Chapter 118: The one who should be sorry is him
In the next few days, Da Yu'er took Su Mala to take care of her sister personally, Huang Taiji came to see her a few times, and Hai Lanzhu was asleep most of the time.
He told Yu'er not to work too hard, and there was nothing else to say, but if he didn't say it, Da Yu'er was down-to-earth.
It coincides with the fifteenth day of the first month of the first month, in previous years, Huang Taiji was not there, the palace was just a few lanterns to coax the children, this year the Great Khan was in the palace, and the etiquette on the New Year's Festival was newly formulated.
Now Hai Lanzhu is sick, and she can't manage the affairs in the palace, although Yu'er is capable, Zhezhe doesn't want to disturb the sisters who are about to be good, so she takes care of everything by herself.
On the evening of the 15th day, there was the sound of cannons outside the Phoenix Tower, and the lanterns were hung under the eaves of the palace, and the colorful mangs were very lively.
Seeing Hai Lanzhu looking curiously at the window, Da Yu'er helped her sister to the ground, snuggled up to each other and walked out of the door to see.
Paper lanterns, red lanterns, and colorful glass lanterns of various colors are hung around the palace garden lively, creating a dream-like world.
"It's so pretty." Hai Lanzhu said, "The Lantern Festival in Shengjing is really lively. ”
"There are a lot of Han people here in Liaodong, and Manchu and Han customs are blended with each other." Da Yu'er smiled, "I can't tell now, what is the custom of the Manchu people, what is the custom of the Han people, the Great Khan said that it is okay, in the future, when we enter the customs, we will not make the Han people laugh at us." ”
Hai Lanzhu said with a smile: "All kinds of Manchu and Han customs, Qi Qige understands it best." ”
Da Yu'er nodded again and again: "Qi Qige is a know-it-all, that guy knows everything." ”
As they spoke, the children dispersed from the Qingning Palace, each holding a beautiful lantern in one hand, and ran to the Phoenix Tower, where they wanted to watch the firecrackers and fireworks, and the nurses and mothers followed one after another to take care of their little masters.
Hai Lanzhu and Yu'er looked at the children with a smile, and finally saw Yatu holding Atul's hand, and the sisters also came out of Qingning Palace with lanterns.
Atul was excited, and when she saw her brothers and sisters running in front of her, she left Yatu and ran forward, but Yatu stood under the eaves and looked at her mother and aunt together, stunned.
When Hai Lanzhu saw Yatu, she was full of guilt, she made Yatu do the wrong thing, she shouldn't have worn shoes like ice holes, she should have taught Yatu harshly when she put her foot in, but she didn't.
Yatu looked at them in a daze, and the nurse came to take her hand, and she followed, only to look timidly at the place a few more times, until Atul shouted out to her sister in front of her, and she ran over.
The joy and excitement on Hai Lanzhu's face disappeared, but she didn't expect Yu'er to ask her beside her: "Sister, will you forgive Yatu?" ”
"Yu'er? I ......" Hai Lanzhu was stunned, could it be that my sister already knew.
When they returned to the house, Hai Lanzhu leaned on the cushion and set up a kang table in front of her, and Da Yu'er sat cross-legged opposite, blowing the Lantern Festival sent by Baoqing and sending it to her sister's mouth.
Hai Lanzhu obediently ate one, the sweet sesame seed filling melted in her mouth, and Da Yu'er said with a smile: "This is too greasy, you can only eat one, and when your body is better, you will ask them to make it for you." ”
As she spoke, she ate the rest of the Lantern Festival, and then peeled the pears with her own hands, and fed the white and tender flesh to her sister.
After Hai Lanzhu ate most of the pears, Da Yu'er said solemnly: "It was Adei who told me that she saw Yatu squatting on the ground with cotton shoes and filling them with snow. She saw it with her own eyes, and her subordinates also saw it, and Adei saw it that time, you actually wore those shoes to Qingning Palace to talk. Later, when you get sick, she wonders if Yatu is always playing a prank on you that makes you catch a cold. ”
"So my aunt also knows?" Hai Lanzhu asked worriedly.
"My aunt doesn't know, Adele said that this matter can be big or small, she thought about it again, and still felt that it was appropriate to tell me, after all, I am Yatu's mother, and I should discipline it." Da Yu'er lowered her eyes, "Sister, is it really right, Yatu bullied you?" ”
"Yu'er, it's me who is sorry for you, it's me who is sorry for Yatu. I shouldn't have let Yatu do something like that, I should blame her fiercely, it's not Yatu who bullied me, it's me who hurt Yatu. ”
However, Hai Lanzhu felt that she was powerless no matter how she explained, did she want her to tell her sister because she couldn't hold on anymore, and she didn't even want to live? But even if she wanted to die, she should never involve her innocent niece.
Hai Lanzhu was excited, her face was red, and Da Yu'er hurriedly said: "Don't repeat it, sister, if you burn it again, you will really die." Even if it's for Yatu, it's good. ”
"But I don't have the face to see you, Yu'er......" Hai Lanzhu was in pain, "I thought I could hold on, but I couldn't, I ...... when I think of you crying sadly"
Da Yu'er said: "So far, whether my sister is alive or dead, I will not be good if I continue to stay here or return to Horqin." I will still not be able to figure it out for the rest of my life, because no matter what you do, the fact that Huang Taiji loves you cannot be changed. I just accepted the reality, but I couldn't figure it out, and I couldn't let it go, at least because I still cared about him and about you. ”
Hai Lanzhu stared at her sister, how could she repay the debt in this life?
"But it's one thing to not figure it out, put it aside and look at everything again." Da Yu'er sniffed and said, "Yatu's behavior made me realize that I was too selfish, I always only thought about what I should do, I felt that you all owed me, and forgot that there is more to my life than only Huang Taiji." I can't make a mess of everything, I can't make my children feel that their mothers are pitiful, I've figured this out. ”
Hai Lanzhu asked sadly: "Yu'er, you won't forgive me, will you?" ”
Da Yu'er smiled with tears in her eyes: "Sister, can I say a word of forgiveness to you, and you will be able to feel at ease?" You won't, in the days and nights to come, you will still think from time to time, I am sad, I am sad. Maybe after a long time, ten or twenty years, everyone has become numb, but everything today will always exist. I don't want to forgive you, and I won't forgive him, I always feel that if I forgive, I'll have nothing. ”
Hai Lanzhu choked up: "Yu'er, I'm sorry ......"
Da Yu'er stretched out her hand to wipe her tears: "Sister can't cry, she should have a headache when she cries, you just think, even if you take care of your body and take care of the children for me, at least you will share some of it for me, right?" Don't blame me, these days, I always throw the child to you, just think, at least you have to compensate me for something, then take the child for me. ”
Hai Lanzhu laughed, but she shook her head and said, "You feel sorry for me, afraid that I will miss my own child." ”
Da Yu'er said: "About Yatu, I'll go and tell the child, tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, I will bring her to kowtow to you to make amends." You let her admit her mistakes well, she should be beaten, she should be punished, and don't protect her. Now that she can think of these things, she must be able to understand what I said, sister, don't worry, Yatu will be fine. ”
In the end, it was my sister who comforted herself, and in the end, it was Yu'er who took care of everything for herself.
Hai Lanzhu remembered what Huang Taiji said to her in the imperial mausoleum hall, and he said, Yu'er is waiting for you outside the door.
Originally, her sister was her hope, but she ......
"I came to see you that night to talk about Yatu, and I was angry at the time, and I wanted to ask you why you connived at Yatu and wanted to harm my daughter." Da Yu'er said, "But seeing you burning unconscious, I have no resentment, I don't want you to be sick, I don't want you to have anything, I have a sister, I will always be a sister, Eniang doesn't want us, my sister can't do without me." ”
Hai Lanzhu stretched out her hand, Da Yu'er also reached over, she gently stroked those scabbed scars, her sad eyes gradually calmed down, Hai Lanzhu said, "Yu'er, I will be fine." ”
"Let's all be fine, I said that day, from now on you are you, I am me, not angry, I still think so at this moment." Da Yu'er was very calm, she had already thought about everything in her heart, "Sister, in the days to come, if I suddenly don't want to deal with you again one day, you should bear with me, don't think about it too much, because in a few days, I will definitely miss you again." ”
Hai Lanzhu couldn't cry or laugh: "I know, I don't think nonsense." ”
Da Yu'er was very aggrieved: "Otherwise, what else, anyway, I'm my sister, so you have to let me." ”
"Yu'er, I'm sorry......"
"He's the one to be sorry for."
There was the sound of artillery outside, the fireworks flashed and flashed, and the palace maids gathered under the eaves to watch the excitement.
Da Yu'er walked to the window and looked, her sister's house was close to Qingning Palace, far away from the Phoenix Tower, if she was in her own room, she would definitely be able to see it more vividly. Naturally, if you go outside the Phoenix Tower and accompany Huang Taiji, you can see everything clearly.
But that's all the way it used to be, and even if you can continue to stand by her side in the future, everything will be different.
"Yu'er, did you catch the person who held you hostage that day?" Hai Lanzhu asked.
"I forgot, there's still this stubble." Da Yu'er hated, "I have to take a knife to dig holes in his body to relieve my hatred, and he dares to pick my clothes." ”