Seeing his sad appearance, I couldn't help but want to comfort him, took his hand and said, "Don't be sad, she just went to another world, and she should be doing well now." ”

He smiled lightly, the sadness in his eyes gradually dissipated, and he clasped my hand: "I'm not sad to have you." ”

At that time, I felt that the relationship with Mr. Shen was more like a family relationship, so I didn't shy away from everything about him.

But Chang Zhi was sensible earlier than me, she sniffed out the strangeness between me and Mr. Shen, and never embarrassed me at home, but when she arrived at school, she seemed to be a different person.

Unlike ordinary children, they don't like to be alone, so they call a few good friends to beat them up. She used her influence at school to get everyone to isolate me and not play and talk to me.

So I felt very inferior at school and felt that time was very difficult.

And during this period of time, Chu Nantang seemed to be avoiding me, rarely appearing, or even showing up at all.

I was very lonely and scared, like a boat floating in the sea, the endless sea, I didn't know where to drift, I wanted to find a support, but the surroundings were empty, only the sea water that could not be touched.

"Look at her, the whole person is gloomy, it's really terrible!"

"Why did she transfer to our class? Can't she be allowed to change shifts? ”

"I heard that she used to be a mausoleum keeper in the countryside, do you know that she is a mausoleum keeper?"

……

I can tolerate all this discussion, and I can endure endless loneliness.

The textbook suddenly disappeared, I went to the cafeteria 'accidentally' and stumbled, the desk was always moved to the corridor inexplicably, and the gum was stuck in the bag...... It's all tolerable.

The only thing I couldn't bear was that Mr. Chu disappeared, and no matter how lonely and sad I was, he would never show up again.

One day, I escaped. Away from the classroom that suffocated me, I hid in the mountains behind the school.

Curled up, hugging himself in a ball, tears like a river on the embankment, trembling all over.

Maybe it was a mistake for me to leave the village, there was no place for me.

"Mr. Chu, don't you want me anymore? You promised me that you would wait for me to grow up and never go anywhere. Am I doing something wrong? ”

I wandered out late that day, and Mr. Shen drove me for a long time before taking me back.

He took me to the study and asked me why I was skipping class?

I sat on the sofa uneasily, my fingers were broken, and then I said, "Mr. Shen, I want to go home." ”

Mr. Shen's expression was serious, and he said in a deep voice: "This is your home, where do you want to go back?" ”

"This is not my home! No! I yelled at him in a broken heart: "I want to go back to the village, I miss my grandmother!" I don't want to stay here, they don't like me! ”

"Lingsheng, have you been wronged?"

Mr. Shen was frightened, and his gentle tone was full of worry, and the tears that were finally stopped at that moment burst the embankment again.

I desperately held back my choked sobs and raised my hand to wipe my tears.

Mr. Shen let out a long sigh, stepped forward and hugged me into his arms, comforting: "It's okay, it's okay...... Do you not like school? Still don't like your new classmates? It doesn't matter, if you don't like it, then don't go, okay? ”

"Hmmm......"

Mr. Shen comforted me for a long time, and it was not until my mood gradually stabilized that he called Wei Bo and asked him to call one of his sisters-in-law.

I felt uneasy in my heart, to be honest, I was a little scared of her, and I felt inferior and uncomfortable with her.

After a while, Wei Bo called Yan Zhi, she seemed to be very afraid of Mr. Shen, and kept her head buried and didn't dare to look at him.

Mr. Shen's eyes sank, and he taught Chang Zhi: "I asked you to get along with Lingsheng at school, she is not familiar with the environment, you should play a guiding role, what's going on now?!" ”

Yan Zhi's eyes were red, full of grievances: "I don't know!" People don't like her, can I still make everyone like her?! Mr. Shen, you are eccentric! ”

"Yanzhi, in front of me, you'd better not be clever, I can give you everything, and you can take it back at any time! How to behave you should be clear, get out! ”

I was very uneasy in my heart, although I didn't like him, but I felt that Mr. Shen was really unfair. At least he blamed Yan Zhi in front of me, which was a great humiliation for Yan Zhi.

Like, it's wrong again? I shouldn't use my weakness as an umbrella.

"Mr. Shen, I'm back in my room."

"Go ahead, rest at home during this time, ...... at school"

"Mr. Shen, please don't interfere, it's none of this business! Be...... It's because I don't know how to deal with my classmates. ”

If I had been brave enough to take the initiative to communicate with them and be friendly, things wouldn't have come to this point.

Although Yan Zhi took advantage of my cowardice and low self-esteem to add fuel to the fire, it was not the crux of the matter in the end.

"Okay, I don't interfere, so what do you want to do?"

I thought about it for a moment and whispered, "I want to take a few days off and go to school again." ”

As I passed through my room, I heard a small sob. stepped forward and gently pushed down the door, but there was no lock.

I saw Chang Zhi lying on the bed, crying very sadly, and I felt guilty and self-blame again.

whispered to her: "...... of the concubine"

"You go away!" With tears on her face, she picked up the pillow and threw it at me: "Are you very proud?" Mr. Shen only favors you, seeing me being scolded and repaired, you must be very proud in your heart! ”

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to, and I didn't think so. Let's reconcile, you are still my sister, I will be good to you in the future, and I will let you. ”

"Who is going to be your little sister to this dirt bun? Who bothered you to let me? Zhang Lingsheng, let's see, who will have the last laugh is not necessarily! ”

"Oh, then I'll go to sleep." I exited, closed the door for her, and went back to my room with a heavy heart.

That night, I dreamed of a woman in a red cheongsam, still with her back to me and combing her long hair.

I woke up anxiously from my dream as if I was trapped in a cage, surrounded by iron walls, unable to find an exit.

The endless darkness was like a beast with its bloody jaws open, as if it were about to tear me apart inch by inch.

I held myself and choked up. I don't know how long it will take to get used to all this, and I don't know how to be calm.

"Chu Nantang, we broke off our relationship, and in the future, we will treat it as if no one knows anyone, and I won't care where you go anymore."

Losing what he thought was the only support, he seemed to become stronger overnight, and those weakness and sadness began to be insignificant.

Three days later, I went back to school, and although nothing had changed, I was not as hopeless and sad as before.

Because I understand that something if it is destined to be lost, it will not come back. Instead of grieving and giving up on yourself, it is better to accept and face it all.

When I came back from the playground, my desk was moved out of the classroom again, as if it was a way to exercise my arm strength, and as soon as I entered the classroom, everyone's eyes looked at me, and then I began to discuss something together.

I did a math problem, and the sound of their arguments came to my ears.

It is about the girls who live here who wake up and sleep in a dormitory building that was abandoned five years ago, and this has happened several times in a row.