I sighed in my heart, and I finally settled down in my apprehensive heart, and I was afraid...... If even Lu Bu learns to calculate me, then I ...... I really don't know what to do.

"I'm really just a brave guy, am I? I'm just going to be brave, am I? He clenched his fists fiercely, his face full of frustration, "The red rabbit horse traveled thousands of miles a day, went back and forth to Liangzhou for six days, and returned to Luoyang, but learned the news that Xiaoxiao had died...... If it weren't for Zhao Zilong, I wouldn't even know who died......"

"I ...... OK. I reached out and stroked his clenched fists, "You don't have to blame yourself. ”

"It's okay...... Is it? He suddenly reached out and slowly stroked my neck.

Feeling the temperature of his fingertips, I subconsciously flinched and stepped back sharply, my eyes full of panic, and my breathing was much heavier uncontrollably.

"Is that okay?" He withdrew his hand and stood there looking at me, his eyes full of pain.

I stared at my eyes in a daze, raised my hand to stroke my neck, after Wang Yun's careful care, I didn't feel a trace of anything wrong on my delicate skin, but...... What happened to me just now? Why is there fear? When Lu Bu's hand touched my neck, why did I feel fear?

Just now, I was afraid.

But what am I afraid of? Was it that snowy night, Dong Zhuo's ghost-like expression? Or the hands that choked my neck? The suffocating ...... What does it feel like to be dying but not dying? The pain of wandering on the verge of life and death? I thought I wasn't afraid, but my body was more honest than my thoughts.

I...... I am afraid.

"Don't be afraid." Speaking lowly, Lu Bu hugged me into his arms.

I struggled subconsciously, but he wouldn't let go.

"I'll go to the pastry shop to find you, Zhao Zilong said, that night, you almost had your throat choked......" hugged me tightly, his voice trembled slightly, "I've never been so scared...... But they don't tell me where you are, they don't tell me if you're alive......"

There was a dull pain in my heart, so I quieted down and stayed in his arms, finally slowly raising my hand and caressing his tight and broad back.

He smiled and said that if someone bullied, he must repay it tenfold and hundredfold, so the small medicine jar became Lu Wenhou...... smiled and said that even if I can't see with my eyes, I can still live well, so I lived obediently...... Xiaoxiao said that he didn't remember me, so I believed it......" He muttered as if talking to himself, "Xiaoxiao said anything, the little medicine jar believes anything, and it has been like this since childhood." ”

I bit my lip lightly and said nothing.

"But, with a smile, I will meet a woman who is ten times more beautiful than her, and that woman called Diao Chan will become my wife."

He gently pushed me away and looked down at me: "That Diao Chan...... Could it be you? There was a complicated look in his clear eyes, "Can you ...... Just you? ”

He said, that Diao Chan, can it be me? What is this? Afraid that the world will not be chaotic? I took a slight step back.

"Even if it's Diao Chan, Wang Yun won't agree to marry me to you." Looking up at him, I finally spoke lightly.

"He will." Lu Bu was determined, "Do you want to gamble?" ”

"Bet on what?"

"If Wang Yun agrees, you will marry me."

I frowned: "I won't marry." ”

"Why not?"

"You know."

"In Liangzhou, you said that you were going to marry Dong Zhuo, and I wished you happiness, but the result was ...... Your life and death are uncertain, in Luoyang, you said that you were going to marry Dong Zhuo, I still wish you happiness, but the result is ...... It's not you...... I've been walking away quietly, I've been quietly wanting to see you happy, but ......," his eyebrows suddenly tightened, "You've never been happy, you've just been hurting, hurting all the time...... Rather than that, let me give you happiness......"

I looked up at him, feeling astringent and panicked.

"I've always been happy." I spoke, in a faint voice.

Lu Bu frowned, and was about to speak, when the red rabbit horse suddenly stopped.

I subconsciously looked up and saw Princess Wan, who was sitting on a horse in front of us, Wang Yun on her right, and behind her, dozens of personal guards.

"What are you doing here?" Princess Wan frowned and spoke.

This is the only way to return to the Taishi's Mansion from the palace.

"On the orders of Master Taishi, conduct routine inspections." Restrained his smile, Lu Bu hugged his fists.

Fortunately, Empress Dowager He's body has been transported away first, so she won't cause trouble for the time being. Moving out of the name of the Grand Master, even though Princess Wan was trembling with anger, she was helpless.

"Cicada, why did you leave the palace with Lu Wenhou?" Wang Yun's voice sounded warmly unexpectedly.

I looked at him.

"Feng Xian has admired Miss for a long time, and I hope that the adult will fulfill it." Guarding me in his arms, because of the name of Diao Chan, Lu Bu had to put down his body and speak.

There was not a trace of inappropriateness on his face, but Wang Yun's voice was a little annoyed: "Cicada has always been favored by the official, and she is also a young lady in Situ Mansion, how can she follow Wen Hou so namelessly?" ”

Lu Bu was slightly stunned, then nodded and laughed: "Lord Situ is reasonable. ”

I looked at him with a frown, unable to guess what kind of medicine was sold in his gourd.

"Tomorrow, Fengxian will bring all the dowry gifts, and come to Situ Mansion to pick up the young lady home and get married according to the number of rites." His eyes were bright, and Lu Bu smiled with a pair of small tiger teeth.

Wang Yun frowned and watched Lu Bu set his horse away.

"Let's go back to the palace." Princess Wan glanced at me and said to her entourage.

"Your Royal Highness, please mourn." Wang Yun squinted his eyes, looked at Lu Bu's distant back, and suddenly spoke.

"What?" Princess Wan was slightly stunned, as if she didn't understand.

"As expected, the palace ...... Something should have happened. Wang Yun said lightly.

Princess Wan was stunned, and then gritted her teeth and raised her whip to catch up with Lu Bu.

"Princess, wait!" Wang Yun hurriedly raised his hand and asked the guards on the side to block the princess's way, Wang Yun's voice was still warm, "The coalition army is already in Bishui Pass, Her Royal Highness the princess, please be calm and patient for a while, for the emperor." ”

Wang Yun's persuasion is always so convincing.

Princess Wan bit her lip, whipped fiercely, and galloped into the palace.

"Go home, Cicada." Looking down at me, Wang Yun stretched out his hand to pull me onto the horse.

I sat behind him and let him take me back to Situ's house.

Because...... I was suddenly very curious, that day, he sacrificed Diao Chan in order to save King Hongnong, so now...... Will he sacrifice me for the sake of this royal family again?

Will he compete with Lu Bu and leave me behind?

The silver carved incense burner was filled with green smoke, and the whole room was filled with a vague fragrance, and the candles on the bronze lamps by the windows were clearly extinguished.

I closed my eyes and soaked in a barrel that was half a man high, letting the warm water cover the top of my head. Diao Chan was covered in blood, and the desolate expression of Empress Dowager He when she died...... Scenes flashed in my mind.

With a "whoosh", I stood up from the tub, and the cold air immediately invaded.

In just a moment, someone brought a soft silk cloth to wipe my body, and then I came back to my senses and reached out to take the silk cloth: "I'll come by myself." ”

"Yes, miss." The servant girl bowed her head and stood respectfully before me with a white robe with wide sleeves.

Wearing the white robe that dragged the ground, I stood in front of the bronze mirror, looking at the woman in the mirror who was dressed in white and had no makeup, and the green silk was not silky, squinting slightly, I was in a trance, the woman with a plain face and a bright moon like the moon, is it really me?

"Miss, my lord is waiting for you in the hall to eat." Seeing that I had been in a daze, the maid on the side finally couldn't help but remind.

I nodded, turned and walked out of the somewhat unfamiliar boudoir.

The exquisite dishes are mouth-watering. Wang Yun sat at the table and poured wine for me.

Raising a glass to the end of my nose and sniffing lightly, I took a sip and suddenly laughed: "It's worse than osmanthus stuffed." ”

Wang Yun lowered his eyes to make vegetables for me, and didn't care about the little thorn in my words.

"Try my craft." He laid the dishes in front of me, a gentle smile on his lips.

I put the food in my mouth, chewed it slowly, and then squinted with satisfaction: "Very good." ”

"Thanks for the compliment." He laughed, and there was always something in his usual gentle smile. In the candlelight, his smile was no longer empty, and even, a little...... The feeling of bliss.

Happiness?

The maids and maids all retreated at some point, and Wang Yun looked at me with one hand on his chin, looking very intently at the way I was feasting.

"Just look at me and be full?" Uncomfortable stared at by him, my eyebrows twitched slightly, swallowed the food in my mouth, and opened my mouth a little helplessly.

"Hmm." He actually responded lightly.

"Huh?" I raised my voice, and I was full when I saw me? This...... What is it? What about me?

"Has anyone told you that you look happy eating?" He looked at me and spoke suddenly.

"Yes, yes, if one day I will die, I will definitely die!" I smiled and took another sip of soup.

Wang Yun looked at me and was silent.

Putting down the soup bowl in my hand, I looked at the unfathomable, unjoyful, and always gentle-looking man in front of me, who was still looking at me, and had no consciousness to restrain at all.

With a sigh of frustration, I graciously picked up the last crystal dumpling from my plate and brought it to his lips.

He was slightly stunned and looked at me with a puzzled face.

"Would you like to try your craft?" I asked.

"I prefer to see you eat." His gentle eyes grew gentle, as if they were rippling with water.

"My heart hurts, I feel empty, as if I have broken a hole, scared, hesitant, and even ...... Despair...... "Looking at him, I smiled and said word by word, looking at his gradually frowning brow, "can ...... Turn grief and anger into food...... Try it, it works. "I laughed heartily.

"That night...... I'm drunk......" pursed his lips, rarely, he was a little awkward, "What did I say?" ”

That night?

I suddenly remembered, I didn't expect him to remember it all the time?

"Hmm...... Nothing either. I thought about it, and when I saw him quietly sighing, I chuckled a little evilly, "It's just that I've been yelling for me to hug ...... It's the first time I've seen someone who even gets drunk and crazy like this......"

He looked at me with some bewilderment, a look of unacceptance.

I think so, image...... It's all ruined.

He opened his mouth and swallowed the crystal dumplings in my hand.

Watching him chew slowly, I chuckled lowly, what is this? Anyway, the image has been ruined, so just break the jar and break it?

"For the first time." He stood up and looked down at me.

Well? The first time? The word...... It's too easy to provoke reverie......

"First time...... Someone accompanied me to dinner. He looked down at me, his long hair hanging down my shoulders, tangled with my hair.

I looked up at him.

His hand slowly touched my face, a strange touch.

"All the time...... I've always wanted someone to have dinner with me......" His gaze was glued to my face, with a faint gentleness, a faint expectation, "A warm candle flame, a table away, within reach, looking at you like this for the rest of my life...... How nice it should be. Looking at me, he muttered softly.

This man who makes me powerless can be so bad that it is outrageous, but it can also be so gentle that it is impossible to refuse......

"Can you ......?"

"No, you can't." Pursing my lips, I spoke.

He looked at me with a complicated expression.

"Tomorrow, Lu Bu will come to propose." He lowered his eyes, "You say, what should I do?" ”

"Well, what would you do?" I drank the soup nonchalantly.

"If I promise, will you marry him obediently?"

I...... Will it? The boy who has been "determined" to marry me since I was a child, the man who never gave up on me even after death, the child who has a stubborn temper like a cow?

"Lu Bu marries you, Dong Zhuo will definitely not allow it...... If he insists on doing it, they will turn against you. Wang Yun smiled lightly, "Looking at the world, the person who can fight with Dong Zhuo is none other than Lu Bu." ”

Yes, Dong Zhuo was the murderer of Xiaoxiao, how could he let his righteous son marry me? With Dong Zhuo's character, he will inevitably turn against Lu Bu. So the last thing I want to witness in history...... It will happen.

"Why don't you marry me." Wang Yun suggested with a smile.

I looked at him and was silent.

"The person you like is Dong Zhuo, since you can't marry him...... So who to marry...... Aren't they all the same? He looked at me, mildly sad, "Marry me, and be good to them." ”

Marry whom, all the same? I know that the person I like is not him, and he has to marry me? What kind of lonely person would be like this, leaving someone to accompany him? However, he is always clever and cunning.

"Marry Lu Bu, and you will never recover."

"Hmm." I nodded and smiled, "Can I not marry anyone?" ”

"No, you can't." Wang Yun smiled seriously, "Lu Bu will not give up. ”

"Marry me, and you will never recover." I laugh, a typical couple.

"I'm not afraid."

"You're going to hell."

"I'm not afraid." He leaned over, his warm, soft lips gently covering mine.

Like a puppet, I didn't move, looking at him coldly.

Kissed like a dragonfly in water, he hugged me very gently, as if I were a fragile glass doll.

I frowned and tried to push him away.

He snorted, his face suddenly pale.

I was slightly stunned, I felt that he was a little strange in the palace that day, and without thinking about it, I raised my hand and ripped off his robe, half exposing his left shoulder.

The white skin glowed with the color of ivory in the candlelight, very beautiful, but such a disheveled appearance was absolutely unbearable, as if I was going to insult him and the overlord would bow hard.

However, my smile froze on my lips.

On his left arm, a white cloth was tied, and on that cloth, there was faint red blood oozing out.

He was slightly stunned, and then slowly pulled up his clothes with one hand: "Is Xiaoxiao so impatient?" Squinting at me, he smiled softly and carried me back to the room in a charming manner.

There was incense in the room, and he bent down to lay me on the couch and kissed me on the center of my eyebrow.

I shuddered, closed my eyes, and dug my fingertips into my palms.

Without further movement, he covered me with a soft futon.

"How did you get hurt?" Opening my eyes and looking at him, I asked.

"It's nothing, it's just a piece of skin." He smiled softly, "It doesn't hurt, it's just to fit your face, I've been taking medicine for a long time, and that's a little more troublesome." ”

I was speechless.

"Good night." He finished softly, stood up, and turned to leave the room.

Letting go of my clenched hand, I subconsciously breathed a sigh of relief, opened my eyes blankly, and looked at the delicate gauze tent.

"Do you know, Diao Chan said that as long as her father-in-law asks for it, she will give it, she will do whatever it takes, even ...... My own life ......" Looking up at the intricate and beautiful patterns on the gauze tent, I slowly spoke, and my voice was very low, "Diao Chan is the one who is willing to accompany you for the rest of your life." But she's so close to you that you can't feel her presence...... You know? Love, in fact, is a kind of existence like air, although you can't feel it, but you need it very much, and when you really lose it, you will understand that the woman is in your heart...... How much does it weigh......"

The door was gently shut.

I know, he's heard.

Raising my hand to my cheek, I closed my eyes and went to sleep.

"Where's Wang Yun?" When I got up early the next morning, I subconsciously grabbed a servant girl and asked, because I was awakened from hunger.

It's absolutely right to look for Wang Yun when you're hungry.

"Adults in the kitchen." The servant girl bowed her head respectfully, and chose to turn a deaf ear to my direct call by Wang Yun's name.

"Take me there." I smiled and patted her on the shoulder, like a starving ghost's firstborn, there was an empty place in my heart that I had to find something to fill.

Dressed in white, Wang Yun was scraping fish scales, such a smelly thing, I thought he wouldn't do it. Looking up at me, he smiled: "I'm going to make fish soup." ”

Seeing a sparkling fish scale on his cheek, I crouched down and removed it for him.

He was slightly stunned, then smiled softly.

"When you're done, I'll starve to death."

"There is chestnut porridge in the pot, and the fish soup is drunk at noon." He looked very good-natured.

He...... It's just a lack of warmth. So, he's trying to create a warm atmosphere and make it feel like home...... It's like a child playing at home, in a way, it's ridiculously naïve.

I got up and scooped porridge in the pot, eating as I watched him wash the fish.

"Your Excellency, Your Excellency......" An attendant ran in in a panic.

Wang Yun didn't even raise his head, still trying to fight with the fish in his hand: "What's so urgent?" ”

"Outside...... Dong Taishi ......"

"You mean Lord Dong's righteous son Lu Bu is here?" Wang Yun frowned and raised his eyes to look at the attendant.

"It's not...... It's Dong Taishi...... Master Dong is here......"

Syllable!

The bowl in my hand fell to the ground and shattered into several pieces.

Wang Yun stood up and looked at me.

I tugged at the corners of my mouth and looked at Wang Yun: "It's okay now." ”

Don't worry about who to marry anymore, he ...... He's here to kill me, to avenge his dead "Xiaoxiao......

"Hide." Wang Yun stood up and pushed me to the back of the stove and squatted down.

While speaking, Dong Zhuo was already standing at the door of the kitchen.

Hiding under the stove, I looked up at him, faintly in a trance, this scene is very similar to the scene when Dong Zhuo went to Wangyue Tower to arrest me and go home in Hedong......

It's just that...... At this time, I almost couldn't recognize Dong Zhuo, his face was bearded and haggard, as if he was ten years old.