Sitting quietly on the edge of the bed, I looked down at the man lying on the bed.

He closed his eyes tightly and didn't move.

Dong Zhuo has always been arrogant and domineering, and he has never seen him like this. He was lying on the bed like that, with pale lips, frowning brows, and a trace of gray hair between his sideburns......

The heart must be very painful. What kind of pain can make people like Dong Zhuo ...... Becoming like this?

Reaching out and touching his cheek, my hand was trembling slightly.

If I once thought about resentment, if I once thought about leaving, then now, after seeing him like this, everything has been beaten back to the original state.

See, I'm such an unprincipled person.

"The doctor has diagnosed him, he is just depressed, and he will be fine if he rests well." Lu Bu's voice sounded behind me.

I whispered.

"You really ...... Very eccentric. Lu Bu muttered quietly.

I looked down and wanted to laugh, but I couldn't.

The closed eyes suddenly moved slightly, Dong Zhuo opened his eyes, he saw me, he was slightly stunned, frowned and closed his eyes, raised his hand to hold his forehead, and muttered: "This damn dream ......"

I sat on the edge of the bed, not moving, but my heart began to ache.

Putting down his hand, Dong Zhuo opened his eyes to look at me again, he looked at me blankly, with such a greedy and sad expression...... The whole time, he didn't dare to reach out and touch me.

The two looked at each other as if centuries had passed.

Finally, he sat up slowly, raised his hand and gently touched my cheek, but I still didn't move.

Until the big rough hand touched my cheek, he was stunned, as if he had been burned, and retracted his hand.

"It's not a dream." Behind him, Lu Bu spoke lightly.

He thought ...... Is it a dream?

Midnight dream, what kind of guilt and remorse should this man who is always domineering think about the woman called Xiaoxiao?

How many dreams, how many dreams are disillusioned, so that he can't tell the difference between reality and dreams?

The dazed expression faded instantly, Dong Zhuo looked at me, and his expression of surprise flashed away, and then there was endless pain...... A clear pain began to appear in his eyes, and it grew deeper and deeper, as if it were about to drown himself at any moment.

"Hate me." When he finally spoke, he looked at me with a hoarse voice.

I looked at him and didn't speak.

The pain in his eyes deepened, and he reached out to take my hand, the warm, familiar temperature.

Holding my hand, he pulled me closer. I let him hold my hands close to his warm chest, he slowly pulled my hands up, and ...... He wrapped his hands over my hands and pressed them tightly around my neck.

My heart started to ache, it hurt and it hurt......

The deep pain and love in my brown eyes made my heart tighten, and the reason why I was willing to hide quietly was probably because I was afraid of this day.

Zhong Ying, who spoiled me like that, and Zhong Ying, who valued me more than her own life, how should she face the self who couldn't recognize the smile? How can I forgive myself for almost killing Xiaoxiao with my own hands?

Even if I forgave him, he wouldn't let himself go.

He was cruel to others and even cruel to himself.

He slowly tightened my hand and pinched his neck, and I felt the warm pulsation in his neck.

His hands grew tighter and tighter......

"Ten million...... Don't forgive me. Brown eyes looked at me, such a bottomless mourning, and he opened his mouth, squeezing out the words in his almost suffocating throat.

Does he want me to kill him with my own hands?

Just like that snowy day, with the hands that once loved him deeply, strangle him with your own hands?

But...... I don't want to.

"You...... Who is it? Looking at him fixedly, I suddenly spoke.

His hand froze suddenly, and Dong Zhuo looked at me in a daze.

Gently withdrawing back the hand he had placed around his neck, I held back the tears in my eyes and turned to walk out the door.

If the woman called Xiaoxiao can only bring him infinite remorse; If the woman called Xiaoxiao can't bring him a trace of happiness again...... So, let's go and forget together.

Take that name...... Along with that sad farce, forgotten together.

"You really don't hate him?" Out of the room, Lu Bu blocked me.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I struggled to pull out a smile.

"Pretending not to remember me is because you don't want to be with me; Pretending not to remember him, but in order to alleviate his guilt, you are really biased......"

I just laughed and didn't say anything.

"Your ......, my lord"

There was a "bang" in the room, the sound of something being smashed.

A servant girl rushed out with a medicine bowl and red eyes.

I sighed, took the medicine bowl from the maidservant's hand, and turned back to the room I had just come out of. Dong Zhuo was sitting alone on the bed, stroking his forehead with both hands, like an anxious and desperate lion. On the ground was shattered pieces, and the house was in shambles.

"I don't know who you are, but when you're sick, you always have to take medicine." Sitting on the edge of the bed, I scooped a spoonful of the decoction, and I smiled and handed it to his lips.

Dong Zhuo was slightly stunned, looked up at me, but obediently drank the decoction.

He stared at me steadily, unable to take his eyes off me.

"Does your heart hurt?" I raised my hand to wipe the medicine from his lips, and my hand touched his beard, stabbing me a little painfully.

He gently took my hand, his brown eyes looking me deeply, but he didn't speak.

"For whom is my heart ache?" Looking into his eyes, I smiled.

He was still looking at me, like that, as if he was afraid that I would disappear in the next second.

Swallowing the sourness in my throat, I smiled and said, "No matter who you are hurting for, if that person is really worth your heartache, then ...... She wouldn't want to see you like that. ”

The light brown eyes were slightly stunned.

I drank the medicine and helped him to sleep. When he was about to get up, he found that his hand was held tightly by him and could not be withdrawn.

The room was quiet, so quiet that you could clearly hear Dong Zhuo's breathing, he was really asleep.

Later, I heard Fan Chou say that that day was the most restful sleep after Dong Zhuo injured me by mistake.

In the dream, he repeatedly muttered only one name, two words: "Xiaoxiao......"

"Zhong Ying, picking me up, is it lucky or unfortunate for you?" Raising my hand and gently brushing the deep contours of his eyebrows, I whispered to myself.

With a slight smile, I stared at the man lying on the bed.

The smile was a little bitter, and even such a gaze ...... It's all so hard-won. My eyes were blurry, everything was a little hazy, and I couldn't resist the intrusion of sleepiness, and I lowered my head and slowly leaned against his broad chest.

That night, I seemed to have a dream.

In the dream, there was a person who stared at me deeply, kissed me lightly, and said, "I'm sorry, smile......

Is it just a dream?

The next day, when the sun was slanting in through the window, I was lying in bed and sleeping soundly. The sun is shining brightly outside the window, as if spring has returned overnight.

Lying in bed, I was in a trance, as if I had never left here.

There was a faint tingling of the index finger of my left hand, and I raised my left hand, and the sunlight outside the window illuminated my hand crystal clear and transparent. I could almost see the pale blue veins and bones in between, and a small scar on the index finger of my left hand.

It was cut by a broken bowl in Situ's house. The scars are small, but they never heal.

I frowned slightly, feeling a bad premonition.

"Miss is awake." At the door, a maidservant girl came in, holding a toiletry in her hand.

I quickly lowered my hand and slowly got up. After getting up and washing, I changed into the dress that someone had prepared early in the morning and left the room.

The breakfast was rice porridge, a huge hall, and I was the only one who had breakfast, and I sat down and began to enjoy my breakfast surrounded by all the maidservants.

After only taking a sip, I was stunned, it was rice porridge made by Dong Zhuo. This body has been tasting this taste since childhood, and the familiar taste is sour.

After breakfast, I went back to the room, rummaged through the cabinets and found the small wooden box full of gifts, only took the * silver arrow, hid it in the sleeve and went out of the house under the "caring" eyes of the maidservants, although the eyes were extremely "caring", but no one stepped forward to stop it.

I didn't see Dong Zhuo all morning, and I was a little worried.

After leaving the house, I realized that Luoyang was very big, and unexpectedly remembered Guo Jia, so I went to the pastry shop.

Standing in front of the pastry shop, I squinted slightly.

Guo Jia was standing in the shop and skillfully greeting customers, his thin cheeks still stained with white rice noodles. The hairless little hair on the side was grinding the stone grinder, and a thin bamboo pole was tied to the thin neck, and a braised pork knuckle was tied to the bamboo pole, and it was running towards the pork knuckle with perseverance...... Zhao Zilong sat by the stove, one leg curled up, the other leg straight, squinting beautiful eyes and dozing comfortably.

"Give me a piece of rouge cake." I stretched out my hand and smiled.

"Thank you for coming." Speaking of the lines I taught, Guo Jia was extremely skillful in wrapping a piece of rouge cake and putting it in my hand.

I ate slowly and methodically, wiping my mouth.

Guo Jia is still busy.

"Rouge cake." I continued to reach out.

"Girl, your money hasn't ...... yet" Guo Jia raised his head, and then was slightly stunned.

I smile.

"You ......"

"Stinky scholar."

"Ahh Ruoruo is back! "This guy really doesn't scold or be happy.

Zhao Zilong, who was sitting by the stove, glanced at me lazily: "It's a blessing in disguise, and I have made up my face too." ”

When I saw that lazy look, I had itchy hands and wanted to beat someone.

"I knew you'd be fine." Guo Jia had already run out of the shop happily, took my hand and looked up and down, "It's inconvenient for me to enter the palace, so I have to stay here and wait, I know that you will definitely come back when you are well." ”

"Hmm." I nodded and smiled.

"Still, I'm going to look for you today."

"Looking for me? What are you looking for me for? ”

Guo Jia didn't answer, so he pulled me into the house, turned around and went out to collect the shop.

Zhao Zilong was still sitting by the fire, ignoring me.

There was wine on the table in the room, and I raised my eyebrows slightly, sat down, and took a small sip. The wine tasted sweet and mellow, and the corners of my mouth were slightly raised, and I thought of Cao Cao, the guy who was put down by my glass of osmanthus brew.

If I hadn't run away from him that day, now ...... Where will I be?

Life, it's really strange.

Looking down at my left index finger, the wound seemed to darken, and I turned my eyes away from it and drank another glass of wine. I didn't feel that I drank half a bottle, I was a little drunk, and I felt hot on my cheeks.

"Ruoruo, have you drunk?" Guo Jia took the shop and returned to the house, and was slightly shocked when he saw me drinking.

I stood up with a smile on my face, and my steps were a little staggering...... There is a lot of stamina.

"Stinky scholar." Grabbing Guo Jia's collar with one hand, I suddenly approached him, "Say, do you have anything to hide from me!" ”

Guo Jia was slightly stunned, and smiled shallowly: "Ruoruo, you are drunk." ”

"Such a little wine? Joke! I felt a little knotted in my tongue, "Don't think I don't know anything, what did that guy Cao Cao ask you to stay in Luoyang for?" What are you guys up to?! ”

Guo Jia tried to help my staggered body and smiled bitterly.

"Say! Cao Cao, that guy...... Where...... "I muttered," I muttered, "that sinister fellow, ......"

"Looking for me?" A voice that seemed to be laughing suddenly sounded.

As if someone had been drenched in cold water from head to toe, I suddenly woke up and looked back at where the sound had come from.

Said Cao Cao, Cao Cao arrived. This sentence, where it is used here, is really not useful here......

I finally understood why there was wine in the pastry shop......