I like the theme song of EIIa in "Get Off the Single": From hundreds of millions of hearts, wait for a miracle.

——————— hazy joy and sorrow

On the evening of August 12, 1996, with a deafening cry, a middle-aged woman in the house happily came out of the room with a sentence, she was born, she could come in, it was a girl, hearing this, the middle-aged man hurriedly walked in. Seeing my exhausted wife in bed, I feel distressed, you have worked hard. I'm sorry I wasn't able to give you a boy. It's okay, we will have a lot of children in the future, middle-aged women wrap up baby girls, little princess, for you, your aunt and I have gotten up from sleep, you have to grow up peacefully for the rest of your life, come, take care of yourself, I will go up the mountain tomorrow. Hearing this, the middle-aged man hurriedly took it, her aunt, you have worked hard, go back and rest. Girl, I'm leaving, I'm coming to see you tomorrow, well, the woman on the bed agreed weakly. The middle-aged woman went out and brought it by the way, you look at our dark swallow, she is like me or like you, the whole is like you, right? The nose is very similar to you, you say so, and if you look closely, it is really full of images. It's too late, come up and rest, you rest first, I'll go make some sweet rice water for our little princess, you think really thoughtfully, go quickly, uh-huh, the middle-aged man helped the woman cover the quilt and went out of the room.

Although it's not a boy, because it's the eldest daughter, the only child in the family, everyone in the family loves it. As time passed, women and middle-aged men realized that there seemed to be a problem with Dark Yan's eyes, but they didn't care if they could see it, thinking that it wasn't a big problem.

The middle-aged man has been an orphan since he was a child, and his sister and brother depend on each other, and now they have their own families. Because she didn't have grandparents, Dark Yan was sent to her aunt's house by her family and asked her mother to help take care of her. My aunt's family has three children, and the youngest son is the same age as Yan Yan, and he often bullies Yan Yan, and sometimes lets Yan Yan lie down and be a horse too much. After returning home, Dark Yan told her mother that her mother was always distressed and asked her aunt for a theory.

In the morning of June 1999, Dark Yan's mother was cooking in the kitchen, heard Dark Yan crying in the room, hurriedly entered the room, and saw her daughter crying over and over on the bed, Mom, my stomach hurts, Dark Yan's mother picked up her daughter in distress, soaked a cup of medicine with boiling water, and under the resistance of Dark Yan, she still fed a cup of medicine in ten minutes, and saw her daughter who was tired and asleep crying, Dark Yan's mother lightly put her on the bed and went out to work again. Just went out for a while Dark Yan began to cry again, Dark Yan's mother went in and saw that something was wrong, and went out to see the village doctor with Dark Yan, all of them are from the same village, and they are familiar with each other, and the village doctor simply prescribed medicine after seeing it, and said, it should be a bad stomach, and the food will be light these days, okay, thank you, how much, 3 pieces, give, at this time, a middle-aged woman's voice came from the kitchen, we are going to have lunch at noon, we are going to eat and go, no, his father is also back, my hurry back to cook, so okay, walk slowly, um. Mother Dark Yan struggled to hold Dark Yan, and the baby in Mother Dark Yan's belly was more than 7 months old at this time. looked at the daughter who had been crying in his arms, and he was very helpless. Baby, don't cry, you'll be fine when you get home and take your medicine. As soon as I got home, Dark Yan's father came back, didn't hurry to clean himself, heard the cry of his daughter in the room and rushed into the room, what's wrong with my daughter, Dad, Dad, come and help me feed the medicine, it may be that I have a bad stomach, and I have been crying for a morning, just give it to me, you are inconvenient. Darken's mother gave the medicine to Darken's father and went to continue cooking. Yan Yan kept crying all day, seeing that the medicine had no effect, and the next day Yan Yan's father directly called the village doctor to his home to see his daughter. The doctor still said the same thing, Dark Yan's parents also felt that a stomachache was a trivial matter, so they didn't care so much, so they dragged on like that for a few days, until they couldn't hear their daughter's crying, Dark Yan's parents felt that something was wrong, and Dark Yan's father was busy holding his daughter from the hospital in the town. In the end, it was too late, the condition has been very serious, the high fever has not gone down, the whole person has been in a coma for a few days and nights, Yan Yan's mother also gave birth to a son during Yan Yan's illness, the daughter in the hospital has been in the same condition, and Yan Yan's mother washes her face with tears almost every day. Aunt and little aunt also stayed in the hospital almost every day, looking at the critically ill Dark Yan, they almost sat like that for a few days and nights. After more than 20 years, Yan Yan may understand that losing the price of a lifetime of infighting with the world is a happy thing in life or a happy thing or a happy thing.

A sudden illness, until Dark Yan was discharged from the hospital a few months later, there was no recovery, the doctor said that he could only recover slowly, or he could not recover for a lifetime, and Dark Yan, who had just learned to walk and eat, began to learn to walk and eat again, perhaps, Dark Yan itself is not ordinary, otherwise God would have joked with her one after another. Life is never fair, but the right to choose happiness or sorrow is fair.

7-year-old Yan Yan doesn't seem to be any different from other children, the same sitting in the classroom, the difference is that she struggles to write with her left hand, when she looks at the blackboard blankly, during the winter vacation of the second grade, Yan Yan was taken by her father to the city hospital for surgery to remove the eyeball of her right eye, Yan Yan was born sick in her right eye, and with age, her right eye becomes more and more obvious, and she can't see at all. Darken's father had to go to many hospitals before making this decision.

Dark Yan didn't seem to have any effect on her after what happened. In the fourth grade, they can only go to the town to continue their studies, and Yanyan's parents, like other parents, rent a house for them, and they cook their own meals. Although Dark Yan can't see the text on the blackboard, but the grades have been in the middle and upper, the childhood Dark Swallow is very happy, no toys, roadside stones, small sticks, rubber bands, hopscotch, running a house, swinging by himself, etc. are all childhood memories.

In the second year of junior high school, in order to make a living, Yan Yan's parents left Yan alone and took her younger brother out to work. When I was at school, Dark Yan didn't feel it, and when I came home on the weekend and sat in the room, alone, facing only a few walls, sometimes tears fell from that kind of weak heart. Dark Yan can't remember crying dozens of times like this, when her parents went out, Dark Yan became more and more like a little adult, and she talked less and less. Qian Yanyan, who called, also spent it very planned, and her parents were never afraid that she wouldn't spend it, maybe she left home in elementary school, so her parents always thought that she was very strong and sensible, so she didn't need them. The truth is that the more sensible the child, the more lonely he is.

Time is like a memory, a few years of things minutes and minutes of memory, we can't win memories, we can only prevent ourselves from being enemies. Whenever she is alone, Dark Yan always thinks about those times with her family, and in Dark Swallow's memory, there is no expectation at the annual parent-teacher meeting. The only time I was relieved was on the first day of junior high school, when Dark Yan's father helped send the quilt to school. Buy groceries before leaving. Probably this is the only time she feels affection. Or maybe the family affection he expressed was unique, and Dark Yan didn't experience it.

Looking at the class on the bulletin board, Dark Yan was in a very bad mood, and those who were worse than her own exams went to good classes, and she was indeed assigned to a bad class. At this moment, it is said that the time and space that are fair are never fair. We can't decide what we're born in, and others are born and we're laid the groundwork for life. Even if Dark Yan understood this truth, she still didn't admit defeat. Within a few months of the start of school, there were teachers in the school to enroll students, and under the opposition of her parents, Dark Yan still chose to go without hesitation, and that time she left, in addition to a few classmates in the class, there were also classmates in other classes, including Dark Swallow's childhood playmate, Dark Cloud. They are all children from the countryside, so even at the crossroads of life, they are still rushing by themselves, and the only comfort is the company of junior high school homeroom teachers and classmates and friends. After all the formalities were completed, the head teacher left. Kindergarten teacher for 2 years, Dark Yan is very lucky, there is a homeroom teacher who likes her and will think about her, there are friends I just met, I slowly get used to life without family by my side, only every time I return to the piano class, I have a weak heart and feel distressed and can't let Dark Yan forget, every time I finish that class, Dark Yan will always run to the bathroom alone and cry quietly. Afterwards, I joked like a friend and classmate who had nothing to do. In that class, Dark Yan did not fight for scores for the head teacher, and every time she submitted a post to the school, she was almost selected, and at the end of the semester, Dark Yan also won the Outstanding League Member Award. Regarding Dark Yan's situation, the head teacher did not talk to her in private. When she heard that the school was going to open a class for the college entrance examination, she tried her best to recommend that Yan Yan take the exam to that class. Everyone has a college dream, although Yan Yan gave up the high school entrance examination, she is more happy about this news. I also got my wish and went to that class. After losing the opportunity, people can realize how difficult it is to this sudden curve, one by one, full of energy, every morning when it is still dark, they get up and go to the aunt to get the key to go to school to read. It is said that bad things are bad enough to be bad to a certain extent, and when they are bad, they will become good sooner or later, because opportunities will not disappoint people who are passionate about life.

At 6 o'clock in the morning on Friday, Dark Yan went to school with her best friend as before, in the dormitory building, when she went down the stairs, the light at the staircase suddenly dimmed, and Dark Swallow's feet were empty, and she fell directly from the top of the stairs. The dark clouds hurriedly ran down in fright, are you okay, do you need us to take a taxi to the hospital, it's okay, it's just that my right hand hurts, let me ease up. I sat like that for a while, my hand didn't hurt anymore, Dark Yan raised her hand gently, and my hand seemed to be good (I hope everyone is as lucky as in the novel, but those endings that are destined to be written at the starting point can't be owned, so let it go with the wind, change a goal to stick to, give yourself a little expectation, I have always believed that the end has our own little luck), I'll see, sister, you are a blessing in disguise, and there are no injuries in other places. Look, you're in a hurry, I'm really fine, sister is in a good mood today, please eat something delicious at noon, it's a must, there's nothing better than this. I can really walk by myself, I'll help you, I'm really fine, I'm really nagging, keep up. It has no conscience to speak like this. I was wrong, little Yunyun. I didn't know you in 3 minutes, and I knew you were the best.