After the Lantern Festival passed, Gu Qingyan and Gu Qingya both started to go to class, Tao Xiu naturally had to go to work, regardless of Gu Qingmad and Gu Qingya's obstruction, Tao Xiu insisted on moving out of Gu Qingya's house.

There is Tao Xiu's dormitory in the school, at least he got it with his own efforts, he and Gu Qingyan are not related, only because Gu Qingyan invited him to celebrate the New Year together, he temporarily moved to live, and if he wants to live forever, Tao Xiu can't pull that face.

What's more, Ding Le's incident alerted Tao Xiu, and he secretly made up his mind that since this relationship could not have results, he couldn't be so selfish, he wanted to get Gu Qingma's kindness to him, but he didn't give Gu Qingma's answer for a long time.

After the New Year, before you know it, the year passes faster and faster, and this year he will turn thirty years old, his heart is tired, and he doesn't want to go through any ups and downs, he just wants to spend every day peacefully.

As winter turns to spring and the weather gradually warms up, students take off their hats, scarves and masks, take off their warm coats, and wear only a thin coat to walk around the campus.

So when Tao Xiu stood on the teaching building and looked down, what he saw was colorful clothes and backpacks, the campus, is the place Tao Xiu is most familiar with, even if something bad happens here, he still yearns for the campus, and stubbornly likes the work of teachers.

After more than a month of vacation, the students have long been tired of playing, and when they see their classmates who have not seen each other for more than a month, everyone's face is full of happy smiles.

"Hello, Professor Tao, how are you doing for the New Year?" Xie Qiao stood next to Tao Xiu with a stack of new books, panting and putting the heavy new books on the wall.

Tao Xiu nodded, "It's good, the new semester is here again." ”

"Yes, my wife gave birth to a daughter on Chinese New Year's Eve, not to mention how happy I am, you can see that I have gained so much weight."

Tao Xiu looked at Xie Qiao and found that Xie Qiao was indeed much fatter than before the holiday, and his whole person was radiant and looked extraordinarily energetic.

"Congratulations, the baby is very cute and looks like you." Tao Xiu looked at the photo in Xie Qiao's mobile phone, his eyebrows and eyes seemed to have fallen into a star, and he praised happily.

When Tao Xiu inadvertently looked down, he saw a familiar figure, a familiar face, slightly raised his head, looking up at himself.

That person was Gu Qingmad.

Although today is the third day of school, Gu Qingyan has just come to school, and he couldn't leave because of work for the first two days, and he was also sulky that Tao Xiu refused to continue to live in his house, so he didn't want to go to school.

But today I heard that the principal would personally patrol the class to see the number of students reported in each class, Gu Qingyan didn't want to make it difficult for Tao Xiu, so even if he didn't sleep all night and was extremely sleepy, he still arrived at school today.

"So handsome, so lonely back~ Senior sister, why do you say that Senior Brother Gu is so handsome but doesn't have a girlfriend?"

"Who knows, he doesn't even have the school flower in his eyes, probably because his vision is too high."

"Who is he looking at? Look, senior, the school girl is standing by the window and looking down......"

Several girls stood not far from Gu Qingfang and pointed, and they were even more excited when they saw the school flower appear upstairs.

No one knew that the person Gu Qingfang looked up at was not a school flower at all, but Tao Xiu.

Tao Xiu awkwardly avoided Gu Qing's crazy gaze, returned the phone to Xie Qiao, and said with a faint smile: "I'm ready for class." ”

Xie Qiao hesitated for a while, but couldn't help but ask, "Hasn't Classmate Gu's matter been dealt with yet?" ”

Tao Xiu obviously had a headache, frowned slightly, and shook his head helplessly.

"Because you like him, you can't find a reason to refuse?" Xie Qiao's sharp words made Tao Xiu's face pale.

That's true, Xie Qiao is not wrong.

"Professor Xie, what can you do? Help me. Tao Xiu pursed his lips and finally said.

Xie Qiao thought for a while, "I have a cousin, a gay, I came out of the closet with my family a few years ago, let me introduce you to each other, if you think it is suitable after meeting, you can start with friends first, my cousin is a very good man." ”

Tao Xiu hesitated, "...... Let me think again. ”

Using others to attack Gu Qingmad seems to be very bad, and it also lives up to Gu Qingmad's liking.

Tao Xiu originally thought that Gu Qingmad was just trying to be fresh and joking, and he didn't mean it, but since Gu Qingmad insisted on moving into the dormitory to live with him, every bit of how the two got along with him, how Gu Qingmad treated him, everything, is vivid.

No matter how much you deceive yourself, you can't deceive yourself, Tao Xiu knows that Gu Qingmad is serious, maybe Gu Qingmad is still young, this seriousness may not be very long-lasting, but at least, it is serious now.

What should he do?

Tao Xiu walked back to his office with heavy steps.

Because school had just started, Tao Xiu was busy with work, and Gu Qingyan didn't bother him, and it was already evening when the two met again.

"Hungry? Let's try the dead girl's craft, I tasted a little and it tasted good. Gu Qing pulled Tao Xiu to the table and sat down.

Tao Xiu opened the lid of the lunch box, and sure enough, he saw good dishes and meat, and the girl really has an inexplicable talent for cooking.

Picking up the chopsticks, Tao Xiu ate in silence.

After eating, Gu Qingyan was about to take his clothes and take a bath, but he heard Tao Xiu say, "Gu Qingyan, you can move back to live." ”

"What did you say?" Gu Qingfang turned around and looked at Tao Xiu's back as he cleaned up the table in disbelief.

Tao Xiu pretended to be relaxed and said: "This is the professor's dormitory, your home is big and comfortable, why don't you go back and live?" Coming in and out of here will inevitably be discovered, and it will not be good for us. ”

"Did Professor Xie say something to you?" A flash of clarity flashed in Gu Qingfang's eyes.

Tao Xiu avoided answering, "Anyway, you move out, you live here...... It makes me very embarrassed. ”

"Are you embarrassed?" Gu Qing's tall body stiffened for a moment.

Tao Xiu turned around and nodded affirmatively, but his eyes did not look at Gu Qi.

"Everything you did to me is wrong, Gu Qingmad, you have to remember that I am your professor, and I will not be tempted by you......"

Before Tao Xiu's words were finished, Gu Qingyan had already walked in front of him, holding his face and frowning, "You lied to me, this is not your true words." ”

Tao Xiu glanced at Gu Qingyan indifferently and said nothing.

This look made Gu Qingyan feel as if he had never known Tao Xiu, so indifferent, as if the previous pleasant relationships were all bubble-like illusions.

Gu Qingfang's hand slipped from Tao Xiu's face, and after thinking about it, he said without giving up: "Am I pushing too hard?" Okay, then I'll move back to live ......."

"Gu Qingfang." Tao Xiu called out to him with trembling lips.

Gu Qingyan suddenly covered his ears, "Don't say it!" I won't believe anything you say! ”

Tao Xiu stretched out his hand, but Gu Qingfang ran out like crazy, and his pajamas fell at Tao Xiu's feet, like an abandoned rag.

The door was slammed shut, alarming the professor, who lived on the same floor, and when he opened the door, he saw nothing.

Tao Xiu dragged his stiff body and locked the door, washed the dishes as if nothing happened, and then took a shower and washed his hair.

I casually looked in the mirror, as if I could still see a man holding him while he brushed his teeth.

When I came back to my senses, I remembered that Gu Qingyan had already left, and those who were driven away by him would not come back.

Looking around the dormitory where he has lived for more than half a year, there are always more things that do not belong to him unconsciously, slippers have gradually become two pairs, cups have gradually become two, and toothbrushes Gu Qingfang has bought several spares.

Looking at the surrounding furniture and electrical appliances, except for what was already here, there was nothing else that was not purchased by Gu Qingma, Gu Qingmao used his hard-earned money to buy the most practical things for him, and told him lightly that he had never been so good to a person.

Tao Xiu was extremely powerless, he didn't know what to do not hurt Gu Qingmad, and he didn't know how to face Gu Qingmad's feelings, in order to prevent Gu Qingmad from suffering the pain pointed out by Qianfu with him, he could only cowardly choose to push Gu Qingmad away.

It's only been more than half a year, and when it's time to give up, it turns out that it hurts so much!

Tao Xiu didn't sleep all night, he couldn't sleep anyway, the hour hand pointed to four o'clock in the morning, Tao Xiu leaned against the wall and looked at the cold moon outside the window in a daze, the beautiful mole loomed under the corner of his eyes, hazy, and looked particularly dreamy.

Loneliness wrapped around Tao Xiu's heart like a poisonous snake.

Maybe it's not terrible for a person to be lonely all the time, but once you have tasted the happiness of two people together, when this happiness is cruelly gone, the loneliness that invades again is really unbearable, even desperate.

Tao Xiu just closed his eyes, as if he saw and heard Gu Qingmad's voice and smile, but those voices and smiles suddenly overlapped with another person, but that person was not Gu Qingmad, he just had a voice that was exactly the same as Gu Qingmad!

Tao Xiu's eyes widened suddenly, who is it? Who the hell is it?!

"Xiu, I won't let others hurt your ......"

"Xiu, leave with me."

"Xiu, I like you."

"Don't be upset."

……

A voice that resembled Gu Qingfang's mind reappeared in Tao Xiu's mind, the messy memory fragments were reorganized in a chaotic manner, Tao Xiu's heart suddenly seemed to be tightly strangled by something, and everything was about to come out

Tao Xiu suddenly saw many pictures, familiar, unfamiliar, intertwined, sad, happy, everything turned out to be real.

Tao Xiu held his head in pain, why didn't he dare to love anymore, just live like a body?

Because, in his best years, he loved someone deeply, but he made everyone betray his relatives, in the familiar alley of his hometown, no one gave him a caring look, no one reached out to him, ridiculed, scolded, cursed, puzzled, sneered, only these, one after another......

After those years of pain and happiness, he did not dare anymore, and he no longer dared to hope for happiness that did not belong to him.

I see, so.

As if his head was about to crack, Tao Xiu curled up and fell on the bed, those memories made him very painful, the glasses no longer knew where they fell, in the silent night, Tao Xiu's clear eyes, slowly shed two lines of tears......