O God... O God...

She heard the sound of the glass of water falling to the ground, violently and harshly, and saw the glass being shattered and splashed......

Her pill bottle was knocked over, and white pills slanted out, dancing on the smooth, translucent floor......

She knew he was angry.

She begged him, begged him not to go, but he still threw her an indifferent and resolute back, just like he had done two years ago.

O God... O God... Help me keep this man, she shouted and pleaded desperately behind him, but he was gone.

For God does not hear the cry......

She was on her own, and she rushed forward, picked up a piece of glass, aimed it at the erect, broad back, and raised her hand......

Hands, bloody.

She saw blood oozing from his back, more and more, redder, wetting his sweater...

Betrayal, abandonment, deception, separation...... was stabbed by her, and he couldn't walk, but why did his heart hurt so much?

Why is it painful......

O God...

Save the man, he's hurt...

Xu Anran's subconscious is constantly running rapidly, and she feels that she is in an extremely real scene, is it a dream? Or is it reality? The man, the wounded man, he was going to turn around.

Who is he?

He? The pupils tightened suddenly—

Yang Qichen.

"You're awake." As soon as he opened his eyes, Xu Anran met a familiar face.

"I ......" Xu Anran looked around the ward and found that there was no one else except the person in front of him, and the spark in his eyes dimmed.

"Nightmares, huh? I saw that your expression just now seemed to be very painful, and I had been struggling with whether to wake you up, but I didn't expect you to wake up first. ”

"Did you bring me to the hospital?"

"Ah...... yes, yes. Jiang Yi hesitated for a moment and replied with some hesitation.

"But the people I saw before were clearly ..... I saw it wrong......" Xu Anran smiled bitterly.

"You've been sleeping for more than 7 hours, and the doctor said you were under too much mental stress and overdraft, so you fainted. Your hand was pricked by a shard of glass that fell to the ground, and you were slightly injured. ”

Jiang Yi looked at Xu Anran and patiently explained the matter, worried that she might forget the reason why she appeared in the hospital because she had been in a coma for too long.

"Sorry for the trouble. But my family's..."

"Oh, well, I was going to inform your family, but then a doctor came and said it was your attending doctor and told me that it had all been taken care of, and I didn't contact again. The doctor told me to tell you, don't worry. ”

"That's good, thank you, Jiang Yi."

"It's nothing, just think of it as accumulating virtue for yourself. But how are you feeling now? Is there anything wrong with it? Or, do you need something to eat? ”

"I'm fine, I'm not hungry, can you help me find the doctor?" His name is Xu Ce, and he is in the psychiatric department on the fourth floor. ”

"Psychiatry? Why is he your attending doctor? Enron, you ......" Jiang Yi was a little surprised, for fear that he had heard it wrong, he really couldn't see that a girl with such a dazzling smile in front of him and such a strong heart would have a mental illness, how serious it is, so that she would have her own exclusive doctor.

"You think it's hard to believe, don't you?"

"Sort of, after all, the story you gave me didn't tell me about it."

"Tell you now, does it make you feel a little more dramatic about the story?"

"Not really, it's just... I seem to understand you a little better. So, I'll go to your doctor first. ”

"Thank you."

When Xu Ce walked in, his face was not very good-looking, and he saw Xu Anran, who had already sat up from the bed.

"It's so fast, we're here again."

"Doctor Xu, don't be sarcastic about me."

"Then what did you call me to do?"

"I ......," Xu Anran said.

"Okay, okay, I don't embarrass you, you know your physical condition, right? Enron, insomnia goes to the bar to work night shifts, it seems to be a good policy, but it does not meet a person's physical needs, I also hope that you can respect my profession, the matter of therapy, and give me an answer as soon as possible, okay? ”

"I'm sorry, Dr. Koh...... I probably remembered something. ”

"What do you remember?"

"I've been having nightmares before... Is it related to Yang Qichen, the injury on Yang Qichen's back was caused by me, right? ”

"Enron ......."

"Isn't that right?"

She had already remembered that those images in her dreams were telling her everything that had happened.

She wished it was really just a dream, but the reality of the dream kept destroying her reverie. Even so, selfish or not, she still didn't want to be sure.

But at this moment, seeing Xu Ce's expression, it seemed to have said everything.

"Enron, you didn't mean it, you just got sick and couldn't stand the stimulation before you missed it for a while, so, that's not your fault, you should forgive yourself......"

Xu Ce has always known that things will not be hidden after all, and Xu Anran will always know the day, but he didn't expect that this day would come so suddenly.

"It's all because I'm sick...... What a perfect excuse, but how could I possibly forgive myself... How could it be ......"

Xu Anran buried his head.

"Enron, it's because you can't accept this fact yourself, so we choose not to tell you, but I know that these truths that remain in your subconscious will surface one day, and what we hope is that you can learn to accept it, instead of putting yourself in a cage of guilt."

"It's him, he won't let you tell me, right?"

"Enron, you should understand his painstaking efforts."

"If I still want to stay with him, will it hurt him again?"

"Enron ......"

"Is it !!?"

"Yes!! Not only will you hurt him, but you will also hurt yourself, you will have a nervous breakdown, like you did a year ago, and you choose to die after despair in life, don't you know? Haven't you had countless suicidal thoughts during this time? In that case, why insist on it!! It's really, so selfish......"

After yelling with anger, Xu Ce realized what he had said, facing a patient, a mentally ill person, as a psychiatrist, he used the most intense words to stimulate her......

Xu Anran was really affected, raised his head and looked at Xu Ce blankly, and fell into silence.

The guilt almost swallowed Xu Ce's heart, Xu Ce eased his emotions and took Xu Anran's hand with apologies.

"Enron, sorry, I went too far...... But that's really not your fault. ”

"It's okay... You're right, I've never been able to let go of my feelings for him, in fact, I already knew in my heart that I couldn't be with him anymore...... I'm not afraid of despair, because I'm desperate enough now, I'm just, still having illusions..... Dr. Xu, arrange hypnotherapy for me. ”

"What?"

I thought that Xu Anran would collapse, be in pain, and be hysterical, but I didn't expect that she unexpectedly calmed down, and even had to arrange treatment by herself, Xu Ce was a little stunned.

"I will follow Dr. Koh's instructions, but can it be scheduled in a week? I may still have some things to deal with. ”

"Have you thought it through?"

"Hmm."

"I see."

"Thank you."

"Enron ......"

"What's wrong?"

"Forget it... It's nothing ......" Realizing what he was thinking, Xu Ce was startled, and he almost told Yang Qichen why he chose to leave.

However, such a pair of partners who love each other deeply but have to choose to leave for each other's sake will be moved.

......

At 10 p.m., the food stalls are the most crowded and lively.

It is only three days before I am discharged from the hospital.

Xu Anran sat at the side of the food stall with a relatively small family, looking at the laughter and laughter around him, with a hint of envy in his eyes.

"Boss, can you bring me 5 beers?"

"Oh, miss, are you alone?" Hearing Xu Anran's shout, the boss hurriedly took five bottles of beer and walked over, and when he found that there was only one person, he asked casually out of kindness.

"It's okay, I'm good at drinking."

"Then you have to take it easy, although the beer is not high, but if you drink too much, you should still be drunk. The little girl's family, remember to call someone to pick you up later. ”

"It's okay, it's better to be drunk...... By the way, boss, serve me another 10 skewers! ”

"Ahh Okay, okay. ”

The boss shook his head helplessly, put down the wine after answering, and went to his own business, no longer care.

Xu Anran drank cup after cup, the skewers on the plate basically didn't move, just drank and looked calm.

Half an hour passed, Xu Anran's face turned red, and his vision began to blur.

"Almost! Xu Anran, come on, you can do it!! ”

As he spoke, looking at all the empty wine bottles, Xu Anran slapped his hands on the table and staggered to his feet.

"Miss, are you alright?" The proprietress next to her, who was cleaning up the table, saw Xu Anran like this, and hurriedly walked over.

"Huh? Okay, okay, you're the boss lady, right? Me, I check out. ”

"Yes, three hundred and eight in total."

"Three, three, three hundred and eight, OK, here you go!" Xu Anran worked in his bag for a long time, scraped out three hundred and eighty yuan, stuffed it into the arms of the proprietress, took the bag, and staggered away.

"Miss, you're where you're going." The driver looked at the drunk unconscious man in the back seat and reminded loudly.

"Oh... It's here. ”

After paying the money and getting out of the car, Xu Anran looked at the familiar and unfamiliar apartment in front of him, and suddenly felt a sense of grievance in his heart, and his nose began to be sour.

Staggered to the door and rang the doorbell. Then lying on the door and listening to the movement inside, there was no sound, Xu Anran kept ringing the doorbell.

Yang Qichen listened to the constant ringing of the doorbell outside as if he was playing, with a cold face, he lifted the quilt and walked out of the bedroom.

As soon as he opened the door, there was a pungent smell of wine, and then a weak body poured into his arms.

"Enron?"