Fourth, the night comes to the glass and a dream is broken

Yiyu's hand stroked the strings and plucked out a scattered single note, "Sister..."Mayuki's voice woke her up from her contemplation.

She looked up with a light smile, "Huh? Zhenxue looked into the distance, didn't know what she was thinking, and said in a low voice: "Why do I sometimes always feel that you are actually very lonely, sister." ”

She paused with her hand plucking the strings, and didn't know how to answer for a while, was she lonely? Yes, unconsciously, she is used to this kind of loneliness, and being alone is actually very good. Don't think about it so much, don't worry about you hurting or being hurt by others.

Her loneliness will one day become a habit because of him, and they will all get used to this lonely loneliness, because even if they keep getting closer to each other, the end is that they have to turn away from each other, and everything in the world becomes the fate that each other is destined to miss in this life.

If she had a choice, she wanted to go back to ten years ago and see him again when she was young, but she was worried about it.

Mayuki suddenly said, "I've been looking for him." Yi was silent, waiting for her next step.

Seeing that Yiyou was silent, Zhenxue said: "Sister, maybe you are right, he may not be Brother Yiwu, or he doesn't remember us anymore..."

Seeing the confused look on her face, she replied leisurely: "He is Yiwu, and he is not Yiwu." ”

Mayueki didn't understand it, but she didn't want to explain too much, maybe it's a good thing that Mayueki didn't understand, and she didn't necessarily understand it much better than now.

Zhenxue said with a little sadness: "Sister, why are all people becoming more and more complicated, isn't it bad to be the same as before?" ”

She is still too naïve, she has never experienced what it means to be involuntarily, and she doesn't understand the disputes and troubles of the world, but Yiyou would rather she stay so simple, not to be changed by the outside world, and live without her own heart, which is also very sad to think about. What's more, Yiyou doesn't want her to be her second self.

Regarding Ren Jinye, she thought that she didn't need to investigate whether he was Yiwu or not, whether he was or not, the ending was the same as for her, if she was blindly entangled, it would only harm others and herself, she was different from Zhenxue, if she was still ten years ago, I was afraid that she would spend her whole life and wait for him. Now, she doesn't have that qualification.

All she could do was watch him from afar, she felt very sad, ten years ago, she was the county lord, and he was the son of the Mo family. Ten years later, she is a princess, and he has become the so-called champion, which is really providential, and no one can sigh.

Zhenxue saw that her sister was silent for a while, and when she thought of the conversation between the two when she went to find Ren Zhuangyuan, she felt a little strange.

Why does she feel as if she doesn't understand her sister more and more, why every time she mentions the topic of Brother Mo Yiwu, her sister always avoids it, is it true that they don't remember Brother Yiwu because they have grown up?

Just now on the street, she caught up with Mo Yiwu, thinking that he would be very happy to see her and her sister, but his reaction was different from what she expected. "Brother Yiwu," Zhenxue galloped towards him, panting and stopping Ren Jinye's horse, and the veil was blown up by the wind because of running, but she didn't care about it, just stared at him motionless with such a pair of bright and clear eyes, and the joy in her eyes was hard to hide.

"The girl recognized the wrong person." He didn't even look closely at her, he rode past her, without the slightest pause.

Zhenxue was stunned and looked at his back in a daze. "Did you admit it?" She muttered to herself, "How did Brother Yiwu become like this? She couldn't accept that outcome for a while.

“……… Don't, don't go....... It was night, and he tossed and turned, whispering, but he didn't know who to say.

Time went back to the day he left, he seemed to have grown taller, and when he stood there, just looking at the back, there was already a little bit of the graceful and heroic posture that no longer belonged to the young Yushu Linfeng.

He paused, his voice low and hoarse, as if it was different from the voice in his memory, "Go back." ”

Yiyou shook her head, but she didn't know what to say to him, she only felt that if she let go, maybe she and he would not have any more ifs in the future. So he stubbornly said, "I won't go back." ”

He continued to walk forward, "You lied to me, you said you would be with me for the rest of your life, you lied to me!" That's all she said over and over again.

He paused again, and after a moment of silence, he said, "I will keep my promise," he paused for a moment, "if you are willing to wait for me." ”

She nodded vigorously and stepped forward to grab his sleeve, only to pounce on him, and she woke up from her nightmare.

She wiped the cold sweat from her forehead, listened to the occasional cicada or two outside the window, hugged her knees and curled herself into a ball, and a bitter smile appeared at the corner of her lips.

In my dream, it was ten years. Over the years, she has long lost count of how many times she has dreamed of him, in her dreams she fantasizes about herself and his ending again and again, each with sorrows and joys, but none of them are repeated.

Strange to say, she was clearly just a child at that time, but she had never forgotten him all these years, and even missed him from time to time in her mind.

The night breeze blew a little cool, she still couldn't sleep, and her heart was a little messy. There are only a handful of days left before her sixteenth birthday, she is not happy in her heart, and she is not sad and melancholy, the emperor has three sons under his knees, no princess, but the emperor prefers girls, so after her father has Nanxue, the emperor decided to change her from the county lord to the princess when she was sixteen years old, which is considered to be the successor to the name of the emperor.

In this way, her identity has indeed become more noble, but it has also become more involuntarily, and I am afraid that it is rare to be free.

Thinking about it, she also gave birth to a lot of tiredness, and couldn't resist sleepiness, she fell asleep on the soft bed under the window, and slept until dawn, early in the morning, Zhenxue and Shangshu Fuluo's daughter Qingzi went out to play on the street, she couldn't help but be a little bored.

Yiyou has always rarely gone out, so he rarely has a friendship with other ladies in Beijing, and he can't talk about many friends, unlike Zhenxue, who has a lively personality and can always make a lot of friends.

Five years ago, if it hadn't been for that incident, maybe she would have been like Mayuki, an ordinary woman who lives a carefree life.

After the afternoon, Lu Fengyu appeared in the Nangong Mansion as usual, she was resting at that time, he was naturally inconvenient to disturb, dismissed the maid who wanted to come to report, and made a cup of hot tea for herself in the hall to wait for her to wake up.

Outsiders say that she has a close relationship with the son of the Lu family, and has a very close personal relationship, and there are even rumors that she and he have made a family relationship since childhood, and she is married to the belly, but she just smiled when she heard it, and the matter of marriage by the finger is indeed there, but it is not Lu Fengyu, but Mo Yiwu.

When she and him were still in the womb, the imperial uncle once said that if Nangong was the prince, the Mo family was a daughter, and he would grow up to be a good friend of Qin and Jin.

This baby is a baby boy, I thought that the two relatives would stop here, but unexpectedly, Nangong Mansion gave birth to the only princess of the royal family two months later, Huang Bolong Yan Dayue, naturally reluctant to send the only princess to Mo Mansion, and it was not good to change her mind in front of everyone, so she said to her father that if Nangong Mansion gave birth to a baby girl again, she would be named a princess.

The world is unpredictable, who knows that Nangong Mansion really gave birth to Zhenxue in the second year, she is destined to be a princess, how can the emperor's daughter marry a courtier casually, so everyone kept silent about this fingertip marriage when she was young.

But this is not a big deal, there are still people in the palace who know, there have always been no secrets in the palace, they only tell her funny anecdotes, and I also tell Yiwu as a legend, but I don't know if he will say that.

He said: "If I hadn't been born early, maybe I would have ........." Now that I think about it, I resent that you were born early, and you hate me for being late. This is the fate that is destined in the dark.