Chapter 258: I have to believe it
Of course, I understand that it is really bad to question someone casually like this, after all, they are telling you everything, and you are constantly doubting them, which is very hurtful.
But now I have no better way, than to believe that my father did the embezzlement, I still prefer that he was wronged, because in my eyes, his image has always been so high, how could he do such a reprehensible thing?
Maybe Uncle Xu has seen too many people and things and is used to it, or maybe he has already guessed what I want to ask before I even open my mouth.
So when I heard me say this, Uncle Xu's expression was still flat, as if nothing had happened.
Then, slowly, slowly, under my gaze, he nodded gently at me, firm and serious, and made me understand thoroughly that Uncle Xu still insisted on what he said.
"No matter how many times you ask me, or ten times or a hundred times, I will give you the same answer, and this is the truth I learned from your father, so I will not give you any other answer."
Perhaps feeling that nodding was not enough, Uncle Xu opened his mouth again to emphasize to me, but after saying this, he suddenly frowned, and then hesitated......
"But ......"
Although it's just two words, it's enough to make my originally low mood excited again, is there anything hidden in this?
So excited, I immediately looked at Uncle Xu again, my hands tightly grasped the sides of the chair on my side, my fingertips were already white, but I didn't care.
"What's the matter, Uncle Xu! Is there anything else you haven't told me, since you've said it all, then say it all, even if it's a pleading. ”
"Although it is true that your father did this thing of embezzlement of public funds, as you said, I also believe that he is not the one who would do such a thing, but he must have suffered from it."
"I've known him for so many years, and in the most glorious days of the Red Gold Foundation, he never got a penny from the company's public funds, so why take the risk of doing so!"
What Uncle Xu said at this moment is simply too much in line with the state of mind in my heart.
This is the same as I thought at the beginning, if my father didn't do this when the Red Gold Foundation was at its most prosperous, why should he be stupid when it was in a financial downturn?
When I heard that Uncle Xu could do the same as I thought, I was so excited that I almost shouted out loud, and my hands couldn't help but pat the chair handle next to me.
"Uncle Xu, I'm really happy that you can think like this, you're right, my father is not the one who does this kind of thing at all, he must have his own troubles, do you know the hidden secret?"
"I'm sorry for the resignation, but this is probably going to disappoint you, and I don't know what happened here, why the hell did he do it?"
"I looked for him in the detention center, so much so that later your father was already in prison, and I had already visited him." Uncle Xu reminisced and suddenly took a deep breath, as if he was reminiscing about those years.
"Every time I remember clearly, every time I asked him what had happened, that he had been so desperate, but your father was always silent in the face of this question, unwilling to give me an answer."
"Actually, it's not just me, anyone who goes to visit him, he doesn't reveal a word, so slowly, no one wants to do this."
"After all, your father is too stubborn, and no one knows what he is hiding and what he has done with this money."
"So, no one but my father knows what he did with the money?"
Listening to Uncle Xu's narration, I was a little panicked for a while, if it was really like what he said, could it be that I would never be allowed to snoop on this truth?
That's why, Qin Han didn't want me to continue to dig into the roots, because he knew that in the end, I still wouldn't get any useful results, and this matter would end in nothing.
My panic was in stark contrast to Uncle Xu, who sat in his chair and was calm and indifferent, staring at me silently, without making any response to what I had said, as if he was not willing to deny it so arbitrarily.
It was the first time since I followed him into this study that there had been such a delicate silence between the two of us, and it was clear that there were a thousand words in our hearts that we wanted to say, but neither of us was willing to take the initiative to speak.
This silence and oppressive atmosphere kept me from breathing, until later, when I sighed deeply and wanted to give up asking Uncle Xu, he suddenly opened his mouth.
"Actually, you can't think like that, many things have to be thought about in a different way, and this one is no exception."
"Maybe it may seem to you now that no one will tell you what happened except your father knows the real answer, but there will always be clues to it."
"But how long will I have to wait, and how long will it take me to find out the truth?" My hands were clenched into fists, my nails digging deep into the flesh, but I didn't feel a trace of pain.
I was so confused that I just felt like I wasn't myself anymore.
Whenever this happens, I always think of what Qin Han said to me.
He had always disapproved of me exploring the truth of this, and when I came out of Lin Xiangtian's father, I was so weak.
And now, after Uncle Xu overturned everything I believed in, I couldn't control my emotions, maybe as he said, the more I explored, the more hurt I would bring to myself.
But what can I do, the person I want to know the truth is my father, and this is the answer I've wanted to come out early all my life.
The veil of mystery was lifted layer by layer, and all the cruel truths were revealed to me.
It turned out that my father was not as great as I thought he was, and he did things that he shouldn't have done, but people just glorified him all the time.
When I think about it, I can't help but feel a little creepy.
They all know what the truth is, and they know what kind of person my father is, but no one has ever told me what the truth is.
Because they all know that I have always believed in an answer in my heart, and they are afraid that after telling me the real truth again, I will collapse because I can't bear it, so they prefer to lie to me all the time?
The more I thought about it, the more I couldn't help but shudder, and I was really afraid that everything would really be as I imagined, and I couldn't even escape.
If they do, then for what? Was it spontaneous, or was it agreed to do so, or was someone telling them they should have told me so?
One question after another swirled in my mind, and I couldn't get an accurate answer, and at this moment, I just felt like my head was splitting, and my whole body was about to explode.
As I lowered my head and kept thinking, a palm gently landed on my shoulder.
Through this clothes, I couldn't feel his temperature, but I could feel the comfort from him, so I raised my head and looked into Uncle Xu's calm and indifferent eyes.
"It's useless to think so much now, you might as well be calmer, keep these things in your heart for a while, and one day you will get the answer."
Although it was just a common comfort, perhaps his relationship with my father as a friend really brought me a little peace and soothed my restless heart.
So I took a deep breath and tried to calm down my originally restless mood, and then nodded slowly to Uncle Xu, and then remained silent for a long time.
I don't know how long I've been thinking about it, but when I finally looked up, I thought my mood had calmed down a lot, and I could even smile at Uncle Xu, but I also knew that this smile might not be so good.
"Uncle Xu, I'm really sorry." I reached out and gently brushed the hair from my face, "It's hard for me to stay calm all the time when I mention something about my father, not to mention that what you said today has turned my perception upside down. ”
"By the time you're sure you want to ask about these things, you should know that you're likely to have to suffer the consequences, so I'm not going to comfort you with that."
"I understand this without you saying more, thank you."
As I spoke, I sat up from my chair with my hands propped up, my legs still weak, and I didn't even know if I could walk down the stairs calmly.
But the time is almost up, and the conversation between me and Uncle Xu should end here, otherwise Aunt Xu will not see me again, and she will definitely be worried about it.
So slowly, I moved to the door step by step, grabbed the doorknob, and turned back to say goodbye to Uncle Xu, "Thank you, Uncle Xu, I know a lot of things from you today." ”
"It's all things I didn't even know, I'm glad you told me the truth, and I won't let you down."
"I said, since you want to know, then I'll tell you everything, so you don't have to apologize to me."
Uncle Xu was standing in place and slowly speaking to me, and when I heard him say this, I smiled and nodded at him, ready to go out of the study.
But at this moment, he suddenly stopped me again.
"Xiao Ci, is it true that you told Aunt Xu about Aunt Xu downstairs just now, are you really dating Qin Han now?"
Because I knew that Uncle Xu was not a gossip person, when I heard him ask me about this, I inevitably had some doubts in my heart, so I frowned.
But after all, he asked me, so I could only tell him the truth, so I nodded slowly, "Yes, Uncle Xu, now that I'm dating Qin Han, is there anything wrong with this?" ”
After I finished saying this, although I was a little far away, this time I could see clearly, and some uncertain expressions flashed in Uncle Xu's eyes......