When he opened his eyes, he saw Chu Nantang's slightly anxious face, and then let out a long sigh of relief: "Awake?" You just ......"

Before he could finish speaking, I threw myself into his arms, hugged him tightly with both hands, and trembled.

"Next time, I won't let you see this cruelty again."

"Nope." I shook my head: "Although I don't want to see it, but a person's pain and sorrow always need to be known by another person, and in this world, there is a person who will understand, remember, and understand." ”

"You're so stupid that it hurts me."

It seems to be worth it to make him feel distressed for a while.

After surpassing the ghosts in the abandoned dormitory building, the rumors of haunting gradually subsided. In the blink of an eye, it was time for the midterm exam, and I thought it would hang, so I gave Guochu Nantang most of the test papers to me.

Took a pen and knocked me on the head: "But something happened some time ago that distracted you?" These questions are not very difficult, and they can be calculated by applying formulas. ”

"Am I stupid......"

"It's really stupid, I'm so tired." After Chu Nantang finished speaking, he pursed his lips and smiled at my embarrassed appearance.

I felt a burning sensation on my face, almost buried my face in the test paper, and asked him in a low voice, "Is this cheating?" ”

"Forget it." He said: "I have to make up for it again during the winter vacation, it's no big problem. ”

I was a little annoyed: "How can you do it?" ”

Chu Nantang sighed: "A ghost who has lived for nearly a hundred years, in addition to keeping pace with the times, is of course constantly learning. ”

With a 'snap', the invigilator's whip knocked on my desk: "Classmates, answer the questions well, don't talk to yourself!" ”

"Okay, teacher, I'm sorry."

……

I was secretly relieved that he was still gloating.

The terrible final exam has finally passed, and the thought of going home to see my grandmother suddenly makes my mood fly.

Before Mr. Shen could give instructions, he took the lead in cleaning up the salute.

A few nights before I went back, there was a heavy snowfall, Chu Nantang and I sat in front of the window of the room wrapped in blankets, holding a thermos cup, watching the snow in the middle of the night, and talking a lot.

"Lingsheng, are you cold?" Chu Nantang rubbed my hair.

I gave him a big smile: "It's not cold, Nantang, are you cold?" ”

"Cold, Madame, hug me and warm up." As he spoke, he leaned closer to me.

I only felt that my cheeks were hot, so I pretended to take a sip of hot water, and said inarticulate with water: "You are clearly teasing me." ”

"Where is teasing you? Do you want to warm me up, or do you call you Madame? ”

"It's all!"

It was the first time he had mentioned his family, and it seemed less wary now than it had been at the beginning.

"When my father and mother were alive, my father loved my mother very much, but my father looked like a very serious and traditional person, and he called my mother 'madam' in front of people, and only called my mother by her nickname in private. But I think the title 'Madame' is the most beautiful. Are you right? Madam? ”

My heart was suffocated, and my blood flowed backwards, as if my whole person was filled with joy and nervousness, ready to explode at any time.

When I was at a loss, I silently covered my head with the quilt and climbed into bed in a gloomy way: "Nantang, I'm sleeping, good night." ”

Overhead, he teased a playful chuckle: "Good night, madam." ”

That night of tossing and turning and suffering from insomnia, Chu Nantang seemed to be gone.

turned on the wall lamp in front of the bed, and his eyes fell on the white diary in the pile of books, only to remember that he picked it up from Xi Feng's cemetery and never returned it.

Jumping out of bed, I took the diary, sat down in front of the window, and opened the first page of the journal in the dim light.

The diary was written five years ago, on May 15, 1998.

The entire diary is about his feelings for An Ji, and the words are sincere and meaningful, not at all like the bastard that Ai Zi said in his mouth.

Xi Feng described An Ji who he saw for the first time, he said: "She sits quietly in the corner, not ostentatious, not dazzling, but like a summer flower blooming in the sun, looking at it like this, I also feel a pleasure." ”

For most of the diary, he wrote about his love for An Ji and his young first love between them. It's not sweet, but it's like a hot spring.

Everyone is full of longing for such emotions, but the reality is often full of cruelty.

There are a few pages in the back of the diary that only write the date, but there is no content, sometimes it is a small dot dropped by a ballpoint pen, as if you can feel the melancholy that Xi Feng wants to write something, but does not know where to write it.

On the first page of the blank diary, Xi Feng wrote: "I don't know why Qiao Qinqin has such a photo, and I can't imagine that there will be such a father in this world, like a demonic existence, for his own interests, he pushed An Ji to destruction." ”

I suddenly remembered the way Ann's mother begged when she went crazy, and he sold his daughter for some benefit......

During a domestic violence, An's mother picked up a knife and killed her husband.

And Qiao Qinqin got the handle of An Ji and threatened Xi Feng.

On the last page of the diary, Xi Feng's last words confirmed all my guesses. He wrote: "What I hate most is not the threat, but the inability to resist after being threatened." The last thing that feelings can wait for is time, when I have enough ability to protect you, are you still by my side? ”

However, An Ji still couldn't wait, she thought until she died that Xi Feng had betrayed their relationship.

My eyes ached, and I gently closed the diary, and the night dawned.

Suddenly, a pair of cold hands covered my eyes from behind, and tears fell into the palms of his hands.

I pulled down Chu Nantang's hand and choked up: "If you trust enough, won't there be no suspicion?" ”

He was silent for a moment and then asked me, "If one day, you suddenly find out that I have done something sorry for you, or if my approach is ill-intentioned, will you trust me again and wait for me?" ”

"Anyway, I'll wait until you give me an explanation, and you explain it to me yourself."

"What if even the explanation is a deception?"

"You won't." I firmly believe in Chu Nantang's gentleness and companionship.

"I mean...... If. ”

"There won't be such an if!" I looked at him stubbornly, and he smiled compromisedly, giving up on getting to the bottom of it.

In fact, even if one day, if this happens, as long as he is willing to explain, I will believe it.

For the rest of the day, I waited for Mr. Shen to take me back to my hometown.

Compared to my vacation life, I am really much more monotonous.

Mr. Shen often suggested: "Lingsheng, if you feel bored staying at home, you can also go out for a walk with your wife and make a few new friends." ”

It's not that I don't want to make new friends, but I don't like to speak with my conscience, some people have too many small bowels and paths, and I feel tired, so I'd rather be in the room with Chu Nantang.

She didn't pay much attention to me on weekdays, and now she doesn't know what's going on, so she invited me to the class reunion in front of Mr. Shen.

Facing Mr. Shen's concerned little eyes, and Changzhi's enthusiasm that couldn't melt me, I agreed hard.

Who knows, after I went, I realized that this is the pit that Changzhi dug for me......