"You say he loves me, and he acts like me, but why can't I feel that he loves me at all......"

"Xu Yi, do you think I was deceived too badly, this deception has been so many years, but I still believe it?"

While thinking that Xu Yi opened his mouth to tell the grievances in his heart, it was not as difficult to clean up as a flood, and I wanted to get up from the chair, but my feet were already weak and weak, and I knelt on the ground suddenly.

Originally, I had a hard fall at JL today, and now the heavy blow has made me even more painful, but where can this pain in my body compare to my heart?

"Excuse me!" Xu Yi cried out anxiously, and he hurriedly got up from his chair and wanted to help me up.

"Don't touch me Xu Yi, even if I beg you, let me go. Let me cry alone for a while......" I hugged myself and shook my head desperately at Xu Yi, ignoring his outstretched hand to me.

Qin Han changed me, from the inside out, completely turned me into another person. I always felt that he might be a gift from heaven to me, and after all the hardships, he would be by my side for the rest of my life.

But now, I find that he has only been sent to torment me, and beneath the appearance of comfort is a turbulent dark tide that threatens to swallow me up at any moment!

"Xu Yi, do you know, I love Qin Han so much, I love him, even more than myself! I could do anything for him if he wanted to, but for now...... But now it's not worth it......"

"I've been chasing the truth all along, but the truth is that his father drove my father to a dead end for the benefit of his company, and it was his father who ...... Indirectly killed my father! ”

The truth was so cruel that it almost put me to death, and the blood and flesh were so dripping that it was hard to look at me directly, and it was better for me to live than to die.

My cry echoed in my ears, so clearly, but I only felt my head buzzing, I just wanted to be louder, louder, to vent all the anger and resentment in my heart!

"Why, why is the truth like this, why has no one ever told me that there is a relationship between JL and my father!"

"People all over the world deceive me, I won't care, but why is Qin Han unwilling to tell me the truth!" I lowered my head and sobbed, tears running down my fingers, unwilling to stop.

All these years, my faith, in only a moment, left with a ruin, and endless dust......

I don't know how long I've been on my knees. The pain in my body can't be compared to the pain in my heart, even if my legs are numb and I don't feel anything, I don't care.

I thought I would cry all the time, the tears would not stop, despair and pain intertwined in my heart, something that could not be erased no matter what.

But for now, maybe I'm wrong.

Unexpectedly, I finally stopped crying, but kept sobbing, looking at the empty ground in front of me, my heart was like ashes, and I couldn't make a wave.

I reached out and slowly and forcefully wiped away the remaining tears from my face, I just felt that it was not worth it, why should I cry because of this?

The truth of everything has been placed in front of me, just like Xu Yi and Uncle Xu said, even if I don't want to accept it, he is the truth that cannot be changed.

I know it very well, but why don't I want to accept it?

How long I knelt on the ground, Xu Yi stood beside me for a long time, watching me slowly stop crying, stretching out his hand to wipe away his tears, he bent down and opened his hands to me.

"Xiao Ci, don't cry yet, get up first, it's too cold on the ground, it's not good if you catch a cold." He spoke softly to me, his tone full of concern, "Let's sit down and say something, we are all by your side, and there is no obstacle that cannot be overcome." ”

While speaking to me like this, Xu Yi even stretched out his hand to pull me up, no matter what Qin Han did to me, Xu Yi and the Xu family never treated me badly, it stands to reason that I should not refuse Xu Yi's kindness.

But even I didn't understand why, the moment Xu Yi stretched out his hand to me, I should have grabbed him, but I suddenly dodged backwards.

This behavior may not seem like anything, but there is no doubt that Xu Yi and I are extremely embarrassed, the hands he stretched out to me stopped in mid-air, and now they are not withdrawn, and they are not continuing to reach out to me, which is quite overwhelming.

And after I made this action towards Xu Yi, I was also stunned in place, I didn't expect my reaction to be so strong.

After all, Xu Yi didn't do anything to me that shouldn't have happened, and even he had been caring about me all along, if it weren't for him, I might not have known the truth to this day.

"Little Resignation ......"

Just as I was thinking, Xu Yi suddenly called me softly, I raised my head slightly to look at him, but he only looked at me with gentle but cautious eyes.

Even now, when Xu Yi speaks to me, I can hear that there is a bit of flattery in his words, and I think he is probably very afraid of me, afraid that my emotions will collapse as before.

"I'm sorry......" But I know very well that I didn't control my emotions, which is obviously my fault, and it has nothing to do with Xu Yi, so I can only apologize to him in a low voice.

Hearing that I was finally willing to speak, Xu Yi chuckled, he breathed a long sigh of relief, as if he had let go of a matter, "You don't have to apologize to me, I'm really worried about you, it's too cold on the ground, let's get up first and talk about it, okay?" ”

"Xiao Ci, life will always experience many unexpected things, if you keep indulging in sadness, it will only ruin yourself."

"What's more, we only know now that your father put that money into JL, but we don't know the other secrets of it, what if everything can be explained?"

Before I could respond to Xu Yi's words, Uncle Xu on the side opened his mouth to me again, his voice was slow, and every word was extremely clear.

"Instead of sitting here and grieving, you should think about how to solve this problem, or look at it from a different angle, and you will be happier than you are now......"

When I looked at Uncle Xu, he looked me directly at me and said these words, and then slowly got up from his chair and walked around Xu Yi and me in the direction of the door.

Uncle Xu's pace was extremely slow, which even made me feel that he didn't want to step out of this room if he could.

But maybe it's because I'm in this room now. And I was still extremely sad, so he could only lend me this space for the time being, so that I could handle my emotions.

If it was a weekday, I would have called out to Uncle Xu and told him that he didn't need to leave at all, but now I can't, I feel so sad in my heart.

I was already so sad that I couldn't extricate myself, how could I say it so easily?

So all I could do at this time was to look at Uncle Xu's back, watch him slowly disappear from my sight step by step, and then open the door and slowly close, and the room returned to silence.

At this time, there were only two people in the room, Xu Yi and me, but I could hear my own voice after taking a deep breath.

Originally, Xu Yi kept reaching out to me, but I don't know when, probably at the moment when I looked at Uncle Xu, he took his hand back.

The sudden change eased the awkwardness between the two of us a little.

"Xu Yi, what do you think I should do now? Knowing this news today, I definitely can't forget it, how should I face Qin Han and JL in the future? ”

I lowered my head and asked Xu Yi softly, no one can help me now, I think even he is the same, but I still can't help but ask him, because now he is the only one who can understand my feelings.

Because there were only two people in the room, Xu Yi and me, after opening my mouth to him, I was sure that he heard my voice, but he didn't give me an answer for a long time.

Just when I couldn't help the doubts in my heart and wanted to raise my head to continue asking him, he suddenly crouched down and looked at me with eye level.

"Xiao Ci, I don't think I need to ask you at all, because I think you know very well in your own heart, don't you know best what your feelings are for Qin Han?"

Xu Yi asked me rhetorically, but before I could answer, he continued to add, "Xiao Ci, do you love Qin Han?" ”

"Yes, you're right, don't I know my feelings for him best? I love Qin Han, I really love him......"

Xu Yi's words made me smile bitterly, all the emotions were on my face, his words were undeniable, I should know my feelings for Qin Han best.

Or that I don't just love Qin Han, I love him more than myself, more than my own life.

"But you know what, Xu Yi." Then I spoke again, trying to look serious, but I was flooded with sadness and sadness.

They were intertwined, intertwined and overlapped, forming an impenetrable web that enveloped me and made it difficult for me to escape.

"I love Qin Han, I really love him very much, but the more I love him, the more I know about this matter, the hatred I have for him now, how much I have loved him, how much I hate!"

"Now my love for him torments me more than my hatred for him. If Qin Han stood in front of me now, I didn't know what kind of state I should use to treat him, should I smile or be sad, or rush up and slap him hard? ”

When I held these words in my heart, I couldn't hold back my tears, and now that I opened my mouth to Xu Yi, it made me even more miserable, and I didn't know what to do.

What is it that will take me to get out of it all?