Chapter Twenty-Eight: Reminiscences of the Past

Looking at the sleepy Xiao Xiang, holding a book in her hand, her head was little by little, the smile in Xiao Huang's eyes lasted only a few seconds, and then it dimmed again.

In the nineteen years of her previous life, she did not have a single friend, and her life was very quiet, and she was ...... It's lonely.

She doesn't want to take the initiative to make friends with others, and she doesn't want to open her heart to let others in, so she can't understand the so-called friendship between friends.

But she is very eager for family affection......

The first wisp of maternal love in her life came from the director of the orphanage.

At that time, Xiao Huang didn't understand the meaning of the term "orphanage", she only knew that in that small courtyard surrounded by red bricks and green tiles, there were many children like her, innocent and naïve.

In my memory, the dean was a kind and kind middle-aged woman, who always smiled when she greeted people, and the children in the courtyard had never seen her when she was serious......

But that does not include Xiao Huang.

"Aunt Dean, I'...... Is it a child that Mom and Dad don't want? ”

In the room where the lights were all out, there were only three red-edged candles inserted on the surface of the cake, which were reflected in Xiao Xiaohuang's immature face, flickering and dimming......

The dean's hands holding the cream cake trembled, and the wrinkles at the corners of his eyes slowly lightened with joy until they were gone.

In her eyes, although Xiao Huang doesn't like to talk and doesn't play with other children in the orphanage, she has always been a well-behaved and precocious child, which is very worry-free.

But at that time, she looked at the child standing in front of her, thin, small, but there was a quiet one that did not match her age......

Suddenly, a sour feeling spread infinitely in her heart.

As the director of the orphanage, the poor child didn't know how much she had seen, but at that moment, under Xiao Xiaohuang's stubborn gaze, she felt that what this child wanted was just an answer, and it didn't matter whether she was happy or sad.

So, she answered the child's question affirmatively, and then habitually wanted to say comfort, but in the next second, she was blocked in her throat by a dull "thank you", and then the little back of the child turned around and went out.

The faint core fire on the tip of the candle illuminated the path behind her, but ignored the darkness that lay ahead of her.

It was her third birthday.

That day, she understood the meaning of "orphan".

On that day, she knew why her birthday was set on a day with snowflakes.

……

It's all just because she was forgotten by her parents in the snowy season shortly after she was born......

Since then, the word "birthday" has been erased from Xiao Huang's mind like an amnesia, and she has become more silent, even tired of winter.

Even, I don't like the name that the dean gave her - Xiaoxue.

Snow, a product of winter, is cold, fragile and vulnerable.

She doesn't want people to be like her name.

Two years have passed, and Xiao Huang has grown to the age of five.

The orphanage welcomed a husband and wife, because the husband was a foreigner and was about to move to a foreign country, so they wanted to adopt a child before leaving.

People are always timid about the unknown, and the children in the orphanage don't understand what a foreign country is, but they can feel that it is a far away place.

Hearing that they might be sent away and leave the place they were familiar with, it was no surprise that the fear in their hearts dominated the children's crying, not to mention that the foreign uncle in front of them was so different from the uncle they usually saw.

And Xiao Huang was the only one who didn't cry or make trouble, and watched the couple's child from a distance, and soon, the couple also noticed the sight coming from the corner.

After all, among a group of sobbing children, that little girl who is so beautiful is so different.

She just sat there quietly, as if nothing had caught her eyes, and as if every grass and leaf had been remembered by her.

The couple became very interested in Xiao Huang, they approached, squatted down and asked, "Little girl, what is your name?" ”

Before the dean next to him could say, "Her name is Xiaoxue", he heard a soft and glutinous "Huang'er".

As if he was afraid that the "strange uncle" next to this beautiful aunt would not understand, Xiao Xiaohuang repeated again, "Huang'er, my name is Huang'er."

I don't know why, since she can remember, every time she dreams, she always hears someone calling her "Huang'er" in her dreams.

Although Xiao Huang didn't know how to write the word "Huang'er" at that time, he didn't know which two words it was.

But she just memorized the tone of those two words, and deeply believed that it was her own name, so whenever other children called her "Xiaoxue", she never said anything.

It is always easier for children to get along with people who are passionate about themselves, and over time, no matter when and where, Xiao Huang is alone.

In the end, it was logical that the couple adopted her and left the orphanage after completing all the formalities.

Xiao Huang later learned that the beautiful aunt who adopted him could not have children, but the husband and wife couldn't let go of this relationship, so in order to please both parents, they also went to the orphanage.

When entering the household registration, because his wife's surname was Xiao, when she gave "Huang'er" a Chinese name, she gave the surname "Xiao" and retained the character "Huang".

Xiao Huang remembered that that day was one of the few happy days for her, and these happiness only came from a name.

Of course, she also has another name, which takes the man's surname.

But she never mentioned it, even in her self-introduction during school, she only said that her name was "Xiao Huang" - cumbersome and awkward, but deeply engraved in her heart.

Although Xiao Huang has a cold heart, even after having a new family, she has never changed, but I have to say that she really belongs to the category of "other people's children".

At the age of five, she was adopted to another country, and because she could not integrate into the local school life because she did not know foreign languages, the new parents hired a tutor to teach Xiao Huang the curriculum and language, until she was directly enrolled in the most famous local middle school at the age of eight.

Because she has excellent grades in school, she can end up with perfect marks on almost all kinds of tests, but she is extremely unsociable, loner, and never participates in any group activities, so after she was ten years old, she skipped all kinds of grades......

Until she was admitted to the A-level university of the famous university in her country, Xiao Huang was only 14 years old, as the youngest genius child who entered the school that year, overnight, she was reported by major media, causing a huge sensation!

However, she still ignored this and focused all her attention on her chosen specialty - medicine.

For some reason, Xiao Huang thought that she was not a warm-hearted person, nor did she have the bodhisattva heart to save the suffering, but when she saw the word "medicine" on the volunteer form, she subconsciously ticked it.

Although it was a little inexplicable, since she had chosen, she had to learn well.

Don't choose easily, if she makes a choice, even if it's not what she wants, she will never allow herself to regret it - this is the principle that Xiao Huang has always adhered to, without exception......

In the academy, she was bald and green, and the leaves fell and grown, and in the blink of an eye, it was four years, during which she completed all the courses that she should have studied for seven years, and passed the examination to obtain a double master's degree in medicine and forensic science.

After her study career, she either followed the professor of medicine to major hospitals to practice and operate experience, and "steadied" the scalpel in her hand step by step, or was sent by the director of the medical school of forensic medicine to assist in the investigation of the cause of death......

Forensic science was studied by chance.

Although Xiao Huang's temperament is not pleasing, her talent and understanding in learning are indeed incomparable to ordinary people, and teachers are naturally willing to teach or prefer more such students.

Compared with forensic science and medicine, one mostly deals with the dead and the other mostly deals with the living, and she is extremely good in practice.

During a certain afternoon tea time, several tutors gathered together, and mentioned this influential figure in the academy after chatting, and they were both proud and emotional and joked, the world of prodigies is really beyond the reach of us mortals......

In fact, the tutor's words are not difficult to understand, although Xiao Huang's grades are notoriously excellent, her personality is also notoriously withdrawn.

Sometimes even Xiao Huang herself will reflect, is she really a mental illness with "social phobia"?

However, the conclusion is often not, because she is not afraid to get along with others, and she does not like to talk much, it does not mean that she cannot speak, on the contrary, she is a very thoughtful and independent person.

As for the lonely and lonerous all the time?

She blamed herself for having a genius head, plus constantly skipping grades...... As a result, her classmates are getting older than her.

People who are older than her generally don't play with her, because in their eyes, Xiao Huang is the little sister, and the little sister can only be taken care of.

People of the same age? In Xiao Huang's eyes, they are very naïve, and they don't know what they want to express, so she won't go to play with her so-called peers.

In addition, she was originally a person who liked to be quiet and think independently, and she was cold, so she became a "withdrawn person" in the eyes of others in the long run.

In fact, for a period of time, she also deliberately learned social skills in order to be able to integrate harmoniously into the group.

Whether it's reading from books or observing the patterns of getting along with others from life.

When Xiao Huang felt that the skills he knew how to deal with the world were enough, he was about to turn "the learning results into practical experience".

She suddenly discovered that the labels of "genius prodigy", "withdrawn scholar", and "iceberg cold beauty" had been firmly attached to her at some point......