124. Actually, you don't know love at all
??????? At the beginning, Luoluo escaped and made trouble, all kinds of methods were exhausted, and the old housekeeper always looked cold. As long as she doesn't hurt the child, she doesn't care about it. In fact, if Luoluo really wants to be sincere and don't want children, there is still a way. But she couldn't put her mind on it, and as her belly grew bigger day by day, as the child made its first fetal movements, the maternal instinct worked, child, her child!
Ye Chongshao came to see her every month, and every time he came, he would ask for her, he was very gentle and careful when he asked her, but in the end, he often couldn't control himself, as if he had been holding back for a long time. Is there a need for him not to go to another woman? I have long heard that there is a man who cheats on a woman when she is pregnant and finds a woman, he obviously has no one without marriage constraints, what is he sticking to?
Child? When Luoluo was a month old, he saw that Ye Chongshao was no longer like an enemy, and afterwards, he took her to take a bath, and he couldn't bear it anymore in the big bathtub, but he hurt Luoluo. Just carefully hold her belly and let her sit on top of her.
Luoluo is tired, he is strong and energetic, and even when she is not pregnant, he tosses her to death. Now, her eyes were closed, and she didn't have the energy to care what he was going to do. After a pause, he asked, "Why don't you go find another woman?" ”
"What?" Ye Chongshao focused all his energy on suppressing the reflection of his body, and didn't hear what she said clearly.
"You are rich, powerful, handsome, even if you don't spend a lot of money, beautiful women must be in a hurry to undress in front of you, why don't you want them, just pester me?" Luoluo's fingers were on the bathtub emptyly, Ye Chongshao was not sure, and reached out to hold it.
Kissed her collarbone. It's a pity that she is always not fat, "You are my wife, how can I go to someone else when you are pregnant." ”
"I'm not." Luoluo didn't have the strength to yell at him, his momentum and age were there, shouting light at him was a temper tantrum, shouting heavy at him was silent, if he dared to stab the knife in the flesh with her hand, she was afraid of him, and there was nothing she could do to him.
Perhaps in order to ease this tense atmosphere, Ye Chongshao diverted the topic, "It's a girl." Shall we come up with a name for her? ”
Last time he came with a doctor, do? Super sure it was a girl, Luoluo deliberately angry with him: "Whatever you call it, Lele Mimi Doudou can do it." ”
Ye Chongshao smiled: "You treat me as a puppy when my daughter, is it good to call Zhizhi?" ”
Luoluo opened her eyes and looked up at him: "Why?" ”
She hadn't looked at him so formally for a long time, he was happy, lowered his head and kissed her shallowly on the lips, and the hard stubble pierced her neck, Ye Chongshao loved her delicate reaction of a little girl like her, in fact, probably girls would be like this, but because it was Luoluo, he felt unique.
Once a cold-hearted person is emotional, he is actually more affectionate than anyone else, and he will be affectionate and unreasonable.
"Knowing is knowing what you know, exchange your heart for my heart, and know each other deeply. When people get along with others, what they want is to know, know themselves and others, know their hearts, and know their hearts. ”
Luoluo didn't seem to know him, "I didn't expect you to be a literary and artistic young man, and your Chinese literature is good, but it's hard to hear." ”
said something ugly, but Luo Luo frowned and thought seriously, and the two words that he didn't feel anything suddenly rose up as soon as he said it.
"Where's the Daimyo?"
"The name is Ye Gardenia, and you like gardenia the most." Ye Chongshao grabbed her hand and wrote these three words.
Luoluo didn't have much research on flowers and plants, but her mother had a lot of flowers on the balcony, and she only remembered the white gardenias, probably a long time ago, when she and Ye Chongshao had not fallen out, he once gave her a bouquet of champagne roses, she was happy, but she didn't want to show it, so she pretended to be nonchalant and said: "Cut, something that costs a few hundred yuan is not as good as a gardenia for a pot of more than ten yuan." ”
Ye Chongshao is an adult, of course he can see through her little tricks, but he still cooperates with her: "What, like gardenias?" ”
"Hmm." Just that one word, but he took it seriously, the child's name added a gardenia, I don't know why Luoluo's eyes were red, she stood up from the water in a hurry, and said coldly: "It's not good." ”
Ye Chongshao also stood up, and he hugged her heavily from behind, although she had ??? 's height, but he is still so petite in his arms, he is pressed against the glass door of the bathroom, he attacks from behind, domineering and gentle, from body to heart, completely controlling her.
Zhizhi, Ye Yi Zhi, the name was decided, but in the bathtub of the bathroom, my parents also came to a real battle.
Ye Chongshao stayed on the island for three days, although Luoluo had a cold face, but seeing Ye Chongshao was different from not seeing, the ruthlessness when he didn't see was abstract, and when he saw it, he found that he loved and hated, but this kind of love Luoluo himself didn't know.
Ye Chongshao is a very good lover, no matter how cold Luoluo has in the past three days, he has accompanied her step by step, grilling fish for her, cooking for her, listening to music for her, reading to her, telling him some interesting stories around the world, and even bathing her and washing her underwear.
Luoluo really can't stand it, there is a maid on the island, she takes care of Luoluo closely, so he really doesn't need to wash the underwear, when she stammered this, Ye Chongshao raised her eyebrows with soap bubbles in her hands and said, "So, you mean she washes the clothes and I wash you?" ”
Luoluo grabbed his washed clothes and threw them in the basin, splashing the soap foam on his face, "Whatever you want." ”
This sentence is just what you really changed Ye Chongshao to wash her, and kissed her tattoo when he washed it, he will never forget the way she said it hurt that day, with red eyes and red nose, obviously ugly, but like the most delicate flower blooming in his heart.
Child? He didn't come when he was a month, and in those days, Luoluo's eyes always wandered in the direction of the dock, counting the days day by day, and he always felt the man's breath spraying on his neck in the middle of the night, and he woke up empty, scolding himself for being cheap, laughing and laughing often with tears.
He still didn't come when he was a month, Luoluo didn't ask anyone, but he gradually lost weight, and all the meat in the first two months was replaced, with a thin neck, thin arms and a big belly, which looked very funny.
On the last day of that month, Ye Chongshao finally came, it was late at night when he came, she was sleeping, he looked at her in the dark, his eyes were dark and bright, like obsidian.
When Luoluo opened her eyes and saw him, she thought she was dreaming again, and because it was a dream, she became bold. She reached out and put her arms around his neck and climbed on top of him to kiss him, the man's irrepressible panting poured out of his mouth, Luoluo loved his hoarse and sexy voice, and when she undressed him, she found that his chest was wrapped in bandages and stained with blood, and she was completely awake.
The man's chest muscles rose and fell sharply, and his forehead was full of beads of sweat, and he bent the corners of his lips and said, "Why don't you continue?" ”
Luoluo stretched out her hand and wiped it on his forehead, it was very cold, it was cold sweat, it was painful, she got out of bed flexibly, went to the bathroom to get a hot towel under Ye Chongshao's puzzled gaze, and wiped him little by little.
Ye Chongshao grabbed her fingers and held them in his mouth, his eyes flashed, Luoluo didn't dare to look, crying and hiding, she didn't know how long she could last, she was so scared to see the large red on his chest, afraid that he would die, afraid that the child in her belly would not have a father.
She probably heard something from him and his entourage, probably because he had become the target of public criticism in Jincheng, and now everyone was targeting him, even the boss of their gang was suspicious of him, and he was having a hard time.
It stands to reason that Luoluo should be happy, the wicked have their own wicked grinding, and he has retribution, but why is his heart tightly gripped, and he has to hold his hand firmly when he sleeps, as if he can disappear out of thin air.
Ye Chongshao instructed the old housekeeper that Luoluo could walk around the island in the future.
He only stayed on the island for two days this time, Luoluo said that it was time to prepare the child's clothes, Ye Chongshao said that he had all done it, and he would take her to the hospital in a few days, and the child was still safe in the hospital.
When he left, Luoluo went to deliver it for the first time, and he pressed Luoluo's wind-blown hair with his hand, Luoluo's eyes were red and very reluctant.
"Luoluo, I know it's inhumane to trap you here, but I don't mean to trap you, there are too many people out there who want to fix me, it's safe here."
Luoluo looked at him fascinated, maybe after a long time of isolation from the world, even the hatred was not so distinct, she had a lot of things to tell him, but she couldn't say it, watching him go away, she thought, next time, next time she must tell him what she wants.
A few days later, it was the day to deliver the reserves, Luoluo watched them move rice and vegetables, and suddenly had a very appetite, she said to the cook: Will you make back pot meat? I want to eat. ”
When the person who delivered the food left, he passed by Luoluo, because the person who delivered the food had been used for many years and no one cared, and Luoluo had an extra mobile phone in his hand when he left, which was not big, but it was very full of functions and could be put on the Internet.
Luoluo's heart beats like a drum, if this mobile phone appears when she first goes to the island, no matter who gives it to her, she will be grateful and crazy, but now she doesn't want it, fate is against her.
wanted to throw the phone into the sea, but curiosity prompted her to turn it on, as soon as she turned it on, a text message immediately popped up, she clicked on it and saw that it was Fu Xixing.
Fu Xixin said his number in the text message, asked her to call him, and then let her on? Said that many people are looking for her.
Luoluo doesn't know who many people are referring to, probably no one is looking for her except for her mother and sister, her good friend Qi Nanfeng should have finished the college entrance examination a long time ago, did she get admitted to Chinese opera?
Not for a long time? I almost forgot the password, and a lot of messages came out in the aftermath, some of which my sister sent to me at the beginning, and Qi Nanfeng's, there were too many Luoluo to see, she only read the last few ones, one of which was the most recent, "Luoluo, where are you, something happened to your family!" ”
Luoluo's head buzzed, and then it was like standing on the edge of a cliff, on the line between life and death, and he was terrified.
Without hesitation, she locked the door of her room and called Fu Xixin.
Fu Xiyun picked it up almost immediately, probably after the man told him the news of the completion of the task, he kept his mobile phone, and before Luoluo could speak, he said: "Luoluo, you have to be strong, something happened to your family." ”
Luoluo was a little calmer now, and she asked calmly, "What's wrong?" ”
"It's a fire, a fire that burned your home, your mother was burned to death, your sister's whereabouts are unknown, and the firefighters didn't find her body."
There is no change of seasons on this island, in Jincheng, it is probably winter now, Luoluo seems to have returned home, there was a heavy snowfall, especially the big kind, she was buried in thick snow, and the meridians all over her body were frozen and painful. She tried to reach out and remove the snow covering her face, but her whole body was hard, and she had become an ice sculpture, her soul trapped in a cold and hard shell.
Luoluo's lower body is red, and the child is going to be born prematurely.
The helicopter sent her to the hospital overnight and gave birth to a baby girl by cesarean section, because it was less than a month, the child burned a lot of grievances in the mother's belly, and her cardiopulmonary function was not yet perfect, and she was placed in the incubator of the hospital.
Ye Chongshao rushed to the hospital as soon as possible, his hand kept shaking when he signed, it was Zhan Fengping who could sign by holding his hand, cesarean section was originally a minor operation, but after the operation, the mother was bleeding heavily and almost died.
Ye Chongshao has never regretted that he is not a good person, but today he regrets it, when he was most helpless, he hated himself for doing too many bad things, and the retribution was on the head of his daughter and wife.
Leng Shi, a subordinate who had just joined him, found the mobile phone from Luoluo's room, he looked through the records on it, and then called Fu Xixin according to the number on it.
Fu Xiyun suddenly didn't hear Luoluo's voice and was very anxious, he was actually in the hospital, swaggering over with his mobile phone.
Ye Chongshao didn't say a word, and went up and punched him in the chin.
His fist was very hard, and Fu Xixin bleed from his mouth and nose, and then his fist fell like raindrops, and Fu Xiyu hit him without the power to fight back, but he still laughed arrogantly.
Grabbing his collar, Ye Chongshao's face was hideous, and he couldn't wait to crush Fu Xixing, "Fu Xixing, are you doing all this to make her suffer more?" Do you fucking know love? ”
"I just wanted her to hate you, and it turns out I did, and now she thinks you were the one who burned down her house and her mom and sister!" Fu Xiyun was already crazy, he didn't realize his mistake at all, no, he knew, but he didn't dare to admit it, he didn't expect to hurt Luoluo's family, but he didn't expect Luoluo's mother to come home at this time, and then broke into the fire regardless of the danger, just for Luoluo's father's ashes.
He imposed the mistake on Ye Chongshao, convincing himself that the murderer was really Ye Chongshao, and without his persecution, he would not have set fire.
Zhan Fengping also took a few beatings, he was originally going to pull a rack, but he couldn't do it but was beaten, and he was worried, the door of the delivery room was wide open, and the doctor came out and scolded: "This is a hospital, I want to beat you out, how can you give first aid to the patient if you are so noisy."
Luoluo is in danger, he picked up a life in the ghost gate, Ye Chongshao asked people to take Fu Xixin out, Fu Xixin actually has someone in his hands, he deliberately came alone, naturally he also has his considerations.
After Luoluo escaped, he still went back to the island to recuperate, that place was close to the military powerhouse, and no one could enter except for outsiders with special passes, Ye Chongshao had to guard against all the messy people.
After more than half a month of cultivation, the little girl Zhizhi gradually became a child, from the initial lump of soft meat to a beautiful little girl, and her weight also changed from the lack of birth to the beginning? Pounds? Jin Duo, she is different from other children, other children generally can't see the eyebrows and eyelashes, her black hair grows to the neck, although the color of the eyebrows is light, but long, the tail of the eyes is charmingly raised, and when she grows up, she doesn't need to trim her eyebrows, what is even more amazing is the eyelashes, so the little children's eyelashes are thick and black, the roots are distinct, and the small mouth is slightly pouted and milky, like a small pink flower bone, which can simply melt Ye Chongshao's heart.
He loves children, loves unreasonably, holds him day and night, and is reluctant to give it to his sister-in-law.
This confinement sister-in-law's surname is Zhang, and she is a very reliable and honest person. At the age of the year, he is very loving to children. She said Ye Chongshao: "Sir, if you are so accustomed to knowing that you can't do it, she won't lie down in the future." ”
Ye Chongshao shook the little beauty in his arms and said in his heart If you don't lie down, you won't lie down, Dad will take you around the world.
Luoluo refused to look at the child from the moment she woke up, and she was afraid that she would lose the courage to leave her after one look. She calculated the date when she would get better, she got up early and left here early to return to Jincheng, she never believed that good people and good homes could not be said to be gone.
At the beginning, she had no milk, originally people said that there would be no milk at the beginning, but she was the opposite, the milk became more and more abundant, and she often soaked her clothes, especially when the child cried, probably Ye Chongshao deliberately carried the child around her room.
The confinement sister-in-law often mentions the child in front of her, looking at the husband and smiling, the eyelashes are long and there are troubles in the eyes, the face has eczema, and she can't see the child, her world is not necessarily idle, full of children's crying.
In the middle of the night that night, she woke up somehow, very thirsty, but she was weak and had no water, she weakly went to the ground to pour water, passed by the child's room and heard a faint cry, she was very angry, didn't Ye Chongshao love children, why didn't children cry?
The little guy's crying is getting louder and louder, and occasionally there are sobs with breathlessness, Luoluo's ears are tightly pressed against the door, and the child cries and her heart twitches, what's wrong with her, thirsty? Hungry? Or sick? What about Ye Chongshao, why doesn't anyone take care of the children?
Luoluo closed her eyes, and the cry was amplified countless times in her mind, imagining the child's suffering, Luoluo's surging pain, ** juice penetrated her clothes, she pinched it and let it go, did this a few times, and finally couldn't help but push open the door and walked in.
Except for the children, Ye Chongshao's shadow was not seen in the room, Luoluo put her heart down, she walked to the side of the baby room, and carefully looked at the baby surrounded by the pink soft quilt.
No wonder the confinement lady said that the child looked like her, although she was crying with a red head and swollen face, but her eyebrows and eyes were exactly the same as when she was a child.
She stretched out her hand and touched the child's face tentatively, saying that it was strange that the child stopped crying after seeing her, stared at her with black eyes like black glass beads, babbling something, and finally laughed.
Luoluo couldn't describe how she felt at that time, she wanted to cry, she wanted to laugh, she reached out and took the child into her arms, and the child drilled into her chest like a smell.
Almost instinctively, Luoluo sat on the edge of the bed with her in her arms, clumsily picking up her clothes to breastfeed.
Zhizhi's little mouth like a flower bone trembled, and she was also clumsy looking, feeling that this was different from what she usually drank milk, but it seemed that the mother ** was very attractive to her, and she sucked greedily when she grabbed it.
Luoluo held the baby in her arms, her eyes completely attracted by the way she was feeding, her throat tightened as the child swallowed, and she choked in it with a sob.
This child is not just born with the help of her belly, she is a piece of flesh that fell from her body that she moistened with blood, she is a mother, no matter how to escape, this cannot be changed, maternal instinct has overcome everything, she is reluctant to let go of the child anymore.
The tall figure blocked the light in front of her, and the man stood in front of her expressionlessly, his dark and deep eyes staring at her plump granary.
Luoluo's throat tightened, her face turned red unconsciously, and the hot tears that had lasted for a long time slid down her pink cheeks.
Ye Chongshao's hand stretched out, she instinctively ducked back, a touch of hurt emotion flashed through his eyes, and then he said coldly: "The child is asleep, put her back on the bed." ”
Luoluo didn't let go, "I, I want to sleep with her." ”
"Okay" Ye Chongshao didn't hesitate at all, "But if you want the three of us together, I don't worry about the two of you." ”
A man's demands are reasonable and contain infinite persecution, and he can always grasp the weakness of others so precisely, thus becoming his negotiation conditions.
Luoluo lowered her head for a long time, and finally nodded.
Ye Chongshao's face did not move, but he was happy in his heart, tonight was his game, and he didn't believe that Luoluo could ignore the child.
Lying on the big bed in the master bedroom, the high temperature that belonged to the man radiated to her even if the child was separated from the child, but she still didn't dare to move.
A hand stretched out in the darkness, and Luoluo quickly closed her eyes and pretended to be asleep. Cloth miscellaneous.
The man didn't do anything excessive, his hand slid gently down her tofu-like cheek, slid to her ear and stopped, pinching.
Luoluo didn't dare to breathe.
"Luoluo, Luoluo, my baby." He whispered, and the voice slowly spread into the air, low like a dream.
With a child, the relationship between Ye Chongshao and Luoluo has eased a lot, although Luoluo does not talk to him directly, but the problems surrounding the child will inevitably have contact, Ye Chongshao did not force her, and gave her time to slowly adapt.
He thought that as long as there was time, a day, a month, or a year, at most a year, and no matter how long he would be impatient, Luoluo would definitely treat him as before, and they would become a family of three that everyone envied. But time is always too little, he suddenly threw away all the things in Jincheng this time because of the child's affairs, and Brother Lei, the boss of Qinglong, was not dissatisfied and threatened to come to him in person.
How could Ye Chongshao leak this place in public, although he was reluctant to give up, he still left.
As soon as he left, Luoluo had action.
Since she can't leave the child with her, she doesn't want to follow her for the rest of her life so unexplained, she has to find the answer by herself, if it was really Ye Chongshao who set fire to her mother and sister, even if she couldn't kill him, she wouldn't let him see the child again.
One moonless night, she hugged Zhizhi and hugged the child with her thick clothes, and Fu Xiyun had already arranged for the dinghy to wait for her behind the reef.