Chapter 23 The heart is more than enough, but the strength is not enough
Hao Jiali didn't go anywhere after being kicked out of the fish pond by the members of the production team who fed the fish grass, so she went directly to Chen Qing's house.
Hao Jiali complained to Chen Qing about what the production team members did in the fish pond today.
"Uncle! You must punish this person, this person has gone too far with me. Hao Jiali begged Chen Qing with some grievances.
"I didn't kill a single fish in the pond, but this man destroyed my nets, bamboo, and pushed me down the pond to drown me. Uncle! You have to talk about this production team, otherwise, next time I think of a good way to get into the water, I will definitely be troubled by this person. Hao Jiali truthfully reported to Chen Qing.
Then, Hao Jiali asked Chen Qing again for advice that he could not go to the fish pond in winter, and asked Chen Qing and his children to think about how to get snails from the fish pond to sell.
Hao Jiali has no other way, Hao Jiali's only way is to open the gap from the fish pond.
Chen Qing listened to Hao Jiali talk about the fish pond, and did not say anything or give Hao Jiali any reply, Chen Qing instead told Hao Jiali a bad news.
Chen Qing said: "Lili! The term of office of the uncle's production team captain has expired, and the list of new production team captains has been prepared. ”
Chen Qing said again: "Lili! The new captain of the production team is not related to you or has a reason, you have to weigh everything yourself, and if you poke the basket in the future, no one will help you clean it up. ”
As soon as Hao Jiali heard Chen Qing's words, she immediately cried in front of Chen Qing.
Hao Jiali knew that if the production team's fish pond didn't let her set foot in it, she would only stare at her mother and watch her younger brother starve to death, Hao Jiali was reluctant to let her mother and younger brother, these two people are Hao Jiali's relatives who have depended on each other since childhood.
In addition, Hao Jiali hasn't seen her father yet.
I haven't questioned my father yet.
has not yet spoken out in front of his father, asking his father to repay the family debt owed to this family.
And Hao Jiali herself can't die.
Hao Jiali wants to live, wants to study, wants to go to university, wants to go to the city, wants to see what kind of fancy world the city is, and wants to see what kind of temptation the city is, causing her father to never look back and no longer care about the life and death of these people in the countryside.
Hao Jiali thought about a lot of impossible things, but none of these things could be realized, at least even the way of life found from the fish pond of the production team was completely broken, and Hao Jiali felt that she was not qualified to talk about the future.
Chen Qing's words were like a blow to the head, which made Hao Jiali dizzy.
As soon as Chen Qing's words were finished, Hao Jiali sat on the threshold of Chen Qing's house and said anxiously while crying: "Uncle! What do you think I'm going to do? The family's money is running out, my father has no news, my mother's legs are like this, and my younger brother is still so young, is it really like my grandmother said that I have to beg to live, or I have to steal and rob to live, but this practice is shameful, I can't do it and I don't want to do it. ”
Chen Qing bit his lower lip tightly and couldn't say a word.
Hao Jiali's aunt accompanied her to tears.
Hao Jiali's cousins and cousins rolled up their sleeves indignantly and said, "Lili! If your father is in the country, and your father treats you like this, we will have to beat your father to cripple! It's a pity that your father doesn't even go back to his hometown to shake up a shadow all year round, and a few of our old watches just want to help you, but they are not enough to do it in a hurry. ”
Hao Jiali said to these old watches: "Cousin! Now is not the time for you to lecture my father, but how the three of my family can live, cousin! Can you help me again? If you don't help me, my whole family won't survive. Hao Jiali begged a few of her cousins.
Chen Qing waved his hand to Hao Jiali vigorously and said, "Lili! Not to mention, only three of your cousins and cousins have not started a family, and the other six have become families, they all have children of the same size as you who can't go to the production team to earn work to feed, and they don't have extra rations to help your family, and every time you help is the food saved by these three cousins and cousins who have not started a family, but this food is limited, and they can't draw too much out, they have to reserve food for the upcoming marriage or marriage to hold a banquet. ”
"And, Lili! If your family is a little bit of their help food can barely repay the starting point, now your family's expenses have no place to come from, and it is not you who have to support you, but your family of three. Chen Qing added.
Hao Jiali's old watches also shook their heads with Chen Qingzhi, their faces were incredible, and they sighed again and again, they all wanted Hao Jiali to figure out their own way, and they couldn't do anything about it.
Hao Jiali didn't expect to ask her uncle to help her punish the production team members of the fish pond, not only could she not help, but when she heard such bad news, Hao Jiali was desperate.
After sitting on the threshold of Chen Qing's house and crying, Hao Jiali left Chen Qing's house with a small basket of rice on her cheeks and unwiped tears.
On the stone road leading to Chen Qing's house, Hao Jiali walked and stopped, walked and stopped, didn't go far, stood in place and thought about the hopeless days in the future, Hao Jiali was so sad that the old tears did not dry, and new tears poured out of her eyes.
and Hao Jiali thought that her uncle would slowly stop helping her from now on, and panicked at this time, and wantonly attacked Hao Jiali's heart again and again, making Hao Jiali's little heart unbearable.
If it weren't on the road, if Hao Jiali was chopping wood on the mountain, there was no one on the mountain, and if there were some uneasy and well-meaning people in the production team on the road, Hao Jiali really wanted to open her throat and shout, cry, and vent, which was worth reducing the despair and panic in her heart.
But this is on the road, even if Hao Jiali can't control herself, Hao Jiali still has to endure it.
Hao Jiali has heard enough of the ridicule of some uneasy and well-meaning people in the production team on weekdays, Hao Jiali knows that these people will say that she has a father who makes a lot of money as a worker in the city and is so poor that she has no food to eat, let alone say that people don't believe it, even ghosts don't believe it, if she stands on the side of the road like this and cries, these people will definitely say that she is crying poor and pretending to be poor.
So Hao Jiali couldn't cry on the road like at her uncle's house, but Hao Jiali's eyes were blurred by rounds of new tears, and the tears made Hao Jiali unable to see clearly several times The protruding stones on the road tripped Hao Jiali to the ground, Hao Jiali endured the pain in her knees and got up, and then she didn't dare to walk on the spacious stone road, but walked from the uneven and barren grassy embankment of the village stream a few hundred meters away from the roadside.
Hao Jiali chose the embankment, and after walking a few steps, she was so sad that she sat on the embankment and cried loudly in despair.
Hao Jiali's cries spread over the endless fields around the stream.
The villagers of several villages near the edge of the field and the foot of the mountain ran out of the house when they heard Hao Jiali's cry, and looked at Hao Jiali from a distance in groups.
The sympathetic villagers couldn't help but say, "That's the child of the Hao Guang family, pitiful!" is so small, there is no food or drink, this Chen Qing is not the captain of the production team, and I don't know if the fish pond will be given to the child to get snails in the future, if not, Chen Feng's family will really not be able to live. ”
"Alas! Thinking about Chen Feng's family, a small cripple, he can't live for a hundred years and is still happy, you see that the child must be desperate to cry so sadly and suffer from sin. One of the villagers followed suit and said something heart-wrenching.