Hao Jiali was sulking at herself.

After being discharged from the hospital, she picked two basins of snail meat in the village stream, Hao Jiali tried everything she could to get the fish pond and fish pond down, and the paddy field was useless, and she was no different from a waste.

Until now, seeing that the money from selling snail meat at home can buy a bag of salt, buy a few vegetable seeds grown in the winter field, including Chinese cabbage, white radish, onion and garlic, mustard greens, kale, etc., after buying these seeds, the money in the pocket and the money jar can no longer take out a penny, and the rice in the rice bowl at home can be eaten for half a month at most, after this half a month, Hao Jiali knows that the three people in this family can only sit and wait to die.

Hao Jiali told herself that she couldn't just wait for death.

"I want to live, I want to live." Hao Jiali said to herself.

Also, Hao Jiali will not just give in and give up.

Whether Chen Qing and Cao Juying help or not is another matter, Hao Jiali herself also wants to have ambition and want to fight, over the years she feels that her mother, brother and Hao Jiali have troubled these two relatives enough, but she has never given these two relatives anything in return, only knows how to blindly ask for them, and now these two relatives are also fifty years old, Hao Jiali saw that her grandmother had a lot of gray hair on her head, and more and more this year.

Throughout the summer, at night, all the men and women in Hao Jiali's village sat on the village to cool off, and Hao Jiali would use a flashlight to help Cao Juying pull the white hair on her head.

Chen Qing is the same, his gray beard and hair grow prominently on Chen Qing's head and around his lips, Chen Qing sometimes jokes with Hao Jiali: "Lili! When you eat the food you earned by going to work in the production team, my uncle may be old and may no longer be in this world. ”

Hao Jiali comforted Chen Qing: "Uncle! Soon, I'll be growing up in a few years. Hao Jiali felt extremely guilty in her heart, her family had been so poor that she couldn't open the pot for so many years, where could she have money and food to be filial to these two relatives.

Especially now, the family has soon reached a situation where it is completely exhausted and difficult to move an inch.

In this situation, Hao Jiali's own ability will undoubtedly cut off all the family's financial resources.

This situation makes the burden of life all on the shoulders of my grandmother and uncle from now on.

Thinking of this, Hao Jiali felt ashamed, ashamed of her father's irresponsibility and the burden that this family had brought to these two relatives.

's father is a dignified man, but it is really in vain to be a man to leave his family to his parents and relatives to take responsibility, so Hao Jiali also began to think that no matter what, she must do her best to get out of the predicament by her own strength, and try to make less trouble and drag these two relatives down, so that she feels that she has done something for her father's unbearableness, or made up for something, and then made the hearts of these two relatives feel better.

Hao Jiali's ideas are good, but they backfired, during this time, Hao Jiali tried all her best to sell snails for money, but it didn't work, standing in the mud of the paddy field and thinking about these things, Hao Jiali was angry, Hao Jiali was angry that she was useless, and she was so angry that she bit her lips.

Thinking about the more difficult days of this family in the future, and seeing how the water boots as deep as the mud from the soles of the feet to the root of the thighs can't be lifted, and how can her legs not take a step, Hao Jiali is annoyed and irritable, standing in the paddy field, standing and standing Hao Jiali's temper suddenly exploded.

Hao Jiali's teeth loosened her biting lip, and then she shouted a few times with "ah", a long shout.

After shouting, Hao Jiali leaned down, put her hands in the mud of the paddy field, and quickly turned over the mud with ten fingers like a hoe turning over the ground, and shouted while turning Hao Jiali: "Tian Luo!" Snail! Where are you? You're all coming out for me! You all roll down to my feet, if you don't roll over, when I get you, believe it or not, I'll smash you with a hammer and don't even have the meat in the shell! ”

Hao Jiali puffed up her fingers like an animal digging a hole in the winter to turn over the mud in the paddy field under her feet into a pit the size of a bucket, but before she could finish her temper and lose her temper enough, Hao Jiali continued to widen the mud around the puddle without stopping, turning it over so that her hand could not reach the deep and far mud of the paddy field, and Hao Jiali stopped.

Hao Jiali gasped for breath as soon as she stopped, and then saw two lines of tears hanging on her cheeks like a beaded curtain, Hao Jiali wanted to cry, but she desperately endured it, and kept wiping the silent tears on her face with her hands and arms that were covered with mud, and rubbing her face into mud.

But this temper tantrum made Hao Jiali's psychological sullenness gradually dissipate.

After feeling a little better, Hao Jiali lowered her head, put the palm of her five fingers together into the paddy field, and then scooped the water from the paddy field and poured it on the back of her arm and hand covered with mud, washing away the gray mud on her hands little by little.

After washing her hands, Hao Jiali held the water from the paddy field with her palms and then washed her face, and then grabbed the mouth of the water boots on her feet with her hands that still had unwashed mud left between her fingernails and were washed in other places, and pulled the water boots out of the mud.

Hao Jiali planned to pull the water boots out of the mud with both hands by dragging the boots, and after pulling them out, Hao Jiali was ready to go ashore to give up the idea of picking snails in the paddy field, Hao Jiali knew that this road would not work, and she had to think of other ways.

Just when Hao Jiali lowered her head and grabbed the water boots to leave the water and pull up the mud surface, Hao Jiali felt that her eyes looking down were shaken by something in the mud pit she had just dug with her hands, Hao Jiali didn't see it clearly, Hao Jiali thought that the tears in her eyes were not wiped clean, and her vision was blurred, Hao Jiali hurriedly washed her hands twice more with the water in the field, and then picked up the corner of the coat she was wearing, wiped her eyes, and then looked into the mud puddle.

At this look, Hao Jiali saw that in the mud pit she had just dug, there were several loaches twisting their bodies and drilling between the mud around the mud pit, and their brown bodies were looming, and there were more than one.

Suddenly, Hao Jiali's head suddenly went blank, Hao Jiali sat down in the paddy field under her feet as if she had been evil, regardless of whether the water under her ass was cold, and the water boots on her feet were no longer erected in the mud because of this sitting, but also dumped in the paddy field like Hao Jiali's body, and immediately the water boots also entered the mud and water of the water boots.

Hao Jiali didn't feel cold at this time, and didn't say that she would go ashore immediately to change clothes and shoes because of the cold of the water and mud, but still stared at the loaches in the mud puddle with her eyes wide open and stared at it in a daze.

Hao Jiali saw these loaches freely shuttling in the mud puddle.

Hao Jiali didn't want to alarm these loaches.

Hao Jiali wants to take advantage of this time to see enough to be full,

Hao Jiali felt as if she would disappear in the blink of an eye.

If these loaches are gone.

Hao Jiali will be crazy, crazy, stupid.

They will throw these mud blanks into Java.

Or the mud can be carried ashore and piled on the ridges of the fields to be dried by the sun, and the farmers working in the fields will step on it ten or eight times, so that the mud will never be moistened by water again.

Also, Hao Jiali thinks that she can't see these loaches after a blink of an eye, Hao Jiali will pull out the straw stubble in the paddy field one by one, and then step into the mud with the roots of the stubble, so that the rice stubble rots and stinks in the mud, so that it can no longer germinate green shoots after the seedlings are harvested.

In short, Hao Jiali can't see these loaches anymore, and Hao Jiali can't wait to ruin all this under her feet.

Because Hao Jiali knows that she has finally found a way to really support her family, and this road is unimpeded, this road is spacious and bright, and this road is worth forever.