I am a wanted criminal who lives deep in the mountains, and every day when I sleep, I put a white light gun next to my bed, so that it is easy to hold, and when an uninvited guest comes, I will use my gun to kill him.

Living in a stone house, I had two goals, one was to write in peace here, and the other was to prevent me from being arrested and imprisoned again.

Every day I need to eat, so I need to prepare food for myself. I don't need to hunt in the woods every day, I can eat for many days if I hunt once. Here, I can eat bear's paws, venison, leopard meat, etc., and many rare wild animals are my hunting goals, I don't care about anything, just to eat.

I decided to stay here for a month, write for a month, and then I'll pick up my wife and daughter.

I'm writing here alone, which is quite fun, and with the cross-country side of me, I'm not alone. But I'm a man after all, a man without a woman, not a complete man, and I'm going to take my other half over.

I miss my daughters a lot, during this time, living in prison, I always dream about my daughters, and I am sorry for them. This time, I'm going to pick up my daughters here, and I'm going to get them whatever they want to eat.

I know that there are forest schools in the forest, elementary school, junior high school, high school, and university, and you can also go to the forest for graduate and doctoral students. I picked up my daughter and I could find a university in the forest and let her go there.

Whoever bullied my daughter, I will not spare him. I remember last year there was a twenty-eight-year-old guy who lied to my daughter, he said that he was the manager of a company, said that he loved painting, and he said a lot, and my daughter Meimei later found out that a lot of his information was fake. He's lying to my daughter.

I was also angry, so I went to the young man and explained to him what I was here for, so I took out my gun and shot him dead. I was afraid that I would be arrested and put in prison for murder, so I divided his body into twenty-eight pieces. Twenty-eight black plastic bags were packed and disposed of in twenty-eight garbage heaps.

I killed someone that time, and I didn't know it, and I didn't bear any responsibility for that killing.

When I talk about this experience, I can also explain why I write, or what I said, why I write? I write to atone for my sins.

My gun is in my hand, and I stroke my white light gun, and my heart is steady. As long as I have a gun like this in my hand, my heart is steady, and without a gun, I can't sleep steadily.

I gave a name to the stone house, called the dog house, the dog I raised, I like it very much, I call the house I live in the dog house.

Adults are not children. For someone my age, I see a lot of lively children. I feel old. I'm almost forty years old, and I really don't feel like a kid anymore.

People of my age are dull in thought, life is boring, plus I am wanted, and I am nervous. My life is like a hard stone on the side of the road, it doesn't move, it doesn't live, it's cold and has no temperature, and I see the world coldly. I don't want to think about anything else, what I think about the most is not to be arrested by the police.

I have informed my wife and daughter that they will be coming tomorrow. If they meet a passer-by on the road, if they stop their way, if they ask them too many questions, I will shoot him.

Enemies are everywhere, and I have to be vigilant, why do I hold my gun in my hand? No one can defeat me, I can be shot, but not overcome.

I use a gun to fight the enemy, otherwise I wouldn't have taken it. My wife and daughters will be here tomorrow and I hope they have a safe journey.

I thought about it for a long time, I started thinking about it when I was in prison, and after thinking about it for a long time, I finally decided to call my daughter and wife to live with me, at first I didn't have this decision, I was afraid that my status as a wanted criminal would drag them down, and even affect them, which is a situation I don't want to see, but this seems to be unavoidable, they come to my dog house, and live with me in the dog house, they will inevitably be affected by me.

The world is big, but what's the use of it? I'm a wanted criminal, can I just hang out? If I just go out casually, I'll be arrested and put in jail sooner or later, and I think it's safer to hide in the mountains and write like this.

When I was young, I heard such a sentence: The sea is wide and the fish jumps, and the sky is high for the birds to fly. At first glance, it seems to make sense and is very exciting, but when I think about it a little, I feel that it is said by a neurosis, and only people with mental problems take this sentence as a motivation for themselves.

The sea is vast, and the sky is high, but no matter how much a fish jumps, it can't fly in the air like a bird, no matter how high it is, it can't be as high as a bird. No matter how the bird flies, it also has its flight range. Many times, people will always see hope, just like the earth yuan in a glass bottle, the future of the earth yuan is full of hope, but there is no way out. Too often, people are deceived by the so-called hope and bright future.

There was a period when there were people who preached the distinction between superior and inferior races, and divided people into superior races and inferior races, and there was a bright future that beckoned the superior races, and it was this bright future that led to the tragedy of the massacre.

The scope of human activity is limited, and even if man can transform the world, the world he can transform is also limited. Theoretically speaking, it seems that man's exploration of the world can be carried out endlessly, just like a bird in the sky, a fish in the open sea, it seems that the space in which all our lives are located is infinite, this is actually an illusion, the range of activities of people, the range of activities of birds, and the range of activities of fish, for various reasons, is very limited, even if the world is very large, the sky is high, and the ocean is vast. The universe is finite, and the universe is not infinite.

Young people always feel that they are birds in the sky, they feel that they are fish in the sea, they feel that the world is very big, and they can gallop the world, but as they go deep into society and life, young people will gradually find that their abilities are limited, their range of activities is limited, their vision is limited, their experience is limited, and they are limited in many aspects.

For people my age, my wife and I have a very close relationship, and our daughters are also studying, and it is a time when the family is happy, but I am a murderer, and after being arrested and imprisoned, I escaped from prison and became the most wanted criminal, which has caused some harm to my happy family.

The text above was written yesterday and today I am writing again on my stone table. What do I want to write about? I want to say something. My wife and daughters have come, and they have changed a little, my daughter is prettier and taller, and my wife is more stable and mature, and she is more affectionate. I see the subtle changes in them. I've been thinking about them for a long time, and they're finally here, and I want to express my feelings at this moment in words, two words: happy.

I am a living example of this, when I was younger, I also felt like I could fly high and far, but then I was caught in prison, the world is so big, so big and so big, but I can only stay in prison. People will be confined to one place for many reasons, just like the body of a snail is trapped in a hard shell and cannot come out, and when it comes out, it is death.

I made a great dinner for my wife and daughter, and we had a great day with red wine and singing together in my dog house.

Tomorrow morning, I will send my daughters to school in the forest, and I have contacted the school in the forest so that they can continue their education there. The school in the forest has a superior environment and strong teachers, and it is their blessing that they can study in the school in the forest.

I have deep feelings for many people in the world, how much love I have for my wife and daughter, like the stars in the sky, I also have a lot of love for many other people including friends, and I even have a lot of love for strangers, but the premise is that those people must have beautiful qualities, as long as I can feel the beauty of human nature from those people, I love him, whether I know him or not.

I have feelings for all people, and I believe that there are good things in any person, and those beautiful things, I respect and like them.

Walking down the street, if I hadn't felt that there were good things in the passers-by, I would have shot them to death. I have a bad temper, and I want to kill people at every turn, and I can't count the people I've killed. But I set a plan for myself, and I plan to lay down my arms and stop killing people in the future.

The white light gun I brought with me can defend myself, but it can't kill people. I plan to live well with my wife and stop killing, every time I kill someone, she gets scared, I don't want her to be scared.

My daughters were also very scared when they found out that I had killed someone, and I didn't want them to be afraid, I didn't want them to worry about me, and I swore that I would never kill again, and if I wanted to kill again, I would strike five thunderbolts every day.

I think I'm doing a good life now, my wife is here, my daughter is here, my daughter can go to school in the forest, she can come to see me on Sundays, my wife and I live in the mountains, I have been thinking about this life in prison for a long time, and now I am finally living this life.

Life in the mountains is very happy, I feel a lot of happiness in this stone house, I don't leave this place in my life, I live in this place, and I have no regrets, this place, I see what happiness is, that is real happiness.

I like life in the mountains, no one disturbs, no one restricts, food and clothing are happy, free and happy, I can live like this, it really makes me happy in my heart, I can live like this, it really makes me very excited.

Deep in the mountains, endless fun. (To be continued......)