Chapter 118: If I could do it all over again
As soon as Jiang Zhen entered Wang Hengdong's office, he wanted to smash things, but when he thought that it was not his own territory, he still held back.
Wang Hengdong saw his thoughts, and his face didn't matter, "If you want to fall, you can fall, if you want to smash, you can hit me, as long as you can feel comfortable." ”
Jiang Zhen slammed his fist against the wall and said sadly, "Do you know how I felt when I knew that Ding Wen was still alive? Over here. Jiang Zhen pointed to the place where the heart was.
"Here, it began to beat again, for I was so sure that if she was alive, she would be alive, and I kept thinking on the way here, what should I do if I saw her? I've thought about it a lot, but what?
It's all my hallucination, the animal is still there, and my wife is gone, what is this, can you tell me, what the hell is this?"
Wang Hengdong knew what Jiang Zhen felt in his heart, after giving him hope, he pushed him into an even more incomparable abyss, making his already devastated heart even worse, and he had done his best to stand up now.
"Accept the reality, none of us can change what has happened, since we have caught Ding Wen again, it means that his end has come, and you have finally avenged Xia Ning."
"Revenge? What if you take revenge, she will never be able to come back to me, so what's the point?" Jiang Zhen leaned against the wall, his face full of despair.
"What are you talking about, do you want her to die without turning a blind eye? As a husband, don't you want her to rest in peace? Don't you want to put her family at ease?" Wang Hengdong was also angry when he saw him, didn't he want to care about anything? The decadence of this face.
"I think if you hadn't told me that Ding Wen was still alive, maybe I would have been fine, because I've accepted everything, but now for me, it's like killing me, you know?" Jiang Zhen's voice was a little empty, and his eyes were not focused, and he leaned against the wall blankly.
"I'm sorry!" Wang Hengdong said that he didn't know that Jiang Zhen's emotions would have such a big gap, and how much pressure he should bear in his heart, especially from the spiritual aspect.
"I don't blame you, in fact, you are right, I should have an explanation for her, an explanation for her family, at least she and the child can rest in peace." Jiang Zhen cheered up.
"You ......" Wang Hengdong wanted to say something, but he swallowed the words again after looking at his spirit, sometimes it is better not to say it than to say it, because he already knew it in his heart.
"I've been thinking since a month ago, if I hadn't met her at the beginning, if I hadn't forced her to marry me, then she must be living her own life now, instead of being buried in the depths of the ocean forever." Jiang Zhen said with a smile, but the smile was very bitter.
"You said it was if, maybe she wouldn't think so." Wang Hengdong said.
"Perhaps."
Jiang Zhen stood up straight against the wall, and then walked outside.
"What are you going to do?" Wang Hengdong asked worriedly.
"Don't worry, I'm just calming down, I'm going to take Ding Wen back to Linhai tomorrow!" Jiang Zhen said sideways, his face was much better than just now, but Wang Hengdong was still relieved.
"You can sleep in the guest house at night, I've already arranged it." Wang Hengdong said.
"Got it."
After speaking, Jiang Zhen slowly walked into the dark night, just like his heart, there was no trace of light, only endless darkness.
The next day, Wang Hengdong sent a police car, and several additional special police, and pressed Ding Wen to Linhai City with Jiang Zhen.
On the same day, the Linhai City Supreme People's Court sentenced Ding Wen to death in accordance with the law on charges of Ding Wen's previous bad behavior, murder, robbery, etc., and executed it the next day.
After a year of arrest, the case is finally closed, everyone in the army is happy, only Jiang Zhen is very quiet, if it was before, he would have celebrated with them, now he is only immersed in his own world, because there is her there.
Four years later.
Special ward of the Naval Medical University.
"Dad, how are you feeling today?" Jiang Zhen would come to see Father Xia almost every day, and recently due to his tight training, he specially found a caretaker to take care of Father Xia.
Father Xia had already ripped off the ventilator, and he was lying down and sleeping peacefully as he had done four years ago.
Jiang Zhen sat on the edge of the bed and wiped his face and hands for him, and then helped him cut his nails and comb his hair.
After doing all this, Jiang Zhen chatted with him again.
"Dad, if Ning Ning goes to find you, do you want to help me intercede, so that she can also come to see me by the way? Say I miss her too, I miss her, I miss her! Jiang Zhen said softly.
Four years have passed, and time has not left traces on Jiang Zhen's face, but it has made him more mature, and his handsome facial features and extraordinary features have made him more noticeable than four years ago.
When he came to the hospital, the nurses were blushing and looking at him shyly, but he didn't pay attention to everything around him, his heart had been closed four years ago, and he didn't react to anything else, but because of this, more people came to his door to say goodbye.
However, they were all rejected, and the person who refused was not Jiang Zhen but Jiang's mother, and she used the reason that her son was busy so that those people would never dare to come to the door again.
Jiang Zhen sat with Father Xia for a while and then returned to Jiang's house.
"My son is back, come, sit down and rest!" Jiang Mu still had a smile on her face.
It's just that her laughter has become more tolerant and kinder, she no longer goes to play cards, and when she has nothing to do, she goes to the park with a group of old ladies to play Tai Chi, exercise, and her speech slowly softens.
"How's he doing?" Mother Jiang asked, this "he" refers to Father Xia.
"It's still the same, and there's no reaction to the outside world." Jiang Zhen said.
Over the years, he has also found a lot of famous doctors to show Xia's father, but the vegetative person is not only a problem in China, but also in the world, and the conclusions given are everything, so he gave up. To wake up a living dead, the difficulty coefficient can be equated with cancer.
"Alas, it's not a way to go on like this!" Jiang's mother sighed, although she also tried to find a way together, but it has been four years, and there has been no reaction, the doctor persuaded them to give up early, but the son refused, he insisted on waiting, but when is this a head, it may be torture for him.
"It's okay, it's okay to support him with my salary for more than ten years, Mom, that's it!"
"Okay, then listen to you."
The door opened from the outside.
Jiang Yun came back from outside, "Auntie, Jiang Zhen is also there!" ”
"Xiaoyun is back!" Jiang's mother still has the same attitude towards Jiang Yun as before, but she will never force them to pair up again.
In the past four years, she can see that she has not forgotten Xia Ning, although he doesn't say it, but she knows that there will be an extra pair of dishes and chopsticks on the table at every meal, and she also asked Sister Zhang to cook the dishes that Xia Ning likes to eat, and she has never stopped, she knows that her son is afraid that no one will be able to let go of it in his heart.
Even if he will find someone to live with in the future, but in his heart, Xia Ning will always be there, and no one can replace him, although she sent away those who came to introduce her son to someone, thinking that it was what he wanted.
The night is always so hard, especially for a person who is empty inside.
Jiang Zhen would hold Xia Ning's photo in his arms every night, as if she was still by his side, in fact, he knew that only in this way would she probably know that he was missing her, and she would come into his dream at night.
But in four years, he hadn't dreamed of her once, not once. Sometimes Jiang Zhen kept thinking that she still refused to forgive herself, otherwise how could she be willing to let him wander in the lonely night every night and night, not daring to sleep.
Every time he went to her cemetery for four years, he always stayed for a long time, and he had to talk to her for an hour, and he would tell her about his troops, her friends, and her father, and she would definitely want to hear it.
"Wife, I have solved a lot of big cases this year and saved many people, are you happy? I'm finally slowly getting closer to what you hoped, to be honest, I only understand how you felt at that time, it turns out that I used to be really conceited, I didn't even know it, stupid and terrible, I've changed, are you satisfied?" Jiang Zhen touched the photo on the tombstone and said, his eyes were full of gentleness and doting, as if he had a daily conversation with Xia Ning.
No one answered him, only the voice of a swallow flying overhead, "Another spring is coming!" Jiang Zhen muttered.
"Colonel Jiang!"
A deep voice came from not far away.
Jiang Zhen looked up and saw a man with a height of 1.80 meters standing not far away and shouted.
When he walked in, he saw that it was Yu Ruizhe, four years later, he had also grown into a big guy, and when he went to college in high school, he resolutely applied for the military academy, and it was Jiang Zhen's alma mater.
Since Xia Ning was gone, he would come here every year to worship, which had become a habit, and today he actually met Jiang Zhen here.
In the past, when he was young, he called him Brother Jiang, but now that he has gone to a military school, he can hear Jiang Zhen's deeds every day, and his name has slowly changed.
"You're here!" Jiang Zhen was not surprised, because he had seen him once before, but he didn't see him.
"Well, Mr. Xia, I've come to see you."
Jiang Zhen looked at the big boy in front of him, thinking that people who were so cowardly and timid in the past have now become the same as him, becoming a soldier, which is really incredible.
"Ning Ning, this is the student you are dedicated to protecting, are you very happy now? He has grown up and, like me, exists to protect the people. Jiang Zhen said silently in his heart.
"If it weren't for Teacher Xia's life-saving grace, I'm afraid I wouldn't be where I am today, thinking about how useless I was before." Yu Ruizhe said.
"Everyone has bad times, at least you can stand here now, she must be very pleased."
"Yes, she's the best teacher I've ever met." Yu Ruizhe thought that when he saw her for the first time, he thought that this teacher was so beautiful, and then so many things happened later, he never scolded her, and she saved him with her life later, at that time he swore in his heart that he must get ahead and be the right student of her, although he has only taken one step now, but in the future he will definitely do what he says, be a good soldier, and protect those good people who are bullied.
When leaving the cemetery.
"Can you still keep training?" Jiang Zhen asked.
"No problem, I'm much stronger than before." Yu Ruizhe said confidently.
"Behave well, and I'll bring you to our side then!" Jiang Zhen patted him on the shoulder and said.
"Thank you, Colonel Jiang!" Yu Ruizhe said happily.
"You're not my soldier, so don't call me that."
"Okay, Brother Jiang!"
Ningning, did you see that? Everyone misses you so much, and I miss you even more.