Chapter 51: Gone with a Dream
Shang Jin looked at the darkness outside the window, and secretly thought: At this time, if it is more deeply exposed, I am afraid to go out......
Xiao Mu saw Shang Jin hesitating and not speaking, and a trace of loss flashed in his eyes full of hope. But soon, she pretended to laugh happily:
"Actually, Xiao Mu doesn't particularly want to go...... As long as his brother is there, Xiao Mu is already very content. ”
"Xiao Mu wants to go, why wouldn't my brother agree? Moreover, this time my brother will take you to a more beautiful place! Good no good? When Xiao Mu heard this, starlight suddenly burst out in his originally dim eyes. She grabbed Shang Jin's long sleeves and shook happily:
"Really, really, really? That's what you said, brother! Shang Jin nodded, looking at the duplicitous child in front of her, and a warm and sour feeling surged in her heart: ordinary children are the most headache for parents at her age, but Xiao Mu has learned to observe words and emotions and be sympathetic to others...... I don't know if it's good or bad.
"Well, but it's cold outside now, Xiao Mu has to listen to his brother and wear a few more clothes before he can go out." Shang Jin said as he took out a velvet jacket and a snow-white robe from the wardrobe, put them on Xiao Mu, then took her hand, shook it with a smile, and said:
"Alright, let's go!"
"Oh! Let's go!! ”
……
Tianshui line.
The cyan sky spreads out like ink. The stars are arranged irregularly, densely connected into a white line, extending to the sky, and reflecting the blue water. The sea breeze blows, whipping up layers of spray and lapping on the soft sand. A large craggy rock stretched in a corner, and there was a blue mist tree next to it, and the purple leaves fell one by one, spreading at the bottom of the tree.
"Brother, where have we been, can you let me take a look......" Xiao Mu muttered, thinking: I finally came out to play, but my brother had to blindfold her and say that he wanted to surprise her...... Alas, I didn't see the scenery all the way, it's a pity! Thinking about it, she reached out and pulled at the big hands that covered her eyes.
"Hey, don't move, it's already here! Is Xiao Mu ready? ”
"Hmm!" She opened her eyes slowly, and her clear eyes were instantly filled with stardust, the sea, and the blue mist tree. Shang Jin saw her looking at the scene in front of her without blinking, and hooked her lips. He said softly:
"Xiao Mu, do you like it?"
"Hmmm! It's beautiful......" she muttered.
"If you like it, it's fine." Shang Jin sat under the tree, patted the sand covered with purple leaves beside him, and greeted:
"Tired of walking all the way, right? Come and sit! ”
Xiao Mu jumped over and sat down, but his eyes seemed to be glued to the beautiful scenery, and he never left. After a long time, she turned her head and said happily:
"Brother, thank you! This is the most beautiful scene that Xiao Mu has ever seen when he is so big! I really want to stay here forever......"
Shang Jin smiled:
"What's so hard about that? If you want to come in the future, tell your brother, and he can bring you! When Xiao Mu heard this, his eyes suddenly darkened.
The two of them just sat like this, silently, quietly admiring the scenery and enjoying the moment. After a long time, the corners of Xiao Mu's mouth rose, and he gently called:
"Brother."
"Huh?" Shang Jin raised an eyebrow and looked at her.
"You are Xiao Mu's only friend in this world, except for her sister. You are also the most gentle person Xiao Mu has ever met. Shang Jin was stunned when she heard this, then rubbed her hair and said softly:
"Silly boy, in the future, you will meet someone who is a thousand times or ten thousand times gentler than your brother. He will take you to many, many beautiful places, and you will become the happiest person in the world! You have to believe. Xiao Mu pursed his lips, hung his head and said in a low voice:
"yes, if that were the case, how nice it would be. But...... My sister and I share the same body, and I can't do that and be a problem for her. Shang Jin's eyes trembled, and he wondered: Shang Jin, Shang Jin, what are you saying is not good! Why do you always say the wrong thing......
Xiao Mu took a deep breath and said with tears in his eyes:
"Brother, thank you for agreeing to my wayward request today, I'm very happy." She got up slowly, sniffed and said:
"In this way, even if I leave, I have no regrets." Shang Jin raised her head suddenly, she turned sideways slightly, and a tear stain appeared on her stubbornly raised face.
"Xiao Mu, you...... What did you say? He said in a trembling voice, his heart sank, and he got up and walked over to her.
"I'm leaving." Xiao Mu's soft voice trembled uncontrollably, she took a deep breath and continued:
"Although...... I can't bear the sea in front of me, the trees in front of me, the sky in front of me, I can't bear my sister, let alone ...... I can't bear you to ......" she choked,
"But I'm still leaving." Shang Jin stretched out his hand, gently wiped away a few tears on her face, and said softly:
"Don't do this, Xiao Mu! You're still so young, you're still ......."
"Brother!" She stopped Shang Jin's words, and her tearful eyes showed firmness:
"All this I have was given to me by my sister. I am her wound and I am born for her. Now, she's come out, and she's got you. Xiao Mu paused, slowly closed his eyes, and tears flowed unconsciously:
"I don't have to share her pain anymore, so there's no need to stay and continue to disturb her life."
"Xiao Mu ......" Shang Jin's side fist clenched tightly: At this moment, he didn't know how to persuade her to stay.
"Don't persuade me. Brother, I've made up my mind. In this way, it is the best for you, and for your sister. Shang Jin's eyes were red, looking at the six-year-old child in front of him, who had learned how to hide his emotions and calmly arrange his fate. Even if the final result is to kill her...... There was a throbbing pain in my heart. He stretched out his hand, hugged Xiao Mu into his arms, and said in a dumb voice:
"Silly boy! We never felt like you were a liability! Did you think about yourself when you made this decision? ”
The wide and warm chest exposes all the emotions that are so well camouflaged. For a while, sadness, fear, and reluctance were intertwined and welled up in my heart. Xiao Mu was shrouded in a gentle embrace, and finally couldn't help crying. She was buried in Shang Jin's arms, her hands tightly clutching the placket of his clothes, and her knuckles were white:
"I ...... I don't want to go......"
She tried to wipe away the mottled tears on her face with her sleeve, but as soon as the tear ducts opened, she couldn't stop it, and she cried while sobbing and saying:
"Right...... I'm sorry...... I...... But I ...... I" She tried to organize a complete sentence, but was choked by the outpouring of emotion. Shang Jin's eyes were slightly red, he took a deep breath, patted her back comfortingly, and pursed his lips silently.
I don't know how long it took, Xiao Mu stopped crying, she looked up, and looked at the starry sky that was already shining at this time. Sweet voice with a thick nasal tone:
"Brother, you say...... She choked up again and bit her lip:
"What becomes of you when you die?" She spread her five fingers, looked through her fingers at the small but shining stars in the sky, and murmured:
"Will they become stars in the sky, on the edge of the sky closest to home, quietly watching, the person they love the most......
"Xiao Mu, those people haven't actually left, they've been with us all the time, in another form." Shang Jin tried his best to stop the trembling of his voice and said slowly.
"That's right. That...... Xiao Mu also wants to become a star and protect you quietly. In this way, brother, every time you raise your head and see the brightest one, you will think of Xiao Mu. Shang Jin turned her head sideways and looked into her bright eyes, clear and clear, but they were even brighter and more beautiful than the stars in the sky. When I first saw her, I met her with these pure eyes.
"Xiao Mu has never cried so embarrassed once...... Actually, when you think about it, it's not a big deal. She raised her head, held back her tears, and squeezed out a smile:
"Compared to the pain that mortals have to go through, Xiao Mu can be regarded as earning it, isn't it, brother?" She gently wrapped her arms around Shang Jin's waist, yawned and said:
"Xiao Mu is sleepy, so he has to sleep first. Good night brother. Seeing her close her eyes peacefully, Shang Jin's heart tightened, and she slowly exhaled the turbid air in her lungs, and tears glistened in her eyes. He tried his best to restrain his emotions and said softly:
"Good night, Xiao Mu." Hearing this, she smiled and nodded slightly. There was a crystal teardrop hidden in the drooping eyelashes, and the trembling lips moved, hooking up an arc:
"Brother, you and your sister should be happy." The voice seemed to come from afar, soft as an angel.
After a while, Shang Jin heard the sound of even breathing from his arms. She was gone, so lightly that she didn't leave a trace. He trembled and hugged the man in his arms, as if trying to hold on to something, but to no avail. All the evidence that Xiao Mu has lived in this world finally turned into memories in his mind.
Shang Jin's heart was like a knife, and the sadness that he hadn't experienced for a long time instantly broke through the defense line of reason and surged into his heart. He closed his eyes tightly, and the tears that lingered in his sockets finally rolled down and fell on the quiet sleeping face. Xiao Mu ...... May I have a good night...... In the next life, you must not be so tired, just be an ordinary child.
A red ribbon borders the sky and the sea, gradually getting longer and longer. The pale red morning light emerged, trimming the blue mist tree above Shang Jin's head. Gold shines through the semi-wet transparent mist over the sea. Mu Ningjiu opened his sleepy eyes, saw everything around him, and exclaimed:
"Wow...... Why didn't I know that there was such a beautiful place on the Tianshui line...... Ah Jin, how did you think of it......" She smiled and turned her head to see Shang Jin's eyes red and swollen while standing by the sea, his eyes were red and bloodshot, his face was haggard, and his heart was in turmoil. She got up quickly, rushed over and held his face, her beautiful eyes fixed on him, and asked worriedly:
"Ah Jin, what's going on?" Shang Jin pursed his lips, and his voice was extremely hoarse after not sleeping all night:
"Xiao Mu her...... Let's go. Mu Ningjiu's pupils shrank, opened his mouth, and before he could say anything, a tear had slipped out of his eye without warning. She covered her mouth, as if trying to stop her grief. only to find that they all turned into tears and fell silently. Although she has never come into contact with Xiao Mu, she created it by herself, so she can't give it up. But now it'......