September 17 ---- September 29, 2012

I flipped through my phone and saw the previous chat history with Yi Xu:

Continue, the train drivers in Hamburg are on strike again;

Yi continued, there was a Chinese who was robbed of his wallet and put it in the newspaper;

Yi continued, I met a new Chinese today, I am really happy to know Chinese, we made an appointment to make hot pot together on the weekend, she just came back from China, brought half a box of hot pot base;

Just now a Pakistani and an Indian quarreled in the street, and there was another couple quarreling next to them, Hamburgers and Berliners arguing about whose city is better;

Don't believe the Germans' punctual nonsense in the future, professors of modern European literary history are late for class!

……

There are a lot of such messages, there is no record of easy responses, he called me back with Skype. Often, as soon as my message passes, the call comes.

The timing of my message was so casual, how did he make sure that no one was around? If there are people around, it is a hundred times more dangerous to call on skype than to type on QQ, right?

Why is it so unreasonable, but Zhang Hengli and Zhong Pei are so conclusive?

Why did Yixu change all the passwords?

Or is he really that capable of hiding from the world?

Or am I too careless?

The TV showed highlights of the Serie A match this past weekend, with the Rossoneri losing to Atalanta for the first time in nearly four years. Two consecutive home defeats are the first in 82 years. After the big change, Milan started the new season in such a painful way......

I sat on the balcony and thought until dawn. Zhang Hengli got up to go to the toilet and said that I was like a sculpture. I saw myself on the windowpane, and I was startled, like a witch who haunted before dawn, with a hideous face.

I plunged headlong into the bathroom and took a shower at lightning speed. I wanted to wash it carefully, wash all the burdens off my body, and let them run down the drain and away from me. But as soon as the shower head was opened, the sound of water made me feel harsh, and I didn't understand, how could the sound of water be so sharp?

When I walked out of the bathroom, a thought flashed through me: I should find out on my own!

To break down the previous barrier of laziness that only sought answers from others, I need to take the initiative!

I searched the Internet for my name and mobile phone number, but there was no associated company information. I mentioned the address and name of the company once or twice, but I didn't pay attention to it, and I can't remember it at all.

I called the numbers of his classmates and friends on my mobile phone, and some people simply didn't answer the phone, and when they received the call, they hung up as soon as they heard the name "Yi Xu", and the most kind person said one more word than others, he said: "I'm sorry I'm busy now, I'll call you later, okay?" ”

Three days later, his "waiting" has not yet arrived.

Once again, I felt like I was lost in the forest.

I had to comfort and convince myself like this: Yi Xu will come back!

I think I should go online and submit my resume and wait for him while looking for a job. If my parents come back early, won't they see that I'm coming back as a thug? They have raised me for so many years, and it is my responsibility and obligation to support myself. Every time I talk to them on the phone these days, I say everything is fine, and I can't expose them as soon as they come back.

And Zhang Hengli took annual leave to look at me 24 hours a day, I have to live like a person before he can go to work with confidence. I have to find a way to keep myself busy with things to do and keep myself busy.

Zhang Hengli knew that I was looking for a job, and happily asked me what I wanted to eat, and he came to do it.

"No," I said, "I'm not hungry." ”

He said solemnly: "You have been back for so long, you don't eat or sleep well, don't you look in the mirror?" O look at your face! Qi stagnation, blood stasis, liver qi is uncomfortable! Do you know what you look like now? ”

I looked at him inquiringly, "Like what?" ”

He gritted his teeth and said, "It's like spoiled rice noodles!" ”

I got off the donkey: "Okay, I want to eat rice noodles." ”

"Damn, just said that you are like rice noodles, you have to eat rice noodles and specialize in killing the same kind!" Zhang Hengli put on his shoes and went out while thinking about it, "I'll go to the supermarket to buy it for you, come back and make it for you, and tell you, it's definitely better than Yang Yuxing!" ”

I often hear others talk about the gentle image of their mother, I think it is probably what Zhang Hengli looks like now! Zhang Hengli is like a mother, like everyone's mother, but not like my mother.

"Oh, by the way, when you were in the bathroom just now, your mother called, and I didn't dare to answer."

I almost laughed when my mom said she was calling.

"Oh."

"Aren't you going back?"

"There's no hurry, let's have an ice cream."

"How do you know there's no urgency?"

"I haven't taken the initiative to call her to scold her, so she called to ask why I haven't called her yet, and I gave her five minutes to brew and scold her later."

"Oh, don't eat ice cream on an empty stomach, it hurts your stomach!" The elevator doors opened, and he was still chattering: "I finally know what mood Zhang Yi was in when he knocked me on the Internet café with a keyboard. ”

In the summer vacation after our college entrance examination, Zhang Hengli desperately soaked in the Internet café to play games, and the suffocation of junior high and high school was purely venting. Once, he stayed in an Internet café for two days and two nights, and called me twice to ask me to send money, and he was so focused that the money in his pocket was stolen twice without knowing it! He dared to ask me, and he reported to his family that he was going to play with his classmates. The first time I went, I almost didn't find him, he had been playing for a day and a night, and he had blackened himself, from his face to his neck to his hands, about the same color as the keyboard. The second time I went, he became miserable and white again, I thought it was going to heaven's face, to pull him away, he refused, I called Zhang Yi, Zhang Yi came and he still refused, saying that he must pass the pass, Zhang Yi ripped off the keyboard and smashed it on him, the keyboard smashed very loudly, the whole Internet café was a sensation, Zhang Yi was also smashed, and more than a dozen keys on the keyboard fell to the ground. The boss was also afraid, afraid of death, and the keyboard didn't let us pay, urging us to leave quickly. He ate a bowl of noodles that day, and slept for 15 hours as soon as he closed his eyes at Zhang Yi's house, and didn't wake up for a second in between.

I'm now just as beaten as he is?

I slammed the ice cream back into the fridge and slammed the door slammed shut.

Zhang Hengli went to work the next day, and called every two hours to make sure I was still alive. I go to at least three companies a day for interviews to fill my schedule. I can't comment on how well I did in the interview, the interview process is the same, the oral test, the written test, the interview, the test, the nervousness and the excitement, two companies notified the interview on the spot, so I guess the performance is not too bad.

All interviews, I told you that they were available on October 15th. One is that I think that I can't devote myself to a job for the time being, and waiting for easy continuation is the first place. The second is to give yourself a little more time, and you may have a better chance of encountering a good job opportunity.

I taught the filled out form to the personnel, who looked at it and smiled contemptuously: "Your specialty is chess and circumvention?" ”

"Yes." I say.

"Used for Google browsing, Facebook used to circumvent the wall?"

"I can climb the wall of the school park, and I'm good at it." I explained.

"That's a specialty?"

"If someone has the final say, I will believe it."

Cut, the man laughed, and I knew that what he was thinking in his heart was that both the person who said and the person who believed in me were sick.

I lifted my bag: "I still have a long neck!" "Walk away.

Situations like this happen every day.

So every day there is a company, and I don't even go to the death!

I went home late every day, and every day after the interview, I went to the community of Yixu, and saw that his house was not lit at 12 o'clock and then came back. In order not to wake up Zhang Hengli, I went in lightly without turning on the light, always standing on tiptoe and walking on the ground almost with only my toes. Then just wash and go to sleep.

Zhang Hengli always likes to sleep on the sofa in the living room, he wants to look at me, in case there is any situation, he can appear as soon as possible. But his body and mind are in two different worlds, and after five seconds of falling down, he has already fallen asleep, and he can keep the same movement from sleep to wake.

One day I was in the elevator and suddenly remembered that I used to take the elevator with Yi Xu, he always pulled me to the far corner and wrapped his arms around me, I felt that no matter how crowded I was, it was safe. Thinking about it, the inner strength is gone. I opened the door of the house, changed into slippers and had just taken two steps when a dark shadow suddenly jumped up and slapped me like raindrops on my back, and I was beaten to my knees, my eyes overflowing with tears.

The light then turned on, and Zhang Hengli was flustered: "Oh, why are you, Xijia, oops, why don't you turn on the light, I slept in a daze, and I thought I was a thief, oh Xijia, did I do something wrong, is it my fault?" Did it hurt you? Are you hurt? Oh, why did you come back so late to scare me? ”

I didn't have the strength to stand up or blame him, and I woke him up once, so I crawled to my room on my knees. Zhang Hengli walked beside me: "Xijia, I didn't break you, oops, it's all my fault!" “

I comforted him while crawling: "I don't blame you, it's my fault, there are thousands of homes in Changsha, I just go back to my own home!" ”

After ten days, I decided to knock on the door of Yi Xu's house and ask their neighbors. I don't have an access card for their community, so I have to find a way to find someone with a card to take me in. In fact, I can climb over the wall, this height is not difficult for me, and there is no glass on the top of the wall, but I am afraid that if I am bumped into by someone, I will not have the face to see Yi Xu in the future.

When night fell, I finally waited for my chance. An old grandmother with her granddaughter is walking towards the gate. I've met them a few times and I'm sure they're from this neighborhood and it's time to go home, so it's a great opportunity for me!

I ran across the street and heard the little girl say in a childish voice, "Eggs are Eggs, Apples are Apples!" ”。 The old grandmother kept giving her a thumbs up.

"Hey, what a beautiful little princess! He also speaks English! "I greeted it warmly.

"Yes, kindergarten taught today." The old woman said with a smile.

"Auntie is learning English, should the little princess talk to Auntie?" I squatted in front of the little girl and said.

"Okay, okay!" Grandma said happily.

The little girl clapped her hands happily as well.

"Eggs are Eggs, apples are Apples, do you know what oranges are?"

"I don't know."

“Orange。”

“Or……… GE "The little girl imitated with her pink mouth open.

I slowed down and said it again. This time, the little girl imitated it decently.

"What are oranges?"

“Orange！”

"Yes!" I clapped my hands exaggeratedly, and her grandmother was even happier with the slap.

When I was in Hamburg, I had a neighbor who was also an alumnus and colleague named Soeren. Once, a guest came to his landlord's house and asked him to be a temporary tutor to help with math. In two minutes, he was fired by a 10-year-old Chinese kid.

The square of 2X minus 3X plus 1 equals 0, findX. The guy said to the kid, look, there's an X here, there's another one here, soyoucanfindtwoX! (So you can find two X's.) find: solve/find)

I am teaching this little girl English, although my scheming is not pure, at least I teach it right, and it is not ruined.

At least more forgiveness than Soeren, right?

Seeing us approaching the curfew, I picked up the little girl: "Awesome! Auntie will teach you another one, okay? “

"Good!" The little girl said.

"Banana is Banana!"

“Banana！”

"Hey, slow down!"

“Ba~na~na！”

At this time, the little girl's grandmother had already swiped the card, and the three of us entered the community smoothly.

"That's a good point!" I praised the little girl: "Let's review it again, what is a banana?" ”

“Banana！”

"Where's the orange?"

“Orange！”

We turned a corner, and I guess we were out of sight of the doorman. I put the little girl down, squatted down in front of her, and said, "You are really the smartest little friend my aunt has ever seen!" Auntie is going home now, and the next time we meet, I'll teach you a few more, okay? ”

"Good! Good! Her grandmother smiled and said, "Thank you, Auntie!" ”

"Thank you, Auntie!" The little girl said.

I turned a few corners and came to the building of Yi Xu's house. Sure enough, there was no one at Yi Xu's house, so he knocked on the door and asked a neighbor, and the other party said "I don't know" viciously and slammed the door shut. There was no one in the other homes on the same floor.

Yi Xu used to say that there is definitely a neighbor in their family who has a deep underground friendship with his mother, and he has been known by his mother when he comes home to sleep a few times late, and his mother is obviously on a business trip, and it must have been told by that person.

It seems that the neighbor is not at home either. But how do I know who that neighbor is? When will she return? What if you've already moved, or if it's later than easy to renew? Am I at all the place to do but wait?

I've decided to post a missing person poster.

The notice used a photo of the easy renewal ID card, which I used to take secretly. P dropped the ID number.

The content of the notice is: Yi Xu, I am Xijia, I am back, where are you?

The newspaper people looked at me strangely, because the photo of the ID card was so small that no one had ever done that. I don't have a serious photo, he is very reluctant to take pictures, the student ID card is squinted and crooked, that year he graduated with the tenth lowest grade in the grade, I saw with my own eyes that his head disappeared in an instant when the cameraman shouted "three". His high school graduation photo was a little better than his college, showing a forehead.

When the two of us first got together, I would also secretly photograph him, either blurred, or only the back, or he found out and deleted it. Later, I found out that he was really seriously disgusted with his appearance, so he no longer forced him to take pictures. In the past, when we hung out together, he was only a photographer.

Before deciding to report it, I thought about calling the police. But I'm afraid that Yi Xu's mother will think that I am an impulsive and extreme person, leaving a bad first impression. There is a proverb in German that says, Verpa?teGelegenheitenkommenwieder, au?erder, einengutenersten, Eindruckzumachen. Chances can be missed, mistakes can come again, but there is only one chance to make a good first impression.

I take this as the truth. Zhang Yi's pro, Zhang Hengli's cowardice, Yi Xu's perfection, and my landlord and neighbor in Germany - the uneasy FUNNY and the unreliable Soeren are all impressions established from the beginning, and they have not changed since.

The missing person notice, I don't expect Yi Xu to see it with my own eyes. I want one of his colleagues to see it and tell him. I believe he is just busy with something, his mother hasn't come home these days, it should be that the two mothers and sons are on a business trip together, it is estimated that the company has encountered a big problem, and they must be very busy. It's not easy for two people to carry a company, I should understand. Yi Xu suddenly canceled his plan to visit me in Germany last year because of work.

I just hope to be able to get in touch with him soon, to know that he's safe, and that he'll be back soon.