Chapter 315: The Grace of Entrustment
That night, Mu Zemao secretly took Mu Zhaolin to Mingyin Building.
I haven't seen her for a few years, Mu Xuefu feels that Mu Zhaolin seems to be really old, her temples are dyed with a few gray hairs, and she is thinner than before.
Mu Zhaolin was very happy to see Mu Xuefu, and asked her how she had been in the past few years. When I saw Jing Mu, I liked it even more in my arms, as if I was seeing my own granddaughter.
To be honest, even Jingxi, he has never liked it so much.
Jing Mu was also sweet-mouthed, screaming from his grandfather one by one, and even saying some nice words, coaxing Mu Zhaolin to smile.
"This kid really looks like Fu'er, it's just carved out of a mold, but it's even cuter than when you were a child." Back then, Mu Zhaolin and Mu Xuefu's father were friends for eight worships, and they always talked about each other, so he naturally knew what Mu Xuefu was like when he was as old as Jing Mu.
At that time, every time he went to her house, Mu Xuefu always called out from his uncle and uncle, and like Jing Mu, he coaxed him to be happy.
Indeed, Mu Xuefu was also a sweetheart when she was a child, and she was naughty and not bad for Jing Mu now. It was only what happened later that made her completely change. She changed her name to him and called him father, but her voice was always cold, and she no longer had that innocent and cute smile on her face, let alone innocent and cute, not even a smile.
"Daddy remembers what Fu'er looked like when she was a child?" Watching their grandfather and grandson laugh and laugh, Mu Xuefu blurted out the gods.
This sentence suddenly stunned Mu Zhaolin, he turned his head to look at Mu Xuefu, his nose was sour, his eyes were flickering, and even his voice trembled a little, "You-what do you call me?" ”
After realizing it, Mu Xuefu realized what she had just said after she finished calling. In fact, she didn't know why she shouted the word "Dad", but at that moment, she wanted to call it that in her heart.
She smiled lightly, "Dad, you have raised me for so many years, of course it is my father." ”
Seeing that he was stunned, Mu Xuefu called again, "Dad." ”
"Huh." Mu Zhaolin agreed with joy, and wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes with a wipe of his sleeve.
For so many years, Mu Xuefu would only call him "father" when others were there, and in private, he wouldn't even call his father, but called him Zuo Xiang estrangely.
Mu Xuefu's change also proves that she has been slowly letting go of some things.
The appearance of Jingrong gave her a new understanding of life and hope. And Jing Mu's arrival really softened her heart and made her willing to put aside the past and welcome a new future.
"Actually, I should have called this one a long time ago. It's just before-" His tears made Mu Xuefu unbearable. She hung her head, like a child who had done something wrong, her fingers twisting and wirling the silk handkerchief, "For so many years, you have always taken good care of me and treated me as your own daughter. It's me who can't let go, blinded by hatred, full of malice towards everyone, and never taken your love seriously. And I have a bad temper, and I never think about other people's feelings when I speak, and I may always hurt your heart unintentionally. ”
Mu Zhaolin is really good to her, and has always loved her since he rescued her and brought her home. was afraid that she would be wronged and her identity was not correct, so he recorded her under the original name of her dead partner.
kept telling Mu Yurong and Mu Zemao to love her and take care of her. Knowing that she was fighting with other children, he would rather beat his own than say a word about her, and in turn coax her. Even, for her, the Yufu Pavilion was built so that she could have a sense of belonging.
Yes, he also used her, using her to eradicate political opponents, and using her to win over Jingrong. But because of this, she met Jingrong and became Jingrong's wife, so she also thanked him for his use.
Mu Zhaolin hurriedly waved his hand, "Don't talk about this, don't talk about this." He stopped and looked at Mu Xuefu's face, and smiled warmly, kind and kind, "If you can call me Daddy, I will already be satisfied." ”
His eyes deepened, and he crossed Mu Xuefu, not knowing where he went, "I still remember what your mother said when she handed you over to me, she said that you are the only remaining bloodline of the Zhenguo General's family, let me raise you to adulthood." Now that you have grown up and even have a child, if she can see it, she can be comforted and smile Jiuquan, and I can live up to her trust that day. ”
Speaking of the scene when her mother handed her over to Mu Zhaolin, Mu Xuefu didn't remember it very clearly. It seems to be chaotic, I only remember the back of my mother who left her, and I only remember that she was so resolute and calm.
For so many years, the only thing she remembered was what her mother said, "Mu Xuefu, you have to remember your mother's words, avenge your mother, avenge the Zhenguo General's Mansion, avenge, avenge!" words.
Even when I was entangled in my feelings with Jingrong, I always saw such a picture in my dreams.
Later, as she fell in love with Jingrong, the dream gradually became blurry, becoming unable to see and hear clearly, until she could no longer dream of it.
But that's it, when she thought she wouldn't dream again, she dreamed again.
It was when she was born Jingmu, the pain suffocated her, and in that suffocation, her vision suddenly became clear, her ears and eyes became clear, and she remembered that what her mother said was not the sentence in her heart at all.
The mother said: "Mu Xuefu, you have to remember your mother's words, don't take revenge, live well." ”
It was then that she really began to learn to let go. She no longer bothered about who was the initiator of her father's frame-up, no longer investigated the murderers who participated in the events of the year, and no longer wanted to kill those who she had planned to cut them one by one.
Maybe it's because of her mother's words, or maybe it's because of Mu Mu's birth, which made her heart slowly soften.
When it comes to her mother again, Mu Xuefu is no longer the same as before, with only endless hatred in her heart. She smiled lightly, "Not only my mother, but also my father." At the last moment, he was thinking about entrusting his wife and children to you, and he also trusted you as a brother to the extreme. Although my mother didn't escape, I think my father thanked you at the last moment. ”
Mu Zhaolin's eyes shrank suddenly, and he took a sharp breath. He eased his expression, closed his eyes, and his face was full of regret, "After all, I was still incompetent, I was just a little squire back then, and I couldn't even speak in front of the emperor." If I have today's status, why should Qiying be so wronged. For so many years, although I have been tracking down the events of that year, I still found nothing, and I can't overturn the case for him, and I will feel guilty for the rest of my life. ”
"How can this be blamed Dad, what happened back then almost affected you." In fact, it was mentioned again that Mu Xuefu still felt a faint pain in her heart, but time has passed, and even Jing Lingcang has died, and who is right and wrong in the past is also scattered with those white bones.