But Hao Jiali's thoughts behind her are utopian.

A few days later.

Led by Chen Zhanjun, Chen Qing's sons carried Chen Feng into the city.

Chen Feng ignored her brother's obstruction, so she went out of the village with illusions to the commune long-distance bus station, and finally Chen Qing's eldest son escorted her all the way to the car and the train, and finally arrived at Hao Jiali's father's new unit, a lumber mill in Hengyang.

Because Chen Zhanjun had been with Secretary Fang last time, the doorman of the timber mill still had an impression of him, and after reporting the name of Hao Jiali's father, the doorman let these people in.

Chen Zhanjun has only been here once, and he still remembers Hao Jiali's father living in the first row, the first room, and the first bed in the lumber mill dormitory.

Soon, Chen Zhanjun directly took Chen Feng and Hao Jiali's eldest cousin around to find Hao Jiali's father's dormitory.

As a result, there was no one in the dormitory, the door was locked, and Chen Zhanjun hurriedly ran to the door of the lumber mill to ask the doorman for news of Hao Jiali's father.

The doorman told Chen Zhanjun that Hao Jiali's father had gone up the mountain today and would not return home until dark.

Chen Zhanjun and the three of them had to wait at the door of Hao Jiali's father's dormitory.

When it was dark, when the three of them were so hungry that their chests were pressed against their backs, the three of them saw Hao Jiali's father wearing a set of canvas long clothes and trousers, half a bucket of water boots, a hard hat, a white towel on his shoulder, and a flashlight in his hand.

Before Hao Jiali's father arrived at the door of the dormitory, the light of the flashlight first shone on Chen Zhanjun, Chen Feng and Hao Jiali's eldest cousin.

As soon as he saw these three people, Hao Jiali's father pestle stopped moving forward in place.

"Hao Guang! Chen Feng is here. ”

Chen Zhanjun called out Hao Jiali's father's name.

Hao Jiali's father was stunned for a moment, and soon, after reacting, Hao Jiali's father turned his head and ran in the direction of the gate of the timber mill.

"Hao Guang! What do you run? Don't run, stop me! Chen Zhanjun's first reaction was to chase Hao Jiali's father.

The colleagues who got off work with Hao Jiali's father in the lumber mill all put down their tools, stopped and watched the excitement in confusion and watched the actions of Chen Zhanjun and Hao Jiali's father.

Chen Zhanjun couldn't take care of it, Chen Zhanjun knew the purpose of his entry into the city this time.

And Hao Jiali's father can't care what his colleagues think, he doesn't have the courage to see Chen Feng, and he doesn't want to see Chen Feng for the time being.

Yu Qing, he no longer has any feelings for Chen Feng, since giving birth to his son Hao Jiaming, he and Chen Feng have never lived a normal married life.

After giving the telegram to his family, he has been with his beloved, and he has lost interest in Chen Feng.

As soon as he saw Chen Feng, he didn't know how to face Chen Feng.

And he was even more afraid that Chen Feng would quarrel with him like when he was in the coal mining unit.

He couldn't afford to lose that face anymore.

And Yu Li, after all, this is a factory under the jurisdiction of Lamei's cousin, and he can't help but give Lamei's cousin face. Even if the ordinary love between him and Lamei sprouted, blossomed, and bore such a bitter fruit, he still pretended to have this woman in his heart and couldn't let go of this woman.

And I can't let it go to this point.

As soon as Lamei's husband died, Hao Jiali's father went to the lumber mill, and Lamei's parents had no one to take care of her, and every time Lamei's father came to see her on the farm, she begged Hao Jiali's father to visit her parents more, although Hao Jiali's father could no longer serve this woman's parents as close as he did in the coal mining unit, but he sent a part of his salary to the two old people on a monthly basis until the two old people were satisfied.

And the money given to these two old men was earned by Hao Jiali's father, how hard he worked.

In the timber mill, Hao Jiali's father went up the mountain to cut down trees, and the labor intensity was much more tiring and greater than that of digging coal in a coal mine.

If nothing else, he climbs such a high mountain every day because of his two fleshy legs.

Especially when he first started to work, Hao Jiali's father's two legs climbed the mountain softly and sore when he went up the mountain, and his legs trembled when he went down the mountain, and he couldn't stand steadily as if he was kneeling, until he got used to it half a month later, and this symptom was eliminated.

And because the lumber mill buys trees from the rural production team every year and cuts them down for commercial purposes, Hao Jiali's father has to go up the mountain with the lumber yard workers carrying chainsaws every day before dawn, and then he spends the whole day in the mountains. The lumberjacks of the lumber mill on the hill erected a wooden hut out of the bark of the tree poles, and at noon Hao Jiali's father cooked food with firewood in the wooden hut with the lumberjacks.

It wasn't until it was dark that the day's task tree was sawed down, the branches were cut off, and the lumberjacks were brought down the mountain, loaded onto the truck and transported back to the lumber mill.

This was for a sunny day, and Hao Jiali's father went up the mountain with the lumberjacks to cut down trees.

On rainy days, the lumberjacks are not allowed to go up the mountain, because the road is slippery, and if the lumberjack accidentally falls, he does not fall in place, but he falls from the top of the mountain, and the big one is lame and lame, and the small one is the burial place of the fallen.

Therefore, when it rained, Hao Jiali's father would either take a monthly vacation, that is, a Sunday of the month, or he would work overtime, working with the workers of the lumber mill who were responsible for transporting the trees from the mountain, peeling the bark of the trees cut down from the mountain with a scimitar, and then arranging the peeled trees in a neat stack and waiting to be dried.

The dried trees are either sold to building materials factories or sawn into planks directly in the lumber mill and then sold to furniture factories.

But Hao Jiali's father didn't even take a monthly vacation, so he wanted to earn a few more money by working overtime to make up for what his beloved owed him. Even though he wanted to stay in the lumber mill's dormitory and rest, he didn't want to go anywhere, he didn't want to do anything, he just wanted to rest, but he couldn't.

and Hao Jiali's father's tiredness at work has been overcome, but the tiredness of thinking is unspeakably miserable.

These things happened when he was in the coal mining unit, and the feeling of physical and mental exhaustion brought to Hao Jiali's father still exists.

Since Lamei was imprisoned, Hao Jiali's father knew that he and his loved ones would not be able to stay together for a long, long time in the future, even if they loved each other, and even suffered from unattainable suffering.

At the same time, Hao Jiali's father also expected that the passion and enthusiasm of the two people would slowly be blocked by the iron fence in the prison first, then diluted by time, and finally annihilated by reality.

Speaking of reality, Hao Jiali's father understands that even if he waits for Lamei in prison to be released, the two of them are already old beyond recognition.

At that time, what kind of childbearing, what family joy, and what looks like staying together for a lifetime have become empty words, and they have become irreparable regrets for two people in this life and this life.

Every time Hao Jiali's father went to the labor camp, looking at the woman who was still in love with him, his heart was indescribably sad and painful, and he felt that the love and marriage in his life had gone to the cliff and the abyss, and his footsteps could no longer move forward.

And with the woman he loves is this fate, there is no way out, Hao Jiali's father doesn't want to go back, he feels that he has no face to go back to Hao Jiali and them, for so many years, he has never returned to his hometown, nor has he fulfilled the responsibility of being a husband and father, Hao Jiali and his younger brother Hao Jiaming are two people who are completely strangers to him.

Hao Jiali and her younger brother Hao Jiaming didn't even call him the word father, and he didn't know how to face his two children.

Instead of having so many scruples and embarrassments in the countryside, Hao Jiali's father could only give up the countryside home as usual.

And he also thought that if he went back to the countryside and his two children could accept it, then he would inevitably spend the rest of his life with Hao Jiali's mother Chen Feng, a woman he had never loved.

Such a second half of life is worse than death for Hao Jiali's father.