Chapter 1000: Self-Blame (Part 5)
So Ji Mochen got up from the bed cautiously, and then quietly walked out of the room, and he went to the children's room.
Ji Mochen walked in, the night light was still on, Bai Rui had already fallen asleep, the child must have had a sweet dream, because his white face was with a shallow smile, Ji Mochen touched Bai Rui's face lovingly, and then sat on the edge of the bed, holding Bai Rui's little hand in the palm of his hand, and then looked at Bai Rui who was sleeping sweetly with love and guilt.
Xiao Rui, Daddy is sorry for you, let you encounter danger, fortunately you are smart enough, fortunately Chen Rong is here, I met you, fortunately, He Yi's time is very important, fortunately, it's okay...... Fortunately, you're fine, if something happens to you, then what to do with Daddy, Mommy will be very sad, Daddy will never forgive me for myself in this life, Daddy will not let you take risks again in the future, Daddy's responsibility Daddy will shoulder it himself, the sky falls and there is Daddy, Daddy will definitely give you a peaceful, carefree childhood......
After looking at Bai Rui affectionately and apologetically for a while, Ji Mochen stood up and helped Bai Rui pull up the quilt that had been kicked up, then lowered his head and kissed the child's forehead, and then went out carefully.
Ji Mochen came to the living room, he didn't turn on the lights, the lights on the terrace outside were always coming, next to the terrace, Mu Bao was sleeping soundly in its room, Ji Mochen opened the floor-to-ceiling window, and then walked out and sat down on the terrace, Mu Bao also noticed that someone was coming, and he was still sitting here with him, so he got up happily and came to Ji Mochen's side and wagged his tail around Ji Mochen's feet.
Ji Mochen patted Mu Bao's head with a smile, let it lie down to sleep, and said with a smile: "At this time, you are the only one who accompanies me."
Mu Bao was very sensitive, and felt that Ji Mochen's mood was very low, so he raised his front paw and patted Ji Mochen's hand, looking at Ji Mochen with wet black eyes, meaning: Daddy, don't be sad, I will accompany you.
Ji Mochen touched Mu Bao's head, smiled, and then looked at the outline of the undulating mountains in the darkness in the distance outside, as well as the lonely white street lamps in the nearby community, and watched quietly, Mu Bao obediently lay at Ji Mochen's feet, giving him silent companionship and comfort.
Because he was at home, Ji Mochen only wore thin pajamas, so the whole person looked very thin against the background, which made him even more lonely. Ning Lengzhi stood in place and watched for a while, holding back the tears that spread from his eyes, and then turned around and went upstairs in a low voice.
Ning Lengzhi went back to the room and took a blanket, because even if the weather warmed up, it was still quite cold at night, and the temperature difference between day and night was still quite large, Ning Lengzhi was afraid that Ji Mochen would get sick if he was too thin.
In the end, Ning Leng went downstairs, then went to the kitchen, took out the quilt, poured out a cup of hot water, then put honey, prepared a cup of honey water, and took it out on the terrace where Ji Mochen was.
Ji Mochen thought too much, so he didn't notice that Ning Lengzhi had come to the terrace at all, or Mu Bao found out first, and wagged his tail lazily towards Ning Lengzhi, happy in his heart, Daddy and Mommy came out to accompany him tonight.
Ning Lengzhi smiled at Mu Bao, and then put the cup on the table, the cup and the table touched each other, making a crisp impact sound, this sound made Ji Mochen come back to his senses, Ji Mochen first looked at the pale yellow honey water on the table, and then the next second he was covered by a blanket, Ning Lengzhi hugged him behind his chair, her head was buried in his shoulder, and then said, "Why don't you sleep?" What do you think? ”
Ji Mochen felt that his whole body was warm at this time, and when he saw her bare arms holding his shoulders, he knew that she must have come down in only her pajamas.
Pulling her in front of him, Ji Mochen asked Ning Lengzhi to sit on his lap, and then wrapped the two of them with a blanket, fortunately the blanket was big enough, Ning Lengzhi's whole person was close to Ji Mochen, as if there were no bones, Ji Mochen wrapped her exposed arms and legs with a blanket, the blanket was enough, the two of them snuggled up like this, and they felt very warm without talking.
After hugging each other quietly for a while, Ning Lengzhi picked up the cup and handed it to him, and then said, "It's going to be cold if you do it for too long, drink it quickly, wait for it to get cold."
Ji Mochen took it with a smile, then slowly drank a glass of honey water, and then put the cup down, and sure enough, he felt that his body was warm.
After a while, Ning Lengzhi looked up at him from his arms and asked, "Can you tell me what you're thinking?"
Ji Mochen was still silent, as if he didn't know what to say.
Ning Lengzhi put his arms around his neck, sat up straight, then looked into his eyes, and said slowly and gently: "If you don't say it, then I'll guess it myself, see if my guess is right, this wife is competent or not, okay?"
But Ning Lengzhi didn't want Ji Mochen's answer, but looked at him, and then continued: "There is a man, he himself has endured a lot in a day, not only successfully guessed the opponent's behavior, but also helped the police successfully seize the person who has been looking for an opportunity to find an opportunity to arrest, he has done a lot of things that people can't do at all, he is very wise, very far-sighted, and very thoughtful, he can calculate his opponent and give him a hard blow in the end, he protects his most important person."
"But this man is still very careful, he always thinks that he let the person he loves the most to protect walk on the edge of danger, and almost had an accident, so he is blaming himself, feeling guilty, these guilt and self-blame torment him so that he can't sleep, he keeps thinking about it, and feels that he is very sorry for his lovers." Speaking of this, Ning Lengzhi raised his head and kissed his lips gently.
"This man, he is very strong, but he is also very stoic, he is afraid that saying these words will make his family worry about him, and he will also be sad, he just holds these things in his heart, and he doesn't want to say a word, he is really a very distressing man, but he doesn't know ......" Ning Lengzhi's eyes looked straight into Ji Mochen's eyes with a smile.
"He doesn't know, in fact, he wants to protect the person he loves the most, and the person who loves him also wants to stand up and protect him, so that he doesn't have to bear such a burden, because they feel sorry for him and are afraid that he will work too hard, so ah, they never blame or complain, more is the joy of being able to fight side by side, the happiness and satisfaction of being able to protect and protect each other, and the pride of this man's bravery and wisdom......"