At this moment, every word Lin Xun said was like a knife cutting my heart, it was dripping with blood, and it kept lowering downward, as if I was going to faint to the ground due to excessive blood loss in the next moment.

But at this time, I must not lose, as long as I show a little bit of cowardice, then the barriers that have just accumulated will all collapse.

And Lin Xun and Chen Tang will always be in ruins, seeing me who is fragile, helpless and confused.

Therefore, I gritted my teeth, clenched my hands into fists, my nails were fiercely embedded in the flesh, the pain made me more and more conscious, I turned my head and shouted fiercely at Lin Xun.

"You're blaming me for all this, whether I didn't call you or I don't want to tell you these things right now. In short, all the fault is mine, and you don't have any fault at all! ”

"All the fault is caused by me, I have brought so many disasters to you, in that case, why do you have to stay with me?

You asked me to apologize to you, but I don't understand, what do I have to apologize to you, or do I have something to do to be sorry for you? ”

"I've never told you, 'Lin Xun, I beg you to stay by my side, I beg you to help me, I beg you to be able to do things for me', Lin Xun, you ask yourself, have I said that?"

I spoke to Lin Xun without hesitation, watching her face turn from red to white, and gradually to gray, I think at this moment, her state of mind is probably the same as mine, her heart is like a knife and very desperate.

"What's the matter, Lin Xun, why didn't you speak, it's because you can't think of any reason to refute me, right?" I continued to speak coldly, a mocking smile on the corner of my mouth, "If you don't speak, then can I think that you have nothing to say at all......

"Lin Xun, everyone knows very well that we are adults, and we are not young, everything we do is out of our own will!

In that case, I never forced you to help me yourself, so why do you want me to be grateful to you?! ”

Lin Xun listened to my words in a little trance, she looked at me with a wandering gaze, I think my words have broken her heart, and she didn't make me feel ashamed.

At this time, I really wanted to reach out and slap myself twice, so that I could sober up a little more, and stop hurting Lin Xun like this, but I couldn't, my pain was not half a point less than Lin Xun's.

The silence in the room lasted for a long time, and I could even hear my own subtle breathing, until Lin Xun in front of me suddenly grinned the corners of his mouth, and a sad smile appeared on his face. This time there was no longer mockery and contempt, there was just despair and loss.

Lin Xun tilted his head suddenly, looked at me with an inquiring gaze, slowly opened his mouth, and finally opened his mouth softly, "So today...... You've finally spoken out what you're really thinking, aren't you? You never have any gratitude for me, you think everything I do is what it deserves? ”

"As you said, you never begged me to do anything for you, never begged me to take care of you, all this was done by me?"

"I've known you for a short time, I thought I knew you pretty well, sometimes it's just a cold face, but today you make me doubt my previous opinion, maybe I should change this opinion......"

A burst of sourness suddenly surged up in my throat, and then rushed to my nose, as if as long as Lin Xun had a sad look, I could cry immediately.

So I hurriedly turned my head, didn't dare to look at Lin Xun again, and took a deep breath to ease my mood, "Did you only find out today, if you only found out today, then you should look at people more accurately in the future." Don't imagine a person to be too good, no one is really as perfect as you think......"

"And what you said is not wrong, whether you have helped me or have always taken care of me, I feel that it is your own willingness, and I have never had any gratitude to you......"

"No one forces you to do these things, you want to do it yourself. Why, then, do you want me to be grateful to you? ”

While slowly speaking to Lin Xun, I laughed violently to hide my sadness, "So don't be stupid anymore, okay Lin Xun, no one will think like this, these are just your own imaginations......"

In response to my answer, Lin Xun did not hesitate to stretch out her hands to applaud, she still had a smile on her face, but I clearly only felt sadness and despair from it.

"Okay, that's great." She nodded slowly, as if she had exhausted all her strength, "It turns out that the truth of the matter is like this, and I am the stupidest person!" ”

When I heard Lin Xun say this to me, my heart was about to break. I really want to tell her the truth, I don't think so, she has always been my best friend, and my feelings for her even exceed those for Xu Yi and Lin Xiangtian.

I am really grateful that Lin Xun can be by my side, no matter what happens, he is willing to help me, protect me, and fight hard for me.

I never wanted to hurt her, but now because of these unspeakable secrets, I can only say this to her, and I can only say that the more serious the better.

Only if I make Lin Xun's heart feel hopeless, will she be disappointed in me, and she will not ask anything about me again. In this way, she will leave me, and she will not be hurt by these things as much as I do.

Obviously, what I did was also protecting Lin Xun, just like she usually protected me, but because I couldn't say it, it could only deepen the misunderstanding between us.

I am more aggrieved than anyone else, but I have to pretend to be stronger than anyone else, at least in this room, I must not cry, as long as I cry, I will lose everything.

My hands were clenched into fists, my body trembled uncontrollably, I could only control it as much as possible, but I didn't know if Lin Xun had found any clues, so I could only speak to her.

"You're right, you've always been the stupidest person. But it doesn't hurt that you find it now, at least you know that you won't be wrong again in the future, so do you plan to leave here now? ”

As I spoke, the corners of my mouth hooked up a mocking smile, looking at the despair in Lin Xun's eyes, why did I feel so despicable, so unbearable, but why couldn't I make other decisions?

The sadness in Lin Xun's eyes became thicker and thicker, if I were her, I would probably have snatched out of the door at this moment. I don't want to stay in this sad place anymore and face someone who betrayed me so much.

But Lin Xun didn't rush to do this, she still stared at me, although her eyes were full of sadness, despair and loss, but she still didn't leave.

She choked up several times, seeing that tears were about to flow out of her eyes, but she stubbornly raised her head, "Lin Xun." I'll ask you one last time, and it's definitely the last time! Are you telling the truth? Do you really want me to leave? Are you serious...... You've never considered me your friend? ”

No, of course not!

None of this is true, all I said is against my will, and I don't want you to leave me, I just want you to be by my side all the time, and you have always been one of my best friends......

I shouted hard in my heart, but unfortunately Lin Xun couldn't hear anything, and I had a pretended strong indifference on my face, and even when I looked at her eyes in despair, I still nodded to her without hesitation.

At this moment, the connection between me and Lin Xun fell apart and burst into countless fragments.

"Maybe I did treat you as a friend before, but now I've had enough, I've had enough of your control over me, I've had enough of your constant taunts to me, and now that I've made it clear today, then I'm not afraid of you leaving!

In other words, your departure does not change anything at all for me, and there is one more you or one less you by my side, does it make any difference? ”

After saying these words to Lin Xun coldly, before I could get her answer, Chen Tang on the side just couldn't listen anymore, he suddenly stood up from his seat and yelled at me.

"Sister, what the hell are you doing? Do you know what you're talking about right now, how can you say that! Lin Xun has always taken care of you so much and put all her thoughts on you, but you treat her like this! ”

Chen Tang's roar was undoubtedly a condemnation of me, and Xu Yi never said a word. It's because he understands why I would say such things to Lin Xun.

But Chen Tang didn't understand, he was kept in the dark like Lin Xun, and in his opinion, I was just cold-blooded and ruthless.

All along, Chen Tang may have thought that I was a person of flesh and blood and feelings.

Otherwise, as his sister, he wouldn't be so dependent on me.

But today I made him realize a new cliché, a cliché that he was never familiar with, a particularly unfamiliar, and frightening cliché.

However, I had no choice but to defend myself, and in the face of Chen Tang's condemnation of me, I could only turn my head and look at him with indifferent eyes.

"Have you said enough, am I your sister, or is Lin Xun your relative? If you want to help Lin Xun so much, then you might as well leave here with her......

Chen Tang's face showed a look of shock, probably didn't expect me to speak to him like this, but in fact, I didn't want to, but now I can't do anything at all......

He looked at me like this for a long time, and finally laughed incredibly, and shook his head at me, as if it all seemed to be a nightmare, and it was better for him to wake up from it sooner.

"Sister, I beg you not to do it like this, stop joking with me and Lin Xun, you see that you are about to cry when she is angry, and I will cry to you later!