As if I could see that I was thinking intensely, Yuezi and James were silent, and they seemed to be waiting for my reply.

Waiting for me to make a decision.

I...... Can you kill someone?

Thinking of Xu Feng's friendly and talkative smile, and then the brutal scene where I was going to kill him with a murder weapon, cut his face, or cut his throat, or plunge a knife into his heart, I suddenly couldn't stand it.

I can't.

I'm not a murderer.

I'm not Zhang Muyi, nor am I Wang Bin.

I can't kill someone for a simple conjecture of my own.

Eventually, I let go of my clenched fist.

Breathe a sigh of relief.

"Forget it, I don't think they're really ordinary students who have nothing to do with each other...... Moreover, I'm not a murderer, Yuezi, what do you think of me? I looked at the confinement with some reproach, only to find that the confinement was looking at me with a very serious gaze.

"But, brother." Yuezi's delicate eyebrows frowned slightly, "If the God Game is real, and the other teams have raided their own worlds, and then hit us, and when that day comes, then what should we do?" ”

At that moment, I felt like I could hear my own heartbeat clearly.

I was silent, looked at the confinement child, then at James, and finally, took a deep breath and said:

"If Yuezi's conjecture that the people of the Wolf Gang are the authors is right, then other teams dare to attack us and rush to destroy our world and books, then when we die, after the world is destroyed, the author who created them will also die, in that case, won't the people of those teams also die together? So don't think about it so much, no matter what, we're safe. As long as the people of the other teams know that they are imaginary, they will not dare to destroy the world. Although our world is ordinary, it is well protected. ”

When I said this, even I was happy with my analysis, and if it weren't for the fact that Yuezi offered to kill someone else, I wouldn't even have thought about it. As a result, our situation is more secure than we thought, so what else should I worry about?

One of the heaviest dark clouds that had been weighing on my heart finally lifted, and I suddenly found myself feeling a long-lost sense of relief. For a moment, I even felt as if I had returned to an ordinary life, an ordinary life, just like before.

"Hmm...... That sounds like that. Yuezi touched her smooth and delicate chin, then looked up and said, "Then only one last question remains." That's who is the member named Blue Moon, and what does the documentary story he wrote mean? Could it be something to say? Hey, when I think about it, my head is getting big. Yuezi shook her hair violently, as if it was covered with dandruff.

"yes, I don't understand it either." James spoke with some caution. "This Blue Moon is definitely not the Blue Moon Master I know, it should just be a member with the same name. But I think the story he wrote is really interesting. ”

"Interesting? What does this say? I wondered, "Listening to them, isn't Blue Moon just a diary?" ”

"No, I'm not talking about the content, I'm talking about the structure of his writing." James said, "Think about it, wouldn't it be similar if the author were to be compared to God? The author created the world in his own story, and God created the world of reality. Or to put it another way, God is the designer, the creator. And if we use the story structure of Blue Moon, then Blue Moon creates God in his story, and then uses God in the story to create a new world, and then continues to create God in that world, and then lets that new God continue to create the world...... It goes on and on endlessly. In this way, wouldn't the blue moon create countless gods? Then he is even greater than God. It can even be said that ...... It is a being beyond God. God created the world, and He created God ......of God God Countless gods. Just thinking about it makes people feel scary, doesn't it? ”

I laughed, patted him on the shoulder, and said:

"Overthinking, a little overdone. I didn't expect you to have such a whimsical idea, James. ”

But I noticed that James's face was still not calm, and he looked at me with a calm look that I had barely seen and said:

"But, Mr. Yang, haven't you seen God several times?"

"I ...... Ever seen God? ”

"Yes, didn't you see Jesus' face a while ago?" James said solemnly.

When James mentioned this, my heart suddenly hung high, and the memories that I almost forgot in the back of my mind suddenly pumped back like a pumping machine.

Indeed, a while ago, I saw the face of Jesus several times, or on the walls scorched by fire, or on the glass washed by the rain, and I saw the head of Jesus more than once, and at that time I thought it was just a psychological effect of my psychological pressure...... But now that James said that, I suddenly had a creepy feeling.

It's like, above my head, a pair of eyes are staring at me. I even have a little numb on my scalp, this kind of thought, it's crazy, it's too scary.

"It may also be a problem of psychological pressure, this kind of thing is uncertain, it's useless to think too much, just put it on hold for now." Although James's speculation is a little subversive, when you think about it, this kind of wild imagination that never leads to results is really useless. I had to stop this long conversation. When it's time to rest, it's time to rest. Because I spent so much time at school, we didn't have time to eat dinner, because it was already past dinner time, so I pulled up Xueqi and Frexiu who were waiting in the hotel and went to have a supper together.

Xue Qi asked where we had gone. She said she thought something had happened to us, and she was worried. Xue Qi also saw that my mood was improving, so even her mood became a lot more lively.

I had to comfort Xue Qi and said that I had a little business and went to meet a few business people, and Yuezi and James were my translators, and now the business has been almost discussed, and you can have fun. Although Xue Qi knew that I was hiding it, her emotional frankness made her put her mind at ease, especially the three of us had a straight face in the morning, whispering from time to time, which made Xue Qi very worried all the time, but now we all have a casual expression, and she naturally relaxed the yin in her heart.

Because it was so late, most of the stores were closed, and we didn't get to see the night view that night, and we stayed in the hotel after supper. Xueqi and I still share a room. That's not to say I have anything in mind...... It's just for Xueqi's safety. Although it is more suitable for the two women to sleep in the same room, Yuezi took the initiative to give up that opportunity very interestingly, and gave me the opportunity to get along with Xueqi, looking at her cunning and intelligent appearance, I don't have to think about it, I know what Yuezi is thinking in her head.

Sometimes, the confinement makes it difficult for me, but sometimes, this sister who thinks she is smart is so naïve that she wants to laugh.

Confinement is alone in one room, and James still sleeps with Frexiu.

In Xueqi's words, the room is divided according to the language, this sentence makes me can't help but laugh, indeed, in terms of the language of speaking, Xueqi and I are Chinese, Yuezi is Japanese, and James and Frexiu are foreigners.

Xue Qi had already taken a shower when we stayed at the school to visit, and she obviously had a lot of shower gel on her body, and her half-wet and half-dry black hair was fragrant, as if it hadn't been dried yet.

Xue Qi stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, looking at the night scene below from a high place, stretching her waist, smelling a little bit of big city air leaking in through the gaps in the narrow high-rise windows, looking very enjoyable.

"Dad, this hotel is so high, it's a bit like the skyscraper in our city, and when you took me to the roof of the building, it was almost that high."

"How is it possible, the skyscraper is more than ten stories taller than this. You're mistaken. You also haven't been to a skyscraper in years, when you were just a little younger. I smiled, walked up to Xue Qi, and followed her to look at the scene below the hotel.

"Phew, where is it small, it's not small, how can I remember wrong...... I remember it very well. Xue Qi stubbornly retorted to me, "Didn't I tell my father at that time that it would be nice for such a tall building to fly out of the window if I had wings." And then Dad, you say, I could have flown ......"

"Oh? Did I say anything like that? "I didn't expect Xueqi's memory to be so good, I took Xueqi to the skyscraper, it was probably when Xueqi was twelve or thirteen years old, such a long time ago, it was like a century away for me, but for Xueqi, who usually stays at home, it seems to be a fresh thing in my memory.

"Bad memory." Xue Qi saw that I had forgotten everything for a long time, and immediately glared at me a little unhappily. "Rotten!"

I don't know which of my words stimulated Xue Qi, it seems that Xue Qi was a little unhappy all of a sudden, I know this girl's character very well, and immediately stepped forward and touched her head and said:

"Yes, Dad is getting older, that's it, my memory is getting worse and worse...... Yo, long-haired beauty, who are you, do we know each other? I deliberately pretended to be amnesiac and didn't know, Xue Qi suddenly laughed angrily, twisted the flesh on my chest with her little hand, and pinched it hard, so painful that I screamed.

"Neurotic! I won't tell you! Xue Qi wrinkled her little nose, then bypassed me, lay down on the bed, pulled up the quilt and got in, picked up the white pillow again, covered her mouth, and then turned on the TV with the remote control.

I looked at the beautiful white curves lying under the covers, smiled, and went to the bathroom to take a shower. When I came out, I found that Xue Qi had fallen asleep and the TV was still on, and I couldn't help but feel a little happy. I guess I'm tired from a day of shopping. When I turned off the TV and dried my hair with a hair dryer, Xueqi was woken up by me, she turned over, rubbed her dark and bright eyes, and said:

"Ahh

Hearing Xue Qi's lazy voice, my heart suddenly itched, I specially leaned into Xue Qi's ear, and then used a hot hair dryer to blow her ears, so frightened that she suddenly opened her eyes, covered her ears and curled up and moved away.

"Uh-huh...... What's the matter, it's uncomfortable to death. Xue Qi looked at me angrily with a faint little brow, because she had just woken up, and her face was also flushed, just like the plateau red.

I smiled and said, "I have too much earwax in my ears, so I'll blow it on you." ”

Xue Qi was furious when she heard my indecent words, and threw a pillow over: "Oh, disgusting! Dad, you have a lot of earwax. ”

I jokingly said:

"Then you dig for Dad, come on, come on." As he spoke, I deliberately pointed to my ears, "Dad feels that my ears are getting worse and worse lately, and I can't hear the sound very well." ”

"Yikes! So what about it, idiot idiot idiot! Can you hear me? ”

Xue Qi deliberately held her hand into a horn and shouted into my ear.

"I can't hear it, I can't hear it. What did you say? ”

I deliberately pretended not to know.

"I say idiot, idiot, idiot! Can you hear me?! Xue Qi raised her voice and shouted into my ear, which made my ears buzz.

"I can't hear it, I can't hear it." I was still pretending, but I couldn't help but laugh crookedly with one mouth.

Xue Qi sat on the bed with her legs bent, looked at me with an expression like a fool, stretched out her hand at me and said:

"Bring it."

"What did you bring it?" I looked at Xue Qi's outstretched little hand and asked.

"Pick your ears! Can't you hear me? Pretend to be deaf and dumb, big idiot! As she spoke, Xue Qi really took out the ear scoop from the keychain I hung on the belt buckle on the back of the sofa, picked up the pillow on the ground and jumped onto the bed, patted the snow-white pillow after it was flattened, and said:

"Then hurry up and lie down, I'll dig you up, right?"

I didn't expect Xue Qi to be really willing to pick out my ear spoons, and I suddenly felt an indescribable emotion surging in my heart, and that emotion came so suddenly, I didn't even catch it, it had passed in an instant.

Come to think of it, when Xue Qi was young, she really picked my ears a lot, and of course, I must have picked her ears a lot more often. But since Xue Qi grew up, this kind of thing has not happened and cannot happen again, but now Xue Qi has proposed to gouge out my ears again.

"Yo, you're so obedient today. Then I'll do it. Seeing Xue Qi so well-behaved, I was a little uncomfortable, I was excited to lie on the bed, Xue Qi knelt on the bed, and I was leaning on her thighs, because I had just taken a bath, Xue Qi's body still exuded the smell of shower gel, very smelly, I leaned on her smooth and smooth thighs, feeling like I was leaning on an elastic leather case pillow, extremely comfortable.

My ears were close to Xueqi's smooth and round thighs, and I could also feel Xueqi's warm body temperature, which was transmitted from her snow-white skin to the base of my ears, and I felt that my ears were about to melt, almost sticking to her thighs.

"Don't move." Xue Qi pulled my ear with one hand, and with the other hand, she really took the ear picker to help me pick up the earwax.

I don't know if it's because my face is on her thighs, I feel the temperature of Xueqi's legs is also rising. I'm probably still a little shy.

But she was really careful, like threading a needle and thread, carefully picking out my ear spoons little by little.

At that moment, I pillowed Xueqi's soft and elastic thighs, and a deep indescribable sense of happiness brewed in my heart.

For a man who is a father, the happiest thing in his life is that his daughter can pluck out her ears.

"Qiqi, you're a little weird today, why are you willing to gouge out your father's ears?" I pillowed Xueqi's thighs, couldn't help but tilt my eyes up, and asked.

"Don't move around, you'll be digging in ...... If you move again, I won't dig it for you. Xue Qi said a little resentfully.

I hurriedly closed my mouth obediently, silently feeling the subtle feeling of the ear plucker in Xueqi's hand rubbing in my ear canal.

I could even feel the sensation of Xue Qi's gentle exhalation blowing on my neck, and the feeling of comfort was like a hypnotic spring breeze that made people want to sleep.

It was a long, long time, and I was almost about to close my eyes and fall asleep, when Xue Qi, who had been silent, suddenly opened her mouth in a soft voice.

"I've always felt like you've been in a bad mood lately...... Dad," Xue Qi said softly, "I'm wondering if my relationship is like this...... But I always felt as if there was something else, and I always felt like you were doing something dangerous, Dad...... But they just won't tell me. Every day, when I see my father, you and Sister Yuezi, their faces are all sad. ”

Hearing Xueqi's voice, my ears couldn't help but move. It's also a habit of mine, when my mood changes, my ears always flutter unconsciously.

"Qiqi ......"

"But when you come back tonight, Dad, I feel that Dad, your mood seems to be much better all of a sudden, as if a stone has hit the ground in your heart, and you are smiling and grinning, and you will tease me, just like before." Xue Qi said slowly, "Dad, you are still the same as before...... That's nice. ”

Xue Qi's words were like a light veil, carefully slicing through my heart, obviously so casual, but they gave me a huge shock.

I have always felt that among the women I know, maybe Yuezi is the smartest one, because she can always say what she should say when she should speak, and not when she shouldn't, she can always help me, like a right-hand man, and even think of things I can't always think of or can't figure out. And what about Xueqi? She is like a little princess in a greenhouse, she doesn't know anything, everything is hidden.

But at this moment, I suddenly felt that I was afraid that I was wrong. Xue Qi has never been stupid or ignorant, in fact, she knows everything, but she is one step closer than the confinement. She didn't say anything when she should or shouldn't speak, so I thought she didn't know anything, like a naïve baby.

But how could she really not know? Xue Qi has actually realized a lot of things a long time ago, but just like when she was a child, she never said it, she would only silently hold it in her heart.

Over the years, this has become a unique way of life for Xueqi.

When she was young, in order not to let the world know that I had a daughter like her, whenever a stranger or relative came to the house, I would let her hide on the second floor from others. It's like she never existed.

Xue Qi also knew that I didn't want her to be known to the world, so she has always been obedient to me, and she has never been discovered by outsiders. Year after year, time and time, this reflex-like agreement between me and her has been integrated into Xueqi's thinking habits and has become her way of preserving herself. She also began to get used to being silent about what she didn't know, what she shouldn't ask, because those things were dangerous, and only I was safe. As long as you listen to me and don't ask so much, I will naturally take care of her in the end, so she is also used to ignorance. But deep down, she is actually sensitive to a lot of things.

I didn't respond to Xue Qi's words, I just pillowed Xue Qi's soft thighs, but there was a thick layer of sadness in my heart.

It would be nice if time could stay in this moment forever.

I know, I love Xueqi.

This kind of love is unconditional love. It's deeply ingrained in my bone marrow and a part of my life. If you lose it, I'll be less like me.

However, I had no choice but to give up.

This is the end I was destined for.

Xueqi doesn't belong to me after all.

"Qiqi." I said softly.

"Huh?" Xue Qi put down the hand that was tugging at my ear and made a sound through her nose.

"Call Ma Bailong tomorrow," I swallowed before I said, "Actually, he has helped us a lot during this time, and he is also familiar with this place, so if he comes, he can take us to more interesting places." You can also discuss studying in the United States. ”

Hearing my words, Xue Qi's hand suddenly stopped.

I listened quietly to Xueqi's movements, waiting for her reaction.

What would Xue Qi say? Will she agree? Or rejection? I still remember that she even planned to refuse the opportunity to study in the United States, and she was also conflicted in her heart, would she agree to see Ma Bailong again?

"Hmm......" In the end, Xueqi replied to me with a soft um.

That night, I can't even remember how I fell asleep, but I remember that the last picture was that I sent a text message to Ma Bailong, hoping that he would come and show us the way.

As a result, at noon the next day, Ma Bailong arrived.

When they saw Xue Qi, the atmosphere of Ma Bailong and Xue Qi was a little awkward, mainly because there were too many people present. I saw the two of them walking together, and I didn't know where to start, Ma Bailong just asked Xue Qi about her physical condition, but it seemed that because of my presence, I never dared to get too close to Xue Qi.

I also saw this scene in my eyes, so when I asked Ma Bailong to lead the way to the scenic spot in the afternoon, I specially walked in the back position, ostensibly to take Frexiu to buy things, but in fact, I moved more space to let Xueqi and Ma Bailong have contact.

So that afternoon, I kept walking at the back of the line, silently watching Xueqi and Ma Bailong get closer and closer, watching Yuezi and James greet each other with a smile, and a few times Yuezi even took James's hand to explain some interesting cultural concepts in China to him, and I was like a person who watched the scenery, everything had nothing to do with me.

"Uncle Yang, why don't you talk to them?" By the side of a goldfish pond, Frexiu finally couldn't help but ask me, I looked at the two pairs of Xueqi and Yuezi who were watching the play under the stage from a distance, but I leaned on the railing, silently.

Frésius was a clever boy, and after an afternoon with me, he also had an insight into something.

I smiled and touched Frésion's head, and said to Freschu, who was eating marshmallows:

"It's their time together, and it's not good for my uncle to disturb them. Fréxiu, don't you think Sister Yuezi and James, as well as Xueqi and Ma Bailong, are very compatible? It's like boyfriend and girlfriend. ”

"Uh-huh......" Fréxiu ate marshmallows, stood with me, looked at the backs of Yuezi and James, Xueqi and Ma Bailong through the goldfish pond, listened to the applause from the noisy crowd, and said, "It's a bit like that." But uncle, if you don't talk to them, you will not be alone alone? Don't you feel like you've been forgotten? ”

I smiled and shook my head:

"Frésiu, you're young, but you know a lot. Men and women fall in love like this, the world of two people, the third person, can't be inserted, if it is inserted, none of the three will be happy. Either three people are unhappy, or let one person be unhappy and fulfill the remaining two people, this is love. Frexiu, when you grow up, you'll understand. ”

Frésius pouted, looked at me and said:

"But I think you're so pitiful, uncle."

I couldn't help but laugh, what an interesting little kid, and I realized that I really liked this little guy more and more.

"Have pity on you, Fresius, haven't you been in touch with your parents yet?"

"......No," Frecius shook his head, but there was no loneliness on his face.

"Don't you want your family?" I asked.

Frexiu thought about it, and finally, shook his head.

"You don't like your mom and dad?" I asked.

Fréxiu stared at the goldfish swimming in the pond and said, "They rarely come home, and they don't care about me, I haven't seen them for a long time." ”

"That's right...... "I can imagine that Frexiu's parents are probably the type who are very busy with official duties, so they don't pay much attention to him.

I took a breath and asked:

"Then Frecius, Uncle has a question for you, if you never go home, you will never see your father and mother...... Would you like to live with your uncle and me? ”

Hearing this, Frésius's reaction was unexpectedly excited, and he suddenly turned his face and said:

"Of course. Because I like you very much, Uncle Yang. ”

I was stunned as I saw Fréxiu's eyes widened and clearer than ordinary children, and I suddenly felt a warmth in my heart.

"Then you'll be living with your uncle before Fresius and your parents come to see you. Uncle will take good care of you, but Frésius, you have to be obedient. ”

"Hee-hee, I'm very obedient." Fréxiu grinned, his smile so bright and cheerful. I suddenly thought that if Fréxiu was the same age as Yuezi or Xueqi, I would even be more happy to have Fréxiu with them, right?

In the next few days, in order to wait for Xu Feng's manuscript, I stayed in the field and did not rush back, while Ma Bailong was our tour guide, and in more than three days, he took us through the streets and alleys, really appreciated the local scenery and customs, not only visited the CBD area of the modern city, but also went to the old sites of famous sites and took a lot of photos.

In these four days, I have been like an outsider, standing at the back and looking at the backs of Yuezi and James, Xueqi and Ma Bailong, two pairs of men and women, I watched them get closer and closer day by day, attracted to each other, talked and laughed, and a heart that was originally a little unwilling gradually sank.

In less than four days, I have even made plans for my other possible life: Yuezi and James are together, Xueqi and Ma Bailong are together, and me?

If Frecius's parents had never heard from him, I could even adopt Frexiu and make this clever and eccentric little boy my adopted son.

But I know that's just wishful thinking on my part. How can there really be parents in the world who don't want their own children? One day, Frexiu will go back, and when he gets tired of being in China, the novelty fades, and when he feels that his life has become ordinary, he will always have such thoughts.

Maybe I didn't belong to their group in the first place, and my life may be far away from them. That's why I canceled their slots. Because I knew very well that from the beginning, I was not part of their circle.

Never.

On the fourth day, Xu Feng called me and told me that he had compiled a manuscript of the magazine "Da Shuo" that they had edited, and because he couldn't find the original, he found a friend to rewrite the manuscript later, and the content was not as detailed as the original manuscript, and there may be discrepancies in the details, but the outline is still about the same. Moreover, there is no ending to this manuscript yet, and if I need it, he will wait until the group of people he contacted has written the ending and send it to me in the form of an electronic version.

I thanked him and went to the school myself.

I met Xu Feng and them on the basketball court at school, and coincidentally, when we met this time, Xu Feng was still playing basketball, and the people who played basketball with him were still the ones who met for the first time.

When Xu Feng handed me the manuscript, I thanked him excitedly and said that I could pay him, but Xu Feng told me that he didn't need a penny, saying that it was just to fulfill Miyoko's unfulfilled wish.

He also asked me if I could contact Mei Yazi, and I regretted telling him again that I came to them because I couldn't get in touch with Mei Yazi after contacting them once, and in the end, Xu Feng could only express regret.

When I wanted to leave, Xu Feng suddenly threw the basketball to me and said with a smile:

"If you're not in a hurry, let's play ball together for a while, right?"

I didn't expect Xu Feng to take the initiative to invite me to play, and I looked at Xu Feng's other partners, and they all showed expressions of invitation and encouragement.

Speaking of which, since graduating from high school, I have never touched basketball again, although I am not a good player in basketball, but the moment I touch basketball, I still recall the time when I was called by my classmates to run on the court together in high school.

It's probably been a long time since I've touched a basketball, my hands began to itch, and my heart was itching, so I couldn't help but take off my coat, slap the basketball with a fork step, and rushed into Xu Feng's camp with a quick pace, mingling with them.

I spent half an afternoon on the court with Xu Feng, and at that moment, I suddenly had the illusion that I had returned to my youth.

It wasn't until the sun shone that I ended this fierce ball game sweating, and when I wiped the sweat on my forehead and handed the basketball back to Xu Feng, Gao Hai smiled and said:

"Uncle, your ball skills are not good."

I smiled:

"I haven't played for a long time, and if I were ten years younger, I wouldn't be afraid of you."

"You're not old now." The boy named Golori whispered.

I laughed again. Looking at the group of youthful people in front of me, I suddenly had a taste of nostalgia, and I suddenly thought, if I were the same generation as them, maybe we could really get along well and even become friends.

"Xu Feng, can I ask you a question?" Before leaving, I suddenly called out to Xu Feng and asked him a question.

"What's the problem?" Xu Feng wiped the beads of sweat on his forehead with the back of his hand, looked at me suspiciously, and asked.

I looked at Xu Feng a little seriously, looked at his delicate face that was red by the sunset, and hesitated for a long time before saying:

"Forget it, nothing. If you have a chance, will we play together next time? ”

"Okay." Xu Feng grinned, "There will definitely be a chance." ”

I smiled and held out my hand.

yes, there will definitely be a chance.

We shook hands with each other and finally turned away in the sunset, Xu Feng stayed on campus and continued his unfinished campus life, while I walked on the farther, longer and more tortuous road.

Even if we may have become enemies the next time we meet on another battlefield, let's not forget that there was a day when we ran together, laughed together, and played a bloody basketball together in the sunset.

It's like a best friend.