate at all, and even his expression did not change: "Later, over the years, I began to use some tricks to trick her into doing more things for me, and every time she trembled and agreed, and every time she trembled and did it for me. I just need to be kind to her, or smile at her once in a while and talk to her, and she'll be satisfied. With her temperament and mind, it was really not easy to survive in that palace. It wasn't long before I learned that there was an aunt in the palace who guarded her everywhere, and that she was also a female official above her. ”
Yun Yanzheng heard some ominous sounds at this moment, and couldn't help but sigh silently in his heart.
Fang Juan smiled faintly, "I think you've thought of it too." Will she end up any better? After her affairs were known to others, she poked them out and turned them out one by one, but she was unwilling to confess to me, and she took it all on herself. In the end, he was beaten to death in the prison. ”
Yun Yanzheng smiled and whispered, "Just like I was at the beginning, being whipped and served every day? ”
He knew that she was ripping out his wounds, but Fang Juan smiled naturally and nodded, "Yes, that's it." He lowered his head and took a bite of the fruit and chewed it slowly.
"Ah Juan, did you help her get revenge later?" Yun Yan asked again.
Fang Juan shook his head and said ruthlessly, "It's that she's too stupid to deserve revenge." In this way, when she knows it in the underworld, she will have a long memory, and she will not be so confused and such a bodhisattva in the next life. ”
"I won't be deceived by others anymore, and I won't be bullied by others anymore?" She continued lightly.
Fang Juan was silent for a moment, and responded, "You're right. ”
"Since she died, you really believed every word she said, and only then did you believe that someone had ever thought of giving you warmth? Unfortunately, it was already too late. Yun Yanzheng endured the pain on his body and said with regret.
Fang Juan smiled, but there was no smile: "That's right, but I don't regret it at all." ”
Yun Yanzheng was silent again, in that situation, he had to be cautious everywhere, he didn't want to be emotional and mistook himself, and it didn't seem to be wrong. It can only be said that the little female officer's luck is not good enough, and the person she met is such a person.
So, where is her luck again?
She smiled and sighed bitterly in her heart.
"Having said so much, you haven't said anything about your future plans?" Fang Juan turned the topic back and said to her, "Do you want to rot to death alone in this barren mountain and forest?" Or do you want to give me some hope that I can save you? ”
Yun Yanzheng really smiled this time, his face was as pale as paper, but he smiled happily, and said angrily: "How about we go to the Secret Medicine Pavilion together?" I can restore my original appearance, and you can also remove the Gu worms on your body. You also know that I'm a person who doesn't accept hard and soft, I just like to do whatever I want, even if I know the way to get rid of Gu worms, I won't say it anyway until I achieve my goal. ”
"I've already learned it." Fangjuan whispered approvingly, picked up a fruit, got up and walked over, and stuffed it into her mouth.
Yun Yanzheng stretched out her hand to take it, took a bite, and immediately frowned.
"Only when you suffer hardship can you become a master." Fang Juan smiled coldly.
Yun Yanzheng lamented: "The body is already miserable enough, even the desire of the tongue has to be tortured, how can I live this life?" ”
Fang Juan snorted coldly, and said in a deep voice: "Otherwise, you will tell me the way to remove the Gu worm, and I will give you something delicious?" ”
Yun Yanzheng smiled meaningfully at him and said softly, "I already know that you are not a good person, so I won't joke with your life." Bitterness is a little bitter, and it is good that people are alive after all. ”
Fang Juan couldn't help but say coldly: "You are also interesting." ”
Sure enough, he smiled, just like the melting of ice and snow in early spring, with the brightness of the cold plum red through the windowsill.
Yun Yanzheng rolled his eyes and said in his heart: No wonder that little female officer did not hesitate to put herself in for him. It's no wonder that the dragon family took such a lot of trouble for him.