I was confined to the Governor's Mansion by Shen Qiushui, and my activities were very limited, Mo Xiang did not come back, and Shen Qiushui did not send anyone to find her.

Although he said some cruel words, how could the feelings between people dissipate because of these few negative words?

"I heard you didn't eat much yesterday?"

I lay listlessly on the table, and when I heard his voice, I looked back, only to see that he had brought in his lunch as it had been untouched.

The rain soaked the windowsill and let it splash on the back of the hand, and the green smoke of lotus incense curled up.

Shen Qiushui slowly approached and stood still: "Are you angry with me?" ”

I smiled mockingly: "How can I have so much leisure and ambition to be angry with Shen Dujun?" ”

"If you don't eat or drink, you won't be able to last a few days with this small body, right?"

"What does that have to do with Shen Overseer?"

"You don't want to know the news of Chu Nantang? The fifteenth day is not yet here, and I don't want you to fall ill first. ”

My heart was suffocated, I thought about it, and said, "I'll eat, bring the food." ”

Shen Qiushui laughed at this time and handed the food to me: "Eat quickly, otherwise it will be cold." ”

I haven't eaten anything in the past few days, maybe I'm hungry, and I ate a bowl of rice unconsciously.

He scooped a bowl of soup with his own hands and gave it to me: "Drink this bowl of soup too." ”

I stared at him for a few seconds, then took the soup he handed me and drank it in one gulp.

He called the nanny to pack up his things, but he refused to leave, just stayed by my side, I ignored him, he was happy.

"Shen Overseer is so idle today? Is there nothing else to do? ”

He sighed lightly and stared at me with a look of resentment: "This Overseer has managed to spare a day, but now you want to drive me away. ”

"I don't need you to accompany me, if you really want to make my heart happy, just get Mo Xiang back for me, now there is chaos outside, Mo Xiang is alone, it's not safe."

Shen Qiushui didn't care: "What does that have to do with me?" Even if you get her back now, she won't be grateful to you. ”

"Shen Qiushui, get Moxiang back, I don't want her to be grateful to me. She's my sister, you know? ”

Shen Qiushui sighed lightly: "Okay, if I get the Mo Xiang back for you, how are you going to thank me?" ”

"If it weren't for you, Mo Xiang wouldn't have left in a bad mood, you actually want to thank you with a cheeky face?"

This sentence blocked Shen Qiushui for a long time before he said: "Everything in the world, one thing descends one thing, it seems that you are here to descend to me." ”

I lowered my eyes and didn't look at him.

"Forget it, who told me to like you? I am willing to be surrendered by you. With that, he turned and walked to the door.

I subconsciously stopped him: "Will you look for Moxiang?" ”

"I'll send someone to find it, there's news for you."

I let go of my heart: "Thank you." ”

"Thanks for what? It's not for you to say. It's all because of me, and I don't have the face to thank you? ”

I turned my face away, and he smiled and left the room in silence.

After that, I didn't joke about my body anymore, I should eat and drink, and I thought in my heart when I would seize the opportunity to leave the Doge's Palace.

At noon one day, I saw a group of elite soldiers outside the governor's palace ready to go, and Shen Qiushui broke in.

"Zen Xin, the battlefield situation is urgent, I have to rush over, maybe we won't meet during this time, you have a good meal."

I thought about it and asked him, "How long are you going?" ”

There was joy in his eyes, and he couldn't suppress the excitement in his heart: "It won't be too long, will you miss me?" ”

"Uh...... It's up to you to perform. ”

Unbeknownst to me, he rushed forward and hugged me into his arms: "I will behave well, as long as you can give me a chance, I feel very happy, Zen heart, I love you." ”

At that moment, his heart suddenly lifted his head, and he held his breath, not knowing how to respond to his emotions.

Didn't wait for me to think about it. He let me go, with a reluctant face: "I have to go, you take good care of yourself when I am not there." ”

After he left, he didn't get the freedom he wanted, but looked at me more closely, and sent two little maids to follow me every step of the way.

"It's been a bit boring lately, what's there to do?" I asked the two little maids behind me.

The little maid glanced at each other, pursed her lips and stepped forward, "The Overseer said that Miss Zen Xin can only walk around the Governor's Palace, and cannot go anywhere else. ”

"Then don't follow me, I'll go for a walk on my own."

"This ......"

I let out a long sigh, "Just walking around the Governor's Palace." You don't have to worry about me running away, because I can't run away, can I? ”

These two little maids are still not at ease, they don't follow closely, they follow from afar, I step on the governor's palace, thinking about whether there is any hope of escaping by climbing the wall.

Later, I learned that the hope of climbing the wall was not very great, and that the governor's palace was guarded from top to bottom, and there were five or six soldiers who replaced the patrol every night, and if they were discovered, they were afraid that they would not even have a chance to explain, and they would be shot on the spot.

However, after a few nights of observation, it was discovered that there was a time loophole, and there would be a moment of unattended during the alternation of the two shifts.

If you want to escape, you have to take advantage of this time.

"I'm going to take a shower now, so go get some hot water." I looked at the sky, and it was a little later that it was time for the guard to change.

After the two little maids went out, I quickly changed into a black dress, which was not easy to be discovered, took out the burden that I had prepared for a long time, avoided the subordinates in the governor's palace, and came to the corner.

There was no one around, it was already dark, and I jumped over the wall with all my strength, and ran away.

My departure will soon be discovered, Xiaobai is very spiritual, and seems to know something, but the girl follows me.

The official road must not be walked, so I picked a small path and went around to the woods in front of me.

In the woods at night, the fog is dense and the yin is extremely heavy, fortunately, it is not half of July at this time, otherwise it is easy to meet A Piao.

"Xiaobai, we have to hurry up! They'll catch up soon. ”

Sure enough, there was not much, and there was a burst of shouting and the sound of horses' hooves behind him. Sure enough, it was still too risky, and this time I escaped, and I was not even half sure.

In order to avoid these chasing soldiers, I panicked and didn't know where I had run.

I just felt very tired, the moon hung in the night sky big and round, and it was obscured by dark clouds. The month has reached eleven, and there are only four days left until the fifteenth.

I have to rush back to Chu's house before fifteen, and I just want to be by Chu Nantang's side at the most critical moment.

Along the way, my body was covered with thorns and scars, and when I saw the cliff in front of me, I suddenly stopped.

Looking back, the soldiers had already chased after them on horseback with their hounds.

"Zen girl. You better go back with us, the Overseer has orders, we must watch you well, we can't take half a step out of the Overseer's Mansion, please don't make it difficult for us to be subordinates. ”

I've come this far, and there's no way I'm going back with them. Can...... I have no way back. looked at the abyss behind him and quietly swallowed his saliva.

"Don't come here! Come back and I'll jump down!! ”

"Zen girl, don't be impulsive." The soldiers jumped off their horses, looking nervous: "Come back with us, if there is no one, how will we explain to the Overseers?" ”

Xiaobai was humming and chirping in fear at my feet, and I bent down to hold Xiaobai in my arms. tightened: "Xiaobai, are you afraid?" ”

Xiaobai drilled into my arms, and I took a deep breath: "If you jump from here, you say...... Will it die? ”

These people will never let me go, and looking down from me, I don't know how deep this cliff is.

"Zen girl, don't be impulsive, this cliff is very deep, and you will die if you fall!"

……

I stared at the cliff in front of me, a layer of cold sweat broke out on my back, I swallowed, and made a decision after struggling.

"I won't go back with you, if you Overseers ask. You just tell him, even if I die, I will return to Chu Nantang's side. ”

I hugged Xiaobai and turned around, and said softly: "Xiaobai, I will protect you, if I die, you go back and tell him, I will wait for him in the future." ”

Nantang, if jumping is a relief, I'm not afraid.

I closed my eyes and jumped down.

Consciousness disappeared into the darkness for a long time, and I heard a voice calling to me. It's familiar, it's warm.

Nantang ...... Nantang!!

"Lingsheng, Zhang Lingsheng! Wake up!! ”

Why is his voice so sad? He called me Lingsheng? How did he know my name was Lingsheng?

I struggled to lift my heavy eyelids, I was so tired, my body was so heavy, I wanted to think about nothing, so I continued to sleep......

"Lingsheng, don't sleep anymore, talk to me, please!"

Nantang ......, "Don't be sad, I don't want you to be so sad."

Consciousness finally cleared for a moment, and I opened my eyes a slit and saw the person in front of me.

It's just that...... This is the ward, the pungent smell of potions, the white ward.

There is also Nantang's dress, very modern, wearing a well-fitting white shirt and gold-rimmed glasses, the first time I saw him wearing glasses, his eyes were even sharper, not as warm as before, shrewd, but still very good-looking.

He wept with joy and clasped my hands. Excited: "Awake? Madame, are you awake? Doctor! Doctor ......"

He ran out to call the doctor, and I reached out to grab him, but I lifted him into the air, unable to hang down.

'Boom'——!

It's thundering, is it raining? It's cold! It's so cold!

I heard Xiaobai's chirping and anxious wail, moved my fingers, and opened my eyes tiredly.

The rain was as thin as a cow's hair on my face, and I trembled my eyelashes and raised my hand to cover my eyes, blocking the drizzle.

Another thunderclap rang out, and lightning struck. Brighten up your surroundings. Xiaobai was startled and got into my arms.

"Nantang ......" I looked around, and there was endless darkness.

Falling from such a high place, I didn't even die! Not only did he not die, but he actually ...... Unscathed!

I turned over and sat up violently, trembling my hands, clasped together, obviously I saw Nantang! For a moment, it seemed as if the soul had returned to the future.

What's all going on? Don't...... Can we only return to the future if we die?

"Nantang, I miss you so much, I miss you so much!" I hugged myself. Helplessly choked out.

"Whew~~" Xiaobai grabbed me with his paws, as if urging, hurry up, can't delay for a moment.

"Xiaobai, let's go! Within three days, we must be back in town. ”

I wiped away my tears, braved the rain overnight, and finally arrived at the market, which was about to be back in two days on a fast horse ride from the town.

I spent all my savings, bought a horse, and rode a rusty horse, but when I had nothing to do, everything would not be a problem.

If Liang Jun hadn't found me at the bottom of the cliff, he would have found the town, but I still had time.

I rushed for two days and two nights without sleep, and if it weren't for my perseverance, I am afraid that I would have passed out long ago.

I saw the Chu family's mansion from afar, and the heart I was carrying was finally let go, and the things in front of me became more and more blurred, so I shook my body and fell off the horse.

"Nantang, I'm back...... "No, I'll let you be alone again and face all this."

This time it seems like I slept for a long time. I just feel very comfortable, and my body seems to be floating in the clouds, warm.

I slept well this night, and when I woke up, I saw the man leaning against the head of the bed and guarding me.

His face was so pale, his good-looking eyebrows were frowned, and he seemed to have seen something bad in his dreams.

I subconsciously reached out and grabbed his hand, his fingertips trembled twice, and he subconsciously opened his eyes.

"Zen heart, awake?" He reached out and touched my forehead, and breathed a sigh of relief: "The fever has finally subsided, how do you feel?" ”

I shook my head, "I'm fine. Nantang, it's good to be able to look at you. ”

He stared at me worriedly, his eyes red: "Zen heart ......"

I struggled to sit up from the bed: "Why do you have such an expression?" Are you not happy to see me? ”

He smiled: "I'm happy, it's because I'm so happy that I don't know what to say." ”

I couldn't help but give him a big hug and hugged him desperately, using all my strength.

"What's wrong?" He asked.

"Nantang, I feel that I am very useless, I can't help you......" forced tears to burst out of his eyes, helpless.

"That's what I should say." He said helplessly: "I feel that I am very wrong. ”

"What's wrong with you?"

"No, I was wrong." He put his arm around my shoulders. looked at me for a moment: "If you want to protect your most important person, you have to make yourself strong and invincible." ”

My heart was suffocated, and I was so uncomfortable that I couldn't say a word: "It's not like this, Nantang, you are you, Shen Qiushui is Shen Qiushui, you two are different!" You don't want to turn yourself into someone like Shen Qiushui! I don't like it! ”

"Fool......" he smiled lightly, but there was a hint of anger in his eyes that made me tremble: "I won't become Shen Qiushui, but I hope I can become stronger." If life can start again, I don't want to be such a Chu Nantang! ”

"I just want to see you, be happy. Stay alive. I bit my lip desperately, tears rolling down my back.

"Happiness comes at a price."

When he said this, it struck me as a little strange.

"I used to be indifferent to fame and fortune because it was within reach, but when all this was gradually lost, I realized how important fame and fortune are. It is a sharp weapon, and it can also be a most effective peace charm. Unfortunately, it's too late. ”

Then he let go of me and helped me lie down: "You have a good rest, and when you wake up, I will ask Grandma Sun to bring in some food." ”

"Nantang ......"

I watched feebly as he turned around and emaciated, disappearing in front of my eyes little by little.

That night, Mama Sun sent some food in, with a solemn face: "Zen heart, eat quickly, this porridge was specially told by the young master to boil for you." ”

"Well, Grandma Sun, where is Nantang?"

"Young master, he ...... He has some things to deal with. ”

As soon as I heard it, I felt that it was not a good thing, so I hurriedly drank a few sips of porridge and pulled Grandma Sun over: "Take me to meet him." ”

"This ...... It's inconvenient right now. ”

"What is he doing?"

Seeing that she couldn't hide it anymore, Mama Sun said: "The young master and Mrs. had a dispute, it's the first time I've seen the young master rebel against Mrs. like this, he is in a bad mood now, let him calm down." ”

"Yes, it's because of me?"

"Don't think about it, me, I'll go to the kitchen and see if the soup is ready."

Seeing that Grandma Sun was leaving, I stepped forward to stop her: "Grandma Sun!" ”

"Zen?"

"I want to go see him, maybe I can talk to him a few words, and he will be in a better mood."

Mama Sun looked helpless: "If you let Mrs. see ......"

Tears rolled down from my eyes, and I choked up in a hoarse voice: "Even if I see it, it's not a few times, I won't rely on it, I just don't want Nantang to be alone." ”

Mama Sun thought for a while and said, "He is now in Lanxin Garden, you can go find him." ”

There are many orchids planted in the orchid garden, and many precious varieties are available, hence the name.

Stepping into Lanxin Garden, I saw Chu Nantang lying on a bamboo chair in the courtyard, holding a little white fox in his arms, slender and clean hands, caressing Xiao Bai's head.

Xiaobai narrowed his eyes in satisfaction, yawned, and continued to nap.

When he saw me come in, his eyes flashed slightly, he didn't get up, he didn't smile as usual, he just pursed his thin lips and stared at me for a moment.

Empty and pale, such Chu Nantang overwhelmed me.

"Nantang." I called softly.

After a long silence, his voice was as ethereal as if it came from the distant sky: "What's the matter?" ”

"I'm just coming to see you, I'm sorry for making you embarrassed, I'll leave the Chu family tonight. You don't want to ...... with the lady."

He closed his eyes in annoyance and turned his face away, as if he didn't want to hear these things, and I paused abruptly and said no more.

After a long time, he said very indifferently: "Before, I always thought. Those mundane things have nothing to do with me, it doesn't matter whatever. I can follow them who they tell me to like and whatever I do......

I even thought that it was okay to marry someone I didn't love for the rest of my life. As long as they are happy, life is short for decades, and there is no need to be too serious.

Zen mind, you say, am I doing something wrong? ”

"You didn't do anything wrong, you were never the one who was wrong!"

"Whose fault is that?" He stared back at me with burning eyes.

"I don't know...... Perhaps, perhaps, all are predestined. ”

He smiled softly: "Some people are born rebellious. He doesn't believe in fate, he doesn't believe in heaven, he only believes in himself. ”

He once told me this sentence, and he didn't understand it very well before, but now he seems to understand a little bit of his state of mind when he said this.

"Nantang, come with me! Let's leave that alone, just go anywhere! ”

I stepped forward to take his hand and prayed.

He glanced at the sky: "It's too late......"

The sun unconsciously set halfway up the mountainside, and the sunset burned half of the sky, which was thrillingly beautiful.

I thought for a moment and said, "It's okay if it's late, the moonlight is also beautiful, we can go far away by the moonlight." ”

"When the dawn comes, you will not be able to hide in the dark, and how far can you go?"

The bitterness in my heart spread: "How do you know if you don't try?" ”

With a smile, he teased the little white fox in his arms as if nothing had happened, and ignored me again.

"I'm leaving."

I turned around and walked a few steps, and he suddenly stopped me: "You stay." ”

I turned around in surprise, and he met my gaze, put Xiaobai down, got up and walked to me with his hands in his hands.

"Stay."

"That lady ......"

"She can try, if I can't keep you, maybe I, the young master of the Chu family, will be useless."

I thought about it. smiled: "Tomorrow on the fifteenth, let's go to the hill to admire the moon!" ”

"It's up to you."

"Good!" At that moment, the melancholy was swept away again.

On the fifteenth day, after dinner, I went to Lan Xinyuan to look for him as promised, but I saw that Mrs. Chu was sitting in the house with him, and seemed to have been talking for a long time.

When she saw me, Mrs. Chu's eyes suddenly turned cold, and she pursed her lips and stared at me for a long time without speaking.

I blessed my body and lowered my eyebrows: "Madam." ”

Suddenly, Mrs. Chu got up and walked up to me, clasped my chin and carefully adjusted it for a long time, before she said: "This girl is indeed a bit beautiful, even if you can't look down on any girl, I will fulfill you and bring this Zen heart into the concubine's room." ”

Who knows, Chu Nantang didn't refuse, just took a sip of tea and said: "Mother, you want to hold your grandson, you want me to pass on the ancestry, it's understandable, Zen heart in my heart, it is indeed much more pleasing to the eye than ordinary women, as for my mother said to accept her as a concubine, I will feel distressed, if you let her enter the door of my Chu family, then Ming Media is marrying the daughter-in-law of the Chu family." ”

"What kind of system is this?! She's a maid! ”

"Yes, you can't marry a maid, Zen Xin, you're just a maid." He smiled at me and put down the teacup in his hand.

"Are you going to me off?!" Mrs. Chu's eyes were red.

"Mother, don't be angry, it's a child who is not filial." Chu Nantang admitted his mistake on the surface, stepped forward and took my hand, and strode away from Lanxin Garden.

Climbed the hill with him, and that night the moon was really bright, illuminating the hill as if it were day.

He brought a pot of wine when he came, and he was disciplined and strict on weekdays, and he had no habit of drinking.

It's been almost five years since the last time I drank.

We snuggled together, drank and admired the moon, and didn't talk much to each other.

I was too strong to drink, Wei Xun, turned my head to look at him, under the moonlit night, he was handsome and ethereal, not like a mortal.

"Nantang ......"

"Huh?" He clutched his glass and turned to look at me.

"Actually, it's okay to be a concubine!" I held my hot face and smiled silly.

He laughed: "Why are you so unproductive? ”

"I just don't have much interest, it doesn't matter if it's you, I just want to stay by your side, take care of you, and make you happy."

He looked up at the moon in the night sky and sighed: "It doesn't matter which woman is the concubine, but it can't be you." If one day I really want to be with you, I must, be upright, marry you! ”

"And when do you want to be with me?" The bitterness spread in the bottom of my heart, and tears rolled down.