Bai Qingqing has never carefully talked about his family to anyone, including Lin Momo. Whenever she was forced to talk about it, she either lied or passed it aside.

Because, she felt, her family, the hukou ...... It's all her shame.

She has always felt that she is the last patriarchal peasant family in the new century, and if it were not for better living conditions, she might not even have the opportunity to go to school.

When she was in elementary and junior high school, she came home from school to do laundry and cook for her family, and she never felt the slightest problem. Until she was admitted to the best boarding high school in the county, and the people who were assigned to a dormitory with her were all from the county. For her at that time, the girls in the county town were already in good condition.

She soon discovered the difference between herself and them, and the other girls in her dorm took their clothes home for their parents to wash on the weekends, while she washed them herself. It's okay in summer, but in winter, the boiling water in the school costs five cents a pot, and the public washing machine is used for five yuan once, Bai Qingqing washes clothes by hand with cold water in order to save money, and his hands are full of frostbite.

The roommate found out and asked her curiously, "Why don't you wash it in the washing machine when it's so cold?" ”

Bai Qingqing felt that "saving money" was a shameful thing to say, and she lied for fear of being looked down upon: "I think so many people have used the washing machine in the school, and it is not clean, so I should wash it by hand." ”

The roommate asked again, "Then why don't you take it home and wash it?" ”

Bai Qingqing didn't know how to answer...... She has a washing machine at home, but she has always been in a state of poverty, only thinking about saving water and electricity, not washing the kind of big quilt that she can't twist, and she won't use a machine to wash.

And her roommates simply don't understand how the children of this kind of family usually live.

On another occasion, the dorm was talking all night. The entire dormitory except for her is an only child. In order to improve the quality of life, their family is reluctant to have another one even if the second child is opened, and no one thinks that there must be a boy to be complete.

And Bai Qingqing's family is different, her younger brother is only three years younger than her, and at that time she was only allowed to give birth to one child, her parents hid for a long time in order to give birth to her younger brother, and only dared to return to her hometown after giving birth in other places, and paid a lot of fines in order to register her younger brother.

After she told her roommate that she had a younger brother, her roommate began to pity her:

"My aunt's cousin was looking for a girlfriend this year, and my aunt didn't agree to them being together when she found out that his girlfriend had a younger brother at home. My aunt said that the family of one sister and one brother in the family is the most terrible, and the sister will keep sucking the blood of her husband's family to feed her younger brother. ”

"Yes, yes, I also heard from the parents, especially the kind of sister and brother family whose parents don't have a serious job, such a family, the girl's parents have no pension insurance after they are old, and the state does not provide for the elderly, which proves that after marrying this girl, the boy not only has to support the siblings, but also her parents, and may also have to support the wife of the girl's younger brother......"

All these twists and turns made her roommates dizzy, but she still understood what they meant, that is, a girl with a younger brother, especially a rural girl, is very humble, has no way out, and is looked down upon.

Bai Qingqing wanted to argue for himself at that time, but he couldn't speak...... She knows that her status in the family is indeed inferior to her younger brother, she has always been well-behaved and sensible, and her younger brother skips class and fights all kinds of evil, but her parents still like her younger brother.

This matter has been buried in her heart like a thorn, and at the end of the first semester of the third year of high school, she went home for the New Year, and after eating Chinese New Year's Eve dinner, she and her mother sat in the kitchen to make dumplings, her father went to the bedroom to watch TV, and her brother and his classmates went to the Internet café to surf the Internet.

There is no heating in the south, but the wet and cold winter is more bitter than in the north, even in the kitchen, it is not freezing, Bai Qingqing thought of her roommates, who must be sitting at home watching TV and eating snacks now, but she wants to make dumplings here, she felt uncomfortable, so she complained to her mother: "Mom, why doesn't my brother come to make dumplings?" ”

Her mother replied casually, "How can a boy do housework?" In the future, if you marry someone else, if you say such things, your husband will not work and you will be careful, and your in-laws will definitely scold you for not being educated. ”

Bai Qingqing was angry: "Mom, is a girl's upbringing just to do housework?" My grades are so good, I will definitely be able to get into a good university in the future. Did you train me to read for so long just to let me do the housework? ”

"Letting you go to school is so that you can find a husband with good conditions, and when you find it and marry him, then what else can you do if you don't do housework for him? A girl who doesn't do housework, can she go out to earn money to support her family? ”

"Why can't you make money to support your family?" Bai Qingqing pursed his lips, "You are just eccentric, this is the 21st century, and you are still patriarchal." ”

Her mother sighed: "It's not patriarchal, your brother is younger than you, and you should let him too." ”

When Bai Qingqing heard her say this, he asked, "Then if my brother is born first and I am born later, will you also let him do the housework and let me go out to play?" ”

Her mother replied to her without thinking at all: "If your brother was born first, there would be no you." ”

This sentence almost made Bai Qingqing cry on the spot. But she didn't, she just kept this sentence firmly in her heart. Even if her parents haven't let her make money to subsidize her younger brother for the time being, she is still always vigilant that she must go far in the future and not become a tool for being sucked by her brother's blood.

If the brothers and sisters of an ordinary family may have a good relationship, they will take care of each other and love each other, and after a hundred years of their parents, they will become the closest people in the world who are maintained by blood.

But Bai Qingqing felt that he couldn't do it.

If a patriarchal family wants to brainwash a girl so that she is willing to pay for the boy, they should raise her and not give her the opportunity to contact the outside world. Otherwise, this girl knows what the outside world is like, and knows that girls can still be very capable and don't need to rely on anyone, she will only double her disgust with the unfairness of her original family, and double her disgust with this brother or younger brother who robbed her of a lot of love.

Bai Qingqing is like that.

Later, her college entrance examination score was in the top ten in the school and she entered the National Medical University. During the summer vacation, she bought a mobile phone and a computer through her own efforts, and had the opportunity to learn about society through the Internet, but she didn't like her favorite listening even more, and she was even more inferior because of her family, so she never mentioned it.

She never takes the initiative to contact her family now, and her family will not take the initiative to look for her. Fortunately, Beijing is far away from her hometown, and there is no direct high-speed rail, so she has to take a train for more than 20 hours every time she goes back, and then change buses and then walk, at least a day and a half to get there. So she only goes back once a year and spends her summer vacations at school. Because of the inconvenience of the journey, her family never came to see her.

Her appearance is her biggest advantage, when the live broadcast became popular, she also tried to start the live broadcast with her mobile phone, and when she got an income of 500 yuan in the first month, she found that the live broadcast was simpler than any work she did, and she could also completely get rid of the control of the family, so she concentrated on the live broadcast, and later became famous, and the income could reach 10,000 a month, her consumption concept began to gradually let go. At first, she only bought clothes and inferior cosmetics for a few dozen yuan on Taobao, but after having this 10,000 yuan, she began to buy two or three hundred, buying slightly high-grade cosmetics. Later, I started to buy some light luxury, and followed the trend to buy some useless and expensive bags.

Once the consumption habit is released, it is difficult to take it back. So much so that when she began to bear liquidated damages two months ago, she still maintained the consumption concept she had when she was rich, causing her economy to shrink more and more, and she couldn't make ends meet, so that she had to delay it so seriously that she was willing to go to the hospital to buy medicine.

However, no matter how expensive the clothes and bags are, they can't satisfy her inferiority complex hidden deep in her heart.

When I was separated from Ye Sen...... Probably because of the inferiority complex in his bones. Ye Sen was kind to her, but she herself was like a sponge, absorbing all his efforts, but she was not satisfied. She thought that she probably wanted to use this "doing" way to prove how much Ye Sen loved her. In the end, his love was full, overflowing, and stretched his little heart open, and she couldn't bear it anymore.

She sometimes feels that she should be so lonely all her life, and she doesn't deserve anyone.

"Qingqing, where are you now? I'm looking for you. ”

Bai Qingqing came back to her senses from her memories, and when she saw Lin Momo sending such a message, she took a deep breath and sent her a message back: "Let's go to the coffee shop next to the school." ”

"Hmm."

Ten minutes later, the two met in a coffee shop, and as soon as Lin Momo sat down, he asked her directly: "Are those picked up on the Internet real?" ”

Bai Qingqing was silent for a moment and nodded: "Yes, I suspect that the live broadcast platform found someone to release my news on the Internet before, after all, I owe them liquidated damages......"

"How much do you owe? Can it be returned? ”

Bai Qingqing was a little embarrassed, but now that she had no way out, she still told her: "500,000...... I've been looking for a job a while ago, and I've hit a wall everywhere......"

"500,000? So much? Is that company cheating on you? ”

Bai Qingqing shook his head: "I have checked the contract and analyzed it with a lawyer, it is indeed so much." It's all because I was too willful during that time, thinking that if I got some bullshit love, I wouldn't leave a way out for myself......"

Lin Momo was silent for a moment, took out his mobile phone and checked the balance in his card, in the past half a year, Erxiang has raised her salary five times, plus the compensation for signing the company at the beginning was paid back by Lu Zhi for her, and she has also saved a lot of money.

"I have 200,000 yuan here, and my senior brother should have a lot of money in his hand, I'll transfer my 200,000 yuan to you first, and then ask my senior brother to borrow 300,000 yuan, and you can take it to emergency first."

Bai Qingqing hesitated a little: "But I don't want to trouble you......"

"The other party has done this kind of thing in order to collect debts, if you don't pay it back, you won't know what to do in the future. Besides, what are you polite to me, I don't give you alms and don't want you to pay it back, you have a job in the future, can you just pay me back slowly? ”

Bai Qingqing wanted to refuse, but now that it has reached this point, it may really not work anymore, so he nodded and agreed: "Well, I will find a job as soon as possible and make money to return to you." ”

"Don't worry, you can wait until you graduate." Lin Momo paused and asked, "But you really don't want to work in Erxiang?" ”

Bai Qingqing shook his head: "No, I'm not going." ”

Lin Momo nodded, didn't ask why, and said, "Then I'll go to the base first." ”

Bai Qingqing answered, and watched Lin Momo leave. Lin Momo took two steps, then turned back to her and asked, "By the way, do you still have a younger brother?" ”

Bai Qingqing's eyes flickered, but he finally nodded.

Lin Momo smiled and said, "Why haven't I heard you mention it?" I always thought you were an only child. ”

"There's nothing to mention." Bai Qingqing lowered his head, and his tone was a little cold.

Lin Momo was stunned, and originally wanted to ask her brother further where and how old he was...... But it seems that Bai Qingqing doesn't seem to be willing to mention him?