Then, Chang Kun told me that he had taken care of Dai Furong's funeral, and the ashes were now placed at a friend's house in Jiangcheng, and asked me if I had any plans, and he could do so.

Hearing Dai Furong's name, his appearance immediately appeared in my mind, and my heart was hurt, so I bowed my head and was silent for a long time before saying, "Let's leave it first, and when I'm done with things, I'll take him to a place he will like to settle in, I'm sorry for you." ”

Chang Kun nodded, was silent for a while, and suddenly said: "You don't have to be too sad about Dai Furong's matter, even if he didn't have this assassination, he wouldn't have lived long." ”

I looked at him in amazement.

"I've seen the body, and his varicose veins are already very severe, which is one of the symptoms of the 'bone erosion' virus," he said. ”

I swallowed and didn't speak.

He got up, took the bag resting on the chair, opened the zipper, took out a thick-looking brown paper bag from it, handed it to me, and said, "This is the item that Dai Furong brought with him when he had the accident, keys, mobile phone, voice recorder, and ...... And see for yourself. ”

His last sentence was in a strange tone, and I couldn't help but look up at him, but he obviously avoided my gaze, which was strange.

I took the bag from his hand, opened it, took out a thick stack of stationery from it, and hastily flipped through it, the simple style of stationery, densely written, at a glance it was Dai Furong's handwriting, written very seriously, every word was dignified and clear, as neat as a student's homework.

In addition, there are keys and mobile phones, voice recorders, wallets, wallets with various documents, bank cards, receipts and so on, and a color photo of him holding his son, with the date of the day of the shooting written on the back of the photo, and his missing son should be thirteen or fourteen years old this year.

Dai Furong once told me that if something happened to him, she hoped that I could help him find his son, and if possible, find a way to rescue him.

Those words are the last words when I think about it now, so I have to take on this heavy task.

If he lives, I can still rely on him, I can still make trouble with him, my son will find it by himself, I'm busy enough not to find trouble for me. But when he died, who did I rely on, how could I rely on it, I just fought for this life, and I had to help him find his son and cure his illness.

It would be nice if he hadn't died, and I could still have a discussion about where and how to find my son.

Now, when people die, how can they be discussed?

Chang Kun stood up and prepared to leave, and said, "I haven't been to Dai Furong's house, since it's your friend, you can take care of it yourself." ”

At this time, my eyes fell on the first line of the first page of the stack of letters, and the whole person was stunned.

The first line of the first page of the stack of handwritten manuscripts in the relics of Dai Furong reads: Hi, Nil.

Hi Nil.

I suddenly remembered that he blocked the bullet for Lao Lazy that day, and finally wanted to say something to me, Lao Lao put the phone to his ear, and he said this sentence.

Hi Nil.

This is the last sentence that Dai Furong left in the world.

Hi Nil.

This is also the first sentence of the opening sentence of his long suicide note.

No, it's not a suicide note, I understood after reading two pages, it's a love letter.

It was a love letter from Dai Fleur to me.

So this afternoon, I sat in a chair by the balcony of the study and read the forty-two pages of love letters written by Dai Furong Gonggong, completely forgetting the passage of time and not knowing when Chang Kun left. Li Xu once came in and asked me what I was looking at, I just looked at her blankly and told her to go out, so she and Xiaohai didn't come in to disturb me again, just watched TV quietly in the downstairs living room and waited for me.

I read more than forty pages three times, until the sky was getting dark, and the words on the paper were blurry, and finally I staggered to my feet, walked to the balcony, and leaned on the railing to breathe in the wind and fields, wondering why I was so sad that I couldn't cry.

It's really sad.

It's so sad.

He loves me.

Dai Fleur loves me.

Love is so deep, so deep, so gentle, so beautiful, but quiet and quiet.

I remembered all the times I spent with him, the way he looked at me, his timid almost childish face, the bright smile that sometimes popped up on his lips.

He loves me.

It turned out that Dai Furong really remembered that the first time we met was not at the scene of the "oil painting case", but even earlier, in the spring of more than four years ago, at the intersection not far from the Qingqi Law Firm, I bought many, many balloons and distributed them for free to strangers passing by, and he was looking at me across the road. That day, he suffered a major setback in the investigation, and was desperate for his fate, trying to find a high building to climb up to commit suicide, and suddenly saw me so happy and happy to distribute balloons, as if I was an angel who suddenly came to the world, as beautiful as a fairy tale, without the slightest earthly shadow, he looked and looked drunk, and could not take a step.

Then I walked over.

I gave him the last balloon and bounced away.

He remembered that day I was wearing a long dress, my hair was tied into a braided braid, and I was smiling like a princess.

That day he stood there and watched me until I couldn't see it, then dismissed suicidal thoughts, went home with a balloon, and regained the courage to investigate.

"Because only by living can I have a chance to see you again." He wrote in his letter.

Later, when he saw me outside the "Oil Painting Case" scene, he was so startled that he couldn't figure out how I could be in such a place. When he came out of his errands, I was already gone, so he inquired and followed him to the public security bureau, and then followed my car, and there was an incident where Xiaohai hit him by the neck with a short knife. He said that he was frightened by Xiaohai, but he was not afraid of me at all.

He fell in love with me from the first sight and wanted to meet me again every moment since.

In the long days that followed, we often saw each other, through thick and thin, sharing life and death, but he missed me more than ever.

In his letter, he said that he could not express that longing in words, even if I was right in front of him, even if I was talking to him, even if I reached out and touched his head, he still missed him deeply, as if I was not real, as if I was an illusion of him, and he missed it until his heart ached, he missed it until he cried, and he missed it until he suddenly stopped hating his fate.

He said that I understand that even if I don't have this fatal disease, you can't fall in love with me, you can't be with me, so the fate of dying in Hua Nian is not so sad, because without you in life, living more is no different from living less.

In the few months that I have been investigating together, he has been jealous of everything around me, jealous of Lao Lazy, jealous of Yafeng, jealous of Fu Yuxin, jealous of Liu Yimin, and even jealous of Xiaohai and Li Xu. Because they can joke with me without any scruples and hug me at any time. He was jealous that they could call me at any time, even if there was nothing just to ask me what I was doing. He was jealous of the pride and joy on their faces when they talked about me. He was jealous......

He was mad with jealousy.

Even the title is jealous.

How many times did he say that he wanted to call me "Nier" as affectionately as they did, but he never dared, he was afraid that tears would fall as soon as those two words came out.

"Because I love you so much, my dear Nil."

The illness on his body had a little attack the day before he went to Xiaobarren Mountain, and he thought at the time, since the clues were found here, he would go and take a look, and then do a little bit for his family in the end. So I went, found two old dilapidated houses under the Half Moon Cliff, there was no one in them, broke in, found the basement, saw the female corpse in the pool, and there was movement from above, I was trapped so that I didn't dare to move, I subconsciously sent me a distress message, and immediately realized that something was wrong, I was afraid that something would happen to me, and I wanted to withdraw but it was too late, he regretted it so much that he wanted to die immediately, and even forgot his fear.

After escaping from the small barren mountain, in the hospital, the pain in his body became more and more severe, as if millions of ants were gnawing on flesh and bones, and he could no longer sleep normally. So he thought about suicide again, and twice stood by the window on the twenty-second floor of the hospital and looked out, and his fantasies were over.

"But when I die, I really can't see you anymore, Nier, I don't believe in the afterlife, I don't believe in reincarnation, I only have this life, but even this life will be used up, and I don't love you enough at all."

"The pain of not being able to see you anymore is worse than the pain of not being able to have you, so I thought, let's live a few more days, one more day, one more chance to see you, that's why I didn't fly out of the window on the twenty-second floor, I want to see you one more time."

But he couldn't see me anymore.

When he was dying, he didn't even see me again.

I remembered that Lao Lazy came back to see me, saying that Dai Furong followed Shi Yan and his wife in Jiangcheng with him, and often asked him about some things that he didn't have. I heard and laughed at the time but didn't take it to heart, but now I think about it, I was so sad that I squatted on the ground and couldn't stand up, he wanted to hear more about me, but he didn't dare to ask directly, so he could only ask some of them.

I was so sad that my chest was so full of panic that I couldn't shed a single tear, so I sat on the ground with my back to the balcony railing. There was a smell of impending rain in the air, and I glanced back at the sky in the distance, and saw Dai Furong looking at me timidly in the clouds and smiling.

I was so sad that I couldn't help myself, and I couldn't stand up.

Li Xu waited for me not to go downstairs, so he came up to see the situation, and when he saw me sitting on the balcony like a fool, he came over to help me. I pinched the stack of love letters and let her half-hold me and help me into a chair and sit down. I told her in a trembling voice that Fleur loved me. She turned her face sideways and didn't look me in the eye, lit a cigarette and said that the whole world knows it, but you don't know.

I saw my hand holding the love letter start to shake.

That night, I fell asleep, and my dreams were full of Dai Furong, and he looked at me and smiled, telling me not to be sad for him.