One day she wandered to a remote area, as if the family was fighting. The gray-haired instructor said that the family were some arrogant fools and fools, and the mercenaries were some lowly civilians, and neither side was a smart person, so they would only fight back and forth every day.

She watched the battle boredly, only to find a little girl thrown into a wolf pile by someone who looked like she was supposed to be her companion. The brown-haired girl didn't scream or cry, but was fighting and biting the wild wolves, she didn't think the little blonde girl standing with the bodyguards was boring, but the light in the eyes of the girl in the wolf pile moved her, so she picked her up.

But the girl wasn't very happy, she claimed that her name was Lillian, and that she needed to go back to her sister and her friends, so she took Lillian to see the people she knew before, and when she saw the blonde girl throw herself into the brown-haired boy's arms and cry, Lillian followed her.

They also went to see Lillian's sister, who had timidly followed the family they had seen that day, and seemed to be doing well, so Lillian didn't shout to go back.

Then they came to a town called Zant.

At night, there is a building that is particularly noticeable, and many men go there, and the building is divided into two buildings, left and right. She sensed a special aura inside, so she sneaked in with Lillian.

She saw a woman with long flaxen hair lying on her side on a chaise longue, and although she was talking softly to the man opposite, the woman's eyes and the corners of her mouth were full of deep disdain and arrogance.

There was an aura of attraction in the woman's body, and she could feel it, so she knocked the man unconscious—she couldn't just kill someone who wasn't on the list, it would cause trouble—and asked the woman if she would like to go with her.

Her name was Kewo - it was weird, Lillian said it was a bird name, why would humans have the same name as birds?

Kewo said he was willing to go with her, but wanted to take his brother with him.

She told Lillian to stay with Kowo, and then she followed Kowo's words to another building, where there were many men with beautiful faces. Then she found Kewo's brother, which was not difficult, and the two of them had a lot in common in their appearance.

Kewo's brother has an extraordinary affinity for animals, and she feels it. Then she took advantage of the fact that no one was paying attention to her brother.

So she took Kowo and her brother from the building, and they later changed their names to Ella and Pola.

She decided that this lineup was enough, and then went back to her life.

Then the three people she picked up were also dragged for experiments.

She felt a little sad, was that the person she picked up, but still had to bear those pains?

But the gray-haired man said that it was necessary, otherwise they would not have been her companions.

So she could only watch them from outside the glass every time to accept the pain.

Lillian has become a powerful warrior, her mana is infinitely close to zero, but her force is almost beyond the potential of the experimenters, much to their delight.

Liliane's hair turned a flame-red color, and her eyes turned a bright gold.

Ella and Bora seem to have fused into a connected pair of rays of light — well, she now knows, it's called a "gift" — the older sister is truly capable of summoning the spirits of all living objects, and the younger brother is capable of controlling animals and monsters.

Their hair turned red, as did their eyes.

They have been working together on tasks, and under their influence, she gradually understands what feelings are.

She felt sick again about killing.

But she had to do it.

They are tasked with assassinating important people in the family and mercenaries, and then disguise themselves as signs of the opposite faction.

And she gradually understood that this organization wanted to stir up trouble between the family and the mercenaries, and she didn't know why.

…… What she knew was that the gray-haired man's purpose didn't seem to be successfully achieved, and even though the relationship between the family and the mercenaries had always been tense, it seemed that they would give each other a little trust under the pressure of the church when it came to what was really important, so that they could not go to war with each other.

- Four years later, she was 16 years old.

She was already comfortable communicating with the elementals, and had them help her accomplish her goals.

One day, the wind elemental brought her a message.

The experimenters in the organization, and the gray-haired instructors, thought that the four of them were too powerful to control.

So in the next mission, after they complete the mission, they will be asked to kill each other.

…… She didn't want to accept that outcome.

The straightforward Lilian can always point out her shortcomings directly, and she has the most tacit understanding with herself when fighting. Ella is like an older sister who teaches her how to behave in the world. Bora is like a younger brother, he doesn't talk too much, but he will be quietly by her side to support her every decision.

She didn't want them to die.

And she didn't want her brother to die.

In order to cut down the grass and eradicate the roots, they will kill their younger brother as well.

This is a no-no.

In order to protect them, she wants to claim sovereignty.

She used the wind elemental to diffuse incapacitating drugs into the organization, and she and her companions, as well as her brother and his brother's companions, were taking the antidote ahead of time.

She allowed the water elemental to freeze everyone's body in place forever.

But only the gray-haired instructor, she has to kill it with her own hands.

Because it's her nightmare.

And the instructor was cursing her even before he died.

"Little 4, you're naïve. What if we die? Your nightmares will never end - the people you killed with your own hands will appear in your dreams every day to torment you, and your soul will never find peace. ”』

With a blank face, she ended the instructor's life with the scythe given to her by the instructor.

The so-called curse, after the curse person dies, will be useless at all, she knows.

— and yet she was wrong.

Even though the magic of the curse had failed, the damage to her soul inflicted on her by the gray-haired instructor tormented her every night, and the instructor's voice would always ring in her ears that would break her mind.

Rhine, we should do something.

Lillian said this, so the six of them began to travel around the continent.

By the way, the name Reins was also given to her by Lillian and Ella.

They knew that she had black hair and black eyes, and they guessed that she was originally from the eastern side of the continent. From that place, it was learned that the nameplate of her necklace was written "Yin", and she was No. 4, and it is said that in the same language and culture, "4" and "silk" are homophones.

So the name was finally finalized.

And the younger brother did not agree to let them name him, and he asked his companions to give him a name.

…… One day the younger brother had a quarrel with her, so the younger brother and his companion went somewhere else. The remaining four continued their journey.

She picked up Imi and Shuka next to a ruin.

Imy is cursed by the ruins, she will always live the same day, and Shuka is in pain for this, so he is always by her side.

This curse she could unravel, so she unraveled.

Then Imi and Shuka began to follow her.

Imi and Shuka are mercenaries, and it seems that they were once very famous mercenaries. But since Imi's curse, they haven't been seen in people's eyes for a long time, and everyone thinks they're dead.

She was suddenly inspired that they could form a mercenary group, and everyone approved of her.

One day, a man and a woman found them.

They looked to be about thirty years old, and they were supposed to be a couple. The man calls himself Kate and the woman calls herself Mette.

They said that she had Filly's acetoplasm in her body.

She didn't know what Philip was, but they said that Philip was the name of one of the sources of magic related to the origin of the world, and that inside her was the mother of Ottoprim, so they found her because they had another descendant of Etheroplasm in their body, and they could feel the same presence.

And as long as both parties want, she can let her partners have children as well, so that they will become a family.

A real family. This made her very excited.

None of the companions objected.

So they became a family.

Then the Fili Mercenary Regiment was born.

At the age of 17, Lillian wanted to sneak a peek at her sister.

Lilian's parents died when Liliane was a child, leaving her and her sister alone.

So she helped Lillian find out, but all she got was that Elianne had disappeared two years after Lillian's disappearance.

At that time, Lilian's expression was terrifying.

She thought about herself, if she left her brother alone in the organization, maybe she couldn't forgive herself.

But it is not difficult to find Elianne, and it can be found with Lilian's blood.

…… Then they found Elion and picked her up and took her back to the station.

…… When Elianne recovered, the color of her hair, which had been the same brown as her sister's, turned a snow-white color as if she had forgotten it along with her memories.

Over the years, she occasionally helped her brother clean up the mess, but her brother still refused to forgive her because she blamed her brother's partner.

But she just didn't like her brother's partner, and the man abducted her brother. She had to be critical every time they met, which made her brother even more angry, and he continued to run away from home.

Still, the younger brother took his partner and accepted her acetoplasmic offspring.

At the age of 20, she picked up her drugged twin siblings from a garbage dump. The siblings had soft, creamy yellow hair, and they looked to be only 10 years old. She thought that someone's children had been abducted, and wanted to send them back when they woke up. But instead they stayed by her side and refused to leave.

…… She went to check and found that the two children were deliberately abandoned just because they were never obedient at home, and even disgraced their eldest brother, the heir of that family, on important occasions.

But that's the family's fault, they never pay attention to the twins, they don't tell them that it's wrong to do so, they only scream and scold the two children, and the only purpose of these two children is to make the elders pay attention to them, and even such cruel beating and scolding is regarded by them as attention, so they will continue.

So she picked up the twins.

“…… So that's my past. Reins smiled, "I've never regretted meeting the Filis...... But some of them were dragged into hell by me. ”

She placed her hand on her chest.

"I can't even be called a normal human being." The corners of her mouth twitched slightly, "I have countless lives on my hands, and at the time I thought it was normal. ”

She stood up, not looking for any expression on Apaya's face.

"I think you should go back and think about it." She whispered, "I am a guilty murderer, and I am a person who has been fused with 'gifts', and I did have a time when I was controlled by a desire to kill. ”

Reins took a step back.

"Go back and think about it, right?" She turned her body back, her back to Apaya. She waited quietly for a while, and heard the sound of departing footsteps. She allowed herself to raise a smile, then let out a long exhale.

"See." She muttered in a low voice, "I don't even have tears, it's not that bad, is it?" ”