Volume 4 Xiao Wall Chapter 23 Admit Mistakes
In the afternoon of the second day, as soon as Chunxi came out of the gate of the Qianqing Palace, he saw Yinren standing hesitantly outside the door. I don't know what I'm thinking when I keep my head down, and I'm still babbling in my mouth.
"Why is the prince standing in front of the door?" Chunxi walked over with a smile and stopped on the ground three steps away from Yinren.
Yinren looked up and saw that it was Chun Xi, and called out respectfully: "Yi Niangniang." ”
"What are you doing standing in the doorway? The emperor is waiting for you, come in. Chunxi's gentle voice stopped in Yinren's ears and felt a burst of warmth. But there was still sorrow on his face, and as soon as he wanted to ask him what was wrong, he saw him throw himself into his arms and rub against her.
Chun Xi looked dazed, what happened to this child? That's what the good ones are? Didn't you hear something?
"Yi Niangniang." Yinren poked his head out, looked up at Chun Xi and asked with a sad face: "I heard that Huang Ama is in a bad mood today?" ”
Chun Xi nodded: "Yes, there seem to be some things in the court today that make the emperor not very happy." Is that why you didn't go in? ”
Yinren shook his head, then nodded again, and then shook again: "I...... I don't know. I just felt that I was going to see Huang Ama today, and I was a little scared. ”
"What happened? Could it be that there is something unpleasant with the teacher in class? Or is it a trouble? Chunxi hugged him tenderly and gently stroked his head, like a mother comforting her son.
Although this kind of thing often happens to Yinren, such gentle actions are not just done by Yingxi. But today I have a different mood, and the feeling at this time is hundreds of times stronger than before. Yinren suddenly wanted to have a mother for herself, who could touch herself like this every day, hug him when she was uncomfortable and scared, and give him warmth.
"Something happened yesterday, I don't know if Yi Niangniang heard about it." Yinren finally mustered up the courage to bring it up first, and he looked at Chun Xi with anticipation on his face.
Chun Xi nodded: "I heard." The eldest brother injured the fourth elder brother, right? ”
Yinren suddenly let go of her cunning, pushed a few steps away from her arms, and sat down on the ladder beside her sadly.
Looking at his series of actions, she already had the answer in her heart, it seemed that yesterday's events were not what they thought before, and there seemed to be more unpleasantness in it that made this child look like this.
Although Yinren has not had the upbringing of Eniang since he was a child, he has been personally taken care of by Xuan Ye since he was a child. On weekdays, the Empress Dowager is also very attentive to him, and she is stricter than other elder brothers, so Yinren is also stronger than other elder brothers. Because he was not only a child, but also the future ruler of a country, from the moment he began to speak, he understood that he was different from everyone else.
There are many things that he can't help himself, but there are many things that he has to bear with his small body.
Chun Xi seems to have seen Xuan Ye's appearance when he was a child, wasn't he also at this age when he ascended the throne? Did Xuan Ye at that time hesitate like him? Trembling for a certain thing, suffering for a certain person?
A child's sadness, but behaving like an adult. Chunxi didn't know if what she was distressing about now was Xuan Ye's childhood in her imagination, or Yinren who was sitting on the ladder at this moment.
His lonely back looked so helpless. He didn't even have anyone to talk to, so how could he know whether what he was doing was right or wrong?
Not everything is explained by teachers, and not everything needs the guidance of teachers. All he needs now is someone to complain about, and then let him understand for himself what he should do for the best outcome.
Chunxi walked to Yinren's side, and regardless of the gorgeous robe he was wearing, he sat down beside him.
"Mother." What came from behind him was Mu Hui's exclamation, how could such an unruly thing be done in public?
Although Yinren is the prince, he is a boy and a child after all. But it is ...... Such a faux puff is very natural.
Yinren also looked at Chun Xi strangely: "Isn't Yi Niangniang afraid of being gossiped about?" ”
"Afraid of what? Will my gossip be made less because I don't do it today? Every day the palace wears all kinds of stories about me, and you must have heard a lot of them. If I take every story to heart, wouldn't I be very tired and tired every day? Why make yourself unhappy? Some things are done and there is no need to be afraid of others knowing. Because we can't control their mouths. Chun Xi gently hugged Yinren in his arms: "As long as you don't think of this place as the Qianqing Palace, wouldn't it?" In Yikun Palace, I often sit on the steps with the fifth elder brother and Xiao Junyao to talk and frolic. ”
"That's good." Yinren said lonely: "It would be nice if my imperial mother was like you." But I never saw her. ”
"Although you don't have the love of the emperor, you have the double favor of your emperor." Chunxi smiled softly.
Yinren said: "It's a pity that I have failed Huang Ama's love for me. ”
"What do you mean by that?"
Yinren didn't look over, and seemed to have done a great psychological struggle, before he turned back to look at Chunxi and said: "Yesterday's incident, in fact, the wrong person is me." ”
Chunxi didn't speak, just listened quietly. She listened to Yinren tell her about yesterday's afternoon.
It turned out that Yinren and Yinren got out of class, and they happened to see Tong Guifei walking in front with the fourth elder brother, and the two of them wanted to play with this younger brother.
Concubine Tong watched a few children having fun, so naturally she didn't pay much attention and kept following not far behind.
Yinchu is the boss, older and longer, so he naturally walks faster. Yinren led the fourth elder brother to walk behind, although several children kept laughing and playing, but those who ran over and ran over still fell behind.
In order to catch up with Yinren's pace, Yinren let go of the fourth elder brother's hand, but as soon as he let go, the little guy couldn't stand firm and fell hard.
Seeing the fourth elder brother crying fiercely, and there were blood stains on his forehead, the two children were so frightened that they stood there and didn't dare to move. When Concubine Tong heard the cry, she hugged the fourth elder brother back, and announced that the imperial doctor would come over for treatment.
"But I didn't expect that the concubine would misunderstand that the eldest brother bullied the fourth. didn't ask anything, and sent the fourth child to kneel outside. I didn't dare to speak. Yinren said, lowered his head again, his face flushed with shame.
"Why don't you tell the truth?" Chunxi looked at him and gently stroked his cheek with her own hand to soothe his emotions.
"I'm scared. And at that time, the concubine said that no one was allowed to intercede for the eldest brother. A trace of hesitation flashed in Yinren's eyes, and he raised his head just to pretend to be the one he had seen, and hurriedly lowered his head again.
"Is it really just because I'm afraid that I'm interceding for the eldest brother and letting him be punished more heavily?" Chunxi looked at him and asked softly.
Yinren paused slightly, and said worriedly: "Also...... Neither is it. ”
"Actually, you're afraid that you'll be punished yourself, right?" Hearing what Chun Xi said about his own thoughts, Yinren looked up at him in shock.
"Yi Niangniang, is Yinren very useless? Very unjust? Because I was afraid of being punished, I watched my eldest brother suffer and didn't speak. Yinren threw himself into Chunxi's arms, and although he couldn't see his face, Chunxi could feel that his wrist was a little wet.
"Are you willing to admit your mistakes?" Chun Xi asked.
"How do you admit it?"
"You might as well go in and tell Huang Ama what happened. Then the stone in your heart will be laid down. Acknowledging your mistake and correcting it is what you should do. Chun Xi said again.
Yinren hesitated: "But I'm still afraid...... In case Emperor Ama ......"
"Your Emperor Ama is not an unreasonable person. Tell him well, and he will understand your feelings. The most important thing a father wants to see is for his child to make mistakes, because only when they make mistakes will they have the opportunity to correct them. will know what to do and what not to do. If a person never misses a thing, then he must not have the courage to admit his mistake. Because he is afraid of other people's eyes, he does not dare to do anything, and naturally nothing is wrong. And you will be the emperor of the Qing Dynasty in the future, so you should be more bold to do it, do what is right, and admit what is wrong. ”
Chunxi's words deeply shocked Yinren, and someone had already told him such words since he was a child. But he has always been careful not to make mistakes, so naturally he can't understand the truth.
At this time, Chunxi was a guiding light, allowing him to find the direction and get out of the confusion and entanglement in his heart in the fog.
"What if Emperor Ama can't understand me?" Yinren is still worried.
"Then you can say it well and explain it over and over again. Your Emperor Ama is in a very bad mood right now, but after you go in and explain things clearly, his mood will change greatly. "Purple said.
"Wouldn't it be even worse?" Yinren looked at Chunxi, full of fear.
"Whether you get better or worse depends on what attitude and tone you use to say it, and when you say it. It happened yesterday, and it's been a whole day now. If you wait until your Emperor Ama learns about this from other people, the result will be completely different. Chun Xi gently persuaded: "Believe me, what you are afraid of will not happen if you go in now, and your Emperor Ama will not only not scold you, but will also be very happy with what you did today." ”
"But I'm still afraid." Yinren stood up, and Chunxi also got up, they looked at the gate of the Qianqing Palace, and there was no movement. After a long time, I heard Yinren say: "Yi Niangniang, can you be outside?" If you hear something wrong inside, can you come in and help me? I heard them say that Huang Ama likes you the most, and he will definitely hear about it. ”
"Okay, I'll be waiting for you at the door." Chun Xi led Yinren to the door, pushed open the door, Yinren mustered up the courage to step in, and looked back at her again.
"Go, I'm right outside the door." This seems to be a nice and reassuring sentence. Yinren felt that the worries and fears in his heart disappeared little by little. The steps under his feet were no longer heavy, he looked at Xuan Ye who was reviewing the folds, and walked over step by step.