Chapter 250: Dependence on each other
The moon is bright, the light moonlight hangs above the night sky with ethereal clouds, and the dazzling stars are scattered around it, just like crystalline and shining gems.
Such a quiet and beautiful night, the breeze was blowing slowly, as if a woman's soft hand was caressing her cheek.
Mu Xuefu looked up at the sky, and her chaotic heart slowly settled down between the stars and the moon.
Maybe she can't hide like this anymore, and she should face Jing Rong bravely, no matter what kind of attitude he has, it's better than waiting in ignorance now.
Waiting, what is she waiting for, waiting for his forgiveness, or waiting for his complete break with herself.
For the first time in so many years, she felt a bottomless feeling in her heart, and it turned out to be so tormenting. It's like someone telling you that they are going to come and kill you, but they don't tell when they will come and what means to kill you.
Hearing footsteps approaching, she thought it was Zi Yao who came in again to urge her to finish her meal, but she really had no appetite and couldn't eat, so she said, "I'm not hungry, you can eat those meals." ”
"Are you trying to starve yourself?"
Mu Xuefu turned her head suddenly, her eyes were full of surprise, and for a moment, her eyelashes slowly drooped, like a child who had done something wrong, "Yuchen." ”
Jing Rong sat down beside her, leaned back half of her body, and looked at Mu Xuefu deeply, as if it was the first time they met, looking up and down, back and forth.
Being looked at by him like this, Mu Xuefu was unnatural. She turned sideways to avoid his inquiring gaze, her heart pounding up and down.
"The king you deceived is so bitter! This king has been thinking about it for the past few days, what makes this king cover his eyes, and even the people next to him can't see through it. Jing Rong finally spoke, breaking the silence. He turned Mu Xuefu's body, touched her face with his hand, squinted his eyes and said, "Is this face?" "The hand slowly slid down the cheek, all the way down the neck, shoulders, arms. With a bitter smile, he said gloomily: "Yes, it is this face with a mask that makes this king unable to see anything clearly." ”
Mu Xuefu's heart tightened, like a string, "You hate me? ”
Hate her? How can you give it? But it is hateful. Jingrong Huoran sat up, imprisoned her in his arms with one arm, clasped his hand on the back of her head, and pressed his forehead against hers, "You said you can't be hated?" ”
Mu Xuefu stared straight into his eyes, "I"
"You hate!" Jing Rong gritted his teeth, "You hateful woman, you have calculated this king." ”
Facing Jingrong, Mu Xuefu panicked, she lowered her eyes, and said, "Although I have calculations for you, I have never thought of hurting you." ”
Jing Rong pinched Mu Xuefu's chin hard, forcing her to face herself, "You think that leaving me is the biggest harm to me!" ”
Mu Xuefu was stunned, looking at him and unable to say a word.
Jing Rong smiled faintly, let go of her chin, and saw that her fair skin was covered with red marks, and she was distressed. He rubbed it gently, "You're going to make me angry with this woman." He sighed softly, "Do you remember what I told you before?" As I said, we are husband and wife, I will stand by your side for anything, you don't need to hide, you don't need to cheat, you don't need to take advantage of it, because you just need to tell me what you want to do, and I will do it for you. Do you think I'm just talking about it? ”
Mu Xuefu was moved, and reached out to hug him, "Yuchen is sorry, I'm sorry, I know I shouldn't lie to you, I'm sorry." But I also have my last resort. A tear fell onto his hand, hot into his texture. Mu Xuefu looked at Jing Rong with a burning look, "I am the daughter of a criminal minister, a demon girl who kills people without blinking, and you are the noble and noble Prince Chen, I am afraid that if I tell my identity, you will look down on me." ”
Jing Rong suddenly remembered that once she had asked him what would happen if she was the daughter of a traitor, and now that she thought about it, she never doubted it, which was stupid enough.
"Chev, do you remember what I told you?"
"I remember, you said that no matter whose daughter I am, whether it's a traitor or a fugitive, you only need me. But"
"But you never cared what I said." Jing Rong looked at her sadly, and his heart was sour.
"I care, of course I do, and it's because I care that I don't dare." Mu Xuefu held his face and stared at him, "I am a person who walks in hell, how dare I let you accompany me." My life is dark and dark, and your future is bright, how can I let you give up the light and enter my darkness. Putting down her hand, Mu Xuefu softened, "I can't, I can't." ”
"Mu Xuefu, you are really selfish, only care about your own feelings and thoughts, but you have never asked me. You didn't ask me if I would like to go with you, or if I would like to go into your darkness. Gently hugged her into his arms, Jing Rong's deep voice lingered in her ears, "Mu Xuefu, I, Jing Yuchen, have been planted in your hands in this life." Even if there is no place for me in your world, I will squeeze into it. I'm also very selfish, and I have to come into your life whether you want it or not. ”
"Yuchen" was moved, Mu Xuefu's eyes were full of tears, and she hugged him tightly.
This warm embrace was all she relied on, and she couldn't hold it back any longer, Mu Xuefu lay on Jing Rong's shoulder and cried loudly. It seems that all the tears that have been held in my heart for more than ten years have been leaked out, and I have been crying for more than half an hour.
Jing Rong smoothed her thin back, feeling distressed, where was there still half a bit of anger. This woman is simply his nemesis, he can't beat or scold, he has been angry for so many days, and he originally wanted to teach her a good lesson, but when these tears came, where could he parry. That's it, what's the matter? He had already lost completely when he faced her, and he didn't mind losing at all. Besides, if he can keep losing, he is willing to eat.
The cry slowly became smaller, Jing Rong wiped away the tears on her face, pressed it against her forehead, and asked solemnly: "Fu'er, I can not care about anything, but I only ask you one thing, you must tell me frankly, you can't lie." ”
Mu Xuefu looked at him, sobbed his nose, and said seriously: "I won't lie to you again." ”
"You said you loved me that day, did you really think in your heart, or did I say it because I was moved by you to block the knife for you?" Jing Rong asked easily, and there was no expression on his face, but his heart had already mentioned his throat.
Mu Xuefu raised her hand and stroked his face, staring at him, her eyes were clear, "Yuchen, I have always loved you, but I don't dare to admit it, and I don't dare to say it." With or without this incident, I love you from beginning to end. This love, I have always hidden in the bottom of my heart, even I ignored myself, but because of this time, it broke out and let me know my heart. Yuchen, I love you, not on the spur of the moment, but on the spur of the day. ”
Jing Rong's gaze was as clear as a clear pool, full of indescribable joy, and his lips were pressed against Mu Xuefu's forehead, preventing her from seeing the wetness under her eyes. He hugged her, and she looked so thin in his arms.
"Don't you believe what I say?" Mu Xuefu looked up at him, her hand clutching Jingrong's sleeve.
"Believe, of course." Jing Rong looked at her deeply, his face shining with joy and joy, bright as the brilliant stars in the night sky in the dim moonlight, illuminating the whole room.
Mu Xuefu smiled brightly, overflowing with joy from the bottom of her heart, and her heart and lungs filled her entire body and even her soul.
"Still, I'm mad at you." Jing Rong's smile slowly faded, but he didn't let go of her, but spread her fingers one by one, and then crossed his fingers into it, interlocking his fingers. The injuries on his body had not yet healed, and he adjusted his posture of holding Mu Xuefu, "You have endured so much yourself, why don't you tell me and let me share it with you." We are husband and wife, I love you and you should trust me. ”
The death of his parents one after another made it difficult for him to accept it at a young age, let alone watching all her family die tragically in front of her. At that time, she was only five years old, and she was still a child who didn't understand anything, how could she bear such a big change in her family.
"I thought about telling you everything, but I didn't have the courage to do it. Yuchen, am I very cowardly? Leaning on Jingrong's side, it was like her soul had found a home at this time, and she had found a harbor to dock at.
"No, you're not cowardly at all, on the contrary, you're strong." Jing Rong kissed her cheek, "You must have suffered a lot over the years, right?" ”
"Is it bitter? I don't feel bitter at all. As long as I can get revenge, all of this is insignificant in my eyes. "It should be very hard to practice, but at that time, she only wanted revenge, and she didn't feel bitter at all.
Mu Xuefu looked at him, put her ten fingers in front of him and shook them, "I have killed a lot of people with my hands, will you dislike me?" ”
Jing Rong smiled, grabbed her hand and kissed her mouth, "These hands are so good-looking, they shouldn't have killed people, don't do it yourself in the future, whoever you want to kill, my hand will kill for you." ”
"But revenge is still a pleasure that comes from doing it yourself." Mu Xuefu stared into Jing Rong's eyes, "You don't mind that I'm from the Netherworld Pavilion?" ”
"Who does it matter, I only know that you are my wife and the person I love." Jing Rong kissed her lips gently, so carefully, as if it was a rare treasure, and he was pityd.
Jing Rong was very happy, glad that the two of them were not enemies, otherwise maybe she would have dealt with herself like she had done with Jingzong Jingqian. If that were the case, the two of them would never have come together.
His words were like spider webs wrapped around her heart, Mu Xuefu stared at him burningly, and said, "Yuchen, my relatives have left, and now I am the only one left with you, can you be my support in this life?" ”
"Fu'er, you only have me, and I don't have only you? Let's live this life together. ”